A/N:-Ok, This is an R rated chapter. I repeat R rated Chapter and there is Slash in this chapter! Remember this is firstly and foremost a Romance story, so expect lots of romance

April's POV – April 1981

I couldn't believe what I'd done. I shut myself in my room and I hadn't seen anyone for nearly two weeks. I had tried to fight it, I wanted to free myself from that stupid curse but Voldemort is just too strong. I didn't want to see any of my friends, I knew they all hated me. No one but Sirius had come to see me and he'd only been once in two weeks. I wouldn't want to see me after the things that I'd said. Lily and James couldn't leave their house anyway and Jenny and Remus, well I'd understand if they never wanted to see me again but it wasn't me. Besides, I think they've gone back to China anyway. I felt really happy for them but it was hard to express it once your friends thought you wanted them dead. I pulled my duvet around me tighter. I hadn't gone to work for two weeks now either. I just wanted to die. There was a soft knock at the door.

"Go away." I said. I knew it as probably my mum checking up on me. Yes, I did still live at home, until recently I'd either lived at Sirius' or Lily's or at work but I just wanted to get away from everything. Hide in the hole I'd created for myself.

"It's me April." Came Lily's voice. I didn't say anything and the door opened. It was Lily, she poked her red hair around the door and looked at me. "Are you ok?" She asked, she looked quite worried.

"I thought you weren't allowed to leave your house?" I said quietly. I couldn't look at her. She sat on my bed and looked at me and I think she was smiling but I couldn't see.

"James isn't the only one who's allowed to break rules." She said. "I'm really worried about you, Sirius told us that you're not eating anything or saying anything." I rolled over to look away from Lily. "I know it's about the other week." Lily said.

"I don't want to talk about it." I muttered darkly.

"April, I know it wasn't you, you were under a curse." Lily said. I felt tears coming to my eyes. No I wouldn't cry. Lily had seen me cry quite a few times before but I wasn't going to cry now. "April, look at me." Lily said. I turned slowly to look at her. Damn Lily! Why was she so nice all the time. Lily gave m a reassuring smile and pulled me up so I was sitting up.

"Isn't it dangerous for you to be out of your house?" I asked quietly.

"Yes but this is more important right now. I can protect myself." She said.

"Are Jenny and Remus annoyed with me?"

"What do you think?" Lily asked taking my hand and holding it tightly. I loved Lily so much sometimes, like now. She was risking her life to just come and see me. A true friend if I ever had one.

"They're really angry with me aren't they?" I said looking at my hands.

"Yes they are but Remus is willing to try and put everything behind him." Lily said,

"What about Jenny?" I asked.

"Ah, you did attack her husband and you were quite horrid to her." Lily said.

"I was even worse to Remus."

"I know but as Remus said, it's nothing he hasn't been told already. But they are both worried, Jenny may not tell me but you are her oldest friend, you two have been friends since you were like one." Lily said, brushing my hair away from my face like a mother. I smiled slightly at that thought. "What?" Lily asked noticing my smile.

"I was just thinking, you're acting exactly like a mother." I said, Lily smiled.

"That's what I am aren't I? I'm not your mother but I am a mother." She said.

"I suppose. Have Jenny and Remus gone back to China yet?"

"No, not yet." Lily said, "They're waiting for Bo to get his strength up again after the full moon. He's not as used to it as Remus is."

"I can't see them. Not after everything-"

"April, Please." Lily said desperately, "It's my birthday today, I don't want all my friends arguing and on bad terms even if one of you is the spy." I looked at Lily, she had a way with words she did. She knew how to get someone feeling better. I nodded slightly and Lily pulled me into a sisterly hug. Once we let go of each other I had to admit that I felt a lot better.

"Great, now get ready, the boys, Sirius, James, Remus and Peter want to cook me dinner and I want you to come." Lily said with a smile. I looked at her when she said Sirius. I couldn't hide the fact anymore that no matter how hard I had tried, I was still in love with the guy, even if he hadn't matured much.

"Lily." I said as she got up.

