Note:

Well, it's been a while since I've updated this story, and gomen for taking so long to do so... I've been on vacation in Turkey, in which I still am, but I am dedicated like a fluffy dog! So I will continue on... I'm not in the same "lock-and-load" mode I was when I began this story, so at points it may sound a little too intelligent, and/or depressing... I'm not depressed, I'm just not in a happy-bouncy pika pika mood like I usually am. Hey how would you feel if all your beloved friends were at home in America and you were in Turkey eating sheep and watching loud noisy children on base? -- enough said... Anywho, these characters are not mine and OH OH OH this has nothing to do with this story, but I'm starting another story called "Scream X-2" it's a spoof off of the movie and it's with the Furuba characters (fruits basket, for those of you that don't know the actual title) the narrator is Kyo!!! Anywho, this story has nothing to do with that one, so I'll shut up now. This story has Shonen ai relations and may not be what you were looking for (though why you are reading the 5th chapter of this story... I have no clue... --) ENJOY!!!

Kumagoro kicked me and told me to be quiet. I mearly picked him up and threw him in Shuuichi-kun's bed, "Take a look!" I shouted at him.

He looked around and noticed something, he asked me were Shuu-kun went, "I don't know!" I shouted again, getting up and changing.

'What if he left because of me? Was it all my fault? WHY did he leave?' I thought to myself, worrying that it was all my fault. Kuma-chan sat there patiently, most likely waiting for me to get him and go, and search for Shuu-kun.

Not pika pika mood, not pika pika mood!!! I paniced.

"He couldn't have left me for good! We were in this together, I was suppose to help him and he was suppose to help Yuki Eiri-san!!!" I sputterd quickly, running about the room gathering some loose articles of clothing and throwing them on. Kuma-chan continued sitting there patiently, and quietly.

"I shouldn't of kissed him, that was a bad bad thing to do... I ruined everything!!!" I cried to myself outloud. Kuma-chan looked at me and asked me about it, "No, nothing..." I tried to change the topic, but he pressured on with the questions.

Grunting and sobing again I fell at the bed he was sitting on and sobed out my own sight of the situation, "I was acting funny, he looked tasty... I couldn't... I messed up everything Kuma-chan. Kissing him was wrong! Even though he was still asleep, he thought I was Yuki Eiri-san!!! I don't know why I thought- Why did I? Ne? What's wrong with me? Why can't I make things right? I hurt so many people already Kuma-chan, why can't I fix something for once?"

Kuma-chan stated that I didn't mess anything up yet.

"But Kuma-chan, this isn't going the way I had planned! Why can't I control myself properly? I always do something that screws everything up! I'm such a fuck-up!!!" I shouted a sob, nearly choking on my sob and rolling up at the foot of Shuu-kun's bed. Kuma-chan told me that it was alright... that I still have not done anything wrong. He also told me that if it was so wrong to love Shuu-kun, then why did I begin this little adventure if I knew I did?

"But that's just it Kuma-chan" I began, "I didn't know that I loved him... it's still wrong for me to. I'm only suppose to be his friend. Yuki Eiri needs him, he needs to heal, to open up more; and Shuu-kun is the only person that can do that for him and for everyone else"

Kumagoro sighed, "Don't lie to yourself Ryuu-kun" was all he said. Suddenly I heard a light knock on the door. I pulled myself up and walked to it, not bothering to wipe my tears.

Time stopped, as I stared into the gleaming pika pika face of Hiro... Shuu-kun's best friend.

Not paying any attention, Hiro had asked me a question and I hadn't been listening.

"Ne?" I asked stupidly.

"I said, 'Where's Shuuichi-kun?' I have to talk to him" he asked again.

I shrugged stupidly...again and was about to shut the door when he held it and looked at me square in the face, "What's wrong?" he asked me. I finally realized that my tears were still on my face. MY eyes widened and I quickly wiped them away with my sleeve, "nothing Hiro-san" I stated, trying once again to shut the door, but he once again held it open.

"Don't kid yourself, or me for that matter. What the hell is wrong?" he tried again. I chuckled and tried acting pika pika to hide my frustration with myself for keeping my troubled mind to myself, "I'm telling you, it's nothing... I just... I- I, umm, got some... PEPPER in my eyes! That's right... pepper" I hoped that that would work. He quirked his brow and looked at me some more... more like stared at me like a cobra snake (another animal Kuma-chan and I learned about on the nature show one time).

"What happened between you and Shuuichi-kun?" he asked... DOH! bulls-eye. I began to sweet a little, trying to think of a different excuse, but knowing Hiro... he caught on.

