Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter so please don't hurt me! LOL
A/N: Okay this chapter is very eventful. This is the turning point of the story and the big mess is clearing up. Enjoy!
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Lily was happy, the Hogwarts express finally brought back all of the students as Christmas break was over.
Lily couldn't decide on any decision she should make to take care of matters with her and James.
"Lily, will you come with me somewhere now?" James asked Lily knowing she would approve.
"Sure." Lily tried to hide her anxiousness. She wondered what he had planned.
Perfect James; perfect personality, perfect looks, perfect interests, everything perfect, except for his decision making and love perception.
James took Lily to the empty astronomy tower. Lily gasped as she saw how beautiful the stars were that night.
"James, I love you." Lily hopefully admitted again.
James just smiled.
Lily remembered a discussion they had earlier. She told him that anything he wanted to do with her, she approved.
Lily stared at James and they leaned in and shared a kiss, a kiss that Lily shared as love and sincerity. James' half sent emotions of sorrow and regret, but Lily paid no notice.
Lily broke the kiss and looked at him and her eyes told him it was okay, that she was his and he could do whatever.
James was hesitating. He just held her.
Lily gave him a quick deep kiss. She told him it was okay once again.
James finally complied, and as they kissed Lily could feel a hand, James hand, creep up her shirt and unclasp her bra.
He then ran his hand carefully and slowly over her breasts. After more kissing and feeling, they finally broke away.
The night continued for another half hour of this.
"I love you." Lily repeated.
Still, there was no response from James. Not long after, James had to leave for an unknown reason and left Lily there as she stared at the stars and the moon.
Lily had finally done something with James that was a first. As Lily stared at the stars, she began to realize just what had happened.
James lost his love for her.
It drilled into her heart painfully as she slowly realized why.
She changed herself for him, just so she could prove to him she wasn't as amazing as he thought. It drove him away. He still loves Maranna as well.
He stopped loving her, and he knew it, and she let him kiss her just then, she let him feel her which was a lot worse.
Lily began to feel deceived and betrayed. 'He would never play me; he just wanted me to be happy.' Lily thought to herself. 'I'm such a fool!'
Lily decided that something had to be done for sure this time. She was glad things didn't get farther than they did.
"James this is it. You have to tell me once and for all. Make up your mind and tell me. What is going on in your head?" Lily wouldn't take 'I dunno' for an answer anymore. She was now ready and willing to lose him if that was what he had in stock for her.
James did not know how to answer. "Okay, but you won't like it." He said, knowing that Lily wouldn't let go of this conversation lightly.
"Go on." Lily said as a minute of silence passed.
"Things will never work out between us." James said as he turned on his heel and walked away.
Lily stood there dumbstruck. It was not quite what Lily expected would happen. But was satisfied he finally told her exactly what he figured out. She was ashamed that she wasted so much time on him all for nothing. How she wasted her tears, her friends, her life.
Lily walked over to the Gryffindor common room, tears flowing down her cheeks rapidly.
This would be the most painful thing she ever went through. It had to be.
The next morning Lily looked like hell. Her face was red and her eyes puffy and suggesting that she had a large batch of tears the previous night.
Some people asked her what was the matter, and Lily just nodded them off.
Vodesko landed next to Lily bearing a letter addressed to her.
Lily opened it curiously, wondering what it was for.
As Lily read it, she trembled and shook and tears ran down her face like mad.
Lily got up, "NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She screamed as the whole hall stared at her.
She ran over to the Gryffindor common room and absently dropped the letter on the floor.
Anita got up fast and looked at the letter Lily dropped before she ran off.
It read:
Dear Lily,
We are sorry to inform you that your parents were killed at 9:19 last night. Your sister, Petunia, was out with her boyfriend that night and was unharmed. We have found out that your parents were killed by death eaters with the 'Avada Kadevra curse.' A funeral will be held for your parents this weekend and Albus Dumbledore will contact you with more information. Once again, we are terribly sorry.
Sincerely, Robert Raker- of the Ministry of Magic
Anita gasped. "Oh my!" she ran after Lily and thrust the letter into Allissa's hands.
Lily lay in her bed crying into her pillow. As if James wasn't enough, her parents had to die too!
If she wasn't so involved with James maybe she would have talked to her parents more and would have been able to tell them she loved them before they died.
These thoughts reoccurred in Lily's head as well as, what will Petunia say to her? As if she didn't hate her enough.
Where will she go now that her parents are dead?
How can she carry on the rest of her life without her parents? Nothing looked good on her end. What could possibly be worth living for?
Lily decided it was her time. She had to end her life.
She got up quickly and walked over to the astronomy tower. This was it. She would jump.
Meanwhile: Limelle was taking a walk outside and saw someone standing on the top of the astronomy tower. "OH NO! IT'S LILY!"
Lily took a few breaths and decided she would go through with it. She had nothing to live for, not even friends.
As Lily put her foot on the edge she heard Anita call after her from behind and saw her cat walking on the ground nearby.