"Yeah." Lily said, looking at me expectantly. I sat there with my mouth open for a while, I think I must have looked at bit like a fish as I tried to decide whether I should tell Lily. "I think I'm still in love with Sirius." Lily rolled her eyes and sat down again.

"I know that April." Lily said, "It's obvious and if it helps I think he still has strong feelings for you."

"Then why don't I see them?" I asked. Whenever I tried to see if Sirius felt the same as me I could never find anything in his eyes.

"Can you see how much I love you through my eyes?" Lily asked me. I looked at Lily and shook my head, I felt so much like a child right now. Not a twenty one year old woman but more like an eleven year old girl again. "I prove my point, now hurry up." Lily said in a whiny voice. "I'm hungry." I smiled and let Lily help me to my feet.

"You really didn't have to come and try and cheer me up." I said as I went to my wardrobe.

"Yes I did." Lily said "No one else was going to come and I can't bear to not have you not in my life." Lily said as she perched herself on the edge of my messy desk. I got out some muggle clothes and put them on. When I turned I saw Lily looking at some papers on my desk.

"No Lily, please don't-"

"These are all letters to Sirius." Lily said looking at the papers. I felt myself go red and I bit my lip.

"Lily, please put them down." I begged. Lily looked at me seriously.

"When you said you thought you still loved Sirius you weren't kidding were you?" Lily asked, "Have you sent any of these to Sirius?" I went to Lily and pulled the letters out of her hands.

"No, I haven't. I don't have the courage to do that." I said. Lily looked at me with a look I recognised. It was one that always came on her face when she was thinking. "No, Lily stop thinking, I don't need you to-"

"I need to fix this." She said with a cheeky smile. I let out a slightly annoyed moan as she grabbed my hands and pressed my wand in my hand. "Ok, here's what we're going to do. You're coming to dinner and you're going to stay quiet, otherwise Jenny might get a bit snippy."

"Jenny's still going to be there?" I asked.

"Yeah" Lily said like it was obvious, "I did say she was still at my house didn't I?" I felt like crying, Lily wasn't doing this to me. "Don't worry. And then we'll let Sirius have what he's always wanted."

"What's that?" I asked. I suddenly realised, "We're not going to-" Lily nodded.

"Come on, that or you're going to have to get drunk and sleep with him." Lily said.

"I'll think about it." I said muttered. I could barely remember the first time I'd kissed Lily because I was so out of my mind and completely shattered.

"Oh come on. I'm not that bad of a kisser am I?" Lily said. I looked at Lily, "Just joking. But you have to start dating Sirius again, it's been way over a year and you seem to be bordering on the verge of obsessed." She said glancing at the letters.

"Why are you so nice to everyone? First Remus now me."

"I love you guys." Lily said with a smile, "and that's something that's really rare nowadays and I want to keep it." She said with a smile but I knew she was being deadly serious. "See you at my house." She said giving me another quick hug before disapparating. I glanced at the papers on my desk before apparating to Lily's house. It was quite loud with loud with ling barking and playing with Harry and Bo in the living room. I was in the hall and I could hear the boys shouting at each other in the kitchen.

"No, you put that in the oven."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes!"

"What's an oven?"

"Oh please." I heard Jenny say as she left the kitchen. She stopped when she saw me. I gave her what I hoped she would take as a kind smile.

"Hi." I said weakly.

"What are you doing?" Jenny asked.

"Lily told me to come over." April said. Jenny's eyes seemed to narrow slightly.

"It's ok Jenny." Lily said behind her. "Christ, those four guys are going to be the death of us all."

"I hope not." Jenny said, "You invited April?"

"Jenny, it's alright, she's really upset about what happened." Lily said, she looked at me and I had to look away. Jenny glanced at me.

"Fine." She muttered, "but if you say anything like you said the other week."

"Don't worry about that" I said quickly. "I'll go if you don't want me-"

"No, April you're staying. Jenny this isn't your house." Lily said. "Jenny you did this to me and April and I'm doing it now. Neither one of you is leaving this house before you at least get along." She said sternly. Lily was too good a friend to have.

"Ok." I said, I don't know why, the comment was directed at Jenny.

