Remus' POV – December 1979
I couldn't believe it. Jenny was sitting right in front of me smiling at the things I told her and I was holding my own child. It was like a dream, like nothing had happened between us except that I noticed that Jenny was keeping her distance. I was also keeping my distance but it was so difficult. I was just happy having my son in my arms. I never thought I'd be able to help produce someone so cute and delicate and fragile. Jenny had named him well. She had named him Bo, which she told me meant Precious. Bo was the cutest baby I had ever seen.
"So I've missed quite a bit then?" Jenny asked me. Her voice was like a drug that I had been craving for so long. It just flowed through me making me feel calm again. It was amazing the effect Jenny had on me.
"Yeah but nothing too important." I said. I had just told Jenny everything she had missed. Outside was dark and snowing again. The noise of our friends downstairs had died away. Jenny let out a small yawn and picked up her watch.
"It's nearly midnight." She said. "I have to put Bo into the cot." She said getting up.
"No, I'll do it." I said standing up properly, holding my sleeping son in my arms. Jenny nodded and lay down on top of her bed, obviously tired. Lily had given Jenny something to transfigure into a baby cot earlier so I put Bo into it and put a blanket over him. I didn't think I could feel so much love for someone other then Jenny but the love I felt for Bo was different to what I felt for Jenny. I turned around and looked at Jenny. There were still some questions, which I wanted to ask her that I couldn't bring myself round to asking. I had been enjoying myself too much to spoil any of it. I walked over to the bed and sat down on the side. Jenny looked at me and smiled. I smiled back and I hesitantly reached for her hand. I rested our hands, fingers interlocking, on top of Jenny's stomach.
"I missed you." I said to Jenny. I just looked at her, she had a slightly different but still beautiful aura round her. Having a bay had changed her but hadn't changed her, if you get what I mean.
"I've missed you too, it's been so hard without you." She said, she stroked her thumb over the back of my hand. I was aware of every movement she made, every touch she gave me.
"Um, Jenny" I said quietly. "Why did you leave?" I asked. I knew I'd just said something that was very bad in Jenny's mind. Her smile disappeared and she let go of my hand. She gave me a sad look.
"Don't ask me that." Jenny said, sitting up slightly.
"Why? I want to know." I asked her. I nervously reached for her face and touched her cheek. Her skin was so soft, like silk.
"I don't know." Jenny said, not looking at me. "I don't know why I left. It just seemed the right thing to do at the time. I was scared, panicked and I wanted someone who knew what I was going through." Jenny said with a sigh. "Of course no one knew what I was going through and the only person who really came to mind was my mother so I went to China." She said. "I realise that was probably a mistake." She looked at me, there were tears in her eyes. "I really missed you and I was so scared when I had Bo and I wanted you there with me but-" Jenny wiped her eyes and I pulled her into a hug. Jenny pressed her face against my shoulder and held me tightly. I closed my eyes, I didn't want to let go of Jenny again. I'd lost her and she'd come back. What's that saying that I'd heard somewhere before. If you let go of the person you love and they comes back and that's when you know for sure that's when you know they love you in return.
There was a noise at the door and it opened a crack. I looked over and saw Lily looking in curiously. She made a slight face as an apology then saw Jenny and looked at me.
'Sorry, just checking. Is she ok?' she mouthed.
'Upset' I mouthed back. Lily nodded and silently closed the door. Jenny didn't seemed to have noticed and I gently pushed her away from me and stroked her cheek with my hand. She still didn't look at me. It was like she was ashamed with her decisions and choices.
"Jenny, look at me please." I asked her kindly. I just wanted her to look into my eyes and see that I didn't care, not anymore. Not now that I knew that she was safe and ok. Jenny met my eyes and looked at me for a moment. I saw her bite her lip slightly and she looked like she felt really awkward. It wasn't awkward though. I seemed to have no control over my body as I felt myself leaning towards Jenny, putting my hands around her face and then our lips met, after ten months apart I could feel Jenny's lips again. The taste of her mouth, the softness of her lips, the gentle dancing of her tongue, the way her lips seemed to respond so gently. Suddenly she pulled away.
"Remus, I can't-" She said, "It's still too...different." She said. Different? What was that supposed to mean!
"What? Don't tell me you've found someone else?" I asked her. She shook her head and put her hand on my cheek.
"No, never. There's only one man who'll ever have my heart and that's you but it's just after Bo and everything, it's still a bit weird for me to be doing this kind of thing."
