WARNING!!! THIS IS AN R RATED CHAPTER.....SCENES OF A SEXUAL NATURE (not like it'll bother Jessie Flower)
Lily's POV – Early September 1981
I really didn't feel comfortable living in my house now. I could see Death Eaters patrolling the streets more often. They often stood outside my house staring at it. I stood in the living room with my arms crossed staring out into the street through a crack in the curtains, they were out there again. Just seeing them made me shiver.
"Urgh, Lily, just sit down for a while." April said tiredly. I turned to look at her. She sat on my sofa staring down at her stomach. It was showing now, more then it had been when she'd been saved from the Malfoys. She still looked a bit pale from her ordeal and she didn't really like being alone anymore, which wasn't really a surprise. I looked at her as she sighed and flung her hands in the air.
"What is it?" I asked her with a frown.
"My jeans don't fit anymore." She said, "And I have to wear these really sad looking robes, I prefer muggle clothes when I'm not out and about." I smiled slightly and glanced outside again. The Death Eater was still there. Why couldn't they just leave? I put a hand to my hair and bit my lip anxiously.
"Oh Lily, sit down, for crying out loud. You've been standing there watching the road for days." April said.
"Well, you've been eating up my fridge, and there's nothing I can do anyway." I said back distractedly. What were they doing? I felt some strange force wrap itself around me and I was pulled to the sofa and forced to sit down. I looked at April, who was putting her wand away.
"I'm sorry about your food. Do you want me to get some more?" April asked.
"Oh, no, it's fine." I said. I looked at April, who was moving her finger around in circles around her slightly protruding bellybutton. "What are you doing?" I asked her slightly amused.
"I feel fat." She said. I could have cuffed her for that.
"Have you seen how fat you look?" I asked her. She sighed.
"I know but all my life I've been so thin and now..." She indicated to her belly. I put my arms around her and put my head on her shoulder.
"I know, it was the same for me and probably the same for Jenny." I said. "But you're ok right?" I asked her. She nodded.
"I'm fine." She said with a dark look, "I've been given leave from Auror training, they give you a year to kinda just have your baby and sort yourself out." April said, "And I get paid so I suppose it's not that bad but having all this free time just makes me think about things that I'd rather I didn't think about." I really wanted to ask April what it was but I knew she didn't want to think about it...but I was her best friend and it was my right to know what was bothering her...but it was also her right not to tell me, just because I was her best friend didn't mean that I had to know everything. I bit my lip anxiously.
"You staying here again for the night or are you going home or to Sirius'" I asked. April smiled at Sirius' name. She turned to me with a glitter in her eye that I hadn't seen in a while.
"He asked me to marry him." She said like a star struck young girl. I grinned.
"And what did you say?" I asked her
"I said yes." She said with a small grin. I gave her a tight hug. "I can't believe he'd actually ask me that. I was so shocked."
"Well he asked me what I thought of him asking you to marry him. He's been considering it since, oh, I don't know...July I reckon." April looked like she was about to burst with happiness. It was like she wanted to scream it out to the world but wanted to keep it to herself at the same time. I had felt like that when James properly proposed to me.
"I'm so happy Lily, it's like, every things falling into place" She said, she then turned to me. "And he's said that once we've gotten married, we'll move in together, well obviously we'll do that, but you know that house that's for sale just down the road, you know by the village green?" I nodded, "He wants to buy that house, so that we'll be close to you and then maybe our child can play with Harry sometimes, or whatever." I grinned, I felt so happy for April, after everything she had been through she deserved it.
"That would be amazing, how did he propose?" I asked eagerly. April grinned and bit her lip slightly.
"It was really sweet and slightly embarrassing" April said. "We were at mum and dad's for dinner and they already know I'm pregnant, strangely they're fine with it and dad thought they'd invite Sirius round to, you know, talk to him about it" April's grin seemed to get bigger if that was possible. "And at first it was all small talk then they were getting closer and closer tot eh fact I was pregnant with Sirius' baby. And I was growing increasingly awkward and worried about it. Mum and dad think that he should make the proper commitment and they were going to lecture him or something then he just held out a ring and asked me to marry him, right in front of my parents." April said, blushing slightly. "They were as speechless as I was. I really wasn't expecting Sirius to propose to me."