"Ryuuichi-chan, please tell me the truth. I promise I will try to help the situation if it's bad" he promised to me. Ha... promises, I've had a billion promises promised to me, none really were kept... so why should I believe him? Kuma-chan looked at me angrily, knowing exactly what I was thinking. Damn him for knowing how to read minds... yet how come he can only read my mind?

I looked away from Kuma-chan and gave up within myself.

"Hiro-san? You must promise me that you won't be angry with me" I pleaded. With another quirked brow he promised, by nodding his head.

"You must also understand that most likely... Shuu-kun doesn't know, but he may, na no da. I really don't know" I pleaded again. He sighed then asked, "What is it already?"

I gulped then prepared for a blow of somekind...

"I... I k-k-k-kissed Shuuichi" I finished quickly then winced waiting to be hit.

I heard only a sigh and an arm grab mine and pull me inside my own room, then throw me on my bed, after a door shutting. Finally opening my eyes I see Hiro towering over me.

"H-hiro-san?" I asked as his lips brushed against my neck, and his long brown hair tickled my skin.

"W-what are y-y-you doing?" I paniced again, as he licked my skin just below my ears. I shivered, but I knew that this wasn't right... something wasn't right. I shoved at Hiro, "Hiro-san, this isn't you, get off of me!" I begged.

He chuckled then sat up, still on me though.

"So you don't just rape people do you?" he asked. I was then confused, "What? When did I rape people, na no da? Also, may I ask who's doing the raping here?" I asked, still not understanding.

He laughed loudly then got off of me, "I was just testing you. I wouldn't really rape anyone either, not much of a guy-guy person anywho... I like chicks"

I sat up as well, then scratched my head, "Erm... yea. Okey da, you lost me Hiro-san" I questioned. He mearly sniggered slightly then patted me roughly on the back, "Do you love him or something?" I blushed then nearly choked.

"W-what?" I asked, trying to hide the truth behind confusion. He laughed softly then tangled my hair by shaking it up with his hand brotherly-like, "I knew it" he said, "So... what are you going to do about it? You know that Shuuichi-kun has Yuki-san, ne?" I nodded slowly, with drifting eyes, "I understnd that... and even though he told me that he was giving up on him... I know better. But still... I can't help it, yet I need to get away from this feeling. It's making me out to be the bad guy" I explained to him and myself.

He nodded then stated, "I know the real reason why you left" I looked at him in the face, "The reason I gave myself, or the real real reason?" I asked, seriously.

He smirked, "The real real reason" he answered. I sighed then fell back on the bed with my arms behind my head... then after a few moments decided to finally get out of the room, "Walk?" I asked simply. He nodded then we left the room. We trotted down the steps, with the keys to my room jingling in my pocket, and Kuma-chan bouncing on my head.

We began a little stroll off of the property of the hotel.

I stared at the ground the whole time, "So... what do you think the real reason is?" I asked.

He smiled slyly and looked over at me then stated, "You greedy bastard"

To be continued...

Note:

Well well well, what do we have here? A near rape, an accusation of greed and another real reason to Ryuuichi's leaving? Where has Shuuichi gone, and DAMNIT we still don't know what's up with Eiri Yuki!!! Gomen no sai. ;; In the next chapter for a FACT I know that you will be hearing the real reason to Ryuuichi's leaving and shtuff of the sort... we may be seeing Mr.K... believe it or not, that's who I decided to bring in before Hiro, but hey things change and work out for the better don't you think? Tell you the truth I enjoyed that little short part Ryuu and Hiro!! Anywho, sometime I know you'll be hearing what's up with Yuki and where Shuuichi went... in fact I believe the next chapter will be alot of Shuuichi, unless I decide differently. Anywho, I hope you're enjoying my story. I luv luv reviews!! Also, having nothing to do with this story, but when I return to the states, I'll probably be going to a convention with my friend Yosuke... that is if i get some money and shtuff. anywho, When I go I'm going as Eiri Yuki, at the last convention (JaCon) I was Sakuma Ryuuichi!!! It was alot of fun, I had to pose alot! Anywho, gomen, continue reading!!!

Reviews:

CeCe (goodluckbear)- I'll try to keep you up to date, but it's best that you keep checking yourself... I have too many things to do as it is!!

Essy Ergana- (i forgot to add her the first time) Yesh... another Ryuu Shuu story, when will we see Touma again? I'm not sure, I actually forgot about him when I was writing this chapter... I'm trying to rememebr to add in more and more characters from the manga/anime... like Sakano and Noriko and sometime I should be adding Mr.K like I already stated. But hey it's a work in progress...

Thanks:

This time i would like to thank my sisters computer, which is in Turkey, because this was the only thing I was able to type on while in Turkey... also because of the awesome Lan party it helped out with! Counterstrike, and TCF ROCKS!!!