"Why?" I asked. I didn't completely understand what Jenny was trying to say. Yes I get it, we have spent ten months apart, I did think Jenny was dead but why was Jenny so reluctant to do anything? Jenny sighed.
"You'll understand eventually." Jenny said. "Just, sleep next to me tonight?" She asked. I nodded and soon I was lying on the bed with my arms around Jenny protectively. I never wanted to let go of her, I didn't want this to end. I just kept thinking that if things had gone to plan, she would have been Mrs. Lupin.
I woke up from one of the best night's sleep I'd had in ages. I knew where I was immediately. In Lily and James' house, lying right next to Jenny. She was still there, I could feel her cheek against my face. I didn't want to wake up. I knew I wasn't in a dream but it felt like it. I was about to pulled Jenny closer when Bo started crying. I heard Jenny let out a soft moan and she let out an almost inaudible scream of frustration before getting up tiredly. Only then did I open my eyes.
"What?" Jenny asked sounded slightly testy. She reached into the cot and picked up Bo. Bo held her tightly and Jenny rocked him in her arms. I looked at her from the bed.
"So still not past the crying stage yet?" I asked. Jenny glanced at me then looked away. I couldn't help feel that she was slightly annoyed at that moment in time. There was a knock on the door and Jenny went to open it.
"Do you want any help?" Lily asked, "I heard Bo crying." She came into the room and raised an eyebrow when she saw me in the bed.
"Nothing happened." Jenny said. "Could you maybe get a bottle warmed up for me please." Jenny asked.
"Of course. Do you want me and James to take Bo for a while?" Lily offered.
"Isn't James asleep?" Jenny asked
"He got woken up. I applaud Bo on the size of his lungs." Lily said, a faint smirk appearing on her face.
"Um, you can take him if you want." Jenny said. As I looked at Jenny and Lily they suddenly seemed a bit older then they were. They had those looks that most mothers had, a look that I knew April didn't have. Lily took Bo and rocked him gently in her arms and gave Jenny a smile. She whispered something to Jenny before leaving. Jenny closed the door and putting her hands to her head.
"Are you ok?" I asked her gently.
"Sometimes I wish I was never a mother!" Jenny said frustrated.
"You don't mean that." I said. Jenny looked at me. She looked like she was about to retaliate but she chose not to and leant against a wall. I got up and went to her. I put my hands on her shoulders and then pulled her into a hug. Jenny seemed to become quite tense as I did.
"Remus don't." She said as she pulled away.
"Why not?" I asked her.
"Things are different now. I have a baby and if I'm with you then I won't have the support of my family." Jenny said. I looked at her stunned.
"Is that why you didn't want anything to happen last night?" I asked her. Jenny had just realised what she said and tucked stray lock of hair behind her ear.
"Yes." She said quietly. I looked at her and she took a step away and went through one of her bags.
"But I want us to be together again. I want to be a father."
"You are a father." Jenny said turning around, "but you can't play an active role in Bo's life. If you do my father will kill you." She said sincerely. I could tell she wasn't joking about it either. From my last encounter with Jenny's family I thought that Jenny's dad could kill me easily if he wanted to.
"What about while you're here. Your parent's don't need to know about anything that happens between us." I said, Jenny looked at me sadly.
"Remus please." Jenny said, "I did come to see you guys again but I don't want to go home feeling even more depressed then I already am because we had the most amazing week and you can't return to China with me."
"Don't go back to China." I said, I knew I was being selfish but I was being serious, why didn't Jenny just stay in England?
"I have to go back to China. All my stuff is there and we have the space and facilities to deal with Bo's transformations." She said. I forgot my son was a werewolf as well. I looked at her wide-eyed as the realisation of what I had done to Jenny struck me. I remember my mother trying to cope with my transformations when I was young. She was one of the strongest women I knew but she died of cancer when I was eleven, leaving my father to bring me up on his own. The Muggle Doctors said the cancer was brought on by stress. The Healers at St. Mungos agreed that it was stress brought on by my transformations and that had only been since I had been bitten.
Bo was born a werewolf. Jenny turned and went through her bag again. I went to the bed and sat down. Trying to think of any way that I could help Jenny. It was obvious that she was serious about not staying with me. I knew that her parents would have a fit. She was right, China was probably a better place to bring up Bo and I couldn't support her financially, her parents were much better off. There was nothing I could do. I didn't really notice Jenny sit down next to me on the bed until she took my hand.
