Chapter six: Apparition of feelings
The shape stood, remaining where loomis had left him, silent and still. It was so quiet in his room you could detect Michael's, oppressive breathing, even from a distance. All the pain, tragedy, and hurt left dormant waiting to be released.
Michael's pov
I wish I could hear the roar of rushing waters, a sound steady and claming so I could stop listening to the evil that I have been bottling up and the and damnation which has brought me to insanity and now I know what my problem is I am numb from all pain and the evil that has killed me.
I am tired getting choked by the hands of possession and the hatred towards me I cannot deny. If I represent pure evil, than my doctor is the avenging angel. He's the voice of reason that no one listens to, and, in the end, he's the one with his gun pointing at eye level. My soul feels like it's in flames, and I want so badly to reach out, to call out but I can't even whisper nor shout out. When I saw my doctor leave for a moment I wanted to stop him, to confide in him and somehow let myself be placed in his hands. To have comfort and understanding is something I lost long ago, and the human part of me just barely glimmers in this darkness. How will I feel when all this has ended? What will happen to me? Will I be so torn with guilt and grief that I take my own life? Or will I always remain like this empty and Sullen?
The suns highlight is now glaring in my eyes, have the hours passed by that quickly? I look out the window and I see the hues of sunrise, the first rays of the rising Sun, stretching her arms out. Some People are moving about outside, talking, and feeling the warmth.
"I brought some breakfast for you." Michael heard a nurse's voice say, his eyes follow towards her voice and he knew that she must have been standing there for a while unnoticed. It's hot so be careful." Innaho cautioned placing the plate on the stand next to Michael.
Michael looked down slightly at his food but showed no intention of eating out of hunger.
"Please dear you must eat sometime" the Nurse said after watching Michael stare at his food, she remember that she was told Michael only ate if he was very hungry it was as if he didn't want anything distracting him from his thoughts.
"You'll feel a lot better if you get something in your stomach." The Nurse said lightly gesturing towards the steaming food. "And this will make your doctor very happy and us as well, so please try a little."
"Don't bother nurse he isn't going to do as you say." Carlo said as Innaho and Michael watched him simply walked into the open doored room and placed himself infront of them.
"Michael, do you want me to call Loomis? I'm sure he wouldn't like me calling him this early in the morning." Carlo threatened
Michael shook his head no, and his breathing was starting to get heavier
Good, now do something about it. Take off your mask Michael, you can't eat with it on."
"Carlo please your disturbing the patient."
"Dont be overly sensitive Innaho, he has to learn that he must do as he is told, you have to be the one in control when it comes to Michael." Carlo looked at Michael and he saw that Michael made no move to take off his mask his breathing seem more tense than before.
"I thought I told you to take off your mask?" "You know what will happen if I call do you not?" Loomis may put you in time out umm? Carlo mocked Michael who took note of the insult who was silent with malice now. "Or maybe since your really a six years old Loomis will put you over his knee? Carlo Laughed and Michael was icy cold with anger and murderous malevolence.
" Last chance take off your mask. "Fine I"ll do it for you than!"
The counselor grabbed Michael's rigid shoulders trying to hold him still so he could take Michael's mask off and the nurse could place the spoon in Michael's mouth.
Michael in reaction to this reached up and dug his nails painfully the counselors hand. Carlo cried out violently and tried to pull his hand away but Michael calculatedly dug deeper, causing his hand to bleed. Michael coldly watch Carlo scream and scream in anguish enjoying his pain. Michael let go of his hand after a while though but brutally slapped Carlo in the face afterwards causing Carlo's head whip backwards. Carlo Had both hands over his face gasping from the pain Michael had inflicted on him. Carlo backed away from Michael removing his hands from his face immediately looking at his hand which was bleeding four deep gashes marked his hand.