This was it; her last chance.
Lily jumped off the tower and felt endless air as she rushed down to the bottom. Wasn't she supposed to be dead by now? Wouldn't she have hit the ground?
She opened her eyes and saw a familiar witch pointing her wand at her.
The witch had cast a 'floating' spell on her.
"Lily, what were you thinking?"
Lily remembered her ancestor's picture and recognized her live in front of her.
She ran to her great grandmother or cat and hugged her tightly as the tears ran down in great abundance.
"There there child, everything will be alright."
After a couple minutes of this, Lily passed out and Limelle realized she had been spotted by Anita and quickly changed back into her feline form.
Limelle nudged Anita and beckoned her to take the collapsed Lily to the hospital wing.
"Thank you Limelle." Anita said as she was confused. Hadn't she seen a witch standing there instead?
Anita didn't think about it too much, as she carried Lily to the hospital wing.
On her way there, James, Sirius, Remus and Peter were on their way to class as they saw Anita carrying a collapsed Lily in her arms.
"What happened?" Remus asked.
"Nothing any of you would care about." Anita scowled and hinted mainly toward James.
Anita finally made it to the Hospital wing to a flustered Madame Pomfrey.
Since Madame Pomfrey hardly ever asks questions, she quickly tended to Lily and told Anita to go to class.
After a couple hours of being revived, Lily awoke from her slumber and remembered what had happened. She was half glad she didn't die, but half upset.
And did she really see her great grandmother? Was Limelle her animagi form?
She realized that although her parents were the last thing to live for and they died, that it would be pointless to kill herself when she was certain her parents would never want that.
She finally realized that James and she were over for the best. She was badly heart-broken and it would be a long time before she got over him, if she ever would. It was time for her to go through some changes. It was the way things were meant to be now, and this was the way it should be.
Lily closed her eyes again to rest with confirmed thoughts once more, and would wake up to a disappointed headmaster hovering over her.
Disclaimer: No, I still don't own Harry Potter. –mumbles-
A/N: Okay, I tried to keep this chapter going and leave with a semi-cliff hanger. For my past reviewers that have flamed and commented on how Lily is an egotistical blonde and only cares about looks and what people think of her and blah blah, it had a point. From this point on you will start to realize where and why I am going with this. The end has some major foreshadowing in it. I really, really like writing and I sincerely hope it is improving. Remember, positive or constructive reviews will make me want to write the next chapter sooner. Thanks a bunch! –
Jenna
A/N: Okay this chapter is very eventful. This is the turning point of the story and the big mess is clearing up. Enjoy!
-----------------------The way it should be--------------------------------- --------------
Lily was happy, the Hogwarts express finally brought back all of the students as Christmas break was over.
Lily couldn't decide on any decision she should make to take care of matters with her and James.
"Lily, will you come with me somewhere now?" James asked Lily knowing she would approve.
"Sure." Lily tried to hide her anxiousness. She wondered what he had planned.
Perfect James; perfect personality, perfect looks, perfect interests, everything perfect, except for his decision making and love perception.
James took Lily to the empty astronomy tower. Lily gasped as she saw how beautiful the stars were that night.
"James, I love you." Lily hopefully admitted again.
James just smiled.
Lily remembered a discussion they had earlier. She told him that anything he wanted to do with her, she approved.
Lily stared at James and they leaned in and shared a kiss, a kiss that Lily shared as love and sincerity. James' half sent emotions of sorrow and regret, but Lily paid no notice.
Lily broke the kiss and looked at him and her eyes told him it was okay, that she was his and he could do whatever.
James was hesitating. He just held her.
Lily gave him a quick deep kiss. She told him it was okay once again.
James finally complied, and as they kissed Lily could feel a hand, James hand, creep up her shirt and unclasp her bra.
He then ran his hand carefully and slowly over her breasts. After more kissing and feeling, they finally broke away.
The night continued for another half hour of this.
"I love you." Lily repeated.
Still, there was no response from James. Not long after, James had to leave for an unknown reason and left Lily there as she stared at the stars and the moon.
Lily had finally done something with James that was a first. As Lily stared at the stars, she began to realize just what had happened.
James lost his love for her.
It drilled into her heart painfully as she slowly realized why.
She changed herself for him, just so she could prove to him she wasn't as amazing as he thought. It drove him away. He still loves Maranna as well.
He stopped loving her, and he knew it, and she let him kiss her just then, she let him feel her which was a lot worse.
Lily began to feel deceived and betrayed. 'He would never play me; he just wanted me to be happy.' Lily thought to herself. 'I'm such a fool!'
Lily decided that something had to be done for sure this time. She was glad things didn't get farther than they did.
"James this is it. You have to tell me once and for all. Make up your mind and tell me. What is going on in your head?" Lily wouldn't take 'I dunno' for an answer anymore. She was now ready and willing to lose him if that was what he had in stock for her.