"Well at least you said yes." I said, I couldn't help grinning for April. I'd never ever seen her this happy. I'd never seen her on bursting point like this. "So your parents are alright with it?"
"Oh my god, when I said yes and when they recovered, my mum was practically making wedding plans!" April said.
"When's the wedding, can I be maid of honour?" I asked happily. I loved weddings, I hadn't been to any of my friend's weddings though. I mean, Jenny and Remus had run off to Hong Kong to get married.
"It's probably going to be next spring, after I've had the baby." April said. "Mum said she'll look after the child while we're on our honey moon."
"Oh, I wish I was on my honeymoon again." I said nostalgically as I remembered various parts of my honeymoon. It had been the greatest few weeks of my life, repeated again on my first wedding anniversary. We hadn't done anything last year but I had a feeling James was planning something for our anniversary tomorrow. He'd been acting strangely all week.
"I can't wait." April said, "Only thing is, you and James were the only ones in our group who did it all right." April said
"That's because I wouldn't let him sleep with me until we married." I said stiffly.
"No wonder you married young." April said with a smirk. I nudged her. April then went serious. "Lily, do you still have some of your pregnancy clothes?" I laughed.
"Of course I do." I said, "I predicted they would come in useful in the future after I had Harry."
"Oh, are you planning on having another one?" April asked. "Get pregnant now so that our children can be in the same year. And make sure it's the same sex as my child!" April said with a laugh. I burst out laughing.
"Oh, I'll be trying tonight." I said, "Or I hope I will. It depends if Harry's fallen asleep on my bed again or not." April got up slowly. I helped her up by pushing her back. She sneered at me after as I gave her my most innocent look.
"I'm going home. It's not like I'll be able to fit on Sirius' bed anyway." April said looking at her stomach.
"Alright, come here quickly." I said beckoning her towards me. April took an uncertain step towards me. I put my hands either side of her waist and then, just to annoy her, "Have a good sleep little baby. I'll see you tomorrow or the day after-" April pushed me away slightly annoyed as I started laughing.
"Oh Merlin, do you know how annoying that is!" I gave her a look as she realised what she had just said. "I'm sorry for doing that a lot when you were-"
"It's alright, you know how it feels now." I said, "Night." I gave her a quick wave and April apparated away. She wouldn't be able to apparate for long otherwise she'd put her baby in danger. I got up and went to the window again, it was like an annoying habit of mine. The Death Eaters had gone...for now.
I headed upstairs and glanced at the bed then rolled my eyes. Harry was fast asleep in a nest of my duvets and pillows. James, however wasn't in the room, which confused me slightly but didn't worry me. I started to change when I felt a pair of arms around my waist. I grinned as James kissed my neck.
"Hello gorgeous." He said. I could almost hear the grin in his voice.
"Hello James." I said. "Do you mind if I change?"
"Not at all, let me help you." He lifted my shirt off then went for my trousers. I laughed gently as he then went and hunted for my night clothes.
"You're so strange sometimes James." I said. James turned to me with a smile. I noticed he wasn't wearing his glasses and his hair seemed a little messier then usual.
"Couldn't you just sleep in that tonight?" He asked. I looked down myself. All I was actually wearing was my bra and knickers. I looked at James with an eyebrow raised. He shrugged, "What? I've seen you in less." He said truthfully. I shook my head and summoned a slim fitting shirt and put it on.
"What am I going to do with you?" I asked him as I picked up Harry and placed him on the bed under my duvet and began to put the pillows back into place. James jumped on the bed and put his arms around me.
"You're going to have more babies with me and you're going to grow old with me, and you're going to bore our grandchildren to death with me and you'll love me until the day you die." He said like a child. I kissed the end of his nose and rested my arms on his shoulders.
"And what makes you think I'll do that?" I asked playfully.
"You love me." James said with a grin. I grinned and kissed him. When we pulled away I played with a small lock of his hair.
"Did you know that Sirius and April are engaged now?" James' mouth dropped open in shock. I gently put a finger under his chin and closed his mouth.
"What?" He asked. "Sirius actually proposed to April?"
"In front of her parents as well." I said with a grin. "Now, if you put Harry into his bed, maybe, just maybe, I'll have sex with you tonight."