"You monster, I will surly talk to your doctor about this!" Carlo said angrily as he stormed out of the room groaning from pain leaving the stunned nurse and Michael in silence. Carlo cursed as he dialed sam's number on his cell, He listened to it ring five times before loomis picked up
Hello? Loomis said in a groggy voice
Doctor loomis? Carlo asked questionably
"Yes, this is he." Came the yawing voice of loomis
"This is counselor Carlos, I'm sorry that to disturb you this time in the morning, but I have been having some problems with Michael." Your patient doctor might be written up, he dug me with his nails and it made some pretty deep gashes." He also backhanded me in the face I don't think I have a broken nose though.
Carlo heard loomis sigh angrily and tiredly on the phone
I'm very sorry Carlos and I apolize for Michael actions, he can became very viloent without warning, and hard to control.
Well, this is unacceptable doctor, I advise you get him under control soon or something horrible might happen to him someday. I want you to come down to the center now if you can and deal with him because I can't right now.
"Very well I'll be there, give me 15 minutes."
Thank you loomis.
Carlo shut off his cell, and returned to the room with his face still flushed from his encounter with Michael.
"Nurse get me some bandages I need to cover this wound." Carlo said without even looking at Michael who was secretly glaring at Carlo. Innaho however nodded meekly and went to find the first aid and that's when the counselor turned on myers.
"You look at me now cool, calm and collected, but I know underneath that elegant exterior is murder." Carlo Grinned and stepped forward a bit an evil glare simmering unde the surface of his smile.
"I do not underestimate you, By being silent you come across as simple, You lack basic knowledge of the world outside of the asylum where you been kept for years, but I know your obviously intelligent bastard, which I wish I could kill you myself! "Of course, Loomis isn't much of a help, continuing to run around scaring everyone with his "hell would not have you" talk. You probably think you can fool everyone into thinking your harmless well I know better. I wish I could rip out that cold heart of yours and burn it!
"What I dont get is how loomis could still work on this case, even when he has been personally involved with your sick homicidal games! How could he still want to help you?
"Becuase, it's like a healing process for me, I'm tired of the pain and loss." Sams voice startled carlo who looked behind him seeing loomis walk into the room where they stood.
"A made myself a cup of tea before I got here to calm myself I didn't want to make assumption on Michael behavior." Loomis said answering their unspoken question
"Assumptions? How could you say that Doctor?! Your patient attacked me, Look at these wounds! Carlo lifted his arm up for loomis to see and indeed Loomis saw four deep gashes covered with some remaining traces of dried blood. Carlo's face seemed red and slightly bruise to.
"What could of caused this violent attack?" Said in concern as he glanced at Michael who sat quietly now on his bed. His patience's innocent Air made loomis shake his head and cause a small smile on his face wondering how Michael could still look like that after all he has done.
"I dont care what caused it!" came the shrilled voice of Carlo
"I demand that you get your patient under control or I'll find him someone who can!"
"Stop hassling my patient, I'm wondering if you walked right into getting hurt." What did you do, there must of been something you did to set him off.
"I did nothing, I was trying to help him eat but he went psychotic on me the bastard." "Of course he has his doctor to protect him so he can get away with stuff like this." Carlo sneered at Loomis who was about to comment when the nurse interrupted.
" He was insulting Michael sir, and He also tried to take Michael's mask off." The nurse simply said as she reentered the room with some bandages.
"I might of known!" Loomis exclaimed "Michael is very sensitive to being touched on his face and his mask being taken off, you in a sense are exposing him and he hates it with a passion." You have no right to insult, hurt, humiliate, my patient and I will hold you fully reasonable for any emotional damage you did. you were unauthorized to be in this room anyway therefore if you were injured you cannot sue or file a compliant."
"Still trying to protect him I see, than I suppose I am wasting my time." Carlo almost to soothly for he was clearly seething inside.
Carlo said nothing as he harshly grabbed the bandages from the nurse's hand wrapping his wounds. After he was finished he turned and stepped closer to myers speaking to both him and loomis.