James did not know how to answer. "Okay, but you won't like it." He said, knowing that Lily wouldn't let go of this conversation lightly.
"Go on." Lily said as a minute of silence passed.
"Things will never work out between us." James said as he turned on his heel and walked away.
Lily stood there dumbstruck. It was not quite what Lily expected would happen. But was satisfied he finally told her exactly what he figured out. She was ashamed that she wasted so much time on him all for nothing. How she wasted her tears, her friends, her life.
Lily walked over to the Gryffindor common room, tears flowing down her cheeks rapidly.
This would be the most painful thing she ever went through. It had to be.
The next morning Lily looked like hell. Her face was red and her eyes puffy and suggesting that she had a large batch of tears the previous night.
Some people asked her what was the matter, and Lily just nodded them off.
Vodesko landed next to Lily bearing a letter addressed to her.
Lily opened it curiously, wondering what it was for.
As Lily read it, she trembled and shook and tears ran down her face like mad.
Lily got up, "NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She screamed as the whole hall stared at her.
She ran over to the Gryffindor common room and absently dropped the letter on the floor.
Anita got up fast and looked at the letter Lily dropped before she ran off.
It read:
Dear Lily,
We are sorry to inform you that your parents were killed at 9:19 last night. Your sister, Petunia, was out with her boyfriend that night and was unharmed. We have found out that your parents were killed by death eaters with the 'Avada Kadevra curse.' A funeral will be held for your parents this weekend and Albus Dumbledore will contact you with more information. Once again, we are terribly sorry.
Sincerely, Robert Raker- of the Ministry of Magic
Anita gasped. "Oh my!" she ran after Lily and thrust the letter into Allissa's hands.
Lily lay in her bed crying into her pillow. As if James wasn't enough, her parents had to die too!
If she wasn't so involved with James maybe she would have talked to her parents more and would have been able to tell them she loved them before they died.
These thoughts reoccurred in Lily's head as well as, what will Petunia say to her? As if she didn't hate her enough.
Where will she go now that her parents are dead?
How can she carry on the rest of her life without her parents? Nothing looked good on her end. What could possibly be worth living for?
Lily decided it was her time. She had to end her life.
She got up quickly and walked over to the astronomy tower. This was it. She would jump.
Meanwhile: Limelle was taking a walk outside and saw someone standing on the top of the astronomy tower. "OH NO! IT'S LILY!"
Lily took a few breaths and decided she would go through with it. She had nothing to live for, not even friends.
As Lily put her foot on the edge she heard Anita call after her from behind and saw her cat walking on the ground nearby.
This was it; her last chance.
Lily jumped off the tower and felt endless air as she rushed down to the bottom. Wasn't she supposed to be dead by now? Wouldn't she have hit the ground?
She opened her eyes and saw a familiar witch pointing her wand at her.
The witch had cast a 'floating' spell on her.
"Lily, what were you thinking?"
Lily remembered her ancestor's picture and recognized her live in front of her.
She ran to her great grandmother or cat and hugged her tightly as the tears ran down in great abundance.
"There there child, everything will be alright."
After a couple minutes of this, Lily passed out and Limelle realized she had been spotted by Anita and quickly changed back into her feline form.
Limelle nudged Anita and beckoned her to take the collapsed Lily to the hospital wing.
"Thank you Limelle." Anita said as she was confused. Hadn't she seen a witch standing there instead?
Anita didn't think about it too much, as she carried Lily to the hospital wing.
On her way there, James, Sirius, Remus and Peter were on their way to class as they saw Anita carrying a collapsed Lily in her arms.
"What happened?" Remus asked.
"Nothing any of you would care about." Anita scowled and hinted mainly toward James.
Anita finally made it to the Hospital wing to a flustered Madame Pomfrey.
Since Madame Pomfrey hardly ever asks questions, she quickly tended to Lily and told Anita to go to class.
After a couple hours of being revived, Lily awoke from her slumber and remembered what had happened. She was half glad she didn't die, but half upset.
And did she really see her great grandmother? Was Limelle her animagi form?
She realized that although her parents were the last thing to live for and they died, that it would be pointless to kill herself when she was certain her parents would never want that.
She finally realized that James and she were over for the best. She was badly heart-broken and it would be a long time before she got over him, if she ever would. It was time for her to go through some changes. It was the way things were meant to be now, and this was the way it should be.
Lily closed her eyes again to rest with confirmed thoughts once more, and would wake up to a disappointed headmaster hovering over her.
Disclaimer: No, I still don't own Harry Potter. –mumbles-
A/N: Okay, I tried to keep this chapter going and leave with a semi-cliff hanger. For my past reviewers that have flamed and commented on how Lily is an egotistical blonde and only cares about looks and what people think of her and blah blah, it had a point. From this point on you will start to realize where and why I am going with this. The end has some major foreshadowing in it. I really, really like writing and I sincerely hope it is improving. Remember, positive or constructive reviews will make me want to write the next chapter sooner. Thanks a bunch! –
Jenna