Daniel's POV
I know my friends are worried about me.
But I just haven't been in a social mood these days.
I have lost not only the first person I really loved, but the second as well. And to top it off, I never had the chance to really love her.
She never even knew!
What kind of person does that make me?
I mean am I this take charge kind of guy, going after what he wants in life?
Or do I get so wrapped up in my work, I lose all since of what is going on around me, including what's happening with me?
I don't think that I will ever find someone else. I don't know if I want to.
I have hurt more then enough people on this planet and across the galaxy.
I mean if I can be that self centered and forget about how others feel, what kind of husband would I make, father to a child?
Even my team mates, I am not sure how to act towards them any more.
Do they trust me? Can they rely on me when we are out there?
I know Teal'c has noticed me turning down team gatherings and Sam has said something to me as well.
What I am curious is, is that some sort of guilt trip that they are feeling or is it a true need to be around me?
I see how Sam and Jack are together now with Cassie, and its just not fair. Its not supposed to be that way, it was supposed to be Janet and me and Cassie…
As you can tell, yes I am a little jealous…it is not fair.
But life isn't fair, now is it?
The General has been putting me to work with other teams these days, which is fine by me.
I don't mind what happened to SG-1 and the changes that were made.
It just means that I get to do a lot more.
Think Jack and Sam deserve this little bit of happiness, and SG-1 is still here, we are just working under different circumstances.
Like I said, is a good thing.
Maybe I should have a get together at my place this weekend…
I miss my team, my family.
And that's who they are in the end. My family.
God I miss Janet.
I really need to think about how to change my way of life.
I am not looking for someone else, but I need to not feel so all alone.
I wanted to plan a life with her, to have her to come home to at night.
I know I never said anything, and that was one of the worst mistakes I ever made.
I will always remember her, and I have Cassie, well Cassie doesn't need much of anyone these days, except her friends, but that's typical 16yr old or so Sam says.
I can see a lot of Janet in Cassie.
God will I ever get out of this slump?
I know my friends are worried about me.
But I just haven't been in a social mood these days.
I have lost not only the first person I really loved, but the second as well. And to top it off, I never had the chance to really love her.
She never even knew!
What kind of person does that make me?
I mean am I this take charge kind of guy, going after what he wants in life?
Or do I get so wrapped up in my work, I lose all since of what is going on around me, including what's happening with me?
I don't think that I will ever find someone else. I don't know if I want to.
I have hurt more then enough people on this planet and across the galaxy.
I mean if I can be that self centered and forget about how others feel, what kind of husband would I make, father to a child?
Even my team mates, I am not sure how to act towards them any more.
Do they trust me? Can they rely on me when we are out there?
I know Teal'c has noticed me turning down team gatherings and Sam has said something to me as well.
What I am curious is, is that some sort of guilt trip that they are feeling or is it a true need to be around me?
I see how Sam and Jack are together now with Cassie, and its just not fair. Its not supposed to be that way, it was supposed to be Janet and me and Cassie…
As you can tell, yes I am a little jealous…it is not fair.
But life isn't fair, now is it?
The General has been putting me to work with other teams these days, which is fine by me.
I don't mind what happened to SG-1 and the changes that were made.
It just means that I get to do a lot more.
Think Jack and Sam deserve this little bit of happiness, and SG-1 is still here, we are just working under different circumstances.
Like I said, is a good thing.
Maybe I should have a get together at my place this weekend…
I miss my team, my family.
And that's who they are in the end. My family.
God I miss Janet.
I really need to think about how to change my way of life.
I am not looking for someone else, but I need to not feel so all alone.
I wanted to plan a life with her, to have her to come home to at night.
I know I never said anything, and that was one of the worst mistakes I ever made.
I will always remember her, and I have Cassie, well Cassie doesn't need much of anyone these days, except her friends, but that's typical 16yr old or so Sam says.
I can see a lot of Janet in Cassie.
God will I ever get out of this slump?