A/N: Yay my first POV! I think I'm good at it...Sort of...You'll just have to read and find out! Soooo read it! Yay! Try not to cry...and if you do, grab lotsa tissues...you'll need em...with that said...enjoy! Aaaaaand cry!

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or any of its characters, but I wish I owned Miroku. Everything you don't recognize is mine. All characters belong to Rumiko Takahashi.

::NOTE:: This is the same thing as the last chapter, except from Miroku's POV. It's quite interesting to see the situation from two different POV's, don'tcha think?

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It's been a while, hasn't it?

It's been such a long time since I had first met Inuyasha, Kagome, and Shippou. They're the only friends I've got. Sango? She's something else completely. I would have stopped hitting on village women right then and there when I saw her, if not for this curse.

Ah, yes. This curse... I thought bitterly. That bastard Naraku has ways to torture everyone he comes in contact with, huh? Heh. Damn him.

I tore my staring eyes away from the Kazaana and glanced at my sleeping friends. What I wouldn't give to be able to sleep so soundly at night like they did. I turned my attention to the daylight that had begun to peak in through the cracks around the bamboo door and sat up quietly. Sure I still needed more sleep, of course I was up all night worrying, but that was normal. I've done this routine countless times before. I exited the small room without another glance back.

I would have looked back, had I known that this was not the fated day. I would have told myself just how lucky I really was that I had not died yet. But no. Why didn't I look back, your wondering? I have my reasons.

Reason one: It will hurt too much to even look at my friends when I am abandoning them all like this.

Reason two: I might hesitate. I'm scared as hell right now, don't get me wrong, but I have to keep going so no one else gets hurt.

Reason three: I don't want anyone to see me go off alone like this. It'll only cause more trouble, more worry, and more pain. More than I'm worth. Besides, I'm a loner, ne? It's in my nature.

I hope they understand...I hope she understands, for she will hurt the most from this.

My time is up.

I sadly wandered farther and farther away from the people I had called my home. Why did it have to end like this anyway? I didn't even say goodbye...

I paused for a brief moment before continuing on into the woods. Why? Why did I do that? Is there something I still want from the world?

Well that's a no-brainer. I knew what I wanted, I just couldn't have it. I wanted freedom from this fear, something I don't recall ever having before. And something I'll never have at this final point in my life.

I stopped at a small stream. It was quite relaxing actually. Too bad I never noticed it before. Yes, this would do. I can die here, where at least I can die somewhat happy. It was still a depressing thought though.

I sat down near the glittering steam, unaware of any beauty in the world anymore. I was sinking deeper into bitterness as my time ran out slowly, so now was as good a time as any to meditate. I really needed to clear my mind.

That's when it all happened. How could something so right go so wrong? It's beyond me, but that's how it went. I didn't even hear her footsteps in the grass but I could sense her overwhelming presence. Perhaps I was just a bit too deep into my meditation session to notice at first, or maybe it was just here skill and experience as a taijiya. Either way, she was here, and she wasn't going to turn back.

"Good morning, Sango. What are you doing up so early?"

"I should ask you the same question, houshi-sama," she said serenely.

"Well, Sango, I have been sensing that something bad is going to happen in the near future. I was thinking that perhaps Buddha could help me. Now, perhaps you can answer my question."

"I...I wanted to find you. I woke up and saw you were missing, and I wanted to find you before anyone else got up."

Now why was she so shy all of a sudden? Her voice told it all. She was uncomfortable around me, I could tell. The thought was a little disappointing in itself, but there were other things that had to be taken care of first.

"Sango, just go back with the others and wait for me. I need to be alone right now." Perhaps my voice was a bit too sharp, because she took a step back, slightly shocked. Didn't she understand? She wasn't supposed to be here. She's going to ruin everything for herself if she stays.

"Houshi-sama, I'm not going back unless you're with me. What's wrong? You can talk to me about anything, you know."

Oh really? Now this was something I never expected to hear from this emotionally closed up taijiya.