"It must be so hurtful being misundetood." For years, he has single- mindedly stalked his family Loomis, and only attempting to reach out and connect on a deeper level right? And what happens to your sweet patient? Constantly rejected, screamed at and called "the boogeyman." The cousler said with cutting sarcasim
"Get out, your not welcome here anymore your forbidden to come here! I don't want near my patient or me." Loomis hissed becoming defensive and very agitated.
I'm not going to stand around and watch Michael manipulate and kill. In a way, Dr. Loomis you are lot like Michael Myers. Michael is obsessed with killing, where you are obsessed with stopping Michael from killing. You both have your quests and nothing else really matters to you does it? Michael has only one, unexplainable quest: to kill and he will be the death of you!"Carlo barked and turned his head walking out without looking back.
Loomis watched Carlo leave and stared at the swinging door, his questions unanswered once more and his doubt becoming more unbearable. Would he ever be able to heal his own demons? Would his guilt about Michael Myers stop? He was Myers' psychiatrist for the whole time that Myers was incarcerated at Smith Grove sanitarium, and yet he was unable to reach him. Unable to treat him. would he go to his grave wondering if his care might have, at least partly, contributed to the crimes that Michael Myers committed Was he damned to see people he loved killed and himself fated to a horrible death? Was he a fool to open his arms to a entity that seemed to express pure evil.
Loomis pov:
I always tried so hard to nurture Michael and help him. I remember when I began to study Michael very closely. Eventually I drooped all other cases, refusing to accept new ones so I could focus entirely on Michael. I watched the little boy continued his catatonic state, refusing to speak to anyone and only consumed enough to survive which upset me very much. I continued to believe that a powerful force is controlling my patient." Michael's own madness had swallowed me whole, I fear becoming my world.
Is Michael a tragic soul the way I could describe? Or a subtle evil that is walks about unseen? "I knew what he was, but I never knew why." These past thoughts laways echoed in my mind. I knew that Michael was no longer human but he was pure evil, in "the shape" of a human body.
My worst fears came ture on October 30, 1978. I and Marion Chambers went to Smith's Grove County Sanitarium to take Michael to Harden County so he could be reviewed to see if he would spend another four years in the Sanitarium or if he should be set free. I wanted to keep Michael in my care longer though, I didn't believe he was in the condition to be out yet.
Michael must of knew I was coming because he snapped out of his catatonia. He began thrashing around in his room, tearing it to shreds. He then scrawled SISTER on the door and promptly broke out. He freed all other patients as well, to creative massive chaos. Michale was undermated, my quiet patient wasn't as fragile or innocent as he seemed to be.
When I and Marion saw all the patients wandering around, Marion stopped the car so I could go to a phone. Michael attacked Marion and stole the station wagon. But I knew where Michael was going. I remember all of it and I always will. I have to be very careful and foreseeing because I cannot let anything like that happen again. I always have to live with the fact that I confronted a child who committed murder and then grew up to be a man with the power to walk through walls and kill people, totally invincible.
Do you wish me to leave doctor? The nurse aksed after a few momments of watching loomis think.
"Yes please, I want to speak with Michael" Loomis said without turing around
"Very well." Innaho replied and shut the down behind her as she left.
I looked a Michael for a moment and His movements as always were so very slow, eerie, methodical.
"Michael?" Loomis said slowly trying to get the shapes attention, Michael equally as slow forcused his eyes on loomis in such a way that loomis had secrctly noted Michael's passive aggresive nature.
"Listen Michael, When someone needs to destroy another, to put them down, to cause suffering, to hurt their feelings, to lie, to betray, to cause pain itself, is wrong. I understand why you did what you did but, you want to try and avoid hurting people there are far better ways to handle things. I know you were defending yourself so I wont bother you about this anymore I just want you to understand that one part of your therapy is to learn self control.