"Alright." Jenny said.

"Good, now I suggest we try and get some back up food ready." Lily said, "The marauders are wrecking my kitchen." She said. Both Jenny and I smirked slightly then there was a slight explosion from the kitchen. We all ran into the kitchen to see all the boys looking slightly charred.

"I told you not to put any newts eyes in it yet!" Sirius said sternly to Remus. Remus gaped at him as James and Peter grinned.

"It wasn't me." Remus said.

"Sure." Peter said nodding his head.

"What have you done!" Lily said hysterically as the usually quite clean kitchen looked as though there had just been a fire.

"Remus was being stupid." James said.

"Why were you putting Newt's eyes into the food?" I asked suspiciously. They all looked at me. Remus gave me a slight smile and James and Sirius beamed.

"It was going to be a birthday present." Sirius said. Lily sighed.

"Pizza it is." She said picking up the phone off one of the counters and dialling the number of the nearest pizza delivery pizza place.

"Right, I'll get the alcohol." Sirius said. "Peter" Sirius said. Peter nodded and they both disapparated. James looked at me and gave me another smile.

"You've finally come out of hiding?" He said.

"Yeah, Lily talked some sense into me." I said. I turned to Remus. "I'm really sorry Remus. I didn't mean anything that I said, if you can-"

"I know you were under a curse. Don't worry" Remus said. His voice seemed slightly strained though. I stood slightly nervously amongst them and Lily put the phone down.

"Pizza will be here in about an hour." She said. "Now, boys, tidy the kitchen."

Sirius handed me another Firewhiskey and I downed it in one gulp. I felt it going through my body.

"Whoa." I said, I had firewhiskey before but every time I had it I had to say that. Lily came into the room and grinned.

"Kids are asleep!" She announced.

"So's Peter" James said pointing at where Peter had passed out on the sofa. We all started laughing and James pulled Lily towards him. She lost her balance, being slightly drunk anyway, and fell on him.

"O, hello." He said seductively. Remus, Sirius and I started laughing. Jenny had gone to help Lily put the children to bed. Jenny came in a moment later and grinned.

"Hello friends." She said, "Sirius, another Firewhiskey." She said. Sirius nodded.

"Yes miss." He said and picked up the bottle. "Bollocks!" He shouted.

"What?" I asked, looking at him. He was looking particularly good tonight, his hair, his eyes, his lips. Even in my drunk state I had to try and control myself.

"We've run out" Sirius said holding up the empty bottle.

"No matter." I heard Lily try and say. Try being the main word. James and Lily seemed to have gotten a new wave of passion and James was currently attached to Lily's lips.

"Oh please." Jenny muttered as she sat on Remus. She wasn't nearly as drunk as the rest of us.

"How-" Lily said before James caught her mouth again.

"Quick, avert your eyes!" Sirius said loudly. He covered my eyes like I was a child and made me look away.

"I'm going to bed. Remus?" Jenny said.

"Yep, wait a minute." I pushed Sirius' hand away and saw Remus standing up and stumbling slightly. "Whoa, head rush." He said holding his head. Jenny smiled and gave him a kiss that Remus didn't seem to want to end. "More." He said. I saw Jenny giving him a suggestive look and leave the room. Remus followed, trying to keep his balance.

"I want to play a game." Sirius said as he looked through the numerous bottles of drink we'd managed to get through.

"What game?" I asked. I blinked a few times as my vision went slightly strange.

"I don't know but it has to be a two player game." He said.

"Why?" I asked him.

"Because those two are obviously too busy to play." He said nodding to Lily and James. I think they must have forgotten we were here. I saw James' hand going to Lily's trousers. I got out my wand, not wanting to see my best friend having sex in front of me.

"Um..." I couldn't think of anything so I waved my wand. Lily was pulled off James' lap with a scream while James looked around cluelessly. Sirius started laughing and I had to bury my head in his shoulder to not show Lily I was laughing.

"What happened?" James asked. Lily got up and shook her head.

"Do you want to play a game?" Sirius asked once he'd recovered. Lily stumbled backwards and fell onto the sofa next to me.