"Remus, I want you to have this." She said giving me a piece of paper. It turned out to be a photo of Bo. Probably taken a few weeks ago. "I'll send you photos every so often and I promise that I will let him come over to England when he's older." Jenny said. I looked at the photo. Bo was laughing, like he had been last night when I'd walked in on Jenny cheering up my son. "Just promise me after this week you...you won't forget about us but you won't come after us, if you get what I mean." Jenny said. I looked at the picture. Ok, having something of my son's would be great but it wouldn't compensate for not having him here and not having Jenny here but I loved Jenny.
"What do you mean after this week?" I asked her curiously. Jenny smiled and looked at her hands.
"Well, like I said last night, I've missed you a lot." Jenny said, "And if this will be one of the last weeks that we'll be together, and I do still love you-" Jenny left the rest of the sentence unsaid. I nodded slowly and put the photo on the bedside table before looking at Jenny again. I could see a spark of her old personality in her eyes again and smiled. I pulled her towards me and pressed my lips against hers. She prised my lips open with her mouth and I felt her tongue gently dancing on mine. I had missed this so much. I put my hands around Jenny's waist and pulled her further up the bed with me, she lay on me, not breaking the kiss. She pulled the duvet over us and her hands began to wander my body. This was how it was meant to be between us, this was how it had almost been before she left. I rolled her over and looked at her for a while as we paused from our kiss. I did feel weak and tired from my transformation a few nights ago but I felt more alive then I had in a long time.
"You sure?" I asked Jenny. She laughed and pulled me closer and pressed a kiss on my lips. "I'll take that as a yes."
"You always knew how to interpret my kisses." Jenny said lightly like whatever we had just been talking about hadn't happened and that everything that had happened in the past year hadn't happened.
Bo sat on my chest and played with my hair. Lily and James had no objections to me staying at their house with them. On the contrary, it seemed that April had decided to move in for the week as well though I was the only adult allowed to share a bed with Jenny. James had gone to work with April, they had some more assessments today and Lily was currently throwing up in the toilet. Jenny had gone off to offer some help or assistance so I was left looking after Bo while Ling was outside in the back garden sniffing around the strange and foreign country.
"Are you a well behaved boy?" I asked Bo as he bounced on my chest. He was incredibly light so I didn't really notice it. Bo gave me a baby's grin and lay down on his front on my chest. He let out a stream of baby speak but from the sounds of it he was fairly happy. I felt happier then I had felt in ages. I put my arms around the tiny baby that was my son and gave him a quick kiss on the forehead.
"Uh," Lily moaned as she walked in shakily from the bathroom. Jenny was helping her stand up. "Why morning sickness, why I asked you?" Lily said. Jenny smiled.
"It'll be gone in about a month, trust me." Jenny said. Lily looked at her and nodded.
"Why is it called Morning sickness?" I asked as Jenny came over and picked Bo up. Bo squirmed happily and clung to Jenny. "It's mid afternoon."
"I don't know." Lily said putting a hand to her mouth like she felt like she was going to be sick again. Jenny looked at her sympathetically.
"Just think, you're going to give birth to something like this." She said holding Bo out slightly. Lily gave a smile and collapsed into a chair.
"Only thing is, my baby's father is James Potter." Lily said slightly annoyed.
"So?" I asked as I sat up. Jenny sat down next to me and let me put an arm across her shoulders.
"Hello! Anyone know James Potter?" Lily asked, "Troublemaker, heartbreaker, Troublemaker-" ticking off her fingers.
"Smart, talented and a hopeless romantic." Jenny finished for her. "Lily, I really don't see why you're complaining because honestly, that baby with a combination of both yours and James' genes is going to be almost perfect!" This left Lily with a slight smile.
"I suppose" Lily said afterwards. "But still. Oh and on top of that, add on the fact that my baby might be able to kill Voldemort!" Lily said.
"You know, I would really try and keep quiet about that." I said to Lily, "Voldemort might not be very happy that someone will have the power to kill him." Lily waved a dismissive hand.
"It's only you two, Sirius and April who know." Lily said.
"So Peter doesn't know?" Jenny asked. Lily shifted uncomfortably.
"Well to be honest, I won't let James tell him because I don't trust him as much as I trust you guys." Lily said. Jenny nodded. Bo wriggled out of her arms and landed with a slight bump on the floor.
"Bo." Jenny said. Bo had recently, in the past few days discovered the wonders of crawling. Bo let out a few baby words and crawled off. Jenny let out a sigh and took this as her cue to have some time for herself. Well, when I mean herself she pulled her legs up onto the sofa and leaned against me. I held her almost protectively and kissed the top of her head. Lily smiled.
