Songs from the Heart Series - All about our love
Summary: After Jack saves Sam from Ba'al they lose each other again? Will they find each other again? Will they make it back to earth and finally marry?
He came for me. Jack had found me and had saved me from Ba'al's torture. He saved me from becoming a host. When I scream out for him to help me, he was there. When Ba'al almost tricked me into thinking he was Jack, my Jack sang to me to prove who he was.
Now, I've lost him again. He had to be the hero and send me to safety when all I wanted to do was stay with him. When the hallway filled with debris from the attack, I felt my heart break. I wanted to start digging, to give him a way out, but Dad wouldn't let me.
Hearing him tell me to go, that he'd get to the gate, was so like Jack. I told him that I wouldn't leave without him, that I'd rather die then go, but he insisted.
The anguish of possibly losing Jack would be so much worse then the torture Ba'al had put me through.
My father grabbed me by the waist and started to pull me away. I was crying and screaming at him to let me go, that we couldn't leave him behind. He kept telling me that we had to go. I pulled away from him and pointed at the filled hallway.
"That is my life underneath that debris. Without him, I am nothing. Dad, please don't make me go. I'd rather die then live another day without him."
I could see Dad was torn and was about to relent when we heard Jack's voice on the communicator. He told Dad to get me out of there. He reminded Dad about a pact they had made and Jack said not to forget to give me his letter. Letter? I was confused as to why Jack would write me a letter. Then it finally dawned on me. The letter was in case he didn't make it. I started to shake my head no. Dad started to pull me away as Jack told my dad we had four minutes until the building would blow.
Dad handed me the letter and I grabbed the communicator. Dad wouldn't let it go and I yelled at him to give it to me. I had to tell Jack I wasn't going to leave him behind, that if it were him in the same position, he would be doing the same thing.
I heard Jack plead with me to go, that we only had four minutes and he would make it to the Gate. I knew he was just saying this to get me to go. I felt so helpless and pleaded with him not to leave me and to tell me what was in the letter. He didn't respond but I heard him call out Ferretti to get everyone home safely.
Selmac took over and told me that we had to go now.
"When he gets back to Earth and finds you did not go like he asked, then all of this will have been for nothing. Come with me, Samantha, your father needs your help. He is deeply injured and needs medical attention, as you do. Please come now. We have little time to get to safety."
I looked at Dad. He had been injured badly by Ba'al. I held back my tears. He looked so worn out and Selmac was right, I had to get him out of there. Dad came back and pleaded with me that we didn't have a lot of time. I put my arm around his waist and started towards the exit. I turned around one last time and said a prayer that Jack would make it to the Gate and back to me.
We made it outside and hid in the shadows. Ba'al's and Yu's Jaffa were fighting all around us. The compound was about to blow. We had to get away and make it to the edge of the forest. I called Ferretti on the communicator and told him we were clear of the building. He yelled to take cover. The charges were about to go off in the prison.
The explosion was massive the ground shook and debris started to fall from the sky. Ferretti radioed us and I told him we were safe, but I needed help. I could not carry Dad all the way back to the ships with my injuries. He said he and Bra'tac would come to our aid. He asked if Dad was conscious and I handed him the communicator.
We were to make our way to the cave they had used to change into there disguises and wait for them. I asked Dad if it was far. He said no, and he could probably make it.
Ferretti came back on the communicator. "Colonel Carter. There's a lot of Jaffa out there looking for us. So stay low. We'll be there shortly."
We started to make our way to the cave. My mind was on Jack. Did he make it out of the compound? Was he safe? I pushed those doubts out of my mind. If he said he'd get to the Gate, then it was as good as done.
Yu's forces were doing a number on Ba'al's outer buildings that surrounded the prison. I could see the gliders coming in and firing at anything that wasn't already burning. Dad asked if we could stop and I told him we had to keep moving. He said he didn't think he could go on. I asked him how much further the caves were and he stopped and looked around.
He pointed to a large tree and what looked like a large boulder. The tree hid the entrance to the cave. I helped him inside. He started to lose consciousness as soon as we got inside the cave. His weight was too much for me. He started to slip from my grasp and I ended up falling down to the ground with him.
We had been running on adrenaline and it had taken finally taken its toll on my dad. I turned him over and put his head on my lap. I ripped a piece of my robe and started to clean up the cut on his forehead.
I was also starting to feel the pain all over my body. I looked down at myself and saw that the robe had blood all over it. My face felt swollen and my lip was cut. I remembered my back and the torture with the acid, and it started to sting. I tried to slip the robe off, but each time I moved, it felt like a torch was touching my back.
I was starting to get dizzy and nauseous again. The side effects of the sarcophagus. It was the only logically reason. I closed my eyes, but remembered I had to stay conscious. I had to wait for our help.
I looked at the letter that was still in my hand and let out a sob. What was in it? I was afraid to open it because it might be Jack telling me goodbye. I put it down next to me and tried not to cry. Was it Jack telling me he loved me and he was sorry it ended like this? I was about to rip it apart when I heard a noise. I stood still and held my breath. I looked for a weapon to defend us. I had found a pack with a gun but no extra ammunition. I was in no shape to fight hand to hand. I got up and moved Dad off my lap and dragged him to the back of the cave. I covered him up with the SGC uniforms and turned to face my enemy.
I could hear Jaffa outside the cave, speaking in Gou'ald. I heard 3 voices. I looked around for something else to use as a weapon, but found nothing. I crept to the front of the cave. If I was caught, I had to make sure Dad would not be taken. I saw a shadow coming towards the cave. I hid behind a rock and prepared myself for a fight.
The first jaffa fell easily. I tried to move back, but was pinned down. The remaining Jaffa where firing relentlessly into the cave. I felt the shrapnel of the rocks falling down on me from above. I tried to cover up as much as possible, but it was to late. I let out a cry when one piece sliced my cheek.
The firing stopped. I looked up to see a Jaffa with a staff weapon pointed at me. He must have thought I was dead because of the stunned expression on his face when I pulled out my gun and began to fire. I hit him and he fell forward on top of me. His weight had pinning me down. I had to get him off of me, but he was so heavy. I started to panic; the more I tried pushing him off me, the heavier he became.
I was trapped and couldn't move. The pain from my back was making it unbearable. I started to have trouble breathing. I had to get up and protect Dad, but the more I struggled, the weaker I got. I was about to lose consciousness when I heard more firing outside of the cave. A wave of relief over came me. It had to be Ferretti and Bra'tac. I almost passed out when the firing stopped.
I heard footsteps and I tried to see over the Jaffa on top of me, but couldn't. I waited to see who it was. Finally, the Jaffa was pulled off me and I could breathe. I tried focused to see who it was and suddenly let out a cry
Jack?
There he stood in front of me with his weapon and in full Jaffa armor.
He crouched in front of me and took my hands and whispered my name. I kept blinking to make sure he was real. He cupped my face in his hands and I closed my eyes when I felt his hands caress my face. Tears were steaming down my face. Was it really him or was my mind playing another trick on me.
He was about to say something when a staff blast came close to striking him down. I screamed and he pulled me with him to the other side of the cave. I ducked for cover and called out to him. When he didn't answer, I turned to find he had been knocked unconscious. I reached over and grabbed his P-90. I was going to defend us as best as I could.
I could hear more Jaffa approaching and I lifted the gun, ready to shoot. My hands were shaking and the pain I was feeling was making it difficult for me to focus. Jack started to regain consciousness. He looked over at me as I held his gun, ready to fight. He got up slowly and came next to me and pulled out his Zat.
I turned and stared at him. He came close to me and kissed me softly on the lips. I let out a whimper, wanting to taste him to reassure me that he was truly there. He smiled and came closer to me.
