Chapter 32

Dancing Wolf: I'm glad you like the sarcasm. I certainly like Kai scenes. Really should do more.

Prozacfairy: I've done more graphic, yes. That's why they're on :p

Castles in the Sky: No more Mariah, no. This fic is almost finished. Sorry.

Platinum Rei: Thanks.

russle: You do realise you didn't have your name on your review, right? :p I think Bryan's sexy, yes. I like the bad boys. And I wish they'd do a shirtless Bryan scene in the anime.

Koneko no Rei: Yep, an Ivanov thing. You should see what happens to Bryan in Overture. You only hear what he says over the phone, but still...

Kappy Locks: Slowly, eh? And they like their partners indeed.

dead yet a love sick puppy: But it was an appropriate time. Too Kai, anyway.

Mizuyah: You don't have to be talented to be popular. There are heaps of celebs that have no talent and yet are very popular. And I'm glad you liked it.

Ashla: And yes, they're just as bad.

TNTiggris: Adult Swim? No idea what that is. But I've got to set my recorder too. Yu-Gi-Oh is on early, and I have Uni so I'll miss it getting ready for class.

And now back to the main couple…

Kevin flipped the hard leather-bound cover closed, grinning. "Finished!"

Lee looked up from where he was writing a letter back to his grandfather. "Already?"

"Mm-hm." Kevin stood and carried the book to sit it down beside Lee's. "You must remember I was already a fair way through it before…"

Lee nodded, finishing his sentence and setting the pen down. "Take anything in?"

"Well, I know how to use it now." Kevin shook his head, letting his fingers play across where his name was engraved into the cover. "Never realised it was so involved."

"You should try foresight some time." Lee stretched, looking at him. "Want to move on?"

Kevin grinned, picking up the third and thickest book and bringing it to the table as Lee made room for it. Dropping into Lee's lap, Kevin opened the heavy cover only to frown, finding the small note. "Wha-?"

Lee's forehead furrowed slightly. "'If you are reading this, my little Lion and Monkey, then you have progressed well. It is my place to warn you that to continue your studies as one will require the deepest commitment not only to our people and traditions, but also to one another. To use the skills and techniques within this book is to form a union of minds and spirits, to become one.'"

Kevin blinked. "Jeez, almost sounds like a marriage."

"Yeah." Lee looked down at him. "Got nothin' wrong with that, do you?"

"Nope." Kevin looked up at him. "You?"

"Nothing at all." Lee looked down and continued. "'If you both agree to continue then you will be partaking in something, which has not been seen for many generations. Please remember, my boys, that you have a choice, and whatever you decide will be respected. You do not have to rush into this, which is why I am warning you.

"'If you decide to go ahead, then you will be able to know each other's deepest thoughts, greatest secrets. But in order to begin, there must be an understanding and trust between you. You must have clear, focused minds. I wish luck onto you both.'"

Lee closed the cover again. "We're going to have to think about this."

"Yeah." Kevin sighed, leaning back into Lee's arms. "I want to do it."

Lee frowned. "We haven't even had a chance to-"

"Not this." Kevin touched the cover, looking up at Lee. "What we talked about this morning."

Lee blinked, concern reflecting in his orange-gold eyes. "Kev…"

"I've been thinking about it all day," Kevin continued. "And this just confirms it. It says that we need an understanding and trust between us, and how can we do this if I have this feeling of not being able to trust you?"

Lee touched Kevin's shoulder lightly. "I wouldn't do anything to hurt you."

"I know." Kevin averted his eyes. "Mariah did something to my head when she took me against my will. I've got this belief that if she could do that, anyone would, so I cannot allow myself to be placed in that position again. That's why I want to do it, to get rid of that stupid belief."

Lee sighed and nodded. "When?"

Kevin looked up at him. "Now."

Lee looked at him for a long while before shifting his grip, easily scooping the younger into his arms and standing. He carried him to the bedroom and set him on the bed, joining him, Kevin threading his arms around Lee's neck and kissing him.

For a long while they did nothing else, Lee drawing back to look down at him. "Sure?"

Kevin nodded, pushing Lee's vest back off his shoulders. "I'm sure."

They slowly undressed each other, taking their time, Lee feeling that Kevin was tense and trying to relax him. Kevin shuddered as Lee's lips caressed his collarbone, Kevin's fingers playing through Lee's raven hair as he settled back, nerves playing through the younger.

"God, it feels like my first time."

"In a way, it is." Lee pushed himself up, their noses brushing in gentle Eskimo kisses. "Still want to? Like I said this morning, you have the choice."

Kevin swallowed and nodded, brushing aside all his doubt. His book told him that of all his senses the one he should trust the most is his heart, and his heart was urging him to take the plunge. "Do it."

Lee sat back, straddling Kevin, eyes watching his face. Eyes locked as Lee slowly lowered himself on the younger, Kevin inhaling sharply as his jaw tightened. Lee's eyes narrowed as he saw this, Kevin shaking his head to say that he was fine. Lee's eyes never left his face as he began to move, Kevin's eyes running over him, a faint smile tugging at Kevin's lips as he discovered an upside: he got to watch.

Lee spotted the smile, his own eyes sparkling as Kevin's hands played over his thighs, the younger experimentally thrusting upwards and causing a small gasp to escape Lee's lips. Kevin's eyes brightened at this, Lee shooting him a warning look that Kevin ignored, doing it again, a small moan coming from the back of Lee's throat.

Kevin chuckled. "You were right, I do get some control."

"Told you." Lee raised an eyebrow. "And I think I was right on another matter: I do believe you're enjoying it."

Kevin smirked, wondering how he could have ever thought this to be so wrong as he thrust up again, watching Lee's reaction that stirred something inside him. All boundaries abruptly dropped, neither holding back as they let themselves go, gasping and panting as they found a rhythm, moving as one.

Lee came first, Kevin shortly thereafter before the younger pushed himself up, sliding his arms around Lee's waist and kissing him deeply, the two slowly lowering back onto the mattress. Lee rested his head on Kevin's shoulder, still panting heavily as Kevin sighed, smoothing Lee's brow.

A small smile played across Kevin's lips. "We have so gotta do that again."

Lee chuckled. "Definitely."

And that clears up Kevin's phobia. And this is actually the last chapter of this story. Just got the Epilogue, and then it's a wrap.