"Hello." I said to her. She looked at me and grinned.

"Hello." She said back and we both started laughing. Sirius' face suddenly lit up in a grin.

"Lets play truth and dare only girls can only do dares." Sirius said. Lily and I looked at him. Even though we were drunk, we weren't as stupid as we could be.

"That's not fair." Lily said.

"So?" Sirius said.

"Ok." I said, "You have to do a dare though" I said pointing at Sirius and James.

"Alright." Sirius said.

"I want Lily over here, why are you playing this stupid game, Lily!" James shouted like he was a baby.

"Ok girls first." Sirius said.

"Sirius if you want us to kiss just ask." Lily said. "God, boys are so stupid." I looked at Lily and nodded.

"I totally agree." I said.

"Kiss!" Sirius said. Ok, there were some things I didn't like about Sirius and that was his really unhealthy obsession with me and Lily getting intimate. Lily was married for Merlin's sake and add the fact that we're both girls!

"Ok." Lily said. I looked at Lily.

"Huh?" I asked.

"We're drunk, we won't remember it!" Lily said.

"Huh." I said.

"Oh, come on, you always take ages." Sirius said pretending to die. I glanced at James to see what he thought of it but he looked as eager as Sirius. I rolled my eyes and put my lips against Lily's. Sirius started whooping loudly.

"Tongues." He said. I really didn't understand what was going on but I think it was the drink that was making me doing this. I couldn't believe I was kissing my best friend with tongues...again! But I do have to admit that even though Lily was a girl and my best friend and almost my sister she was better then most boys I kissed and she'd improved from last time. The door opened and I heard Jenny snap at Sirius.

"Free porn!" Sirius said.

"Oh yes." Remus said. Lily and I suddenly broke apart. She brushed her hair back and I flicked my hair over my shoulder. We both gave each other a smile.

"You've improved." I said to Lily.

"So have you." She said to me, "Happy Sirius?"

"Yeah!" Sirius said. "Do it again."

"No." Lily said.

"Please?" James said. Lily and I both looked at James who was grinning like an idiot.

"James" Lily said.

"Please." Remus said.

"Remus!" Jenny said hitting him lightly.

"What?" He said, "I'm a guy!" Jenny looked at him with an expression torn between amusement and annoyance and pulled him out of the room behind her.

"More!" Sirius said. I rolled my eyes and Lily stood up.

"I'm going to bed as well, I'm following Jenny's lead." She said. "Should anyone wish to join me you're welcome." She said looking at James.

"Alright." Sirius said standing up.

"Hey!" James said getting up as well and pushing Sirius back on the chair next to me. Sirius started laughing as Lily looked at him uncertainly.

"I was only joking." Sirius said. "You think I want to sleep with Lily when I have April?" he said putting his arm around my shoulders. Lily and James weren't listening to him anymore as they left the room. I looked at Sirius.

"Just the two of us again." I said.

"Well us and him." Sirius said nodding to a sleeping Peter.

"What do you want to do?" I asked. Sirius looked at me with a smile.

"You still single?" He asked. I immediately felt completely sober. My heart was in my throat, I couldn't answer that because I couldn't speak. "I'll take that as a yes." He said. He leaned forwards and I got my second kiss of the night. As we kissed Sirius lowered me to a lying position on the sofa, he was lying on me. He pulled away and I opened my eyes looking at him slightly surprised.

"What-" I started to say but he put his fingers over my lips as I saw his eyes looking over my face.

"I've missed you." He said quietly. I grinned and put my arms around his neck and pulled him into a more passionate, more fiery kiss. I felt his hands all over my body and various parts of him stiffen. I let my hands run over his body. Suddenly I pushed him away, as much as I wanted him, as desperately as I felt I needed him, we couldn't have sex in Lily's living room. He looked at me.

"Not here." I said taking a deep breath. Sirius looked around and then seemed to realise where he was then grinned.

"Why not?" He asked continuing the kiss. I pushed him away again.