"Sango, just go. If what I think is going to happen actually happens, I don't want you to see it. You'll be traumatized. I'm only trying to protect you." Inside, I was begging her with all my heart to leave. I couldn't stand this anymore.

Finally I got through to her. I suppose it hit her too fast and hard though, because I could clearly see her eyes begin to shimmer. Please, Sango...please don't cry because of me. You're going to break me into pieces if this goes on...

"I'm not leaving. I'm staying right here with you."

Great. That's what I wanted you not to do. What was I going to do now? I had gotten too close to her. Dammit! I knew that was a bad idea! The thing was, I didn't actually know how dear she was to me until just now.

"Houshi-sama, why are you so intent on protecting me?"

This made me smile. Ah, if only you knew how much you meant to me...then you would understand why.

"I'm actually quite glad you asked me that, Sango." This was a good time to tell her. Otherwise I'd never get the chance again.

"Eh?" was her response. I sighed.

"Well, Sango," I looked her way, "I would think the answer's simple. I do not want the girl I care for to be hurt."

Once again I smiled. Her reaction was rather predictable.

"G-girl you c-c-care for?" she stuttered. Once again I have succeeded in making her uncomfortable. Way to go. Anyway...

"Yes. Have you never wondered why I haven't yet asked you to bear my child? If you have my children, and something happens to me, you'd be heartbroken." I told her seriously.

"I'd be heartbroken anyway, houshi-sama!" she shouted. I nearly choked. Had she felt this way all along? Did I miss something here?

"Don't say that, Sango."

"Why not? It's true!" she stated firmly.

"Sango, nobody would miss me that deeply." I was voicing my thoughts now. The thoughts that have plagued me for so long now. But she had more to say...

"Houshi-sama, that's not true! I would miss you, Kagome would miss you, Shippou would miss you...heck, even Inuyasha, Mr. Emotionless, would miss you! We don't want you to leave us just about as much as we hope that Inuyasha doesn't choose Kikyou over Kagome!"

She had finally broken down. I watched, desperately longing to hold her and tell her that I would stay just for her. But I couldn't. She looked up at me, tears still lingering on her beautiful face.

"Do you really feel that way, Sango?" I really had no idea that anyone would miss me this much. What had I done that made her believe I was worth all of this?

"Yes, houshi-sama. As a matter of fact, I do." She stood up and began to leave. "Well, since you don't want me to miss you, I guess I'll leave you alone now." I think watching her go hurt me too much. Despite my urgings for her to leave, and disregarding all thoughts of keeping her away, I stopped her.

"Sango, wait!" I grabbed her thin wrist and tugged her back towards me. She turned around instantly, looking confused. I was startled by my own actions as well, to tell you the truth.

"Houshi-sama, let me go. You just told me you wanted me to go." No. There is no way I'm going to let go.

"I changed my mind. Please stay, Sango." I let go of her wrist, and gazed up at her. She stared back as she seated herself back down beside me.

She never lost eye contact.

"Sango, why are you staring at me like that?"

"N-no reason."

She blushed as she always does. There was a long pause in our conversation. Gods, I just want her to feel the same way as I do. I watched her fixedly as she struggled to think of the right words to say. I felt peaceful with her nearby, so peaceful, actually, that I didn't notice the growing pain in my cursed hand.

The kazaana demanded attention though, when a miniscule bolt of black lightning jolted from my fingertips to the ground. Sango gave me a look of pure shock and horror. I looked back grimly. I had to keep her calm at all costs.

"Houshi-sama, what's happening?" her voice shook. I noticed her lower lip quiver, and her brown eyes glistened with tears for the second time this morning.

"Nothing to worry about, Sango. It's been happening every once in a while for quite some time now. I still have time, don't worry." I needed to keep my head on straight, so comforting her like this seemed like the right thing to do. It seemed to be working.

"But how much time, houshi-sama? How much longer is it going to be until you're taken away from me?"