"I'm not in the mood right now, Sirius actually proposed?" James asked. I looked at him annoyed.
"What do you mean you're not in the mood? You're always in the mood." I let go of him. James pulled me closer and made himself slightly taller as he knelt on the bed.
"Well I am but I want to wait until tomorrow. I have something really really special planned for you." He said with a grin. I smiled.
"And what's that?" I asked him as he pulled me closer. Our faces were almost touching.
"Surprise." He said as he kissed me gently on the lips. I smiled.
"Can't you just give me a hint?" I asked.
"No. Surprise." He said with a grin. "I'll take Harry to his bed and then you can cuddle me all night and bug me into telling you what I have planned." James said.
"Sounds good to me." I said with a smile. James grinned then picked Harry up and headed out of the room. I slipped into the bed and waited for James. He seemed to be in a very playful mood tonight because when he returned, he jumped across the bed, he seemed to tackle me and I let out a scream of surprise as we fell off the bed and onto the floor.
"So what do you have planned tonight?" I asked James as I kissed his chest. He had his arm wrapped around me and we seemed to have found ourselves under the window in our bedroom, wrapped in our duvet and nothing else.
"I'm not telling you. I've told you already, it's a surprise." James said. I lay on top of him and kissed his chest again.
"Please." I said. I could feel parts of him losing control, again. James looked at me uncertainly, no doubt he felt it too. I kissed his chest again and let my hands begin to wonder.
"Er, Lily what time is it?" He asked.
"I don't know." I glanced over to my clock on the bedside table, "It's nearly nine."
"Oh my god." James said lying against the floor. "I have to stop doing this too you." I laughed.
"I have no problem with it." I said with a playful grin. Ok, so I hadn't slept all night, and I was incredibly tired but we'd only stopped half an hour ago! I was still really worked up. James grinned as he had his eyes closed. I kissed his chest again and slowly the kisses went slightly further south until James pulled me up to look at him before I could reach further down then his bellybutton.
"What?" I asked with a grin.
"Wait until tonight." James said. I pouted slightly annoyed as he kissed me on the lips again. "Please, Lily." He said. I let out a whine and he got up slowly. I pulled the Duvet around me tighter, admiring the view I was getting of his body as he put some clothes on.
"You're so evil." I muttered as I sat against the wall watching James. He gave me a knowing smile. "Don't give me that look, what else are you supposed to do today?" He crouched down next to me once he was fully clothed.
"I've got to try and get Harry to sleep again as soon as possible so that what I have planned will actually go according to plan." He said, giving me another kiss. I pouted slightly.
"Fine." I said. I really wanted to know what James had planned, he was being an evil bastard, and I told him that. He just laughed, "Don't laugh at me, you are. Just when you get your hormones under control, mine are going absolutely wild. It's not fair!"
"Ah, dearest Lily, just wait." He said leaving the room.
"STOP SAYING THAT!" I shouted back. I just heard James laughing in the hall.
I spent the rest of the day trying to get James to tell me what he was planning for tonight. Jenny decided to come over during the day, having moved back to England last month. I spent the rest of the day complaining about James' lack of information. Jenny just laughed at that.
"Never did I think I'd see the day when You, Lily, were more sexually charged then anyone I know!" Jenny said. I nudged her feeling slightly offended at the remark.
"Shut up." I said to her.
"Ok, I'll be quiet." She said, "Have you decided on the secret keeper yet?" She asked. My mood was immediately dampened.
"Um, James and I are going to make Sirius Secret keeper but that's only when we think we have to cast the spell on him" I confided, "I mean, there doesn't seem to be much urgency right now." Jenny nodded.
"Well, We're all pretty much safe but you know, there's like ten new deaths in the prophet every day." Jenny said. I nodded, I knew that. We lapsed into a silence at that. Again my mind began to wander.
"I wonder what James has planned" I said. Jenny laughed at me.
"I'm sure it's something wonderfully romantic." Jenny said, "Oh, Remus wanted me to give this to you, it's like an anniversary present." She said with a smirk. She got her wand and seemed to conjure a present. I looked at her curiously. Jenny was looking at me innocently but I could tell what was in the present was far from innocent. My suspicion was right as I held up some rather long silk scarves and a small note in Remus' handwriting:
James and Lily, use these well, they've got un unbreakable charm on them
Jenny gave me an innocent smile.