"But its-"

"Yeah but James and Lily have had sex in a park"

"They have?" I asked him slightly shocked. He nodded, Lily had never told me this. "And I think James said they'd also done it in a life boat so I see no harm in doing it here. Enough about Lily and James." His hands were suddenly under my top. I reached for my wand, that was tucked in my pocket and conjured a blanket, so at least no one would see our bodies. I then pointed it at Peter, and while kissing Sirius I waved my wand. A blindfold and a pair of ear plugs appeared on Peter. With that done I dropped my wand and let Sirius do as he wanted, not that I was going to complaining.
I woke up as Ling started barking frantically in the living room and hallway to find Sirius' head lying against my chest and my arms around his head. I also woke up to find myself partially naked, under a blanket, in Lily's living room with Peter staring at me slightly horrified and shell- shocked. I started in alarm and shook Sirius awake. What was he doing on me? Wait, I could feel his skin on mine, which meant he wasn't fully clothed either.

"What are you doing?" Peter asked. Sirius shook his head and looked at Peter then at me and grinned. His hair seemed to flop over his face making him look cuter then usual.

"Hello gorgeous." He said with a grin.

"Sirius, I want to get my clothes back on before Lily sees us. Peter already looks like he's going to have a heart attack." I whispered. Sirius looked at Peter and laughed.

"What? Haven't you ever seen two people sleep with each other before?" He asked. Peter chose not to answer and ran from the room giving Sirius and I the chance to put on our clothes. Sirius didn't seem to want to let go of me. I can't remember what had happened last night except kissing Lily and that was about it...why was I kissing Lily?

"Here, let me help you." Sirius said reaching on the floor and grabbing my shirt. He slowly put it over my body and pulled it on me properly.

"Please say this isn't a dream." I said as I sat up. Sirius grinned at me and kissed me.

"Nope, not a dream." He said. My mouth twitched and I broke into a smile.

"It's not?" I asked. He shook his head and kissed me again. I laughed as Sirius pulled away. "Your breath stinks of stale alcohol." I said.

"So does yours." He said to me. I swatted his arm and picked up my wand from the floor.

"Accio trousers." I said. My jeans came flying towards me and then I summoned Sirius' clothes. "Put them on before anyone else finds us like this." I said smiling. Sirius nodded and began to put his clothes on. I put on my trousers and then cursed myself, where were my knickers. I was about to look for them when the door opened. Jenny looked in and gave me and Sirius a funny look.

"Where's Peter?" she asked tiredly.

"Kitchen I reckon" I said. Jenny nodded and looked at the bottles on the floor.

"Bloody hell." She muttered as she went to the kitchen. Ten minutes later Jenny, Sirius, Remus, Peter and I were in the kitchen helping ourselves to what was in Lily's fridge...or what was left after the Marauders attempt to cook last night. Both the boys were asleep and Lily and James still hadn't emerged from their bedroom. Even though Lily probably wasn't awake I'd made a coffee ready for her. If her hang over was as bad as mine, she'd need it. I rested my head on the table after I'd finished my breakfast that Sirius seemed to force me to eat.

"What exactly happened last night?" Peter asked as Remus shook his head as if to clear it.

"Nothing much." Remus said. Jenny had her head against his shoulder and her eyes closed. Peter was about to say something else when James came into the room humming to himself. Like every time he seemed to have sex with Lily he was only wearing his boxers. He saw us all looking pretty bedraggled at the table.

"Good morning all. Good day today isn't it?" He said happily. He saw the mug of Coffee that I'd made ready for when Lily came down. "Is that for Lily?" He asked. I nodded. "Great, I still don't get how you make the stuff. Lily needs to learn to just get up in the mornings, she's becoming a lazy arse."

"I am not!" Lily said from the doorway. James grinned. I turned, Lily was again, wearing what she usually wore to sleep, or after she went to sleep. I knew Lily and James' sleeping patterns too well. I have to stop hanging around them so much.

"Was I the only person that didn't have sex last night?" Peter asked. Lily and James looked at each other and smiled. Jenny looked at Peter confused.

"What do you mean only one?" Jenny asked, "Sirius and April didn't-" I think I must have been blushing because Jenny stopped halfway through her sentence and stared at me. Lily was smiling encouragingly

"Well I'm off." I said standing up.