You are the envision of nothingness. Your soul has been stripped bare of all emotions and feelings. But because of this, you are ruthless, strong, and can't be out willed. You are always silent. nothing escapes your lips. You are in a complete world of your own, no-one gets in, and I know that's the way that you like. But you must listen to me I know. You have even experienced death many times before. You have suffered, and felt joy. But you have disregarded such emotions. So now you are blank. Waiting for you and your family chance to fade away...
"Michael, please let me help you! I am begging you, Let me calm the rage inside of you. Loomis explored in emotion mixed with guilt and persistence. Loomis turned his head down and away from Michael, his emotions strong. The doctors looked up at Michael unsuspectedly than his eyes were worn, tired, guilt ridden and pleading.
Have I really failed myself and you? Is there something I haven't done? Please stop this Michael leave your family alone if you must kill someone kill me and leave them at peace. I was responsible for you Michael if I must die I must.
Michael body seem to lean forward in interested as if Michael was actually trying to comprehend what loomis was feeling or thinking in his grief and stress. Michael also wondered what loomis would feel like in his final moments of life after he has plunged a knife into his chest. But Michael curiosity gave way to something else quiet foreign to him against, sadness, pain, he felt pain in his soul for loomis and the fact that he caused others pain. Suddenly Michael felt lost, and troubled. He wanted a knife now, he wanted to kill, to kill the uncertainly away from himself.
"No Michael I want you in front of me so I can talk with you. I know this is uncomfortable for you but that's why is so important." Michael searching abruptly stopped and he looked at loomis as if caught by a parent or startled by something.
Loomis saw Michael's childlike gesture and knew he had a chance to get though to Michael.
"Come here Michael," Loomis said a little more gently Michael responded to the request and walked up to loomis waiting for loomis to speak. I care about your pain, the anger you felt when carlo insulted you hurt did it not? You know what pain is and how pain and can hurt you so much you ache. Would you like for someone to be there for you to tell them all your fears and worries? To lean against, someone who will be there for you and be patient with you no matter what. To let yourself go and open up, I open my arms to you Michael I am here for you.
Michael took a small ragged breath feeling tears come to his eyes. He stared at loomis slowly, wearily, coming closer to him looking at his outstretch arms so warm and inviting. Loomis took ahold of Michael before he could shy away. Michael felt himself being wrapped in the doctors arms and for once the feeling of being safe and care for overwhelmed him and scared him for he had not felt such emotions for a long time.
"Shhh, Crying can bring comfort Michael." Loomis said reassuringly his eyes brimmed with tears also. Tears of joy and relief that he had finally reach Michael. He moved slightly side to side rocking Michael in comfort. Loomis heard Michael sniffle it was childish yes but loomis smile when he heard it, he was now certain that Michael was becoming human once more and his inner self becoming more strong.
The came in when she heard it had become silent in the room. " Oh my is your patient all right doctor?" She asked noticing his sniffling.
"Dont worry nurse his crying is a good sign. I have reached him, and he knows the consequences of his own actions." Loomis said softly she wink at loomis and left the two smiling as well. Loomis withdrew from the hug but held Michael at arms length so he could look into his eyes.
Michael was no longer A mask behind a mask, and loomis was now willing to do everything humanly possible to help Michael, to nurture Michael the guidance he never had.
Loomis did not think it was a good idea to take off Michael's mask yet, he needed intense one on one time with Michael and Michael needed to trust loomis. Loomis knew if his masked was removed Michael would be Abruptly disempowered he would look dazed, and almost unsure of himself. Loomis knew this was far from over but he now had hope and faith for the future.
"Michael, I will be here for you always." Remember that I am not here to hurt you or for revenge I am here to help and care for you."
Michael nodded still feeling the effects from loomis hugging him, he felt the weight of forgiveness from loomis and and the kind patient. Michael trying to resist these feelings couldn't help but feel relax and at peace when he did. Maybe love could save him, maybe trusting in someone, letting out all his emotion on them could save him.
