Kuri: Sorry for the late updates!!! Haven't been feeling well and school has been bugging me!!! But here! My next chapter! Hope you like it! And it's gonna be short since well, right now, I'm supposed to be doing a research but I don't really feel like it... Heehee... So, sorry if this chapter looks like as if it was rushed or something!!!
"The smile that melts my heart"
Chapter 4
"Water Drops"
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-Robin's POV—
Okay, so, I don't know what exactly hit me as soon as I stepped out of Raven's room. Because the next thing I knew, I was sitting on the bench at the park under the pouring rain.
I knew I was an eyesore. I looked like someone has just dumped me. But I couldn't care less. That's exactly how I feel and let's just leave it that way.
I sighed and slumped my shoulders. A raindrop that was on the tip of my nose started to quiver a bit then, it fell to my lap. That got me thinking... Under the rain, when a person is crying, how will you know if that water drop is either a person's tear or just the raindrop falling on that person's face?
Again, I sighed. It seems like sighing has already been a habit of mine. But I couldn't help it!!! What else can I do?! Laugh in spite of the pain that I have been keeping?!
"Maybe you should." a familiar voice from behind me called out.
I turned around. "Raven? What are you doing here?!" I asked. "And were you reading my mind again?" I added.
Raven shrugged. "Just wanted to walk in this gloomy weather. And yes, I read your mind. And your thoughts are really different from the others."
And again, I let out a frustrated sigh. "Raven. Just lay off my mind, all right? I need my privacy, you know!"
Raven shrugged again. "Whatever you say." she said nonchalantly.
"So, how long have you been reading my mind?" I asked calmly. Because if I would panic, she would probably see her name inside of my head.
"Just to the part about the water drops thing. Jeez, I wonder why that thought suddenly popped inside of your head!"
This time, I was the one who shrugged. "Lots of things are inside of my head and I advice you that you leave my thought alone! You might find something inside that will make a great impact on you!"
Raven rolled her eyes. "Whatever, Robin!"
I just don't know how to explain this... but everytime Raven says my name, I just feel so... giddy all over...
"So, what bring you here?" Raven asked.
"Oh." I said. "You know, I also decided to go for a walk in this oh- so- gloomy weather because I feel like inside, I have this oh- so- gloomy feeling inside of me."
"What's bothering you anyway? You've been looking kinda down ever since you saw me. I've noticed..."
"Yeah?" I jerked my head. "I'm sorry, Raven, but I just can't tell you..."
Just for a moment there, I swear, Raven flashed a face at me full of concern. But when I blinked, her expression remained the same just like before. Maybe I was just imagining things...
"Just remember, Robin. Even if we aren't the Teen Titans anymore, we're still friends so, don't hesitate to some to me whenever you have a problem. And I assure you that I will do my best to help you."
Oh, wait! Did I just hear that right?! Raven was actually being... nice!!! Maybe I have gone insane!!! But instead of running around in circles and flapping my arms that I imagined myself to do, I simply said, "Thanks, Raven."
And again, another rare moment for me! Raven actually smiled!!! It was just a small smile but still!!! It was a smile! The smile that I have been longing for!
"Raven..." I said absently. "A smile is adorning your face. You look... pretty..."
"What?!" Raven looked embarrassed so she quickly pulled up her hood.
For the first time that day, I giggled. The rain was pouring down on us and it was a really great scene! When someone laughs under the rain, it's just a very nice sight!!! But the loud rumble of thunder and a blinding streak of thunder interrupted me. I heard leaves rustle. And I had this feeling that something bad was going to happen. But I just shook of that feeling.
I turned to Raven and she was looking at the sky with a serious expression on her face.
"Raven? What are you looking at?!"
And suddenly, without warning, Raven threw herself at me. I fell off the bench and hit the wet grass with Raven on top of me.
"Hey! What are you doing?!" I cried. Just then, the tree that was behind the bench that I was sitting on collapsed on the spot where I was earlier!
"That's supposed to be question!" Raven yelled, still not getting off me. "Didn't you see?! The lighting hit the tree! Robin! You used to be a Teen Titan! You should be able to avoid this kind of thing! What's wrong with you?! You're not acting like yourself! Why don't you just tell me what's wrong?! I can help you!"
"I..." I faced away. Silently, tears brimmed my eyes.
Raven saw this and quickly apologized. "I'm sorry, Robin! I didn't mean to shout at you! It's just that I'm worried about you, okay?!"
"It's not that, Raven..." I said softly. "This problem of mine... I just can't stand it! I must tell you!!!" I resisted.
"Then, tell me now!" Raven cried.
"Raven..." I started. I wiped away a tear (or was it a raindrop?) off of my face and closed my eyes shut. "I know that you already like someone else... but... I hope you won't get shocked by what I'm going to say... Raven... I... I really love you! I know you don't feel the same but I've been keeping this feeling far too long and I can't stand it already! It's all right if you don't respond to this... "
I opened my eyes to see how Raven would react. She was just kneeling there on top of me, stunned. She didn't say anything. She was just staring...
"Raven...?"
"NO!!!" she suddenly burst out. "IT CAN'T BE!!!"
"Raven? What's the matter?!"
"NO! IT JUST CAN'T BE!"
"Raven? Raven! Tell me! What are you saying?!"
Then, something unexpected happened. I felt something drop on my face. I looked up and saw that it was... a teardrop... Raven's teardrop...
That's how I found out the difference between a teardrop and a raindrop...
A teardrop is from inside of you and when it comes out, it brings a part of you along with it so the teardrop feels warmer than a raindrop.
The water drop that fell on my face felt warm. And that's when I realized that Raven was crying
I don't know why... but I already told her that what I was going inside of my mind was going to make a big impact on her... Only this time, it went out of my mouth without her having to read my mind.
I tried to put myself in her shoes. What would I do if someone has just told me something I never expected to hear?
Then again, I imagine myself running around in circles and flapping my arms. But I tried to focus. And I realized that I would also let the tears pour out...
I knew I shouldn't told her but she insisted that I tell her what was my problem... And my oh- so- gloomy feelings were already a problem.
And back to Raven...
I asked one more time what was wrong. But of course, I didn't expect an answer. But I just had to know what was wrong... just like how badly she wanted to know what was bothering me!
The tears continued pouring out of her eyes. "It just can't be true..." And with that, she stood up and ran at full speed, leaving a trail of tears behind her.
I sat up. "What's wrong with Raven...?"
And the rain just continued pouring...
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