"I'll come with you." Sirius said. Lily then frowned.

"Hang on a minute." She said, "Where?" She asked me and Sirius. Sirius scratched the back of his head while I shifted uncomfortably.

"Um, don't kill us but we slept on the sofa." Sirius said. Everyone looked at us slightly shocked.

"Do you people understand that my house is not a bloody broth-" With that I apparated out of Lily's house and back to mine. Sirius followed and we were soon both in my room though I didn't see him at first.

"Hello." He said putting his arms around my waist. I started in surprise and looked at him.

"Hi, do you think Lily will be angry with us for long?" I asked with a slight frown. I was sick of people being annoyed with me for things I had no control over.

"No." Sirius said kissing me gently. I smiled then suddenly remembered the letters on the desk. I got out my wand quickly and broke the kiss.

"Scourgify." I said at the desk and all the letters disappeared. Sirius looked at me confused.

"Auror stuff." I said, I felt my head give a particularly painful throb and I could feel a hangover coming on. I rubbed my head. "I'm going to go and get something for my head."

"I think it's a very nice head." Sirius said kissing my forehead.

"No, hangover." I said heading to the door.

"Ah yes, the ever present hangover." I looked at Sirius slightly confused, that didn't make sense. He gave me a smile and followed me out of my room and to the kitchen. My dad was sitting at the breakfast table reading a newspaper.

"Good morning April." He said not even looking up.

"Morning." I muttered, I went to the draw where we normally kept the ingredients to make the hangover cure but they weren't there.

"Where's everything gone?" I asked as I looked in the draw in disbelief. Dad looked up and frowned when he saw Sirius standing next to me.

"Your mother's gone to refresh the supplies, who's this?"

"Dad you remember Sirius." I said waving a hand at Sirius before going to get something else to eat. "Do you want anything to eat?" I asked Sirius. He shook his head and smiled.

"Oh, you're Sirius." Dad said. "Bout time I met you." Dad put the newspaper down and told Sirius to sit down, which he did. I closed my eyes, oh no, this could only end badly.

"Mr. Marsden." He said.

"So you're a Black are you?" dad asked. I think I'll stay out of this conversation. I stood by the stove waiting for my toast to cook. Despite coming from a pure blooded family we had a lot of Muggle appliances.

"Yes sir." Sirius said uncertainly.

"Not a good family that isn't. I'm not speaking rude about it but I don't like that family."

"I got disowned by them because I'm too good for them." Sirius said with a smirk. He glanced over at me and I gave him a smile. My heart was slamming against my chest, I couldn't believe what I had done last night. I thought that I wasn't ever going to be able to have Sirius again and I had slept with him. I turned around, not wanting Sirius to see me grinning like an idiot.

"Ah, so you were in Gryffindor with April?"

"Yes sir."

"Good house that. I was in Ravenclaw but her mum was in Gryffindor. Now, are you sure you don't want anything to eat. April's a good chef if she puts her mind to it." I frowned.

"If I put my mind to it?" I asked turning to my dad. He gave me a smile.

"Are you going into work today? I got an owl from your office asking if you were dead."

"Um, I'll send them an owl back. I have a very big hangover coming on." I said. Dad nodded and picked up his prophet again.

"Well at least you're smiling which is more then you've done in a while." He said with a smile on his face. I smiled back and Sirius grinned at me.

"I smell something burning." He said. I frowned, I could smell it too.

"Shit, my toast." I said bending down and looking in the grill but it was too late to save my breakfast, it was gone. All black and crispy and cremated like that. I have to learn to cook properly.
A/N:-Ok, what happened in their gathering is strangely similar to what happened at a party I went to a few weeks ago...my god, it's like my party over again but unintentionally (I didn't sleep with anyone but I got off with my best friend) . I'm sorry that Chapter was a bit strange though, I was in a majorly wierd mood when i wrote it and I had a slight hangonver and memories from my last party, and as i said a little earlier, this is strangely similar to that party...I wonder why?

The next chapter belongs to Lily. It's called Death Eater Hiding!