I can't believe it! A while ago I started writing the fourth chapter. I decided to get back to writing it this weekend because the stress of homework, track, school, finals, the school play, DRAMA, and a hella of a lot of other stuff had toned down for the moment. Well, the file has disappeared. It is no where on my computer, so I don't even have the past chapters! So I have to write this again. Anyways, I am so sorry for waiting so long to update. I love this story and would never abandon it. Sometimes it takes me a while to write, but I never abandon it. Okay, here we go! I do not own anything **sigh** and it sucks. I am sooooo sorry if this chapter isn't as good as the others. I am shaking on inspiration. Any ideas would be wonderful.

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(A/N: To refresh your memory Yusuke had just walked in when Hiei was attacking Kagome. Let's see what happens next.)

Kagome lay in Sesshomaru's arms.

'So, if I don't do anything, this wench id going to die, great!'

It was from loss of blood; the miko and the demon were sitting in a pool of hers. In battle, she had been wounded. Thank goodness Sesshomaru had been there. Of course, Inu-Yasha had gone off with Kikyouagain. Kagome had run off angry at the hanyou for, once again, abandoning them. Sesshomaru had followed her; for some reason, he felt as though he needed to protect her. It had been of an annoyance to him for a time now. There was something about this young miko that drew him to her. That in turn pissed him off. Why he was even following her, butthen Naraku had attacked catching her off guard. He had knocked her out and drove a blast of poison into her arm, ripping away the skin. Sesshomaru had stuck the other demon in time, stopping the attack. Naraku was able to escape, while Sesshomaru went to the wounded girl.

The lord of the Western Lands had been traveling with them for a little over a week now and this miko was only proving to be a great annoyance. He could leave her, just get up and walk awayand yet, he couldn't really.

Sesshomaru looked down at his own wound; Naraku had managed to give him. If only, he could give her some of his blood. It was a thought that might not work and this wench would die. But it was worth a shot. He shook the girl slightly.

"Wake up." His voice was its usual emotionless tone.

She slowly came into a semi-conscious state. Her eyes blinked open softly.

"SSesshomaru?!?!"

"HnWench, put your hand over my wound and yours. I am going to try to transfer my blood to you. You need to concentrate of this, or else there is now way it will work and you will die. Do you understand? If you don't concentrate you will die. Not that it would matter to me, but-" He noticed he was just babbling on and composed himself. "Listen, do you want to die?"

She looked him confused. Why was he trying to help her? What was The Lord of the Western Lands planning? Weakly, she lifted her hand over their arms. Sesshomaru could feel the miko's blood trying to purify him, an erotic sensation he had never felt before. It burned him with desire, a desire he loathed to acknowledge. He was torn by wanting to tear his hand off this wretched girl, while the other half knew he needed to save her life and desired to feel this longer. And so, he continued to keep his arm there, to save the young girl's life. Focusing all of his strength, he transferred some of his blood to her. She gasped as he released his grip. Everything seemed to fade away. Before she blacked out, she could feel the demonic power rushing through her. The demon leaned back in relief. Slowly he rose and lifted the miko into his arms. Then turning back for one last glance, he started walking towards the camp.

Upon receiving Sesshomaru's blood, she had obtained demonic energy as well. She was still human of course; no mistake about that, but in her flowed the same blood as the Lord of the Western Lands. A part of him was inside of her. So whatever was to happen, she would always have him with her.

"Yusuke, this is Kagome."

Kagome shook out of her thoughts. There was that boy who had come in, in the nick of time saving her from being torn to shreds by that hot headed demon. Hiei was it? He was cute as well. His hair was dark brown and slicked back. Unlike the other twohe was human. She nodded to him and he back to her. Then Yusuke turned back to Kurama.

"So why was this half naked girl in your room, with Hiei on top of her?"

Something seemed to click in Yusuke's head. He smugly looked over at Hiei.

"So, it was like that. I get you. Kurama ruined all of your fun, but I didn't think you liked humans? Hiei, this is a whole 'nother side of you I haven't seen before."

