Tokiya arrived at school surprisingly very early. The long hallways were as quiet as a mausoleum and emptier than one. As Mikagami reached his classroom and reached out to open the door, he shivered for some unknown reason. Sure, he dreaded school but today, it seemed he dreaded it more. Why did he need it anyway? With a shrug and a "hmph", Tokiya turned on his heel and walked away from school.
I'm falling forever.
Going Under
A Recca no Honoo Fanfiction
By ladyknightsaiyu
Chapter 2
Tokiya sunk into the warm bath and opened his book, The Basic Writings of Existentialism, but he couldn't seem to concentrate. With a sigh he set it down and concentrated on the water.
Good, clean water.
Unmarked, Unblemished. Pure and wholesome
Images swirled in the water. A slender girl holding a baby boy in her arms...the same silver-haired girl frying bacon...touching, loving, making, breaking...dying... Mifuyu...her life leaving as quickly as her blood. The water turned dark red. Tokiya sprang out and hit his head on the sink, falling into darkness.
/ "Tokiya..its time for a bath." Mifuyu called. "I DON'T WANNA!!!!" The child Mikagami cried. "I HATE YOU!!' He screamed. Mifuyu took a step back and began to disappear. "No..Mifuyu..I didn't mean it. PLEASE!!! COME BACK!!"/
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever.
I've got to break through.
Tokiya woke with a start, his vision blurred with tears and sweat. He climbed back in the bath, regardless of the frigid temperature and finished washing.
Later on, he grabbed his work-out clothes: a white tank top and black cargo pants. He changed into them and slipped sweat bands over his wrists. They slipped along the bony length of his forearm. Maybe Yanagi was right when she told him he wasn't eating enough. Mikagami didn't notice. He tied his running shoes and stepped out into the dusk. He ran along a road that was sheltered by a canopy of emerald leaves and smooth oak. Wildflowers grew in abundance all around him but he took no notice except to resent all the beauty as it reminded him of her. His whole being was consumed with thoughts of her, only Mifuyu. They would always be. At the three mile mark, Tokiya looked around and saw flashes of red amongst the yellow daffodils and purple violets. He skidded to a halt and, shaking from the adrenaline, bent over to examine the red.
Bleeding Hearts.
"Oh..Mifuyu...can't you leave me alone?" Mikagami remarked to the air. Only a very observant person with very good hearing could have caught the faint tremor in his voice, or the hint of sadness when he mentioned her name. Every time he bent to smell the flowers, they smelled like her, her own personal scent. Every time looked at the passing cars, each person had her face.
Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore.
Tokiya sat in the bed of wild flowers and thought for a long time. For a moment his mind broke free of the visions...I'm living a nightmare...he thought. His silver hair fell over his face despite his desperate attempts to tame it into a ponytail. Did he have power over anything? His mind? Not even his life? No, She controlled that. Dusk grew into night and the only illumination he had was the occasional firefly that decided to light its rear and shine in his face. Mikagami was oblivious to this world. Yet again, he was somewhere else, in some living nightmare in his head, replaying Mifuyu's death.
Maybe I'll wake up for once.
Not tormented, daily defeated by you.
Just when I thought I reached the bottom,
I'm dying again.
He stood and bent over for a moment and plucked a red Heart. Her face flashed before his eyes. He balled his fist and the flower crumpled, releasing its fluids to run over his hand in clear tendrils. "Ah but it is bleeding Mifuyu."
Thank you to Di aka shukuchi (read her works!!) for being my pal and giving me the lowdown on Mikagami and whether certain things were in character. I get a little carried away. I've actually read this book..its real! YAY!
TO THE READERS: 'Sides REVIEW, there are a coupla things I'd like to say. Personally, I don't like people who only read the romance fanfictions. There are other great works. And I am v. disappointed that I did not receive any reviews for the first chapter. I am working very hard to make this the best fanfic I have written in a while.
This chapter mainly showed more of Mikagami's life and how dilapidated it has become (I'm falling forever..) The nightmares have him..will they ever leave? Will Mifuyu's spirit get her peace?
Going Under is copyrighted to Evanescence aka Amy Lee. I don't own the song or the lyrics so thanks to her for letting me borrow them
-Toki-