"I told you I'd find a way out. Now remind me to tell the preacher when he gives us our vows to emphasize the obey part, because you seem to have a problem with that."
I let out a little a laugh, but stopped when we heard noise from outside.
I turned and prepared to fight. He came close to my ear.
"Have I told you that I love you Sam, and no one can ever keep us apart. I'd walk through Hell and back to save you."
I turned and was about to say something when he put his finger to my lips.
"I can't wait to get off this god forsaken rock to marry you and make my life complete. Now, steady with those hands and let's give these guys hell."
I nodded and kissed his finger and turned around with a new purpose to get home and finally marry this man.
They came at us and we defended our position. I ran out of ammunition and Jack pulled me behind him and pushed me up against the wall to protect me. The firing stopped and they called out to us to surrender, that we were surrounded. He turned around and I told him that Ferretti and Bra'tac should be here any moment, that we had to hold them off till then. He nodded and kissed me again. Jack turned and pushed me up against the wall again, grabbing my hand at the same time and gave it a squeeze. I placed my other hand on his back and we crouched down, ready for the onslaught.
It turned out to be unnecessary. Ferretti and his team came along with Bra'tac's team. They surprised the Jaffa and were able to fight them off. We heard the firefight from inside and waited to hear from Ferretti. He finally called on the communicator to inform us that the Jaffa had been taken care of and that they would be coming into the cave.
I closed my eyes and leaned into Jack. He turned and took me into his arms and helped me sit down. Jack stood and Ferretti came in to update him on what had been going on. I pulled my legs up to my chin and remembered Dad. I had to go check on him; he needed medical attention. I stood up quickly and started to feel dizzy. I was about to fall when Jack caught me.
"Sam! What's the matter?"
I tried to pull away but he held me. I pointed to the back of the cave and told him Dad was back there.
Bra'tac heard me and said he would attend to him. Ferretti went back to the front of the cave to get the medic and to give his team instructions. His team had insisted on coming along to make sure I got back safely. They had promised Jack to bring me home.
I was still in Jack's arms. I pulled him close and just inhaled. He smelled of sweat, blood, grime and Jack. I held on to him tightly not wanting to let go. He just held me and I could feel the tension leaving his body. I pulled back and looked into his eyes. There were tears waiting to fall.
I asked him if he was hurt, but he didn't answer. I cupped his face with my hand. I was here and I was safe, thanks to him.
He let out a small cry and pulled me to him and started to kiss me everywhere, saying things that I couldn't understand, but I knew what he was trying to say. Tears ran down my face. The cut on my cheek started to sting but I didn't care. I was where I belonged, with the man that I loved.
We had been through Hell, faced the devil and had survived. My back started to sting again. I tried to pull away but was so tired. I was no longer running on adrenaline. I leaned into his shoulder, whispered his name and then passed out.
I heard voices and someone was holding my hand. I was afraid to open my eyes. What if this was another dream? Maybe I didn't escape. What if I opened my eyes and saw Ba'al peering down at me with that evil smile. I shuddered and felt ready to throw up. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes.
There he was, with a worried frown on his face, telling me to stay with him. Jack yelled for the medic to come over. He kept talking to me.
"Sam? Sam, honey wake up. I need to see those baby blues. Come on sweetie, stay conscious. Take deep breaths and say something. You're giving me more gray hair."
I smiled at him and took in my surroundings. My head was on Jack's lap. I was turned on my side so my back didn't touch the floor. I stared up at him and whispered, "you came for me."
He smiled and let out the breath he'd been holding.
He bent down to me in his lap and whispered in my ear. "You have no idea what I've been through these last few days. I was running around with this hole in my heart wondering if I would ever see you again. Promise me you will never do this to me again Sam, I don't think my heart can take any more."
The medic came over and asked Jack if he could check me out. He nodded yes. The medic's name was Lt. Phillips. He asked me where I hurt. I looked at Jack and then him and said I was just a little banged up.
Jack instructed the medic to check my back. I stared up at him and he said he knew what had happened to me.
"Your back has to be burning, Sam. Remember, I went through the same thing. Let Phillips do his job. We have to get moving and I need you to stay awake. That's an order." "You can't give me an order. You're a civilian, so stop bossing me around. I don't have to listen to you."
Ferretti heard me. "That's not true Colonel. You're going to have to salute him. He's a general now."
I looked at Ferretti and then back to Jack and could see he was uncomfortable. What did I miss?
I was about to ask when Phillips asked me if he could check my back. I nodded yes. He said he'd have to cut the robe I was wearing. I was going to need something to wear. Jack asked Ferretti to get a T-shirt.
Ferretti responded. "Sir, can we change out of this armor? It's cumbersome and I just don't like being dressed like this."
"Negative, Ferretti. We're going to have to blend in with those Jaffa out there. We'll stick out like sore thumbs if we're in our BDU's."
Ferretti went to retrieve the shirt and the medic started to work on the burns. I bit my lip so I wouldn't cry out, but I couldn't bear the pain.
I whispered to Phillips. "Could I have something to knock me out? I can't bear the pain. Please, anything. Morphine, Demoral...anything, it hurts."
Phillips stopped and apologized for hurting me. He said he'd get me something for the pain.
Jack was talking to Ferretti and took the shirt he held out to him. Phillips prepared the syringe and I waited for him to inject me. He was about to put it in my arm when Jack saw what he was doing and yelled at him, batting his hand and sending the syringe to the other side of the cave.
Jack then asked what the hell was he doing. I started to get up and move away from Jack. I had never seen him so angry. He looked like he wanted to kill him with his bare hands. Why didn't he want me to have something for my pain? I was trying to get up and Jack pushed me down. He accidentally touched my back and I let out a scream. I pushed him aside and went and grabbed his Zat.
This wasn't Jack. Jack would help me, not hurt me. He would do something for the pain. I let out a cry and started to yell no. It was Ba'al playing with my mind. I wanted to shoot him.
Everyone stood back. I was pointing the Zat at Jack, yelling at him that he wasn't real, that my Jack would do something to help with my pain. Ferretti grabbed Phillips and asked what had been in the syringe. Phillips denied that he had injected me with anything, that Jack had batted it out of his hands before he had a chance to give me anything.
Everyone had come close and I told them to get back. My back was burning and it was hard for me to keep the tears from falling.
Bra'tac had brought Dad over to see what was going on when he saw me holding the Zat on Jack. He asked me what I was doing.
"He's not Jack, so you're not Dad. None of you are here. This is another trick. Stay back or I swear to God I will shoot you."
Jack told everyone to step back from me. Ferretti grabbed Phillips and made their way back to the cave opening. Bra'tac held his hands up and moved back, but Dad refused.
"Sammie, it's us. This is not a trick. That's really Jack and I'm me. Do you want to speak to Selmac? Come on honey, put down the Zat. You're not thinking straight."
I nodded no. "He doesn't want me to take anything for the pain. I'm hurting and he stopped the medic from helping me. My Jack wouldn't have done that."
Jack came closer to me and said that there was a reason why he didn't want me to take any medications.
"Sam, do you trust me? Ask me something only you and I would know. The song I sang to you when I proposed to you on your birthday. The song we danced to in the ballroom when we went to look at the chapel. The song you sang to me in the elevator or the message you left me on my phone. I know them all, Sam. Please put the Zat down and I'll explain everything.
I refused and I asked him a simple question. What was inscribed inside my engagement ring?
He smiled and came close. Reaching into his Jaffa armor, he pulled out his tags. My ring was hanging off the chain. He unhooked it and took my ring off the chain. He took my hand and placed it on my finger and whispered. "My Light, My Love, My Life, now and always, Jack".
