OMG I'm finally back from my vacation! So sorry I can't give specific
thanks to every on that reviewed right now. I don't have much time. I'll do
it with my next chapter. Sorry if this one is a little short, but like I
said I just got back, and am really busy unpacking.
Disclaimer: None of these characters are mine...sadly... Chapter 5 Regrets
When I finally woke up it was almost six. I could still feel Kurama's arms rapped tightly around me. I snuggled into the blankets around us, breathing in the scent of roses. God how I love that smell. I felt comfortable, and really didn't feel like ever leaving that spot. Then my mind kicked in, and started thinking over what had happened.
I don't want to deal with this right now! How could I let this happen..?
Deciding to hit the road before Kurama woke up; I carefully slipped out of his embrace, and began putting my cloths back on. I was finally putting on my shirt when I heard the door shut down stairs. I froze.
"Shuuichi! I'm home."
I looked over at the bed just as Kurama sat up. His eyes were wide trying to cope with the situation. First he looked at the door, then at me, finally down at himself. With speed I didn't know he possessed he was out of bed and getting dressed.
"Shuuichi? Are you up here?" His mother's voice in the hall right by his door.
"Hiei you have to go if she finds you here..."
I was already gone out the window.
The air was cold, as I ran at abnormally high speeds. The wind ran its fingers though my spiky hair, and rippled the fabric of my cloak. Still it couldn't blow away my current problem.
Kurama and I had... well now there was no way our relationship could go back to normal. I didn't want to be in this situation. I couldn't hand over my heart like this, or worse what if his feelings weren't the same as mine. Youko knew of lust, not love.
I felt scared. I didn't want to be hurt, that is why I always pushwd every one away. Damn that fox. I knew I couldn't hate him, even if I wanted to. I love him.
I slowed down and found my self-standing in front of a place I knew only too well. With out even knowing it I had found my way to Genkai's temple.
"Hiei!" A small feminine voice called.
I turned to see Yukina run out he temple door. She had a polite smile on her face.
"I wasn't expecting you today! Do you want to come inside...Hiei is something wrong?" She asked her tone suddenly turning worried.
"No."
I still couldn't erase my fears from my expression.
"Oh please tell me what's wrong?" She said with a pleading note.
"It's nothing you should be worried about."
"But I do worry about you. You have been a good friend to me."
She does not know she that I am her brother, still she cares for me like one.
"Yukina?" The most grating voice I ever heard called out.
"I'm sorry Kazuma, Hiei came to visit. I'll be in, in a minute."
I sighed. I was interrupting her day, and even though I would rather die before leaving her alone with overgrown fly. The thought that they were in love sent a jolt through my stomach. They could be together; Kurama and I couldn't.
"That is all right Yukina. Actually I have other business to attend to, so I must be going."
"So soon?" She asked disappointed.
"I'm afraid so. Good bye."
I zoomed off in a blur of black. Night came and I found a tree to spend the night in. The branches were smooth and white, sweeping down towards the ground in wide arcs. They appeared very much like the water in a water fountain cascading down, creating a large curtain of green. In the wind the branches swayed like hair, and altogether it created a peaceful atmosphere. Nothing like my mind.
Regrets...sometimes you regret something so much, you wish it never happened. You hope that time will just make it go away. Sometimes your fear clouds your heart, and all you can do is run.
This chapter was a little short, but oh well. I will be having more sadness for you shortly! aren't you glad! lets all just read sad stuff, and get really depressed...
Disclaimer: None of these characters are mine...sadly... Chapter 5 Regrets
When I finally woke up it was almost six. I could still feel Kurama's arms rapped tightly around me. I snuggled into the blankets around us, breathing in the scent of roses. God how I love that smell. I felt comfortable, and really didn't feel like ever leaving that spot. Then my mind kicked in, and started thinking over what had happened.
I don't want to deal with this right now! How could I let this happen..?
Deciding to hit the road before Kurama woke up; I carefully slipped out of his embrace, and began putting my cloths back on. I was finally putting on my shirt when I heard the door shut down stairs. I froze.
"Shuuichi! I'm home."
I looked over at the bed just as Kurama sat up. His eyes were wide trying to cope with the situation. First he looked at the door, then at me, finally down at himself. With speed I didn't know he possessed he was out of bed and getting dressed.
"Shuuichi? Are you up here?" His mother's voice in the hall right by his door.
"Hiei you have to go if she finds you here..."
I was already gone out the window.
The air was cold, as I ran at abnormally high speeds. The wind ran its fingers though my spiky hair, and rippled the fabric of my cloak. Still it couldn't blow away my current problem.
Kurama and I had... well now there was no way our relationship could go back to normal. I didn't want to be in this situation. I couldn't hand over my heart like this, or worse what if his feelings weren't the same as mine. Youko knew of lust, not love.
I felt scared. I didn't want to be hurt, that is why I always pushwd every one away. Damn that fox. I knew I couldn't hate him, even if I wanted to. I love him.
I slowed down and found my self-standing in front of a place I knew only too well. With out even knowing it I had found my way to Genkai's temple.
"Hiei!" A small feminine voice called.
I turned to see Yukina run out he temple door. She had a polite smile on her face.
"I wasn't expecting you today! Do you want to come inside...Hiei is something wrong?" She asked her tone suddenly turning worried.
"No."
I still couldn't erase my fears from my expression.
"Oh please tell me what's wrong?" She said with a pleading note.
"It's nothing you should be worried about."
"But I do worry about you. You have been a good friend to me."
She does not know she that I am her brother, still she cares for me like one.
"Yukina?" The most grating voice I ever heard called out.
"I'm sorry Kazuma, Hiei came to visit. I'll be in, in a minute."
I sighed. I was interrupting her day, and even though I would rather die before leaving her alone with overgrown fly. The thought that they were in love sent a jolt through my stomach. They could be together; Kurama and I couldn't.
"That is all right Yukina. Actually I have other business to attend to, so I must be going."
"So soon?" She asked disappointed.
"I'm afraid so. Good bye."
I zoomed off in a blur of black. Night came and I found a tree to spend the night in. The branches were smooth and white, sweeping down towards the ground in wide arcs. They appeared very much like the water in a water fountain cascading down, creating a large curtain of green. In the wind the branches swayed like hair, and altogether it created a peaceful atmosphere. Nothing like my mind.
Regrets...sometimes you regret something so much, you wish it never happened. You hope that time will just make it go away. Sometimes your fear clouds your heart, and all you can do is run.
This chapter was a little short, but oh well. I will be having more sadness for you shortly! aren't you glad! lets all just read sad stuff, and get really depressed...