Injuries suck, not only do they suck but they can put strain on relationships. Me being confined to a wheel chair meant that I had to sit by and watch as my best friend, my brother become the wrestler I dreamt of being. I had to sit there and watch as Adam got offered my OVW contract by Vince Mc Mahon, then I sat and cried with him just hours after he refused. I had to sit there and watch as my girlfriend, the love of my life refused an opportunity of an education. Even though I told her to go for it, she refused saying she had to work full time just to pay the bills.
When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
And you lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never to surrender to the dark
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that's not the way
The story has to end
The three of us were only 19 when I had the accident, and instead of being able to follow our dreams we had to change our plans, within a matter of weeks we changed from kids into adults. You could walk into our house any evening of the week and discover a young girl standing in the kitchen, a young man cleaning up and another young man lying on the couch watching the world pass him by.
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you'll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly
We never wanted this, I don't think anyone ever wants this sort of thing to happen to them, but it was what we got. But luckily no one thought that this situation was permanent and each time I saw the doctor he seemed more optimistic than the previous appointment.
In your head, so many questions
The truth is your possession
The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope
And you will find a way to fight
The fears that kept you down
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that's not the way
The story has to end
Naturally an injury of this extent caused tension between the three of us. Mainly between Adam and myself. One argument I wont forget was when Adam was offered the OVW Contract.
"Hey guess what!" Adam announced walking in the door one afternoon,
"What?" I replied looking up from the magazine I was reading,
"I've been offered an OVW contract"
"That's great man"
"I'm not going to take it" He replied after a moment's silence,
"What? Why not?" I asked nearly ready to jump out of my seat,
"Its your contract"
"My contract? Are you crazy?"
"Jay this is what you've dreamt of since we were little" Adam said trying to stay calm but finding it difficult,
"Yea and it was just a dream Adam, it's not going to happen, especially since the accident. Go for it, take the contract"
"I told them I would only take it if my brother was getting one as well and they said well get him in the ring…"
"Yea right like that's ever going to happen again. Adam you cant hang around waiting for me to get feeling in my damn legs. It's not going to happen"
"The doctor says…"
"Who cares what the doctor says."
"You can't give up Jason"
"I'm not. But Adam I'm 20 years old and I can't even feel my own damn legs. I can't walk and there's none and Buckley's chance of me ever wrestling again"
"Jason if you don't wrestle you can be my manager"
"Adam I can't even take a piss by myself how the hell am I meant to become a manager?"
"It wont always be like this" Adam said obviously upset. I put my head down and continued reading my magazine ending the conversation there.
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you'll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly
Then one morning just over a year after the accident I woke up with a horrible cramp in my legs. My screams woke Dee, Adam and I think everybody else living in the apartment block. Adam laughed when he rushed into the room to find that I was screaming,
"My legs, my legs. I got a cramp in my damn legs." Once I had calmed down I went back to sleep. It was as though I had been having a nightmare, but when I woke up again I realised I had feeling in my legs. I couldn't walk but it was still a significant sign of improvement. Starting to walk again took up my every moment, I fell an awful lot and sometimes I was in so much pain I couldn't even get out of bed. But I was determined to walk again and eventually I did.
Looking at your situation
There's so much that you can do
Now's the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end it's up to you
The future's in your hands
Then I was given an amazing opportunity. I was given the chance to get back in the ring. The thought that I was actually considering Stu's offer frightened Denise and she begged me not accept it. I eventually promised I would think about it but I knew within myself that when the time was right I would head back to the Dungeon. Then one night after I had gone to bed and Adam and Dee were still up I could hear them talking,
"He's going to go back isn't he?" Dee asked obviously upset,
"Yes he will" Adam replied quietly,
"Why? Didn't he learn from the accident?"
"Yea but this is what he dreamt about as a little kid."
"He's going to kill himself. I nearly lost him once I don't want to really loose him"
"He's a stubborn mule. He's lucky he back healed and now he can get back into the ring so he will. He'll be more careful though"
"Yea but look how much care they took the last time he was in the ring. I love him so much I don't want to loose him to a stupid accident," Dee said starting to cry,
"I know you love him. I love him too he's my brother. But he's so set on doing this. Look I'll talk to him and to Stu but I don't think we can stop him" Adam said hugging Dee.
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you'll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly
Give it time
Then you'll learn to fly
A/N: OK what do you think? I'm nearly finished this story, so that's why it may seemed to have sped up a little. The song is Shannon Noll 'Learn To Fly'. Shannon Noll was the runner up of Australian Idol. Sorry it took me so long to post I finished this story a few days ago but just been busy! Will post last chapter soon.