I closed my eyes and handed him the Zat. He gave it to Dad and sat me down. I looked at my ring and started to shake. I was hot and thirsty. He placed his hand on my forehead.
"You have a fever. We have to get back to the ship and get you home. Sam, did your dad give you my letter? Did you read it? It explains everything."
I pulled out the letter from my pocket and waved it at him.
"You mean your good-bye letter? No Jack, I didn't read it because I wasn't going to accept anything that you wrote to me. You think I would accept this and walk away from you. Well, you were wrong."
I could feel the fever starting to take over. I was burning up and my hands were still shaking. Jack yelled for Ferretti to bring the medic with him and told me to calm down and he would explain what was in the letter.
I told him he didn't have to explain what was in the letter. I was not going to read it because there would not be any need to.
Jack said to let him explain what was in the letter. But I yelled at him to stop with the letter. We had both survived, so there was no need to say anything. Jack was still trying to calm me down when Ferretti and Phillips came upon us arguing. Ferretti cleared his throat.
"Ah Colonel, I don't think that's a good idea, arguing with a General. Granted, you're going to marry the guy, but I think you should watch what you're saying."
I stopped yelling at Jack. "General? What are you talking about, Ferretti? Jack's not a general; he's a civilian. You guys are confusing me. My back is hurting and I'm hot and thirsty and you guys are giving me a headache. Jack, what's going on?"
Jack put his hands behind his back and said he needed to talk to me in private. Dad rolled his eyes and walked to the back of the cave to rest. Ferretti gave Jack his canteen and grabbed the medic and started to walk away.
I waited and Jack started to tell me what had happen back at home. He handed me the canteen and held my hand and told me he had received my call singing to him and that he had called me back and done the same. He then grew quiet and recounted the way he and Dad had found out about the Tok'ra base being attacked, and that Teal'c and I had been taken. He said they left Washington soon after and when they got to the base, General Hammond had informed him that he was not allowed to go after me because he was a civilian.
I gasped and felt his pain. What he must have gone through. He told me Major Davis had pulled some strings and if he re-enlisted he would be allowed to come and get me. He told me what Kinsey had insisted on, that he could not be re-assigned to the SGC after we came back but said that Davis and General Hammond were working on it.
"You re-enlisted? For how long? Oh Jack, it's my fault. If I would have listened to you and not gone off world, this would not have happen. What if they can't help and they send you somewhere far away from me? No, they can't do that. They owe us for so much."
He said it didn't matter as long as I was safe. They could send him to Antarctica. He kissed me. I leaned into him as he told me the rest. I had forgotten about Daniel and asked Jack if he was alright. Jack reassured me that he was well, but things had been critical for a while. He told me about Janet's breakdown and I squeezed his hand, wondering how this man had juggled so many duties and still stayed sane.
"Sam, there was a reason for that letter. But I am happy that I get to tell you in person."
I stopped him. "Enough with this letter, Jack. We're alive; it doesn't matter." I tore the letter in half, telling him that I knew he loved me and that I loved him too.
He pulled me close and let out a groan. He started to kiss me and I could see that he was barely holding himself together. He kept whispering how scared he had been, that he couldn't imagine life without me. He said if I had been lost to him that his life would mean nothing. He also told me how he had faced our wedding day alone in my lab, trying not to lose faith. He never wanted to experience that type of raw pain ever again. He then said his life would be nothing without me, that I had given him another chance at love and he would rather die then live another day without me. He had prayed for the opportunity to tell me he loved me one more time.
I put my hand on his mouth to stop him from speaking anymore.
"Nothing, and I mean nothing, will ever keep us apart, Jack. So you don't have to put it in words. I know."
I pulled him close and I could feel his tears as I came close to his ear and started to sing to him.
It's all about our love
so shall it be forever
never ending
after all this time
after all is said and done
we have seen some
suffering baby
it has not always been perfect
after all this time
after all is said and done
darling we know it
whatever may come
we can get through it
as if it's just begun
oh it's just begun
it's all about our love
so shall it be forever
never ending
darling we know it
after all this time
after all is said and done
after all this time
after all is said and done
He hugged me carefully I told him that I had sung to him in my mind to take me away from the horror of the torture. I explained to him how Teal'c had taught me to go into my subconscious and to block out the pain.
He told me that he had sung to me so many times and he pulled out the picture I had in my locker. It was wrinkled and was tearing at the ends. He said that's what kept him going, looking at me in this picture, happy and smiling.
"I wanted to see you smile like you did that night, Sam. It was the thing that was driving me and also what I had written in that letter."
I tried to understand what he was trying to tell me.
"Sam, do you remember I asked you to get checked out by Janet? Well, she found something."
I could see Jack tearing up. I asked if it was bad news.
He tried to smile and said no, that it was good news. He put his hand on my heart and then started to say how much this was going to change our lives and was the reason he wanted me to survive.
"Sam, you made me the happiest man alive on earth when you agreed to be my wife. I never thought anything would top that day, but something did. The day Janet told me you were going to have our baby."
I looked at him and put my hand to my mouth. His hand took mine and placed it on my stomach.
I whispered in shock. "Our baby? Jack, our baby? Are you sure?"
He nodded and told me poor Janet's dilemma and how he had jumped to conclusions and what his reaction had been when Janet had told him.
"No one knows but Janet, General Hammond and I. That's why I wrote the letter. If something had happen to me, I wanted to be the one to tell you about the baby. Your dad doesn't even know."
I was overwhelmed. I was going to be a mother. The letter I had ripped in two I picked up and put it in my pocket.
We were going to be parents. I had a million things going on in my mind but they all came to a stop. I paled and went cold.
Jack asked me what was wrong. I tried to speak to him. I started to moan. Jack kept asking me what was wrong and all I could say was that I had been put in the sarcophagus three times.
"Jack, do you think it harmed the baby? What if it did something to it? Oh Jack, what have I done?"
I was crying and having trouble breathing. Jack tried to calm me down, that we'd have to find out from my dad if there would be any ill effect of me being in the sarcophagus. I was making myself sick with fear and called out to Selmac. I needed to know if I had done any harm to my baby.
Dad came along with everyone else.
"Sammie, what's wrong? Jack, what did you do to her? Honey, breath. Do you want something to calm you down?"
We both yelled no and my dad jumped back. I wiped my tears and held Jack's hand. Jack came close and whispered that we should tell them.
"Sammie, tell us what? What's wrong? I don't want you to cry anymore."
We smiled at one another and Jack asked if I wanted to have the honor.
I nodded yes and told them all to come closer. I said that we had wonderful news and I apologized to the medic for Jack.
"He was only protecting me since I didn't know that I was carrying our baby."
Jack squeezed my hand and we both looked at Dad. He was speechless and looked like he was going to pass out. I went up to him and called out to him. He was about to give me a hug when Jack stepped in and reminded him about my back. With all that had been going on, I had forgotten. He cupped my face and kissed me and asked if I was sure and Jack nodded. He smiled and tears were falling from his face.
He came up to Jack and said since he couldn't hug his daughter, he would have to do. Ferretti and his team were smiling and offered us congratulations. Bra'tac came up to me and lifted my chin and said that we would be blessed with a fine child, one that would be a brave warrior and have a pure heart. I pulled him closed and kissed his cheek. I thanked them all for their good wishes and asked if I could speak to Dad. Dad was still speechless and Selmac took over. She offered her congratulations and how happy she was that she would be a part of this experience. I tried to smile, but tears started to fall. She asked what was wrong.
I tried to speak and found it difficult. Jack left Ferretti and his team and came over to me and pulled me close. He told Selmac of my concerns.