Hiei opened his eyes and stared at Yusuke.

"Baka, as if I would ever mate with a revolting creature like that." He pointed to the girl.

Kagome could feel her face blush from, embarrassment. How dare he say that?!?! This Yusuke was getting on her nerves as well, how dare he imply that she was going to sleep with HIM?!?! She had had enough of this harassment. Picking up her wet clothes, she stood and slipped her skirt up on to her. Next, she made her way for the door and opened it.

"Hey!"

"Hn"

"Where are you going?"

She looked back at them one last time and then slammed the door. Inside the room the boys looked at each other.

"What then hell happened to her?"

"I am not quite sure, should we go after?"

"Why? What is the point to it?"

"But none of our questions were answered."

"Do we really need to know the answers? More over, do you think she would tell us what we wanted to know?"

Kurama frowned. Hiei closed his eyes once more.

{I have a feeling we will meet again, wench. When we do, I will give you the same kindness you have shown me.}

Kagome ran down the stairs and stepped out to the cold night. It was still raining. Grumbling, she ran as fast as she could. She could hardly see, the rain was so thick, suddenly, she felt herself loosing her balance and falling on to the cold wet pavement below her. She lay there for a few moments, not thinking, not moving, The wind roared and once again she felt the cold grip of loneliness. Suddenly, she could feel herself being lifted up till she was standing. Turning around she felt her stomach plunge.

"Kagome"

That familiar voice pierced her ears more coldly than the rain. Slowly she found her voice. It was scratchy and shaking, but the words still formed.

"Inu-Yasha? What are you doing here?!"

The hanyou sighed, "I needed to talk to you." He looked around. "Can we go somewhere?"

She nodded. "My house."

With that, he lifted her up and took off at lightning speed.

"What are you doing?" she cried.

"It is faster this way."

"I guess so..." with that she succumb to him.

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Inu-Yasha opened the window and gently put the miko in. He followed in suit. There they sat in the little room. He could notice a change in it though, before it was filled with warmth and love, but it seemed dark and almost hollow now, like Kagome. She seemed to have changed so much, from when they had first met, to when he had chosen Kikyou to now, like completely different people. How could he have let this happen? He loved Kikyou and always would, but he did care for Kagome. The warmth she gave off, the calmness her smile brought, so much about her, he would never admit, but he missed. He had grown as well. The softness he had developed while traveling with their party had mostly faded. His eyes, once young and rich with life, seemed more sullen and dark now. He understood the world, and knew that sacrifices had to be made at times. He chose Kikyou, who he loved, he knew he loved her and that she was a strong woman who knew her place (AN: or that is what he believed, we all know Kikyou was the one in charge in that relationship). It had been a couple months after he had internal chosen Kikyou, when Kagome and his damn brother fell in love. Inu-Yasha hated his brother even more than he had before for what he did to this perfect blossom (AN: sorry, but of course he was clueless to any harm he had given her, kind of clueless, lol). Why of all people had Kagome chosen Sesshomaru? Did she really hate him that much? He had mostly wished she would never wed or mate. That she would always hold only him in her heart.

After a period in silence, he spoke up. "I am sorry."

She looked at him questionably, "For what?"

'Which really means which thing you have done that has hurt me are you sorry for?' she thought furiously.

""

Kagome caught her breath. Somehow hearing his name uttered by him hurt made it hurt so much more.

"I know how much you loved him, and-"

"No, Inu-Yasha, you don't" She was looking down, the hot tears were once again at her eyes. Biting back all of her pain, she looked him in the eyes. Somehow, he was able to see a small fraction of what she had been through, somehow her eyes told him.

"You cannot possibly conceive how much I loved him, how he helped to heal the deep wounds that you yourself inflicted upon me, how I imagined him to be my mate, how he died saving me, how I would have given anything for it to have been the other way around, how I had to go on living, even after all that" She looked down again. "You have no idea."