The shape stood, remaining where loomis had left him, silent and still. It was so quiet in his room you could detect Michael's, oppressive breathing, even from a distance. All the pain, tragedy, and hurt left dormant waiting to be released.
Michael's pov
I wish I could hear the roar of rushing waters, a sound steady and claming so I could stop listening to the evil that I have been bottling up and the and damnation which has brought me to insanity and now I know what my problem is I am numb from all pain and the evil that has killed me.
I am tired getting choked by the hands of possession and the hatred towards me I cannot deny. If I represent pure evil, than my doctor is the avenging angel. He's the voice of reason that no one listens to, and, in the end, he's the one with his gun pointing at eye level. My soul feels like it's in flames, and I want so badly to reach out, to call out but I can't even whisper nor shout out. When I saw my doctor leave for a moment I wanted to stop him, to confide in him and somehow let myself be placed in his hands. To have comfort and understanding is something I lost long ago, and the human part of me just barely glimmers in this darkness. How will I feel when all this has ended? What will happen to me? Will I be so torn with guilt and grief that I take my own life? Or will I always remain like this empty and Sullen?
The suns highlight is now glaring in my eyes, have the hours passed by that quickly? I look out the window and I see the hues of sunrise, the first rays of the rising Sun, stretching her arms out. Some People are moving about outside, talking, and feeling the warmth.
"I brought some breakfast for you." Michael heard a nurse's voice say, his eyes follow towards her voice and he knew that she must have been standing there for a while unnoticed. It's hot so be careful." Innaho cautioned placing the plate on the stand next to Michael.
Michael looked down slightly at his food but showed no intention of eating out of hunger.
"Please dear you must eat sometime" the Nurse said after watching Michael stare at his food, she remember that she was told Michael only ate if he was very hungry it was as if he didn't want anything distracting him from his thoughts.
"You'll feel a lot better if you get something in your stomach." The Nurse said lightly gesturing towards the steaming food. "And this will make your doctor very happy and us as well, so please try a little."
"Don't bother nurse he isn't going to do as you say." Carlo said as Innaho and Michael watched him simply walked into the open doored room and placed himself infront of them.
"Michael, do you want me to call Loomis? I'm sure he wouldn't like me calling him this early in the morning." Carlo threatened
Michael shook his head no, and his breathing was starting to get heavier
Good, now do something about it. Take off your mask Michael, you can't eat with it on."
"Carlo please your disturbing the patient."
"Dont be overly sensitive Innaho, he has to learn that he must do as he is told, you have to be the one in control when it comes to Michael." Carlo looked at Michael and he saw that Michael made no move to take off his mask his breathing seem more tense than before.
"I thought I told you to take off your mask?" "You know what will happen if I call do you not?" Loomis may put you in time out umm? Carlo mocked Michael who took note of the insult who was silent with malice now. "Or maybe since your really a six years old Loomis will put you over his knee? Carlo Laughed and Michael was icy cold with anger and murderous malevolence.
" Last chance take off your mask. "Fine I"ll do it for you than!"
The counselor grabbed Michael's rigid shoulders trying to hold him still so he could take Michael's mask off and the nurse could place the spoon in Michael's mouth.
Michael in reaction to this reached up and dug his nails painfully the counselors hand. Carlo cried out violently and tried to pull his hand away but Michael calculatedly dug deeper, causing his hand to bleed. Michael coldly watch Carlo scream and scream in anguish enjoying his pain. Michael let go of his hand after a while though but brutally slapped Carlo in the face afterwards causing Carlo's head whip backwards. Carlo Had both hands over his face gasping from the pain Michael had inflicted on him. Carlo backed away from Michael removing his hands from his face immediately looking at his hand which was bleeding four deep gashes marked his hand.