Dad came back. "Sammie, honey. Selmac tells me that there shouldn't be any ill effect on you or the baby. You might have symptoms of withdrawal, but that's about it. You and the baby will be alright. So stop worrying."
I hugged Dad and went back to Jack. I asked him how he felt about being a father again. He said there were no words to describe what he was feeling, that when he found out he was both ecstatic and scared, especially knowing where I was.
Phillips asked if he could attend to my back. I said it would be fine, but no pain meds were needed. He sprayed my back with something to ease the pain and did his best in bandaging them up. Jack held my hand and talked to me, trying to take my mind off the pain. He was whispering the songs he said he sang to me while I had been gone. They helped and I was becoming tired.
Philips said he was done and Jack helped me into the T-shirt. Philips then worked on the gash on my forehead and then cleaned up my cheek. I was lost in thought and had my hand on my stomach. Jack was talking to Ferretti to get a briefing off the situation outside. Dad came to sit next to me and Selmac started to speak.
"Samantha, your father is, how do you say, on cloud nine right now. He was very distressed when you were captured. He blamed himself. He never trusted Vahe' but was overruled by the Tok'ra council. General O'Neill has helped him get through his darkest days. I see now what makes him so special and why you care deeply for him. He would do anything for those he loves and I have witnessed this first hand."
Jack came back to asked if we were ready to go. He said that the ships had departed because they were being fired upon.
He said we had to make it to the Gate, that it was our best chance. Ray'ac and Rac'nor would try to come back and help, but Bra'tac was against that.
"So we make it to the gate, dial home and get off this rock?"
Jack smiled. "That's the plan and then we finally tie the knot. You're not getting off the hook. As soon as we get back, we're getting hitched and that's an order, Colonel."
He helped me up. "Undomesticated equines could not stop us."
He laughed and we walked to the front of the cave. I asked how Teal'c was. Ferretti said he had to literally have four Jaffa keep him on the ship, saying he had been insisting to come along, that I was his responsibility.
"Colonel, he didn't quiet down till I told him that I guaranteed him that I would get both of you back in one piece."
Ferretti had sent out two people and they had contacted us, saying that most of the fighting had moved from the Gate and only a couple of guards were there. We decided that this was the time to make our move.
Jack grabbed my hand and made me promise not to leave his side and if things got hairy, that I was to listen to his orders and not question him.
"Remember, you are caring precious cargo and I don't want to have to worry about you not following orders, so please listen to me and do as I say."
I saluted him but chimed in that if he thought he was going to get rid of me that easily, he had another thing coming. We either made it off the rock together or not at all.
"Jack, you know we couldn't function without one another, so don't ask me to leave you. Court Martial me if you have to, but I wont leave you."
We started to make our way to the Gate. Everything was going according to plan. We had to fight off some Jaffa, but the skirmishes ended before they began. We could see the Gate and I sent out a prayer that this nightmare would be almost over. Jack pulled out his GDO and handed it to me. Jack gave Ferretti the signal to get his team to start the dialing of the gate. Lt. Phillips started to press the symbols on the DHD when he was fired upon. He hid behind the DHD and we began to give him cover. Bra'tac had overpowered two of the Jaffa that were hidden and the others were killed by Dad and Jack.
Phillips started to dial again and we waited for the Gate to open. I never knew how happy hearing that familiar sound would make me feel. Jack helped me up and said we were almost home.
Ferretti's team was keeping an eye on things while we came out to walk towards the Gate. Dad was being helped by Bra'tac.
We were almost up the steps when Ferretti yelled for us to get down. I turned in time to see Ba'al and Vahe' coming with four Jaffa's firing their staff weapon's. Jack grabbed me and pulled me out of the way to behind a boulder.
Bra'tac tried to push Dad down but was too late. Dad was hit on the side and had gone down. I yelled and tried to go to him but Jack pulled me back. He kept yelling at me to stay put, that there was too much going on.
We heard Ba'al yell out to us that he would kill us one by one for destroying his new base and for bringing Yu.
I wanted to help my father. But each time I tried to go to him, Jack pulled me back and said no. Two of Ferretti's men went down. Jack said that I had to stay there, that they needed to keep the gate open for us to get through. He grabbed his P-90 and started to fire against the remaining Jaffa.
I looked over and saw Ferretti was fighting against Vahe hand to hand. He must have lost his ribbon device. I looked to see if I could find. It had fallen off his hand and was close to where they were battling it out.
I started to crawl to it, hoping I'd get there before Jack found out what I was doing. I had almost made it when I heard a nightmare speak to me.
"I knew you couldn't resist coming out of your hiding place, Samantha. That's why I had Vahe' leave his ribbon device for you to see. You Tauri' are so predictable. Your feeble attempt to escape your destiny has failed."
I let out a cry and turned to face my captor. He was smiling and I started to back away. I had to get to the ribbon device; it was my only hope.
I tried reaching for it, but Ba'al was too quick. He grabbed my shoulder and I let out a scream. He had touched my back and the pain was unbearable.
I heard Jack scream no. I turned to see him running towards us. Ba'al laughed and started to raise his hand.
He told Jack to stop or he would end my life there and now. Jack stopped and held his weapon up at him. I moved slowly away. Ba'al was to occupied in taunting Jack. I moved until I felt the ribbon device by my hand. I grabbed it and put it on.
I pulled all my anger and hatred I had towards Ba'al and raised my hand. I let out a cry and diverted it all at him.
He was taken by surprise. He was thrown to the other side with such force the tree he hit shook.
I lowered my hand and was about to pass out when Jack caught me. He was yelling at me, asking when would I ever listen to him. He picked me up and started back towards the Gate. I tried to pull away, saying I wanted him dead, to please let me finish the job. Jack wouldn't hear it. He said he'd had enough of this place and it was time to go. Ferretti yelled that we had to go.
Bra'tac had picked up Dad and was carrying him over his shoulder. Ferretti was helping Phillips, who had been injured. Jack asked what had happened to Vahe' and Ferretti said that he stopped fighting when he heard his master cry out in pain and went to save him.
The gate had been disengaged during the fighting. Phillips went over to re- dial Earth. I handed Jack's GDO to him and the gate was activated. Bra'tac took Dad through. Phillips picked up one of his teammates. Jack put me down and said he'd cover me. I nodded my head no and started to pull him with me to the gate. Ferretti said he'd cover when we heard a shot.
Jack stopped and looked at me and started to fall forward. I tried to catch him but only stopped his fall. Ferretti turned and was about to fire when he went down.
I turned to see who was shooting. It was Vahe' and he had picked up a handgun and was shooting.
"You have killed my master and now I will kill you."
I pushed Jack aside and said, "You have ruined enough lives. You love your god so much, let me send you to him in Hell."
I still had the ribbon device and all my anguish and pain of seeing Jack shot was directed towards the man that had done it. I raised my hand and sent him flying towards Ba'al. He landed with a thud and did not move. I turned back to Jack and saw the damage Vahe' had done.
He had shot him in the back and blood was beginning to ooze out. Ferretti was also shot in the back but had remained conscious. I turned Jack over and started to pull him towards the gate. I heard Jaffa armor we had to get back home. Ferretti had managed to get himself up and had grabbed Jack's other arm and was helping me pull.
We made it to the top step when staff weapons started to whiz by us. We had to go. With one last pull we fell through the gate.
We landed on the ramp. Ferretti was yelling for a medic and to close the iris. I crawled over to Jack and listened to see if he was breathing. He opened his eyes when I called to him and asked if I was okay. I nodded yes and he asked if we were home. I nodded again. He grabbed my hand and whispered he loved me closed his eyes.
Janet had made her way to the Gateroom as did Daniel and Dr. Warner. I put my head on his chest and passed out.
