Chapter 16
Angel helped Cordelia back into the lobby of the hotel and sat her down in her chair. Fr. Barris had already arrived and was talking to Wesley. When Wesley saw Angel and Cordelia come into the lobby he walked over to them with Fr. Barris.
"Where is Dr. Martin Angel?" Wesley asked.
"She'll be here in a minute. Good evening Father." Angel said as he shook his hand.
"How is married life going for you?" Fr. Barris asked.
"It is a dream come true Father." Angel answered.
Dr. Martin came in before Fr. Barris had time to talk with Cordelia. She came over to the little group.
"Good evening Father. Thank you for coming. Angel would you remove your jacket and roll up your sleeve then lay down on the couch." Dr. Martin said.
Angel did as she requested. Dr. Martin took a moment to explain to Fr. Barris what had happened during the weekend and why she wanted to talk to Angelus.
"I want you to sit close by so that you can observe this demon close up. He is going to say terrible things Father. Do not say or do anything that would cause the demon to leave Angels body. Don't forget that Angel needs him. Above all don't show that you are afraid because he'll use it against you." Dr. Martin sat down on the coffee table next to where Cordelia had moved to.
"Okay Angel here we go." Angel nodded at her and closed his eyes. Dr. Martin took out 2 syringes that she had in her pocket. One had more then the other. She put the smaller one back in her pocket. After taking the protective cap off of the needle she swabbed his arm down and put the needle in. Angel closed his eyes. Dr. Martin stood up and walked around for awhile. She was trying to concentrate on what to ask Angelus. She was having a hard time getting rid of what Angel had just done in the kitchen. A moment of pride could cost hours of convincing Cordelia that Angel wasn't mad at her for the miscarriage. Women almost always blamed themselves for the miscarriage.
"Dr. Martin." Cordelia was calling her. Dr. Martin and Fr. Barris came over. Cordelia looked at them. "Angelus is here."
"I bet you thought you would never be let out again." Dr. Martin asked as she sat down on the coffee table next to Cordelia. Fr. Barris took a chair that was at the other end of the couch.
"Ohhh, I was pretty sure if I pushed the right buttons that you would pay a call." Angelus said. He had a wicked grin on his face that let you know you were dealing with a demon. You could see it in his eyes that he was watching your every move and listening to your every word. What he was doing was looking for any weakness that he could pounce on. When dealing with Angelus you always had to be on guard.
"Lets get right to it Angelus, why are you making it so hard for Angel to put aside what 'you' did to Druscilla?"
"Hey I have to get my laughs somehow." Then Angelus spotted Cordelia.
"Hey Baby. Did you see how it took 7 of those guys to stop me from tearing their throats out."
"I didn't know you cared?" Cordelia asked.
"I don't, your just unusable now for a couple of months. Your so banged up now you won't be any good to me."
"You mean if they had asked you first then you wouldn't have bothered." Dr. Martin asked.
"Of course. You've got to share the wealth you know."
"Lets get back to my question Angelus. Why won't you let what you did to Drusilla go?"
"Like I said Doc, I have to get my kicks wherever I can."
"Why pick that though? You and Angel get to have sex whenever you want now. Cordelia doesn't haven't to start off with a blow job anymore, like they did on their wedding night just to make sure his soul is attached permanently. You get to have the real thing all the time."
"How do you know what we did?"
"Because she told Fred and I when you came back from Hawaii. Women talk about such things all of the time. Just like men do. Except we tell each other the truth. What do you think they're talking about when they get together? Lets get back to the main question. What is it going to take to get you to stop making Angel think he is the one that tortured Drusilla and drove her over the edge?"
"Let me out once in awhile where I can move around." Angelus said. His eyes had turned red with anticipation of cornering her where she had to give him what he wanted.
"You know that's impossible. What else?"
"Let me show you a good time. Let me show you how good I am at making Cordelia happy."
"You know that's impossible also. Besides I'm married."
"Yes but he can never touch you like I can. Cordelia practically had a melt down when Angel had to give you that sample."
"That doesn't work with a woman my age Angelus. Your material is old. You need to update it. Come up with something original. My husband was using the same material when we were dating back in the late sixties. I tell you what I will do for you though. You leave Angel alone with the Drusilla issue and I'll investigate a way where I can let you gain control of Angels body for 24 hours. Is that a deal?"
"No, I need a time limit on when you'll do it."
"Five years." Dr. Martin said without even hesitating.
"Why five years. That's an awfully long time for me to wait."