"Do you have to go back to China?" Lily asked. Jenny gave a sad sigh.
"Yeah, I do. Otherwise Father will come and hunt me down." Jenny said, she sounded like she was joking and both Lily and I were a bit confused as to whether we should laugh or not. "But I've really enjoyed it here. I don't want to go back."
"I don't want you to go back either." I said. Jenny smiled and looked at me. She kissed my chin and made herself more comfortable.
"Yeah, well. If you're going to stay longer do you mind staying at Remus'" Lily asked. "I mean, I love having you here but seriously, you two couldn't keep the noise down just a little bit?" I laughed and nodded. Jenny was smiling.
"I bet you're as-"
"This is my house." Lily said interrupting Jenny.
"Good point" She said.
"I want to try something." Lily said. She bent over slightly and clicked her fingers. Bo turned from the blank TV to Lily. "Come here Bo." Bo looked at her slightly confused then turned to look at Jenny.
"He doesn't understand English." Jenny said. Jenny said something in Chinese and Bo smiled. He was smart for a three/four month old baby. Bo got onto his hands and knees and slowly crawled to Lily.
"Oh, he's coming this way." Lily said with a grin. She was about to pick up Bo when there was a small bark and Peter came in holding Ling. He was holding the dog out in front of him. Ling was growling at Peter and barking.
"I don't think your dog likes me." Peter said. Jenny reached for him and Peter handed the dog over gratefully.
"He doesn't get along well with many people." Jenny explained. I personally found the dog a rather enjoyable creature to be around. Lily picked up Bo as Peter sat down in a spare seat.
"So, how are you guys?" Peter asked, keeping an eye on Ling, who was standing on my legs and growling at Peter.
"Tired." Lily said. "Babies!" She said. Jenny sniggered.
"Good luck with yours. Knowing your child it'll be wanting a lot of attention." Jenny said.
"What makes you say that?" I asked Jenny as I stroked her hair.
"It will be James Potter's child." She said. Lily let out a moan and let Bo settle on her lap and play with some of her, now very long, red hair. He seemed absolutely fascinated with the colour of Lily's hair. He started talking in his baby speak and everyone looked at him. I think a baby was exactly what we needed here in England. It was a slight pity that Jenny lived in China...no, not a slight pity, it was the end of the world. I don't know what I would do in three days time when Jenny left for China again. I didn't want Jenny to leave again. This thought made me hold Jenny tighter and she looked at me.
"Do you want to go for a walk?" I asked her. Jenny smiled.
"Lily, do you mind babysitting for a while?" Jenny asked, "Remus and I want to-"
"Go for it," Lily said, "I love little Bo here."
"Looks like he loves you." I said as Bo nestled against her body in a way I'd only seen him do with Jenny. Lily grinned as Jenny got up. I picked up Ling from my legs and took him out of the room with me and only put him down after Jenny had closed the door to the living room. Ling immediately calmed down and barked happily at Jenny's feet. Jenny crouched down and scratched his head before standing up again. I got her cloak down from the cloak hooks and put it around her.
"Thanks." Jenny said with a smile. I smiled and she pressed a soft kiss against my lips. I put on my own cloak and we went out through the kitchen. Ling ran after us and out into the snow. I could see all the footprints in the snow that he'd made earlier. Jenny immediately put an arm around my waist. I pulled her closer and held her tightly against me as we walked through the cut in the hills behind Lily's house. Ling ran ahead of us.
"You know, I think we could have had a good family." I said as we walked. Jenny put her head on my shoulder.
"We could have." She said. "I suppose we still could but you know-"
"Your dad?" I asked, looking at Jenny. She nodded. I stopped and faced Jenny. "Why do we have to live in fear of your dad? He can't force us to do anything he doesn't want."
"It's a tradition thing. I grew up with it and I find if difficult to disobey him." Jenny said, looking into my eyes. I put a hand to Jenny's face and stroked some hair away from her face. With my other hand I traced her perfect Asian features. She didn't stop me, she let me and she just looked at me with a slight smile.
"I love you." I said to Jenny. Her smile wavered slightly.