We were home.
Summary: After Jack saves Sam from Ba'al they lose each other again? Will they find each other again? Will they make it back to earth and finally marry?
He came for me. Jack had found me and had saved me from Ba'al's torture. He saved me from becoming a host. When I scream out for him to help me, he was there. When Ba'al almost tricked me into thinking he was Jack, my Jack sang to me to prove who he was.
Now, I've lost him again. He had to be the hero and send me to safety when all I wanted to do was stay with him. When the hallway filled with debris from the attack, I felt my heart break. I wanted to start digging, to give him a way out, but Dad wouldn't let me.
Hearing him tell me to go, that he'd get to the gate, was so like Jack. I told him that I wouldn't leave without him, that I'd rather die then go, but he insisted.
The anguish of possibly losing Jack would be so much worse then the torture Ba'al had put me through.
My father grabbed me by the waist and started to pull me away. I was crying and screaming at him to let me go, that we couldn't leave him behind. He kept telling me that we had to go. I pulled away from him and pointed at the filled hallway.
"That is my life underneath that debris. Without him, I am nothing. Dad, please don't make me go. I'd rather die then live another day without him."
I could see Dad was torn and was about to relent when we heard Jack's voice on the communicator. He told Dad to get me out of there. He reminded Dad about a pact they had made and Jack said not to forget to give me his letter. Letter? I was confused as to why Jack would write me a letter. Then it finally dawned on me. The letter was in case he didn't make it. I started to shake my head no. Dad started to pull me away as Jack told my dad we had four minutes until the building would blow.
Dad handed me the letter and I grabbed the communicator. Dad wouldn't let it go and I yelled at him to give it to me. I had to tell Jack I wasn't going to leave him behind, that if it were him in the same position, he would be doing the same thing.
I heard Jack plead with me to go, that we only had four minutes and he would make it to the Gate. I knew he was just saying this to get me to go. I felt so helpless and pleaded with him not to leave me and to tell me what was in the letter. He didn't respond but I heard him call out Ferretti to get everyone home safely.
Selmac took over and told me that we had to go now.
"When he gets back to Earth and finds you did not go like he asked, then all of this will have been for nothing. Come with me, Samantha, your father needs your help. He is deeply injured and needs medical attention, as you do. Please come now. We have little time to get to safety."
I looked at Dad. He had been injured badly by Ba'al. I held back my tears. He looked so worn out and Selmac was right, I had to get him out of there. Dad came back and pleaded with me that we didn't have a lot of time. I put my arm around his waist and started towards the exit. I turned around one last time and said a prayer that Jack would make it to the Gate and back to me.
We made it outside and hid in the shadows. Ba'al's and Yu's Jaffa were fighting all around us. The compound was about to blow. We had to get away and make it to the edge of the forest. I called Ferretti on the communicator and told him we were clear of the building. He yelled to take cover. The charges were about to go off in the prison.
The explosion was massive the ground shook and debris started to fall from the sky. Ferretti radioed us and I told him we were safe, but I needed help. I could not carry Dad all the way back to the ships with my injuries. He said he and Bra'tac would come to our aid. He asked if Dad was conscious and I handed him the communicator.
We were to make our way to the cave they had used to change into there disguises and wait for them. I asked Dad if it was far. He said no, and he could probably make it.
Ferretti came back on the communicator. "Colonel Carter. There's a lot of Jaffa out there looking for us. So stay low. We'll be there shortly."
We started to make our way to the cave. My mind was on Jack. Did he make it out of the compound? Was he safe? I pushed those doubts out of my mind. If he said he'd get to the Gate, then it was as good as done.
Yu's forces were doing a number on Ba'al's outer buildings that surrounded the prison. I could see the gliders coming in and firing at anything that wasn't already burning. Dad asked if we could stop and I told him we had to keep moving. He said he didn't think he could go on. I asked him how much further the caves were and he stopped and looked around.
He pointed to a large tree and what looked like a large boulder. The tree hid the entrance to the cave. I helped him inside. He started to lose consciousness as soon as we got inside the cave. His weight was too much for me. He started to slip from my grasp and I ended up falling down to the ground with him.
We had been running on adrenaline and it had taken finally taken its toll on my dad. I turned him over and put his head on my lap. I ripped a piece of my robe and started to clean up the cut on his forehead.
I was also starting to feel the pain all over my body. I looked down at myself and saw that the robe had blood all over it. My face felt swollen and my lip was cut. I remembered my back and the torture with the acid, and it started to sting. I tried to slip the robe off, but each time I moved, it felt like a torch was touching my back.
I was starting to get dizzy and nauseous again. The side effects of the sarcophagus. It was the only logically reason. I closed my eyes, but remembered I had to stay conscious. I had to wait for our help.
I looked at the letter that was still in my hand and let out a sob. What was in it? I was afraid to open it because it might be Jack telling me goodbye. I put it down next to me and tried not to cry. Was it Jack telling me he loved me and he was sorry it ended like this? I was about to rip it apart when I heard a noise. I stood still and held my breath. I looked for a weapon to defend us. I had found a pack with a gun but no extra ammunition. I was in no shape to fight hand to hand. I got up and moved Dad off my lap and dragged him to the back of the cave. I covered him up with the SGC uniforms and turned to face my enemy.
I could hear Jaffa outside the cave, speaking in Gou'ald. I heard 3 voices. I looked around for something else to use as a weapon, but found nothing. I crept to the front of the cave. If I was caught, I had to make sure Dad would not be taken. I saw a shadow coming towards the cave. I hid behind a rock and prepared myself for a fight.
The first jaffa fell easily. I tried to move back, but was pinned down. The remaining Jaffa where firing relentlessly into the cave. I felt the shrapnel of the rocks falling down on me from above. I tried to cover up as much as possible, but it was to late. I let out a cry when one piece sliced my cheek.
The firing stopped. I looked up to see a Jaffa with a staff weapon pointed at me. He must have thought I was dead because of the stunned expression on his face when I pulled out my gun and began to fire. I hit him and he fell forward on top of me. His weight had pinning me down. I had to get him off of me, but he was so heavy. I started to panic; the more I tried pushing him off me, the heavier he became.
I was trapped and couldn't move. The pain from my back was making it unbearable. I started to have trouble breathing. I had to get up and protect Dad, but the more I struggled, the weaker I got. I was about to lose consciousness when I heard more firing outside of the cave. A wave of relief over came me. It had to be Ferretti and Bra'tac. I almost passed out when the firing stopped.
I heard footsteps and I tried to see over the Jaffa on top of me, but couldn't. I waited to see who it was. Finally, the Jaffa was pulled off me and I could breathe. I tried focused to see who it was and suddenly let out a cry
Jack?
There he stood in front of me with his weapon and in full Jaffa armor.
He crouched in front of me and took my hands and whispered my name. I kept blinking to make sure he was real. He cupped my face in his hands and I closed my eyes when I felt his hands caress my face. Tears were steaming down my face. Was it really him or was my mind playing another trick on me.
He was about to say something when a staff blast came close to striking him down. I screamed and he pulled me with him to the other side of the cave. I ducked for cover and called out to him. When he didn't answer, I turned to find he had been knocked unconscious. I reached over and grabbed his P-90. I was going to defend us as best as I could.
I could hear more Jaffa approaching and I lifted the gun, ready to shoot. My hands were shaking and the pain I was feeling was making it difficult for me to focus. Jack started to regain consciousness. He looked over at me as I held his gun, ready to fight. He got up slowly and came next to me and pulled out his Zat.
I turned and stared at him. He came close to me and kissed me softly on the lips. I let out a whimper, wanting to taste him to reassure me that he was truly there. He smiled and came closer to me.
