Disclaimer: Even the suicidal characters aren't mine!
Chapter 7 confessions
"How long has he been here?" I heard that idiot ask the detective.
"All night," my sister answered for him.
"He must love my son to stay...I didn't even know Shuuichi had a ...boyfriend."
"I didn't know they were even together. Did you guys know?" Keiko sounded.
The others all said no.
It unnerved me to hear them talk about me, but I abstained from the need to beat their faces in. The truth was I couldn't help but feel vulnerable. They knew about my feelings for Kurama, and he didn't. What if he didn't feel the same for me? I didn't want to answer any funny questions from the others.
"Um excuse me...I would like to sit with my son for a while. You don't have to leave."
It was his mother. She shut the door behind her, as she entered the room. Kurama's mother seemed kind enough. She pulled up one of the chairs in the room, and sat down on the other side of his bed.
"Do you love him?"
"Hn."
"He is lucky to have so many friends...I didn't even know they existed until yesterday...or that he had a boyfriend...or...or...oh how could I be such a horrible mother not to know he was depressed like this! He could have died, and it would have been my entire fault!" She broke down into sobs.
"He didn't want to worry anyone," I told her quietly. I knew Kurama would hate it for her to be crying like this, and trying to take all the blame. "Especially you. He loved you too much to burden you."
"You are such a sweet boy... I'm glad he found someone like you. Just do me favor...take care of him for me. He needs someone to take care of him. He is always trying to do everything on his own. He'll never let anyone take care of him."
"I will."
After that we both fell silent.
There is something about hospitals that have a weird effect on me, because I couldn't help but feel lethargic. If I wasn't talking or busy hating myself, I would accidentally fall asleep. No matter how hard I tried to stay awake.
It was so warm lying against Kurama, and listening to his heart beat right by his ear. Sleep just seemed to be a natural by product...
...
...
It was dark, or maybe it wasn't. I couldn't open my eyes. I felt drowsy, and slightly lightheaded. I could hear soft words being spoken, but they just became jumbled in my head. My mind slowly processed them, and tried to make them into coherent sentences.
"You came back to me...I thought you hated me...I was afraid to be alone...I didn't...I couldn't live with you hating me...you only wanted to help me...and I couldn't even control myself...all I ever wanted was your love..."
My brain began to speed up.
Love...
Love...
The love I had for Kurama...
Wait Kurama...
The hospital...
Love...
I opened my eyes, and was surprised to see warm green ones staring back at me.
"Your awake," I said.
"So are you...I'm sorry for all the trouble I put you and everyone through...mostly you."
"You're so stupid fox...trying to leave us like that."
I couldn't keep my relief out of my voice, and I'm sure he noticed it.
"I didn't think you would come back... I thought you'd left me..." A tear slid down his cheek.
"I would never leave you kitsune...I..."
He looked up at me with tear filled eyes. They made his eyes glisten like glass.
"Hiei...your crying..."
I was taken aback. I hadn't even felt the hot tears sliding down my cheeks, and crystallizing into gems, as they fell from my face.
I broke down. Even I didn't know how scared I was that he would leave me. That I would never hear his voice again, or see those eyes of his.
I felt strong arms wrap around me, pulling me closer to his chest. I buried my face there trying to ease my guilt and sadness with that comforting warmth he gave off.
"I...I love you Kurama."
He hugged me tighter, and I felt him nuzzle my neck. His hot breath fell onto my ear.
"I love you too."
Ahh! So mushy...even though I doubt Hiei would be like that...but too bad its still cute! I know you can say it! I'm such a hypocrite. In my other story Good bye, I'm all like Hiei wouldn't cry. Then look I just made him cry!!! I'm a total idiot! The next chapter is just to sum up the story.
"How long has he been here?" I heard that idiot ask the detective.
"All night," my sister answered for him.
"He must love my son to stay...I didn't even know Shuuichi had a ...boyfriend."
"I didn't know they were even together. Did you guys know?" Keiko sounded.
The others all said no.
It unnerved me to hear them talk about me, but I abstained from the need to beat their faces in. The truth was I couldn't help but feel vulnerable. They knew about my feelings for Kurama, and he didn't. What if he didn't feel the same for me? I didn't want to answer any funny questions from the others.
"Um excuse me...I would like to sit with my son for a while. You don't have to leave."
It was his mother. She shut the door behind her, as she entered the room. Kurama's mother seemed kind enough. She pulled up one of the chairs in the room, and sat down on the other side of his bed.
"Do you love him?"
"Hn."
"He is lucky to have so many friends...I didn't even know they existed until yesterday...or that he had a boyfriend...or...or...oh how could I be such a horrible mother not to know he was depressed like this! He could have died, and it would have been my entire fault!" She broke down into sobs.
"He didn't want to worry anyone," I told her quietly. I knew Kurama would hate it for her to be crying like this, and trying to take all the blame. "Especially you. He loved you too much to burden you."
"You are such a sweet boy... I'm glad he found someone like you. Just do me favor...take care of him for me. He needs someone to take care of him. He is always trying to do everything on his own. He'll never let anyone take care of him."
"I will."
After that we both fell silent.
There is something about hospitals that have a weird effect on me, because I couldn't help but feel lethargic. If I wasn't talking or busy hating myself, I would accidentally fall asleep. No matter how hard I tried to stay awake.
It was so warm lying against Kurama, and listening to his heart beat right by his ear. Sleep just seemed to be a natural by product...
...
...
It was dark, or maybe it wasn't. I couldn't open my eyes. I felt drowsy, and slightly lightheaded. I could hear soft words being spoken, but they just became jumbled in my head. My mind slowly processed them, and tried to make them into coherent sentences.
"You came back to me...I thought you hated me...I was afraid to be alone...I didn't...I couldn't live with you hating me...you only wanted to help me...and I couldn't even control myself...all I ever wanted was your love..."
My brain began to speed up.
Love...
Love...
The love I had for Kurama...
Wait Kurama...
The hospital...
Love...
I opened my eyes, and was surprised to see warm green ones staring back at me.
"Your awake," I said.
"So are you...I'm sorry for all the trouble I put you and everyone through...mostly you."
"You're so stupid fox...trying to leave us like that."
I couldn't keep my relief out of my voice, and I'm sure he noticed it.
"I didn't think you would come back... I thought you'd left me..." A tear slid down his cheek.
"I would never leave you kitsune...I..."
He looked up at me with tear filled eyes. They made his eyes glisten like glass.
"Hiei...your crying..."
I was taken aback. I hadn't even felt the hot tears sliding down my cheeks, and crystallizing into gems, as they fell from my face.
I broke down. Even I didn't know how scared I was that he would leave me. That I would never hear his voice again, or see those eyes of his.
I felt strong arms wrap around me, pulling me closer to his chest. I buried my face there trying to ease my guilt and sadness with that comforting warmth he gave off.
"I...I love you Kurama."
He hugged me tighter, and I felt him nuzzle my neck. His hot breath fell onto my ear.
"I love you too."
Ahh! So mushy...even though I doubt Hiei would be like that...but too bad its still cute! I know you can say it! I'm such a hypocrite. In my other story Good bye, I'm all like Hiei wouldn't cry. Then look I just made him cry!!! I'm a total idiot! The next chapter is just to sum up the story.