"We saw them and thought of you." Jenny said. I put them back into the box, making a mental note to tell James about them once Jenny left.
"And what do you want us to do with them Jenny?" I asked her expectantly. She gave me a knowing grin.
"You're a smart witch, you'll figure it out on your own, or if you don't, James definitely will" Jenny said.
"So you didn't even think about April or Sirius?" I asked her, slightly amused.
"Well I did, then I thought about what April's been through the realised she'd probably freak out if she tried to do anything like that with Sirius." Jenny said sincerely.
"Yeah, that's true. She probably would." I said. I clapped my hands, "Well, I'll be certain to tell James about these scarves, I'm sure he'll love them."
"Oh yeah, I'm sure he will." Jenny said with a cheeky smile. I looked at her unamused. She grinned. "Sorry, it's just that I've heard a lot from April about you and James." I looked at her, "Looks can be deceiving can't they. And here I was thinking you and James were like every other couple and just did it in a bed" I opened my mouth in pretend shock.
"Jenny!" I said, "Shut your mouth right this instant. Where's Bo, shouldn't you be looking after him?"
"Remus is with him. You're not the only one with an unemployed boyfriend." Jenny said.
"Well none of us have employed boyfriends." I told her.
"True," Jenny said, "But unlike James and Remus, Sirius chooses to be unemployed."
"I'm surprised he's managed to get along this far." I said.
"I know." Jenny stood up, "Well I have to go. I just came to see your reaction to the present we got you. Remember, unbreakable." She said pointing at the scarves. She laughed again and disapparated before I could throw a cushion at her.
"What was that about?" James asked as he came in holding Harry.
"Present." I said holding up the scarves. James grinned and his eyes glittered with mischief, I did not like that look.
"O, can we play with them?" James asked as he put Harry down.
"No."
"Please"
"No"
"But Lily-"
"No"
"Lily-"
"Daddy, mummy say no." Harry said as he walked to me and begged for me to pick him up but tugging on my trousers. I put him on my lap and smiled at my son.
"That's right. Mummy says no." I said, giving Harry a quick kiss.
I still hadn't found out by the time I was putting Harry to bed. It was really really starting to bug me now. James had begged that I let him try something with the scarves that Remus and Jenny had got us. He had this crazy idea in his head that I would actually let him tie me to the bed, no. I was not going to do that! I was going to kill Remus and Jenny next time I saw them.
"Your father is such an annoying man." I said to Harry, "He needs to started thinking with his head rather then his b-" I stopped myself. Harry was looking at me tiredly. "Just try and sleep." I said to Harry as I rocked him gently in my arms and hummed a lullaby I knew. The door opened and James came in.
"Is he asleep?" James asked. I looked at James,
"Nearly, why?"
"Oh, I just wanted to know." James kissed me quickly.
"Oh right, so when are we actually going to celebrate our anniversary?" I asked James.
"When Harry is completely asleep. I'll see you in a minute then." James said giving me another quick kiss then waiting until I turned around before leaving the room. I began humming gently to Harry again until his head was on my shoulder and I could hear him breathing soundly. I gently lay him in his bed and kissed his fore head. I glanced around the room. Every night I tidied it up and yet James and Harry still made a mess in here every single day. I waved my wand and everything went into it's rightful places. God, sometimes being a witch was the best thing in the world. I went to the door and put my hand on the doorknob, ready to leave the room when I noticed a letter stuck to the wall by the light switch. I looked at it curiously and opened it.
Follow the Lilies
It said. What lilies? Was this another joke of James'. I opened the door and on the floor was a trail of lily petals. I smiled and closed the door behind me and looked to see where the petals led. I couldn't really see so I followed the trail of lily petals as the note had said. It led into the bathroom. I opened the door of the bathroom and went in. I gasped. It had been completely transformed from a boring old bathroom into the most romantic room I had ever seen.