"I told you I'd find a way out. Now remind me to tell the preacher when he gives us our vows to emphasize the obey part, because you seem to have a problem with that."
I let out a little a laugh, but stopped when we heard noise from outside.
I turned and prepared to fight. He came close to my ear.
"Have I told you that I love you Sam, and no one can ever keep us apart. I'd walk through Hell and back to save you."
I turned and was about to say something when he put his finger to my lips.
"I can't wait to get off this god forsaken rock to marry you and make my life complete. Now, steady with those hands and let's give these guys hell."
I nodded and kissed his finger and turned around with a new purpose to get home and finally marry this man.
They came at us and we defended our position. I ran out of ammunition and Jack pulled me behind him and pushed me up against the wall to protect me. The firing stopped and they called out to us to surrender, that we were surrounded. He turned around and I told him that Ferretti and Bra'tac should be here any moment, that we had to hold them off till then. He nodded and kissed me again. Jack turned and pushed me up against the wall again, grabbing my hand at the same time and gave it a squeeze. I placed my other hand on his back and we crouched down, ready for the onslaught.
It turned out to be unnecessary. Ferretti and his team came along with Bra'tac's team. They surprised the Jaffa and were able to fight them off. We heard the firefight from inside and waited to hear from Ferretti. He finally called on the communicator to inform us that the Jaffa had been taken care of and that they would be coming into the cave.
I closed my eyes and leaned into Jack. He turned and took me into his arms and helped me sit down. Jack stood and Ferretti came in to update him on what had been going on. I pulled my legs up to my chin and remembered Dad. I had to go check on him; he needed medical attention. I stood up quickly and started to feel dizzy. I was about to fall when Jack caught me.
"Sam! What's the matter?"
I tried to pull away but he held me. I pointed to the back of the cave and told him Dad was back there.
Bra'tac heard me and said he would attend to him. Ferretti went back to the front of the cave to get the medic and to give his team instructions. His team had insisted on coming along to make sure I got back safely. They had promised Jack to bring me home.
I was still in Jack's arms. I pulled him close and just inhaled. He smelled of sweat, blood, grime and Jack. I held on to him tightly not wanting to let go. He just held me and I could feel the tension leaving his body. I pulled back and looked into his eyes. There were tears waiting to fall.
I asked him if he was hurt, but he didn't answer. I cupped his face with my hand. I was here and I was safe, thanks to him.
He let out a small cry and pulled me to him and started to kiss me everywhere, saying things that I couldn't understand, but I knew what he was trying to say. Tears ran down my face. The cut on my cheek started to sting but I didn't care. I was where I belonged, with the man that I loved.
We had been through Hell, faced the devil and had survived. My back started to sting again. I tried to pull away but was so tired. I was no longer running on adrenaline. I leaned into his shoulder, whispered his name and then passed out.
I heard voices and someone was holding my hand. I was afraid to open my eyes. What if this was another dream? Maybe I didn't escape. What if I opened my eyes and saw Ba'al peering down at me with that evil smile. I shuddered and felt ready to throw up. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes.
There he was, with a worried frown on his face, telling me to stay with him. Jack yelled for the medic to come over. He kept talking to me.
"Sam? Sam, honey wake up. I need to see those baby blues. Come on sweetie, stay conscious. Take deep breaths and say something. You're giving me more gray hair."
I smiled at him and took in my surroundings. My head was on Jack's lap. I was turned on my side so my back didn't touch the floor. I stared up at him and whispered, "you came for me."
He smiled and let out the breath he'd been holding.
He bent down to me in his lap and whispered in my ear. "You have no idea what I've been through these last few days. I was running around with this hole in my heart wondering if I would ever see you again. Promise me you will never do this to me again Sam, I don't think my heart can take any more."
The medic came over and asked Jack if he could check me out. He nodded yes. The medic's name was Lt. Phillips. He asked me where I hurt. I looked at Jack and then him and said I was just a little banged up.
Jack instructed the medic to check my back. I stared up at him and he said he knew what had happened to me.
"Your back has to be burning, Sam. Remember, I went through the same thing. Let Phillips do his job. We have to get moving and I need you to stay awake. That's an order." "You can't give me an order. You're a civilian, so stop bossing me around. I don't have to listen to you."
Ferretti heard me. "That's not true Colonel. You're going to have to salute him. He's a general now."
I looked at Ferretti and then back to Jack and could see he was uncomfortable. What did I miss?
I was about to ask when Phillips asked me if he could check my back. I nodded yes. He said he'd have to cut the robe I was wearing. I was going to need something to wear. Jack asked Ferretti to get a T-shirt.
Ferretti responded. "Sir, can we change out of this armor? It's cumbersome and I just don't like being dressed like this."
"Negative, Ferretti. We're going to have to blend in with those Jaffa out there. We'll stick out like sore thumbs if we're in our BDU's."
Ferretti went to retrieve the shirt and the medic started to work on the burns. I bit my lip so I wouldn't cry out, but I couldn't bear the pain.
I whispered to Phillips. "Could I have something to knock me out? I can't bear the pain. Please, anything. Morphine, Demoral...anything, it hurts."
Phillips stopped and apologized for hurting me. He said he'd get me something for the pain.
Jack was talking to Ferretti and took the shirt he held out to him. Phillips prepared the syringe and I waited for him to inject me. He was about to put it in my arm when Jack saw what he was doing and yelled at him, batting his hand and sending the syringe to the other side of the cave.
Jack then asked what the hell was he doing. I started to get up and move away from Jack. I had never seen him so angry. He looked like he wanted to kill him with his bare hands. Why didn't he want me to have something for my pain? I was trying to get up and Jack pushed me down. He accidentally touched my back and I let out a scream. I pushed him aside and went and grabbed his Zat.
This wasn't Jack. Jack would help me, not hurt me. He would do something for the pain. I let out a cry and started to yell no. It was Ba'al playing with my mind. I wanted to shoot him.
Everyone stood back. I was pointing the Zat at Jack, yelling at him that he wasn't real, that my Jack would do something to help with my pain. Ferretti grabbed Phillips and asked what had been in the syringe. Phillips denied that he had injected me with anything, that Jack had batted it out of his hands before he had a chance to give me anything.
Everyone had come close and I told them to get back. My back was burning and it was hard for me to keep the tears from falling.
Bra'tac had brought Dad over to see what was going on when he saw me holding the Zat on Jack. He asked me what I was doing.
"He's not Jack, so you're not Dad. None of you are here. This is another trick. Stay back or I swear to God I will shoot you."
Jack told everyone to step back from me. Ferretti grabbed Phillips and made their way back to the cave opening. Bra'tac held his hands up and moved back, but Dad refused.
"Sammie, it's us. This is not a trick. That's really Jack and I'm me. Do you want to speak to Selmac? Come on honey, put down the Zat. You're not thinking straight."
I nodded no. "He doesn't want me to take anything for the pain. I'm hurting and he stopped the medic from helping me. My Jack wouldn't have done that."
Jack came closer to me and said that there was a reason why he didn't want me to take any medications.
"Sam, do you trust me? Ask me something only you and I would know. The song I sang to you when I proposed to you on your birthday. The song we danced to in the ballroom when we went to look at the chapel. The song you sang to me in the elevator or the message you left me on my phone. I know them all, Sam. Please put the Zat down and I'll explain everything.
I refused and I asked him a simple question. What was inscribed inside my engagement ring?
He smiled and came close. Reaching into his Jaffa armor, he pulled out his tags. My ring was hanging off the chain. He unhooked it and took my ring off the chain. He took my hand and placed it on my finger and whispered. "My Light, My Love, My Life, now and always, Jack".