"I love you too." Jenny said. She sounded so sad about it. I knew why, we only had three more days together before she'd be forced to go back to China. I pulled Jenny's face closer to mine gently and touched her lips with mine. I closed my eyes and felt Jenny's lips respond and I pressed my lips, harder, against hers. Her arms went around my body underneath my cloak and I kept my hands at her face. I slowly let my tongue into her mouth and heard Jenny let out a soft moan. My heart was beating so much faster now. I let my hands dropped and I pulled Jenny closer to me. I could feel her heart beating through our clothes. Jenny pulled away slightly out of breath but she had a strange sparkle in her eyes.
"Come to China with me." Jenny said. I looked at her surprised
"Won't your father-"
"My father can't do anything. If you live in China, as long as you don't enter our property then he can't do anything." Jenny said with a hopeful smile. I wanted to say yes, my heart was screaming yes but my damned mind was already starting to weigh up the pros and cons of moving to China.
"Will we be able to get married there?" I asked Jenny. Jenny's smile faded slightly.
"I don't know but I just want you near. I can't leave you again Remus." She said. "Not now, not after you've met Bo and after Bo's met you. I can't separate you two, it's just too cruel." Yes, I would go to China but something was holding me back. The words were ready to leave my mouth but something was stopping me. Jenny looked into my eyes and frowned.
"Don't you want to-"
"I do, I want to be with you I would move to China but something is keeping me here, I don't know what it is." I said. Jenny's gaze dropped and she took my hands.
"It's the Order isn't it?" She asked. "That's one of the reasons it was so hard for me to leave. My commitment to them." I looked at Jenny. Yes, it was the order, I'd just realised now. "Forget I mentioned it." Jenny said. "Lets just enjoy the last few days we have together." I sighed and touched Jenny's face.
"I'm sorry Jenny." I said. Jenny nodded.
"I understand, the fight for the greater good is more important then family, I get that." She said, though there were tears in her eyes. I gave her a very sorry look. I was incredibly sorry, I was kicking myself mentally for it. I gently kissed Jenny gently on the lips and looked at her. She had her eyes closed and then rested her head on my shoulder. I held her closer and pressed my face against the top of her head. Ling started yapping from a small distance away. Jenny looked up and whistled him over. Ling ran over and skidded to a stop by our feet. Jenny said something in Chinese and Ling ran back to the house. I looked at her enquiringly.
"I just told him to go inside." Jenny said.
"And he understood?" I asked.
"He's a smart dog." Jenny said. "Lee bought him for Bo. Help him through transformations, you know, that kind of thing." Jenny gave me a smile and kissed my cheek.
Jenny let out a quiet laugh as I rolled her over in the bed so that she was lying on top of me and had her head on my chest. I put one of my hands on her bare back and held her closer to me.
"Remus" She whispered.
"Hm." I answered with my eyes closed. I wanted to just relish this moment.
"You know I'm going home tomorrow right?" She asked. And there it is. My whole world crumbles again. Why did she have to remind me! I pulled her closer and held her slightly tighter.
"I know." I said. Jenny pressed her face against my chest and gently dragged her nails across my skin. It didn't hurt but it tickled slightly.
"I'm going to miss you." Jenny said. I swear it sounded as though she was about to cry. As if to confirm my suspicion I felt a tear on my chest. I looked down at Jenny and pulled her so that she was even with me.
"Jenny, I'm going to miss you to, so much but we'll see each other again. I promise." I said giving her a kiss. Jenny nodded and hugged me tightly. I looked at her and kissed her forehead.
"I love you." She said against my skin.
"I love you forever." I said, cheesy I know but it was somehow appropriate.
Jenny hugged Lily tightly. Neither girls seemed to want to let go of each other.
"Write back this time." Lily said.
"Of course, as long as you tell me when your baby is born." Jenny said. Lily nodded but neither one let go of each other. April was getting impatient, she wanted to hug Jenny. I just stood with James and glanced at him.
"My wife is mad." He muttered. I laughed slightly. It wasn't an amused laugh, just something to keep my mind off Jenny leaving.
"My turn." April said as she pried the other two girls apart. Lily and Jenny laughed.
"I'm not a toy." Jenny said.
"Sure you're not." April said. "Come and see us again soon. We miss you so much." Jenny smiled and kissed April's cheek.
"Ok. I'll come by again once Bo is old enough." Jenny said. "You do know you guys are welcome in China."
"I'm scared of your dad," April said. "Last time he nearly set your dragon on me."
"That's only because you told him you could out run a dragon." Jenny said with a grin. April grinned and stuck her tongue out.
"I can." She said. Jenny rolled her eyes. There was a crack and Lee apparated in.
"Hi sis. Ready to go?" She asked.