The room itself was fairly dark, only lit up by light from candles. The floor was adorned with rose and lily petals. The toilet seat was down and also had some flowers on it, between the flowers were several lit candles. On every surface that wasn't the floor there were red and white candles, burning slowly. They were scented and added to that already pleasant smell given off by the flowers. My eyes slowly went to the bath that was quite full. The surface of the water was covered in white foam. Next to the bath was a small table with a few candles on it as well as two wine glasses and a bottle of wine. I also, hadn't failed to notice a bowl of strawberries with a small bowl next to it, with what I could only guess had either chocolate or cream in it.
I couldn't help smiling, it was amazing. I heard the door close behind me and saw James standing behind me. He smiled.
"You like it?" He asked.
"I love it!" I said putting my arms around him and giving him a deep and passionate kiss.
"Well, the idea is, I give you a bath." James said, nodding towards the bath. I looked at the bath playfully.
"Is that why there's no soap and there's no hair products?" I asked with a grin. James nodded and kissed me again.
"And wine."
"You don't need wine to make me do certain things." I said.
"I know, I just thought it would be a nice touch." James said. He pulled his shirt off, showing his bare chest and still rather nicely toned muscles. "I would be honoured if you joined me in having this bath." James said regally with a grin.
"I would be delighted to give you that honour." I said with a smile. I was soon undressed and I got into the lovely warm bath after James. He wrapped his arms around me as I let the warm water just engulf me.
"I've put a charm on the bath so no water will slop over the edge, and it'll stay warm until we've finished." James said.
"Hmm" I said. I closed my eyes and just let myself feel James' body against mine. I loved it. He made me feel so safe, even if I felt uncertain in the house. I felt his lips against the back of my neck. I sat up properly and the kisses went down my back. I turned and looked at James.
"Have I ever told you how much I loved you?" I asked him with a smile. He smiled back.
"No."
"I love you more then life itself." I said with a smile. James smiled.
"What's the point in that? If you're not alive then I can't be happy." James said cheekily. I swatted his shoulder and reached across to pick up a strawberry from the bowl.
"Isn't it out of season for strawberries?" I asked James.
"Nothing is out of season when it comes to you." James said. I smiled and put the strawberry near his mouth. He smiled and took a bite out of it.
"You're so sweet" I said putting the rest of the strawberry in my mouth. James grinned and pulled me closer and kissed me. I felt his hands dancing down my back and over my bum, actually, I think I felt one creeping up between my legs. I didn't break the kiss and allowed James' tongue instant entry into my mouth. He didn't have to try and tease me this time. Somehow James had managed to turn me in the water so that he was on top of me and I was against the edge of the bath.
"I like this position." James said with a grin. I smiled.
"You would wouldn't you?" I said. I reached up and took his glasses off. I put them on the small table next to the bath. James grinned and suddenly disappeared under the water. I sat up slightly alarmed.
"James!" I said. I knew he could only be in the bath but still! I was about to feel in the water when I felt something between my legs. I gripped the sides of the bath as I realised it wasn't just anything between my legs it was James' head.
"James, what are you doing?" I asked. I don't think James heard me as I felt a tingling sensation going all the way through my body and I was forced to try and relax against the side of the bath. "James!" I said again. I began to feel the pleasure and bliss that usually came when there was usually a different part of James' body between my legs. My heart was speeding up and my breathing was getting faster. I gripped the edge of the bath tighter as suddenly James appeared from the water.
"Do you want me to carry on?" He asked with a grin. I wasn't in any state to refuse so I nodded and he grinned slightly and disappeared again. This had to be one of the best experiences I'd ever had. Just before I reached my peak James appeared again breathing heavily after being underwater for such a long time. He was covered in bubbles and just looked better then ever, I let go of the side of the bath and pulled him towards me and placed my mouth firmly over his. He had absolutely no objections and let me play with the most delicate part of his body. He'd done his job, now it was time I did mine.
"See, no wine needed." I said later that night as I sat in the bath, staring at the ceiling. James' arms were around me and he was holding me as close to him as possible.
"I know." He said with a smile, "We have to try that again sometime." He said with a grin.
"Oh yeah" I said. He laughed and kissed the side of my wet head. I liked this, sitting in the bath with James, it was, I don't know. There was something special about it. It was different to when I sat with him in the living room or was lying in bed with him, for example. I liked it. James obviously felt it too as he adjusted his arms so that he was holding me more securely. I had my fingers intertwined with his and was stroking one of his legs with my foot, somehow.