I closed my eyes and handed him the Zat. He gave it to Dad and sat me down. I looked at my ring and started to shake. I was hot and thirsty. He placed his hand on my forehead.
"You have a fever. We have to get back to the ship and get you home. Sam, did your dad give you my letter? Did you read it? It explains everything."
I pulled out the letter from my pocket and waved it at him.
"You mean your good-bye letter? No Jack, I didn't read it because I wasn't going to accept anything that you wrote to me. You think I would accept this and walk away from you. Well, you were wrong."
I could feel the fever starting to take over. I was burning up and my hands were still shaking. Jack yelled for Ferretti to bring the medic with him and told me to calm down and he would explain what was in the letter.
I told him he didn't have to explain what was in the letter. I was not going to read it because there would not be any need to.
Jack said to let him explain what was in the letter. But I yelled at him to stop with the letter. We had both survived, so there was no need to say anything. Jack was still trying to calm me down when Ferretti and Phillips came upon us arguing. Ferretti cleared his throat.
"Ah Colonel, I don't think that's a good idea, arguing with a General. Granted, you're going to marry the guy, but I think you should watch what you're saying."
I stopped yelling at Jack. "General? What are you talking about, Ferretti? Jack's not a general; he's a civilian. You guys are confusing me. My back is hurting and I'm hot and thirsty and you guys are giving me a headache. Jack, what's going on?"
Jack put his hands behind his back and said he needed to talk to me in private. Dad rolled his eyes and walked to the back of the cave to rest. Ferretti gave Jack his canteen and grabbed the medic and started to walk away.
I waited and Jack started to tell me what had happen back at home. He handed me the canteen and held my hand and told me he had received my call singing to him and that he had called me back and done the same. He then grew quiet and recounted the way he and Dad had found out about the Tok'ra base being attacked, and that Teal'c and I had been taken. He said they left Washington soon after and when they got to the base, General Hammond had informed him that he was not allowed to go after me because he was a civilian.
I gasped and felt his pain. What he must have gone through. He told me Major Davis had pulled some strings and if he re-enlisted he would be allowed to come and get me. He told me what Kinsey had insisted on, that he could not be re-assigned to the SGC after we came back but said that Davis and General Hammond were working on it.
"You re-enlisted? For how long? Oh Jack, it's my fault. If I would have listened to you and not gone off world, this would not have happen. What if they can't help and they send you somewhere far away from me? No, they can't do that. They owe us for so much."
He said it didn't matter as long as I was safe. They could send him to Antarctica. He kissed me. I leaned into him as he told me the rest. I had forgotten about Daniel and asked Jack if he was alright. Jack reassured me that he was well, but things had been critical for a while. He told me about Janet's breakdown and I squeezed his hand, wondering how this man had juggled so many duties and still stayed sane.
"Sam, there was a reason for that letter. But I am happy that I get to tell you in person."
I stopped him. "Enough with this letter, Jack. We're alive; it doesn't matter." I tore the letter in half, telling him that I knew he loved me and that I loved him too.
He pulled me close and let out a groan. He started to kiss me and I could see that he was barely holding himself together. He kept whispering how scared he had been, that he couldn't imagine life without me. He said if I had been lost to him that his life would mean nothing. He also told me how he had faced our wedding day alone in my lab, trying not to lose faith. He never wanted to experience that type of raw pain ever again. He then said his life would be nothing without me, that I had given him another chance at love and he would rather die then live another day without me. He had prayed for the opportunity to tell me he loved me one more time.
I put my hand on his mouth to stop him from speaking anymore.
"Nothing, and I mean nothing, will ever keep us apart, Jack. So you don't have to put it in words. I know."
I pulled him close and I could feel his tears as I came close to his ear and started to sing to him.
It's all about our love
so shall it be forever
never ending
after all this time
after all is said and done
we have seen some
suffering baby
it has not always been perfect
after all this time
after all is said and done
darling we know it
whatever may come
we can get through it
as if it's just begun
oh it's just begun
it's all about our love
so shall it be forever
never ending
darling we know it
after all this time
after all is said and done
after all this time
after all is said and done
He hugged me carefully I told him that I had sung to him in my mind to take me away from the horror of the torture. I explained to him how Teal'c had taught me to go into my subconscious and to block out the pain.
He told me that he had sung to me so many times and he pulled out the picture I had in my locker. It was wrinkled and was tearing at the ends. He said that's what kept him going, looking at me in this picture, happy and smiling.
"I wanted to see you smile like you did that night, Sam. It was the thing that was driving me and also what I had written in that letter."
I tried to understand what he was trying to tell me.
"Sam, do you remember I asked you to get checked out by Janet? Well, she found something."
I could see Jack tearing up. I asked if it was bad news.
He tried to smile and said no, that it was good news. He put his hand on my heart and then started to say how much this was going to change our lives and was the reason he wanted me to survive.
"Sam, you made me the happiest man alive on earth when you agreed to be my wife. I never thought anything would top that day, but something did. The day Janet told me you were going to have our baby."
I looked at him and put my hand to my mouth. His hand took mine and placed it on my stomach.
I whispered in shock. "Our baby? Jack, our baby? Are you sure?"
He nodded and told me poor Janet's dilemma and how he had jumped to conclusions and what his reaction had been when Janet had told him.
"No one knows but Janet, General Hammond and I. That's why I wrote the letter. If something had happen to me, I wanted to be the one to tell you about the baby. Your dad doesn't even know."
I was overwhelmed. I was going to be a mother. The letter I had ripped in two I picked up and put it in my pocket.
We were going to be parents. I had a million things going on in my mind but they all came to a stop. I paled and went cold.
Jack asked me what was wrong. I tried to speak to him. I started to moan. Jack kept asking me what was wrong and all I could say was that I had been put in the sarcophagus three times.
"Jack, do you think it harmed the baby? What if it did something to it? Oh Jack, what have I done?"
I was crying and having trouble breathing. Jack tried to calm me down, that we'd have to find out from my dad if there would be any ill effect of me being in the sarcophagus. I was making myself sick with fear and called out to Selmac. I needed to know if I had done any harm to my baby.
Dad came along with everyone else.
"Sammie, what's wrong? Jack, what did you do to her? Honey, breath. Do you want something to calm you down?"
We both yelled no and my dad jumped back. I wiped my tears and held Jack's hand. Jack came close and whispered that we should tell them.
"Sammie, tell us what? What's wrong? I don't want you to cry anymore."
We smiled at one another and Jack asked if I wanted to have the honor.
I nodded yes and told them all to come closer. I said that we had wonderful news and I apologized to the medic for Jack.
"He was only protecting me since I didn't know that I was carrying our baby."
Jack squeezed my hand and we both looked at Dad. He was speechless and looked like he was going to pass out. I went up to him and called out to him. He was about to give me a hug when Jack stepped in and reminded him about my back. With all that had been going on, I had forgotten. He cupped my face and kissed me and asked if I was sure and Jack nodded. He smiled and tears were falling from his face.
He came up to Jack and said since he couldn't hug his daughter, he would have to do. Ferretti and his team were smiling and offered us congratulations. Bra'tac came up to me and lifted my chin and said that we would be blessed with a fine child, one that would be a brave warrior and have a pure heart. I pulled him closed and kissed his cheek. I thanked them all for their good wishes and asked if I could speak to Dad. Dad was still speechless and Selmac took over. She offered her congratulations and how happy she was that she would be a part of this experience. I tried to smile, but tears started to fall. She asked what was wrong.
I tried to speak and found it difficult. Jack left Ferretti and his team and came over to me and pulled me close. He told Selmac of my concerns.