"You monster, I will surly talk to your doctor about this!" Carlo said angrily as he stormed out of the room groaning from pain leaving the stunned nurse and Michael in silence. Carlo cursed as he dialed sam's number on his cell, He listened to it ring five times before loomis picked up
Hello? Loomis said in a groggy voice
Doctor loomis? Carlo asked questionably
"Yes, this is he." Came the yawing voice of loomis
"This is counselor Carlos, I'm sorry that to disturb you this time in the morning, but I have been having some problems with Michael." Your patient doctor might be written up, he dug me with his nails and it made some pretty deep gashes." He also backhanded me in the face I don't think I have a broken nose though.
Carlo heard loomis sigh angrily and tiredly on the phone
I'm very sorry Carlos and I apolize for Michael actions, he can became very viloent without warning, and hard to control.
Well, this is unacceptable doctor, I advise you get him under control soon or something horrible might happen to him someday. I want you to come down to the center now if you can and deal with him because I can't right now.
"Very well I'll be there, give me 15 minutes."
Thank you loomis.
Carlo shut off his cell, and returned to the room with his face still flushed from his encounter with Michael.
"Nurse get me some bandages I need to cover this wound." Carlo said without even looking at Michael who was secretly glaring at Carlo. Innaho however nodded meekly and went to find the first aid and that's when the counselor turned on myers.
"You look at me now cool, calm and collected, but I know underneath that elegant exterior is murder." Carlo Grinned and stepped forward a bit an evil glare simmering unde the surface of his smile.
"I do not underestimate you, By being silent you come across as simple, You lack basic knowledge of the world outside of the asylum where you been kept for years, but I know your obviously intelligent bastard, which I wish I could kill you myself! "Of course, Loomis isn't much of a help, continuing to run around scaring everyone with his "hell would not have you" talk. You probably think you can fool everyone into thinking your harmless well I know better. I wish I could rip out that cold heart of yours and burn it!
"What I dont get is how loomis could still work on this case, even when he has been personally involved with your sick homicidal games! How could he still want to help you?
"Becuase, it's like a healing process for me, I'm tired of the pain and loss." Sams voice startled carlo who looked behind him seeing loomis walk into the room where they stood.
"A made myself a cup of tea before I got here to calm myself I didn't want to make assumption on Michael behavior." Loomis said answering their unspoken question
"Assumptions? How could you say that Doctor?! Your patient attacked me, Look at these wounds! Carlo lifted his arm up for loomis to see and indeed Loomis saw four deep gashes covered with some remaining traces of dried blood. Carlo's face seemed red and slightly bruise to.
"What could of caused this violent attack?" Said in concern as he glanced at Michael who sat quietly now on his bed. His patience's innocent Air made loomis shake his head and cause a small smile on his face wondering how Michael could still look like that after all he has done.
"I dont care what caused it!" came the shrilled voice of Carlo
"I demand that you get your patient under control or I'll find him someone who can!"
"Stop hassling my patient, I'm wondering if you walked right into getting hurt." What did you do, there must of been something you did to set him off.
"I did nothing, I was trying to help him eat but he went psychotic on me the bastard." "Of course he has his doctor to protect him so he can get away with stuff like this." Carlo sneered at Loomis who was about to comment when the nurse interrupted.
" He was insulting Michael sir, and He also tried to take Michael's mask off." The nurse simply said as she reentered the room with some bandages.
"I might of known!" Loomis exclaimed "Michael is very sensitive to being touched on his face and his mask being taken off, you in a sense are exposing him and he hates it with a passion." You have no right to insult, hurt, humiliate, my patient and I will hold you fully reasonable for any emotional damage you did. you were unauthorized to be in this room anyway therefore if you were injured you cannot sue or file a compliant."
"Still trying to protect him I see, than I suppose I am wasting my time." Carlo almost to soothly for he was clearly seething inside.
Carlo said nothing as he harshly grabbed the bandages from the nurse's hand wrapping his wounds. After he was finished he turned and stepped closer to myers speaking to both him and loomis.