He walked over and sat next to the miko. Had he really hurt her? Had his decision to pick Kikyou, really caused her pain, and hadSesshomaru helped her heal? Had, at one time, Kagome loved him? No, that couldn't be true. Kagome was always yelling at him and causing his head hurt. Even if she had had feelings for him, it was no more than a silly school girl infatuation. What he and Kikyou had, yes, there was really love (AN: ::cough:: suuuuure).

"I guess I never understood what you felt for him"

He put his arm around her, and yet she flinched by his touch. He frowned but tried not to show it. He was making an attempt to comfort her and she couldn't even have him touch her. She wiped the tears away and pretended to smile pushing the dark memories to the back of her mind.

"So how have you been doing?"

"Feh, I've been fine, I guess you could say. Naraku is most likely dead. Everyone is all right, no one got badly injured in the fight-" He stopped, and looked at her. "I mean besides Sesshomaru" Once again she shuddered, turning away from him. "but Kagome the thing is," He paused, boy she was going to be pissed. "the Shikon No Tama has disappeared-"

She turned to face him, anger growing steadily in her face. "Is that why you came here? The jewel is missing? I tried to commit suicide and the one person I have ever truly loved and was going to spend the rest of my life with died and all you can care about is that stupid jewel? You were always like that, Inu-Yasha, this is why-" She cut herself off.

"Kagome, listen, the jewel holds a great amount of power, you know that, and if someone has it and uses it's powers for evil"

"HA! Inu-Yasha" She turned to the hanyou. "I have known you for quite sometime and I know you don't care about that. But I don't have it, if you were wondering, and I am not going back there to try and help you find it. You have no idea all the pain you have caused me, I am not willing to increase that."

"But what about all the innocent people-"

"Screw them! They need to defend themselves, they can't have some super hero come and save them for every little crisis."

Inu-Yasha just stared at her. She really had changed.

"Kagomewhat happened to you? Do you really not care about any of them, or Shippo and Sango and Miroku? What about them!? I can feel itsomething is coming, can't you?" He looked out the window. The rain had stopped, and the clouds were slowly parting to reveal the pearl moon. Kagome couldn't help but look at its mesmerizing light as well, the moon, Sesshomaru. God she was tired of crying. She had to just let it go, there was nothing she could do, or anyone could do. He was gone, forever.

"Kagome, come back, if only for them, they need you, and hell you didn't even say good-bye. I bet you were damn set on staying here, too."

"I can't stay for long, but I want to see them for a last time" She turned to the silent hanyou.

"Then you can look-"

"No!" She snapped at him. "I am not going to search for the jewel. I just want to see everyone for one last time. I am not sure when I can go, I have a lot of school work." She lied.

He scowled. 'This was all a waste, damn selfish bitch,'

"Finewe'll be at Kaede's village for a few more weeks. Do what you like"

She could see how he was holding back his temper. It was actually nice to see-

"Kikyou, has been working hard and needs a rest"

God he was always doing that. Suddenly, she remembered why she didn't care for him any longer.

"Whatever, you better get back to your precious Kikyou. I bet she is waiting for you." She said in her most pleasant voice, but he could detect the poison streaming in every word.

"Sure, see yah." With that, he leapt out the window and started down to the well.

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Okay let me explain, Kagome, though she loves Sesshomaru and will always love him more than anything, still remembers the pain Inu-Yasha caused and the love she had once felt for him, so she still gets angry when he mentions Kikyou. Okay there is a little IY/Kag fluff, but that is defiantly not going to be the pairing. I want IY to realize the mistake he made, but Kagome go with-

Hiei: shhh!

Me: oh yeah, never mind! And by the way, I don't hate Kikyou, so please don't review saying things like "You don't understand her!" and all of that. I do, but for the purpose of this story, she will be portrayed as demanding, even colder than usual and wellkinda evil. I am just writing this as I go, so neh! Sorry if this was short or what not. I thought it was an okay place to end it. I am open to ideas n.n. Please please review!