Dad came back. "Sammie, honey. Selmac tells me that there shouldn't be any ill effect on you or the baby. You might have symptoms of withdrawal, but that's about it. You and the baby will be alright. So stop worrying."
I hugged Dad and went back to Jack. I asked him how he felt about being a father again. He said there were no words to describe what he was feeling, that when he found out he was both ecstatic and scared, especially knowing where I was.
Phillips asked if he could attend to my back. I said it would be fine, but no pain meds were needed. He sprayed my back with something to ease the pain and did his best in bandaging them up. Jack held my hand and talked to me, trying to take my mind off the pain. He was whispering the songs he said he sang to me while I had been gone. They helped and I was becoming tired.
Philips said he was done and Jack helped me into the T-shirt. Philips then worked on the gash on my forehead and then cleaned up my cheek. I was lost in thought and had my hand on my stomach. Jack was talking to Ferretti to get a briefing off the situation outside. Dad came to sit next to me and Selmac started to speak.
"Samantha, your father is, how do you say, on cloud nine right now. He was very distressed when you were captured. He blamed himself. He never trusted Vahe' but was overruled by the Tok'ra council. General O'Neill has helped him get through his darkest days. I see now what makes him so special and why you care deeply for him. He would do anything for those he loves and I have witnessed this first hand."
Jack came back to asked if we were ready to go. He said that the ships had departed because they were being fired upon.
He said we had to make it to the Gate, that it was our best chance. Ray'ac and Rac'nor would try to come back and help, but Bra'tac was against that.
"So we make it to the gate, dial home and get off this rock?"
Jack smiled. "That's the plan and then we finally tie the knot. You're not getting off the hook. As soon as we get back, we're getting hitched and that's an order, Colonel."
He helped me up. "Undomesticated equines could not stop us."
He laughed and we walked to the front of the cave. I asked how Teal'c was. Ferretti said he had to literally have four Jaffa keep him on the ship, saying he had been insisting to come along, that I was his responsibility.
"Colonel, he didn't quiet down till I told him that I guaranteed him that I would get both of you back in one piece."
Ferretti had sent out two people and they had contacted us, saying that most of the fighting had moved from the Gate and only a couple of guards were there. We decided that this was the time to make our move.
Jack grabbed my hand and made me promise not to leave his side and if things got hairy, that I was to listen to his orders and not question him.
"Remember, you are caring precious cargo and I don't want to have to worry about you not following orders, so please listen to me and do as I say."
I saluted him but chimed in that if he thought he was going to get rid of me that easily, he had another thing coming. We either made it off the rock together or not at all.
"Jack, you know we couldn't function without one another, so don't ask me to leave you. Court Martial me if you have to, but I wont leave you."
We started to make our way to the Gate. Everything was going according to plan. We had to fight off some Jaffa, but the skirmishes ended before they began. We could see the Gate and I sent out a prayer that this nightmare would be almost over. Jack pulled out his GDO and handed it to me. Jack gave Ferretti the signal to get his team to start the dialing of the gate. Lt. Phillips started to press the symbols on the DHD when he was fired upon. He hid behind the DHD and we began to give him cover. Bra'tac had overpowered two of the Jaffa that were hidden and the others were killed by Dad and Jack.
Phillips started to dial again and we waited for the Gate to open. I never knew how happy hearing that familiar sound would make me feel. Jack helped me up and said we were almost home.
Ferretti's team was keeping an eye on things while we came out to walk towards the Gate. Dad was being helped by Bra'tac.
We were almost up the steps when Ferretti yelled for us to get down. I turned in time to see Ba'al and Vahe' coming with four Jaffa's firing their staff weapon's. Jack grabbed me and pulled me out of the way to behind a boulder.
Bra'tac tried to push Dad down but was too late. Dad was hit on the side and had gone down. I yelled and tried to go to him but Jack pulled me back. He kept yelling at me to stay put, that there was too much going on.
We heard Ba'al yell out to us that he would kill us one by one for destroying his new base and for bringing Yu.
I wanted to help my father. But each time I tried to go to him, Jack pulled me back and said no. Two of Ferretti's men went down. Jack said that I had to stay there, that they needed to keep the gate open for us to get through. He grabbed his P-90 and started to fire against the remaining Jaffa.
I looked over and saw Ferretti was fighting against Vahe hand to hand. He must have lost his ribbon device. I looked to see if I could find. It had fallen off his hand and was close to where they were battling it out.
I started to crawl to it, hoping I'd get there before Jack found out what I was doing. I had almost made it when I heard a nightmare speak to me.
"I knew you couldn't resist coming out of your hiding place, Samantha. That's why I had Vahe' leave his ribbon device for you to see. You Tauri' are so predictable. Your feeble attempt to escape your destiny has failed."
I let out a cry and turned to face my captor. He was smiling and I started to back away. I had to get to the ribbon device; it was my only hope.
I tried reaching for it, but Ba'al was too quick. He grabbed my shoulder and I let out a scream. He had touched my back and the pain was unbearable.
I heard Jack scream no. I turned to see him running towards us. Ba'al laughed and started to raise his hand.
He told Jack to stop or he would end my life there and now. Jack stopped and held his weapon up at him. I moved slowly away. Ba'al was to occupied in taunting Jack. I moved until I felt the ribbon device by my hand. I grabbed it and put it on.
I pulled all my anger and hatred I had towards Ba'al and raised my hand. I let out a cry and diverted it all at him.
He was taken by surprise. He was thrown to the other side with such force the tree he hit shook.
I lowered my hand and was about to pass out when Jack caught me. He was yelling at me, asking when would I ever listen to him. He picked me up and started back towards the Gate. I tried to pull away, saying I wanted him dead, to please let me finish the job. Jack wouldn't hear it. He said he'd had enough of this place and it was time to go. Ferretti yelled that we had to go.
Bra'tac had picked up Dad and was carrying him over his shoulder. Ferretti was helping Phillips, who had been injured. Jack asked what had happened to Vahe' and Ferretti said that he stopped fighting when he heard his master cry out in pain and went to save him.
The gate had been disengaged during the fighting. Phillips went over to re- dial Earth. I handed Jack's GDO to him and the gate was activated. Bra'tac took Dad through. Phillips picked up one of his teammates. Jack put me down and said he'd cover me. I nodded my head no and started to pull him with me to the gate. Ferretti said he'd cover when we heard a shot.
Jack stopped and looked at me and started to fall forward. I tried to catch him but only stopped his fall. Ferretti turned and was about to fire when he went down.
I turned to see who was shooting. It was Vahe' and he had picked up a handgun and was shooting.
"You have killed my master and now I will kill you."
I pushed Jack aside and said, "You have ruined enough lives. You love your god so much, let me send you to him in Hell."
I still had the ribbon device and all my anguish and pain of seeing Jack shot was directed towards the man that had done it. I raised my hand and sent him flying towards Ba'al. He landed with a thud and did not move. I turned back to Jack and saw the damage Vahe' had done.
He had shot him in the back and blood was beginning to ooze out. Ferretti was also shot in the back but had remained conscious. I turned Jack over and started to pull him towards the gate. I heard Jaffa armor we had to get back home. Ferretti had managed to get himself up and had grabbed Jack's other arm and was helping me pull.
We made it to the top step when staff weapons started to whiz by us. We had to go. With one last pull we fell through the gate.
We landed on the ramp. Ferretti was yelling for a medic and to close the iris. I crawled over to Jack and listened to see if he was breathing. He opened his eyes when I called to him and asked if I was okay. I nodded yes and he asked if we were home. I nodded again. He grabbed my hand and whispered he loved me closed his eyes.
Janet had made her way to the Gateroom as did Daniel and Dr. Warner. I put my head on his chest and passed out.
We were home.