"Do you think we should get out?" James asked,
"No." I said with a smile,
"What if we get all pruny?" He asked with a smile, kissing the top of my head.
"Who cares?" I said with a smile
"We could try out another new thing with those scarves Jenny and Remus gave us." James said, making me turn to look at him.
"No James." I said. "As much as I do love and trust you, I'm not letting you tie me to the bed."
"Fine, what if I let you tie me to the bed?" James asked me. I looked at him intrigued. "Got your attention now haven't I?" he asked with a grin.
Needless to say, last night was the best night I've ever had. It beats every single thing in the world, except when James proposed. The next morning the entire gang decided to come over for lunch. They found James and I cuddled up together on the sofa, amazingly, Harry still hadn't woken up yet. James and I were in the middle of a make out session, which was rather innocent compared to the night we'd had.
"So?" came Jenny's voice after the first crack. James and I broke apart for a minute.
"So what?" I asked as James pulled me into another kiss.
"How was last night?" Jenny asked,
"Do you really need an answer to that question?" Sirius asked Jenny.
"Fuck off." James said. "Leave us alone for a while." We stopped kissing and he smiled at me. I grinned and laughed as he quickly rolled me over so that he was lying on top of me slightly.
"Oh Merlin, what have we done to those two?" April asked, looking at the others. James and I started laughing.
"Why are you watching?" I asked April. I looked at her as James attacked my neck.
"I'm not watching!" April said. She wasn't either, she seemed rather interested in the curtains. Sirius was watching however and so was Jenny, with a rather weird look on her face.
"Where's Remus?" James asked, as he glanced at them.
"He's coming in a minute." Jenny said, "Um, could you two maybe break apart before Bo gets here?"
"Why are you all here anyway?" I asked as I sat up and straightened my top.
"Lunch." Sirius grinned.
"On the one day you're not welcome, you decide you want me to throw a lunch for everyone?" I asked. Sirius looked at Jenny.
"Yeah that seems about right." Jenny said. I looked at James. I melted again the moment I looked into his amazing warm, kind hazel eyes
"Fuck off" James said as advanced for me again. Sirius grabbed him by the shirt and pulled him off me. I looked slightly annoyed at Sirius but Jenny and April lifted me to my feet and held me away from James.
"You will control your hormones!" April said slowly. "You will not kiss each other in front of us again for the rest of the day." I laughed.
"Fat chance." I said.
"It was worth a try." April said with a shrug, "But seriously, please control your hormones. Both of you -" April glanced at James, "especially you James. Not everyone wants to see what you have, even if you do have trousers on." James smiled and sat down and covered his waist with a cushion. Sirius laughed and sat down next to James, as James was now turning a slight shade of red. April turned to me with her mouth open.
'Lucky' she mouthed at me I grinned stuck my tongue out slightly.
'I know' I mouthed back with a smile.
A/N:-Ok, here's the next chapter, this has to be oneof my fav chapters. By this time i was tired of writing dark stuff or depressing stuff so I made it all light and fluffy. As for April being raped....She doesn't even know if she was raped, I don't actually know to be honest. Jenny is keeping her promise to April and no one else knows. There was another common question that needed answering....Ah yes, i remember...The Death Eaters are holding back because of Voldemort's orders. Voldemort is waiting for a while cause he not only wants to kill Harry but he wants to destroy their group of friends as well in the process so he's waiting also, Dumbledore put some spells and stuff on the house, I think i mention it somewhere...I think it was in Death Eater Hiding i meantioned it. Anyway, hope you liked this chapter, the next few chapters are pretty much all Lily and Peter's POVs...unless it's the sad ending....The order of chapters for the last few chapters will be
For the happy ending:-The Secret Keeper (Peter's POV), Beyond the End (Lily's POV), Revenge is a dish best served cold (Peter's POV) I might change the name of that last chapter.
For the sad ending:-The Secret Keeper (Peter's POV), To The End (Lily's POV), Twleve years (Sirius' POV), The memorial (Harry's POV)...I might not add HArry's POV.
So I'll let you know when I've also posted the sad ending to To The End