"It must be so hurtful being misundetood." For years, he has single- mindedly stalked his family Loomis, and only attempting to reach out and connect on a deeper level right? And what happens to your sweet patient? Constantly rejected, screamed at and called "the boogeyman." The cousler said with cutting sarcasim
"Get out, your not welcome here anymore your forbidden to come here! I don't want near my patient or me." Loomis hissed becoming defensive and very agitated.
I'm not going to stand around and watch Michael manipulate and kill. In a way, Dr. Loomis you are lot like Michael Myers. Michael is obsessed with killing, where you are obsessed with stopping Michael from killing. You both have your quests and nothing else really matters to you does it? Michael has only one, unexplainable quest: to kill and he will be the death of you!"Carlo barked and turned his head walking out without looking back.
Loomis watched Carlo leave and stared at the swinging door, his questions unanswered once more and his doubt becoming more unbearable. Would he ever be able to heal his own demons? Would his guilt about Michael Myers stop? He was Myers' psychiatrist for the whole time that Myers was incarcerated at Smith Grove sanitarium, and yet he was unable to reach him. Unable to treat him. would he go to his grave wondering if his care might have, at least partly, contributed to the crimes that Michael Myers committed Was he damned to see people he loved killed and himself fated to a horrible death? Was he a fool to open his arms to a entity that seemed to express pure evil.
Loomis pov:
I always tried so hard to nurture Michael and help him. I remember when I began to study Michael very closely. Eventually I drooped all other cases, refusing to accept new ones so I could focus entirely on Michael. I watched the little boy continued his catatonic state, refusing to speak to anyone and only consumed enough to survive which upset me very much. I continued to believe that a powerful force is controlling my patient." Michael's own madness had swallowed me whole, I fear becoming my world.
Is Michael a tragic soul the way I could describe? Or a subtle evil that is walks about unseen? "I knew what he was, but I never knew why." These past thoughts laways echoed in my mind. I knew that Michael was no longer human but he was pure evil, in "the shape" of a human body.
My worst fears came ture on October 30, 1978. I and Marion Chambers went to Smith's Grove County Sanitarium to take Michael to Harden County so he could be reviewed to see if he would spend another four years in the Sanitarium or if he should be set free. I wanted to keep Michael in my care longer though, I didn't believe he was in the condition to be out yet.
Michael must of knew I was coming because he snapped out of his catatonia. He began thrashing around in his room, tearing it to shreds. He then scrawled SISTER on the door and promptly broke out. He freed all other patients as well, to creative massive chaos. Michale was undermated, my quiet patient wasn't as fragile or innocent as he seemed to be.
When I and Marion saw all the patients wandering around, Marion stopped the car so I could go to a phone. Michael attacked Marion and stole the station wagon. But I knew where Michael was going. I remember all of it and I always will. I have to be very careful and foreseeing because I cannot let anything like that happen again. I always have to live with the fact that I confronted a child who committed murder and then grew up to be a man with the power to walk through walls and kill people, totally invincible.
Do you wish me to leave doctor? The nurse aksed after a few momments of watching loomis think.
"Yes please, I want to speak with Michael" Loomis said without turing around
"Very well." Innaho replied and shut the down behind her as she left.
I looked a Michael for a moment and His movements as always were so very slow, eerie, methodical.
"Michael?" Loomis said slowly trying to get the shapes attention, Michael equally as slow forcused his eyes on loomis in such a way that loomis had secrctly noted Michael's passive aggresive nature.
"Listen Michael, When someone needs to destroy another, to put them down, to cause suffering, to hurt their feelings, to lie, to betray, to cause pain itself, is wrong. I understand why you did what you did but, you want to try and avoid hurting people there are far better ways to handle things. I know you were defending yourself so I wont bother you about this anymore I just want you to understand that one part of your therapy is to learn self control.