"We have a sister at the hospital that is a genius when it comes to chemistry. I'll give her the problem of coming up with something. She may come up with something before that, but I want to give her at least 5 years. Is it a deal?"
"Yes, it's a deal, but if you do not fulfill your part of the bargain then on this day five years from now I will end the existence of Angel as you know him."
"On my honor as a bride of Christ I promise you that even if my Sister cannot come up with a formula that will release you so that you can control Angels body for 24 hours then I will get Willow to take Angels soul out of his body so that you can control it for exactly 24 hours on this day 5 years from now."
With her goal accomplished she gave him the 2nd syringe. Angel went into a deep sleep and Angelus was once again contained within.
Wesley came over to Dr. Martin. He looked angry.
"You don't intend to fulfill that promise do you?" Wesley asked. Wesley never yelled when he was angry, but none the less you could always tell when he was angry. In fact steam was practically coming out of his ears.
"I most certainly do Wesley. Remember that I said it on my honor as a bride of Christ."
Wesley was beat red, he was so angry with her that she could even contemplate such an action.
"Wesley calm down. You'll burst a blood vessel. Lets go into the garden. I see so little of Gods beautiful creations these days."
Everyone but Cordelia followed her outside. It felt good to smell the fresh air that the garden created. When they came down the back stairs and further away from the hotel Dr. Martin turned around to face everyone.
"Wesley, have you ever heard of the saying between lawyers, 'Never ask a question that you don't already have an answer for'."
"Yes."
"I came out here so that Angel and Cordelia couldn't hear us speak. When I told Angelus that Cordelia had given Angel oral sex on their wedding night I knew that it had never happened. When he acted as though he remembered it, that told me that Angel is able to keep Angelus blind and deaf when they are having sex. This could be useful in dealing with Angelus or plotting against him in the future. I also agreed to releasing him for 24 hours in the future, but I didn't say where or under what conditions." Dr. Martin rubbed her neck and looked down and was smiling when she looked back up at Wesley. "In fact this went a lot easier then I was expecting. Either that or I am getting better at dealing with Angelus better."
"So your telling me you never intended to let him out." Wesley asked.
"Of course I did, but I didn't say under what conditions."
"How do you propose to do it?" Wesley asked.
"In the middle of Death Valley. In a covered cage. The 24 hours will start at noon and end at noon the next day." Dr. Martin said with a slight smile.
"You sly fox you." Gunn said with a big grin.
Dr. Martin bowed to Gunn. "Coming from you Gunn I take that as a compliment. Like I said, never ask a question that you don't already know the answer to. That rule is used by psychiatrists as well as lawyers."
"So every time you ask a question of Angel you already know the answer that he will give." Wesley said it like it was an epiphany for him.
"Yes Wesley, I thought you would have figured all of this out before now. Think back on the first night that I held a session with everyone. Think about how I led everyone on until I had you all on just the right path then I opened just the right door at the right time and Angel took his first step towards his redemption. That first step was for him to stop taking the blame for what Angelus did. In the back of his mind Angel new the truth but he was so blinded by guilt, that Angelus fed him constantly, he needed someone to lead him. As I have made you all understand, Angel is still human and he thinks like a normal human being. It's just that he has this extra baggage that he has to carry along with him. That baggage is Angelus, a terribly dangerous and vicious demon and the fact that he is labeled as a Vampire because of that demon and his thirst for blood." Dr. Martin put her hands in her pockets and walked around a little bit. This helped her to think about what she was saying. Every ones attention was on her. Even Fr. Barris was spell bound by what she was saying.
"Normally Angel would be labeled as a schizophrenic with dual personalities. Because of this I have a wealth of knowledge to draw on from other psychiatrists dealings with their patients. Even though we know that Angelus, who is Angels other personality, is real I can still predict what Angel will do and how I can go about treating him. Schizophrenics say that they hear other voices constantly talking to them. Sometimes they tell people to kill or they drive them to suicide by constantly blaming them for things that have happened. As you know this is the exact same thing that Angel deals with every hour of every day. I am able to help Angel because he is human and thinks the same way as all humans do, if he didn't then I wouldn't be able to help him because he would be so unpredictable and I would have nothing to base my treatment on. When I am dealing with Angel I have a better than 75% chance that I will be correct in what I believe will be Angels reaction to something. I'm going back in now. It's getting chilly. The real reason I wanted to come out here was to get away from Angel so that he couldn't hear us. I also think that there are hidden microphones in the hotel again."
"Yes, that's the only way that whoever gave the order to attack Cordelia and Angel knows what is being said in here. They knew when they left for a walk on the beach." Wesley said.