She paused after that comment. I didn't know what to do at this point. I had no idea that she really had feelings for me. Not like this, anyway.

"Gomen-nasai, that was incredibly selfish of me."

I just gave a small laugh after that remark. "It wasn't selfish at all, Sango. You're just upset, and once again letting your emotions get the best of you. Don't be sorry."

"Houshi-sama," she said quietly. Her eyes were nearly overflowing with tears, "when it happens...take me with you."

...N-nani? Did I hear that correctly...?

"Sango, I'm afraid that's not possible."

"Yes it is! Just take me first, and then, I guess you'll follow."

"Sango, you can't come with me. You need to stay with the group. They need you."

"And they don't need you?" she shouted at me.

"They have no choice at this point. They'll have to go on without me. You, however, can stay with them. You're not leaving them anytime soon."

"Yes, I am, because I'm going with you!"

"Damn it, Sango!" I shouted. This was hitting my last nerve. Couldn't she see that I actually cared about her? That I wanted to let her live her life? "Why do you want to come with me so badly?"

"Because...because I..." Her words wouldn't come.

"Because you what?"

"Because I love you!"

I felt as though all of my walls were shattered as she spoke those last words. I can hardly describe the feeling that swept over me when she revealed that to me. I was no longer angry with her...how could I be? No woman had ever told me she loved me...not one. And because of that, I really had no idea what to do next.

"Wow. That was unexpected. I, uh, really don't know what to say."

She stayed silent, but I could tell she was screaming inside, desperate to be heard. There was only one thing I could do at a time like this...I let go.

I allowed my heart to take over my mind as I pulled her roughly into my arms. My lips covered hers gently and I felt her jump slightly in surprise. I was a bit surprised myself. I knew this was what I had desired for such a long time so I continued. I pulled her body against mine, so close that I could feel her heartbeat.

I felt yet another excruciating jolt of pain sending from my fingertips up into my arm. The small spasms of pain had escalated greatly in such a short time. This wasn't good. I had finally managed to soothe Sango's wounded heart, just so I could pierce it again with my disappearance.

I broke our kiss and forced a smile. Please...let her live.

She smiled back, which relieved me greatly. Now I just had to get her out of here since the kazaana couldn't stay sealed much longer. The wind picked up, causing me to shiver. I looked back down at Sango and noticed that she was no longer smiling.

I frowned again, hoping that she wasn't upset because of my actions. I wouldn't ever want her to be miserable because of me...unless there was another reason behind her melancholy expression. Perhaps I moved too fast and she didn't actually want me to kiss her. Maybe I'm just getting too close to her again. Shit, why do I always do this?

I winced, feeling the pain searing through my arm and hand. It felt like I was being stabbed one thousand times. Over and over, without any end in sight.

"Sango? What's wrong?" I said, ignoring, or at least trying to ignore the pain ripping through my senses.

"Nothing's wrong, houshi-sama. I'm fine." That was a lie if I've ever heard one. I'm not so sure how I felt about her lying to my face when I was on the verge of death. It wasn't severe, but it hurt. It hurt like hell.

I took another look at her face as she cast her gaze downwards towards the uneven ground. Her cheeks had a slightly pink hue, making her beyond gorgeous. My left hand twitched. But this wasn't the time for such things...

I grimaced once again, feeling the never-ending burning sensation in my fingers. The bolts of lightning began shooting from my cursed hand to the ground at a faster pace than ever. This was unbearable. I didn't know how much longer I could keep up appearances and pretend with Sango. I tried my best to hide the pain, but the curse was gradually gaining possession over my mind.

This suffering had gone too far. I was at the point of just tearing the rosary beads off the stupid curse and letting the kazaana take me. But Sango was still here...

Without warning, the rosary beads I had just moments ago longed to pull off, began to vibrate. All in one instant, they shattered, flying in every direction. My heart stopped.