When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
And you lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never to surrender to the dark
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that's not the way
The story has to end
The three of us were only 19 when I had the accident, and instead of being able to follow our dreams we had to change our plans, within a matter of weeks we changed from kids into adults. You could walk into our house any evening of the week and discover a young girl standing in the kitchen, a young man cleaning up and another young man lying on the couch watching the world pass him by.
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you'll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly
We never wanted this, I don't think anyone ever wants this sort of thing to happen to them, but it was what we got. But luckily no one thought that this situation was permanent and each time I saw the doctor he seemed more optimistic than the previous appointment.
In your head, so many questions
The truth is your possession
The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope
And you will find a way to fight
The fears that kept you down
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that's not the way
The story has to end
Naturally an injury of this extent caused tension between the three of us. Mainly between Adam and myself. One argument I wont forget was when Adam was offered the OVW Contract.
"Hey guess what!" Adam announced walking in the door one afternoon,
"What?" I replied looking up from the magazine I was reading,
"I've been offered an OVW contract"
"That's great man"
"I'm not going to take it" He replied after a moment's silence,
"What? Why not?" I asked nearly ready to jump out of my seat,
"Its your contract"
"My contract? Are you crazy?"
"Jay this is what you've dreamt of since we were little" Adam said trying to stay calm but finding it difficult,
"Yea and it was just a dream Adam, it's not going to happen, especially since the accident. Go for it, take the contract"
"I told them I would only take it if my brother was getting one as well and they said well get him in the ring…"
"Yea right like that's ever going to happen again. Adam you cant hang around waiting for me to get feeling in my damn legs. It's not going to happen"
"The doctor says…"
"Who cares what the doctor says."
"You can't give up Jason"
"I'm not. But Adam I'm 20 years old and I can't even feel my own damn legs. I can't walk and there's none and Buckley's chance of me ever wrestling again"
"Jason if you don't wrestle you can be my manager"
"Adam I can't even take a piss by myself how the hell am I meant to become a manager?"
"It wont always be like this" Adam said obviously upset. I put my head down and continued reading my magazine ending the conversation there.
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you'll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly
Then one morning just over a year after the accident I woke up with a horrible cramp in my legs. My screams woke Dee, Adam and I think everybody else living in the apartment block. Adam laughed when he rushed into the room to find that I was screaming,
"My legs, my legs. I got a cramp in my damn legs." Once I had calmed down I went back to sleep. It was as though I had been having a nightmare, but when I woke up again I realised I had feeling in my legs. I couldn't walk but it was still a significant sign of improvement. Starting to walk again took up my every moment, I fell an awful lot and sometimes I was in so much pain I couldn't even get out of bed. But I was determined to walk again and eventually I did.
Looking at your situation
There's so much that you can do
Now's the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end it's up to you
The future's in your hands
Then I was given an amazing opportunity. I was given the chance to get back in the ring. The thought that I was actually considering Stu's offer frightened Denise and she begged me not accept it. I eventually promised I would think about it but I knew within myself that when the time was right I would head back to the Dungeon. Then one night after I had gone to bed and Adam and Dee were still up I could hear them talking,
"He's going to go back isn't he?" Dee asked obviously upset,
"Yes he will" Adam replied quietly,
"Why? Didn't he learn from the accident?"
"Yea but this is what he dreamt about as a little kid."
"He's going to kill himself. I nearly lost him once I don't want to really loose him"
"He's a stubborn mule. He's lucky he back healed and now he can get back into the ring so he will. He'll be more careful though"
"Yea but look how much care they took the last time he was in the ring. I love him so much I don't want to loose him to a stupid accident," Dee said starting to cry,
"I know you love him. I love him too he's my brother. But he's so set on doing this. Look I'll talk to him and to Stu but I don't think we can stop him" Adam said hugging Dee.
And if you need to find a way back
Feel you're on the wrong track
Give it time, you'll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You'll be stronger with each day that you cry
Then you'll learn to fly
Give it time
Then you'll learn to fly
A/N: OK what do you think? I'm nearly finished this story, so that's why it may seemed to have sped up a little. The song is Shannon Noll 'Learn To Fly'. Shannon Noll was the runner up of Australian Idol. Sorry it took me so long to post I finished this story a few days ago but just been busy! Will post last chapter soon.