"First thing in the morning we had better check this place from top to bottom again." Gunn said.
"Wesley there is one more thing that I need for you to do before we go to bed. We have to write down the exact words that I used for my promise to Angelus. Five years from now I will need to know exactly what I said when we let him out. He isn't going to like it and I will have to be able to show him exactly what was said. Then you are to give me a copy of what was said and you are to open a safety deposit box at a bank and put that copy in it. Everyone must have access to that box because just in case you and I are no longer alive at that time the people that are left will be able to show him exactly what was said. Angel and Cordelia are not to know about it. As you know what Angel knows Angelus knows. I believe a mental bound, much like what Angel and Spike share, is developing between Angel and Cordelia, but it will be a lot more personal and very strong. Because Angel is the one initiating that bound he will know what Cordelia knows. For that reason she cannot know about it either. Let's go and check on Angel. I've had a full day and I am ready for bed." Dr. Martin said as she went back up the stairs to the back doors." She went over to the couch and found both Angel and Cordelia sleeping there.
"We might as well leave them there. I'll go and get a blanket to cover them." Fred said to Dr. Martin.
"Okay, I'm going to bed then. I'll see you in the morning. Good night everyone."
Everyone said goodnight and went their separate ways.
Fred came back with a blanket and covered Angel and Cordelia. Gunn was already upstairs and taking a shower. She went to the front doors and turned the lights off and checked the doors. She saw Wesley's office lights on so she went to turn them off. Just as she came to the door she heard Wesley turning the light off. He was so preoccupied that he almost ran into her. They looked at each other for a moment. Both wanting to speak volumes, both to afraid to say anything.
"When will you let me love you Fred like Angel is able to love Cordelia?"
He stepped closer to her and put his arm around her and kissed her lightly to see how she would respond. She responded lightly by raising her hands to his arms. Wesley took it as a signal that she wanted the same thing. He kissed her then as a man would that was starving and just opened the door to a banquet. She responded in kind but then pulled away.
"I'm not ready to let Gunn go yet Wesley." "Why Fred? What is taking you so long to leave Gunn and come to me?" "I don't know Wesley, I don't know. I'm just not ready to let him go yet."
"When your ready Fred I'll be here." "I know Wesley. Thank you for being so patient with me. Good night." Fred turned then and went up the stairs.
Wesley went into the garden to be alone with his thoughts. The quiet of the night was only interrupted by the sounds of traffic. He heard the doors open and close. He turned to see who was coming. It was Angel.
"May I join you?" Angel asked.
"Yes, have a seat." Angel sat down next to him.
"You heard everything didn't you?" Wesley said.
"Yes. I've noticed lately that you and Gunn weren't as close as you used to be before Fred came. Now I know why."
"Did Cordelia hear?" Wesley asked.
"She knew you were their but she couldn't hear everything so she asked me after you left."
"I don't know why but for some reason Fred continues to hold on to Gunn even though she doesn't love him." Wesley said.
"Cordelia and I were talking about it. You want to hear what she thinks or what I think?" Angel asked Wesley.
Wesley looked at Angel like it was the dumbest question he had ever heard.
"Nothing against you Angel but considering your track record with women I'll choose Cordelia."
Angel laughed and said "What do you mean my track record?"
"Well you do have to admit you just got lucky with Cordelia. In fact you have such a terrible track record that God Himself probably stepped in to give you Cordelia."
"I won't argue with you their. Anyway here it is. According to Mrs. Cordelia Chase Martin it's you own fault she is with Gunn. Cordelia knew right off the bat that you and Fred should be together. Since Gunn is more likely to step up and speak his mind he stepped up to Fred first. Where as you are more shy and always think your not good enough to step forward. Fred, after 5 years in Pylea, grabbed on to the first man that stepped forward. For 5 years she had to survive on her own. When someone stepped up and seemed to want to take care of her she gladly gave up the responsibility. That's why she wanted me but I finally made it clear that I had no interest in her other then a friend. She grabbed onto the next person to offer his shoulder. Now that she realizes that she loves you she is having a hard time letting go of her, lets say, security blanket which is Gunn. When she is ready to give up that security blanket she'll let go of Gunn and come to you."
"That sounds good. I think Cordelia is on the right track, at least I hope so. Thank you for coming to talk to me Angel. Thank Cordelia for me also. I feel a lot better now." Wesley said.
"Tomorrow Wesley lets get some equipment in here to check for microphones. Someone must be listening to us. These attacks are to coincidental."