Sango however, would not budge. Please! Please spare her! Make her leave! My mind was screaming repeatedly. She must continue living...for her brother. He needs her more than I do. Begging for a miracle wouldn't help at a time like this, would it?

As the kazaana pulled me closer and closer, I cried out in agony, frustrated at my inability to control what was happening.

"Houshi-sama!" Sango screamed to me.

I looked her way sadly. My life was being taken away from me so easily, by my most hated enemy, nonetheless. I then vowed that I would seek revenge in the next life. Revenge for my family, my friends, myself, and for Sango.

Memories of my fading life came back to me in those precious few moments that I could still live and breathe. My haunting past returned to greet me as I saw myself as a small child, watching father being sucked into the kazaana, just as I am now. I heard Mushin-sama telling me to stay back so I wouldn't be caught in the dangerous range of my father's kazaana. It was a terrifying experience, seeing him implode into his own hand...

My second memory wasn't as harsh on my mind as it came and went. It was the memory of meeting Inuyasha, Kagome, and Shippou. I could just see them all chasing after me after I had stolen Kagome's Shikon no kakera. After that day, I was no longer alone in the world. I had found happiness within these people who shared the same difficulties as I did.

Meeting Sango was an adventure alright. She had been manipulated into believing that Inuyasha had slain her village. Her mind was so bent on vengeance, that I just had to notice her determination and agility. Her poison shielding mask concealed her face, so I didn't get a very good look at her. On top of that, I was too busy chasing down Naraku to care about her obvious beauty and strength.

Later on, after we really got to know her, I became infatuated. I can just remember that one time she had to fix Hiraikotsu and left us for three days. Those days seemed to never end and I was truly afraid that she wouldn't return to us, or to me. Watching her fight for the ones she loved was inspiring and motivating. Every time I found myself in a tight situation or possibly poisoned from Naraku's saimyoushou, I would think of her spirit, get up, and keep going on with life.

I came back to reality and watched as Sango spun on her heel, ran about a meter or so before she turned around to look my way again. Damn, she was so close to leaving, so why didn't she do it?

"Houshi-sama!" she screamed at me again. It didn't do any good. I stood up and distanced my palm from the rest of me. I wanted, (or was it needed?) to stay alive just a moment longer. Grass, dirt, and other such particles were disappearing into my hand faster than the speed of light, whatever that was. The kazaana grew and grew, the winds increasing in strength like never before. I needed to hold onto my life as long as possible for Sango...just to speak to her one last time before I left the earth.

"I love you, Sango. Don't ever forget that."

I had finally revealed my deepest thoughts and feelings to her. Something I had always wanted to do, but never found the right moment to do it. Better now than never. She wouldn't like it very much though, I'm sure.

"Houshi-sama!" I heard her say one last time.

"Miroku, Sango...just Miroku."

And with that, I smiled. It was a painful smile that I could barely muster. And then, after nineteen years of waiting in fear, the kazaana took me.

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A/N: ...wha? You want me to say something? I'm too busy crying to do that! I have no idea HOW I could kill him!!! And how I could do it PRETENDING I was his mind!! That really sucked. Oh god I will never read this again in fear of bursting out into fits of hysterics! Well if you're one of those tragedy- loving fic-readers...if that's really a word...then this was the perfect story for ya! Please review! We can't be wasting our tears on something no one reads!

Mandi's A/N: I told you Vikki did a good job! Miroku's POV made me cry even more than Sango's! --cries and blows nose loudly-- Sniff sniff. I'm okay. Really. I know I promised the first reviewer Miroku's staff, but Sango won't give it up. So, Kawaii Youkai Miko, you win a Naraku plushie toy! You can beat him up all ya want!

And to Fred the Mutant Pickle: I'm sorry, but I can't give you Hiraikotsu...Sango won't give that up either. But...you can have a lifetime supply of ramen, just cuz you asked for something haha.

Inuyasha: NO! MY RAMEN!

Kagome: OSUWARI!

Inuyasha: --thunk--

Anyway...please review! Vikki and I would appreciate it!