You are the envision of nothingness. Your soul has been stripped bare of all emotions and feelings. But because of this, you are ruthless, strong, and can't be out willed. You are always silent. nothing escapes your lips. You are in a complete world of your own, no-one gets in, and I know that's the way that you like. But you must listen to me I know. You have even experienced death many times before. You have suffered, and felt joy. But you have disregarded such emotions. So now you are blank. Waiting for you and your family chance to fade away...
"Michael, please let me help you! I am begging you, Let me calm the rage inside of you. Loomis explored in emotion mixed with guilt and persistence. Loomis turned his head down and away from Michael, his emotions strong. The doctors looked up at Michael unsuspectedly than his eyes were worn, tired, guilt ridden and pleading.
Have I really failed myself and you? Is there something I haven't done? Please stop this Michael leave your family alone if you must kill someone kill me and leave them at peace. I was responsible for you Michael if I must die I must.
Michael body seem to lean forward in interested as if Michael was actually trying to comprehend what loomis was feeling or thinking in his grief and stress. Michael also wondered what loomis would feel like in his final moments of life after he has plunged a knife into his chest. But Michael curiosity gave way to something else quiet foreign to him against, sadness, pain, he felt pain in his soul for loomis and the fact that he caused others pain. Suddenly Michael felt lost, and troubled. He wanted a knife now, he wanted to kill, to kill the uncertainly away from himself.
"No Michael I want you in front of me so I can talk with you. I know this is uncomfortable for you but that's why is so important." Michael searching abruptly stopped and he looked at loomis as if caught by a parent or startled by something.
Loomis saw Michael's childlike gesture and knew he had a chance to get though to Michael.
"Come here Michael," Loomis said a little more gently Michael responded to the request and walked up to loomis waiting for loomis to speak. I care about your pain, the anger you felt when carlo insulted you hurt did it not? You know what pain is and how pain and can hurt you so much you ache. Would you like for someone to be there for you to tell them all your fears and worries? To lean against, someone who will be there for you and be patient with you no matter what. To let yourself go and open up, I open my arms to you Michael I am here for you.
Michael took a small ragged breath feeling tears come to his eyes. He stared at loomis slowly, wearily, coming closer to him looking at his outstretch arms so warm and inviting. Loomis took ahold of Michael before he could shy away. Michael felt himself being wrapped in the doctors arms and for once the feeling of being safe and care for overwhelmed him and scared him for he had not felt such emotions for a long time.
"Shhh, Crying can bring comfort Michael." Loomis said reassuringly his eyes brimmed with tears also. Tears of joy and relief that he had finally reach Michael. He moved slightly side to side rocking Michael in comfort. Loomis heard Michael sniffle it was childish yes but loomis smile when he heard it, he was now certain that Michael was becoming human once more and his inner self becoming more strong.
The came in when she heard it had become silent in the room. " Oh my is your patient all right doctor?" She asked noticing his sniffling.
"Dont worry nurse his crying is a good sign. I have reached him, and he knows the consequences of his own actions." Loomis said softly she wink at loomis and left the two smiling as well. Loomis withdrew from the hug but held Michael at arms length so he could look into his eyes.
Michael was no longer A mask behind a mask, and loomis was now willing to do everything humanly possible to help Michael, to nurture Michael the guidance he never had.
Loomis did not think it was a good idea to take off Michael's mask yet, he needed intense one on one time with Michael and Michael needed to trust loomis. Loomis knew if his masked was removed Michael would be Abruptly disempowered he would look dazed, and almost unsure of himself. Loomis knew this was far from over but he now had hope and faith for the future.
"Michael, I will be here for you always." Remember that I am not here to hurt you or for revenge I am here to help and care for you."
Michael nodded still feeling the effects from loomis hugging him, he felt the weight of forgiveness from loomis and and the kind patient. Michael trying to resist these feelings couldn't help but feel relax and at peace when he did. Maybe love could save him, maybe trusting in someone, letting out all his emotion on them could save him.