"That's the same thing Dr. Martin said. Well I think I'll turn in Angel. See you tomorrow."
"Goodnight Wesley."
They both made their way back into the hotel. Angel locked the doors behind him and went to get Cordelia. He found her sleeping again. He picked her up and took her to the bedroom and put her on the bed. Angel removed her clothes and put her under the covers then removed his own clothes and climbed in bed along side her. He put his arm under her neck and pulled her close to him. Cordelia automatically turned to him and made herself comfortable in his embrace.
The next morning Dr. Martin came downstairs for some coffee and breakfast. She could see that others had been through here also. She heard some noise downstairs so she went to see who was in the basement. What she found was everyone. They were all standing around watching Angel, Spike, Connor, and Gunn work out. They seemed to be competing because the rest were counting for them. She sat on the stairs to watch. The men were doing pull ups using a pipe that had been attached to the supporting floor beams. The others had counted up to 55. Gunn was starting to tire and at 60 he gave up. Connor continued to 100 then dropped. Spike and Angel were still going at it. By 120 they were both barely making it but neither one wanted to stop first. Finally at 130 Spike dropped down. Angel continued to do a few more then he dropped down. Both Spike and Angel were breathing hard and sweating.
"That's okay Spike. Maybe you'll be able to beat me after I'm human again."
"I just felt sorry for you. I didn't want to make you look bad in front of everyone."
"Wesley have you been able to get that equipment to check on what we were talking about last night?" Angel asked.
"Yes I'm going after breakfast. Connor you want to come with me?" Wesley asked.
Angel came over to Wesley and motioned for Connor to come over.
"No one is to leave the hotel during the day unless either Buffy or you are with them. At night Spike and I will be with them. Until we find out who is behind these attacks we'll have to do it this way." Angel whispered to Connor and he nodded in reply.
Angel then went over to the others and told Cordelia the same thing and told her to pass it on to the others.
"When are you women going to feed the men? Cause I am hungry." Spike said out out loud.
"Why do we have to do the cooking? Why don't you do it if your so hungry." Cordelia said.
"Well for one thing I am a rotten cook. Angel didn't develope his culinary skills until he came to America so he never taught me to cook."
"How did you learn how to cook Angel?" Dr. Martin asked.
They all looked at her, they were surprised that she was there when no one had even noticed her come in.
"Yes Angel when did you develop your cooking skills. There's nothing in the Watchers Chronicles about it." Wesley said.
"When I came to the United States I had to work in order to buy blood. For a time I worked in several kitchens just cleaning pots and pans. Then one day the cooks needed help because one of the assistants didn't come in. The head chief grabbed me and gave me a white jacket and apron, a knife and a pile of vegetables he needed cleaned and cut. We became good friends and he taught me how to cook until I was the 2nd chief in command. Several years later, by accident he found out that I was a Vampire and I had to leave. After that I went to different cities working in smaller restaurants and picked up different types of cooking."
"What's your favorite type of food to cook?" Dr. Martin asked.
"French of course." Angel answered.
"Well why don't you get in that kitchen and show us how good you are." Spike said.
"Nothing fancy today Spike. We have to go grocery shopping which has to include blood. We're running out of everything. How about just plain old pancakes?" Cordelia said.
"Sounds good to me." Spike said.
They all went upstairs and Cordelia started the pancakes while Fred started another pot of coffee. Dr. Martin came up behind Cordelia. She had been watching her closely.
"How are you feeling this morning Cordelia?"
"A lot better Dr. Martin. The blood flow has slowed way down and I'm wearing pants that have a soft top so no more red mark." Cordelia pulled her top up and showed Dr. Martin her stomach where the stitches were.
"How's everything going in here?" Dr. Martin pointed to Cordelias head.
"Better, but not quite normal. I still can't stand for Angel to be out of my sight for more then a few minutes."
"Yes I've noticed that your constantly looking at the stairs since Angel went up to his room and your hands have started to shake." Dr. Martin said.
Cordelia broke down right in front of Dr. Martin and Fred.
"I don't know why I can't stand for him to be out of my sight or even where I can hear him. Even when were upstairs together if I have to use the bathroom I ask him to sit where I can see him or I ask him to talk to me." Dr. Martin put her arms around Cordelia. "Help me Dr. Martin I can't stand being like this, please help me." Cordelia was crying even harder now.
"I promise you Cordelia we'll work this out and everything will be okay before I leave."
They could hear Angel coming down the stairs. When he heard Cordelia crying he came running in. Dr. Martin gave Cordelia to him. Angel picked her up in his arms and turned and looked at Dr. