Chapter 3 "It's happening again"

"Oh really? that's great" Peyton pushed the words out her mouth. Nathan gave her a funny look knowing that what she said was complete crap.

"If this is making you uncomfortable I'll leave" Nathan said trying to not push the subject on his ex... Peyton looked away for a second and looked back at Nathan.

"You know it's just weird that's all. not the I love you part, just the fact that well it really doesn't matter does it Nate...So tell me everything...and I mean everything." Peyton said smiling. She went over to her computer desk and pulled out the chair for him to sit in. He began speaking and she just listened inserting witty comments now and then. An hour later Nathan decided it was time to go home. As he was walking out Peyton stopped him.

"Not to sound unappreciative of the time you been spending with me lately what's the real deal behind it. I know I'm cool but not that cool(smiles)" Peyton said while handing Nathan his Jacket.

"I know you've had a hard time lately and you needed a friend. Plus I guess I just missed having you around once and a while. The guys would think I'm totally whipped if I told them half the stuff I told you" Nathan said zipping up his jacket.

"There not the only ones who'd think that(starts laughing) Tell Haley I said hi or to give me a call ok?" Nathan nodded and walked out the door. Peyton looked around the empty room and splattered on her bed.

When Nathan got to his home Haley was there watching tv. When she saw him walk through the door she hurried and ran over to where he was and planted a big kiss on him. She walked him over and they both sat down. Nathan stole the remote from Haley and turned to a basketball game. Haley just looked at him and playfully hit him...

"I called you earlier by the way. where were you?" Haley asked sitting up to go to the kitchen. Nathan took the phone out his pocket noticing he had 2 missed calls.

"Oh I must have had my phone off. I stopped by Peyton house. Oh yeah she said for you to call her. She's all alone over there. Her dad is gone for a while and Brooke hasn't come around. I don't want her to fall apart she's come so far since(hesitates)...well anyway what you want to do tonight? I'm bored" Nathan said while flipping channels. Haley got quiet. She waved the paranoid concerns she began to have off. Peyton was just his friend now. She began feeling proud that Nathan was so concerned and caring of Peyton.

"You said she's come so far...so far since what?" Haley asked a bit worried.

"Nothing...nothing" Nathan repeated twice. Haley wasn't sure she should let it go but she did. She walked back into the living room. She looked at Nathan and thought to herself how cute he was. She walked over to him and sat on top of him starting to kiss him.

"I know.... something we ....could do" Haley said in-between kisses

"Well yeah that's always fun" Nathan said getting into a more comfortable position.

That night in Peytons bedroom the rain from outside started to thicken. The sound of the drops was becoming louder and more noticeable. Peyton looked out the window wondering what was going on with her life. Her best friend hated her.. the guy she loved she couldn't have...she missed Lucas a lot and Nathan went and found true happiness. nothing seemed to fall in place in her life. She walked to the bath room and grabbed the nearest razor. She held it to her wrist for 10 seconds staring at it... wanting every inch of the razor to rip it's self through her skin. She looked up at he mirror and started to cry as she let the razor fall out her hand. she sat on the bath room floor crying. She crawled over to the phone and called Nathan cell phone. He picked up.

"Peyton do you know what time it is...." Nathan noticed he heard crying on the other side of the phone and got silent.

"It's happening to me again" Peyton said. Nathan immediately sat up.

a/n-It's been a long time since I updated. I decided to take this story in a little different direction then at first. You'll get an explanation for the end of the chapter in the next. But this is very much still going to be focus on the nathan/haley/peyton triangle.