"Just saying bye." Jenny said. I'd noticed that Jenny hadn't looked at me all morning. I could barely even look at Jenny without feeling my heart breaking. She went to James.
"Do you want a hug?" Jenny asked. James grinned and they hugged each other as well.
"Look after yourself and if your family gives you any trouble, owl me ok?" James said. Jenny laughed.
"Alright." She said. She let go of James and then turned to me. I took a slow breath and looked at her. Her happiness seemed to have evaporated but there was a smile on her face which was probably forced. She glanced at Lee, who had picked up Bo, who had been crawling around on the floor with Ling. Jenny looked back at me.
"Um, well bye." I said. Jenny nodded and hugged me tightly.
"It's not too late, you can still come to China with us." Jenny said desperately. I knew she wanted me to go with her but as I realised a few days ago, I had to work, fight against Voldemort.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. I kissed Jenny and looked into her eyes. Everything had gone slightly blurry. I blinked a few times and everything got a bit clearer. I knew I was going to cry when Jenny had left. I wouldn't cry now. I couldn't, not in front of all our friends. Jenny kissed me again and turned to Lee. Lee looked sorry about something. Jenny gave her a soft smile and picked up her bag and took Bo. He looked over Jenny's shoulder as she held him. I think he gave the girls a smile. April grinned and looked at Lily, who smiled but I think Lily was trying not to cry as well.
"Bye guys." Lee said giving us all a wave. They opened the door and as Jenny was leaving Bo gave me what looked like a wave and said something. Jenny stopped dead and Lee looked at Jenny with a smile.
"Holy Merlin." Lee said happily.
"What?" James asked.
"Bo just said his first word." Lee said. Jenny was smiling sadly.
"What did he say?" Lily asked. Jenny said something in Chinese she turned to look at me.
"It means daddy." Jenny said. I raised my eyebrows and smiled. Jenny smiled and left quickly.
"She's a bit emotional." Lee said quietly before leaving. Lily went to the door and shut it. She wiped her eyes with the palm of her hand and James went to hug her.
"We're not going to see Jenny for a long time are we?" April asked. No one answered, I sat on the stairs with my head in my hands. I'd let Jenny ago again! I'm such an idiot. I found it hard enough the last time and I had no choice in the matter. Lily suddenly looked like she was about to retch and pushed past James and ran past me to the bathroom. James looked at us anxiously.
"I don't like what that baby is doing to her." James said. April nodded.
"Doesn't seem to be having any mercy does it?" April asked. I got up and went to the door. "Remus?" I opened the door and ran out into the snow, Jenny and Lee seemed to be talking a little way ahead. I ran to Jenny, it was bitterly cold but that didn't bother me. Ling seemed to hear me coming and turned and barked when he saw me. Jenny looked at the dog then turned around. I got to her as she started in surprise and pressed my lips against hers. I made up my mind. Jenny seemed a bit shocked at first at the kiss then returned it. When I pulled away she looked at me slightly surprised.
"Remus?" She asked. I smiled.
"I'm coming with you." I said. Jenny's face lit up.
"You are?" She asked happily.
"Well I can't go permanently but I'm going to go for a month right now and then we'll see after then." I said. Jenny bit her lip in happiness and indicated for Lee to take Bo. Lee did and then Jenny flung her arms around my neck. I held her tightly and smiled.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" She said. I felt so happy. I knew I'd probably had made the wrong choice but who cared? I'd be with the person I loved, I'd be with Jenny and with Bo. Jenny let go of me and kissed me. She turned to Lee, who was grinning.
"Yay!" She said happily, "No more sulking Jenny!" She said.
"It means we have to make a quick stop before going to China." I said.
"No problem. By all means have an extra stop" Lee said. Jenny gave me another hug and I held her tightly. I couldn't stop smiling with my decision. I saw April standing in the doorway of Lily and James' house. I caught her eyes and she smiled and closed the door. I knew she'd tell the others about my choice.
A/N:-And there we have it, his final decidion, it was a bit heavy and i think one of my darkest and slightly..erm...more different bit of writing then what i'm used to but the feelings just came tumbling out and I couldn't stop them. The nest chapter is Sirius and it's called undercover, i think by next chapter Lily will be about 5 months pregnant, i'll be skipping loads of months now because i really can't be bothered to do all the fill in chapters, and i want to get to the end quickly.
I've decided to throw away some of the rules that i've set myself. And in the next run of chapters, i'm adding a new character's POV (it'll be quite short though) and i think i might miss out a few other POVs. I'm not sure about the last bit yet though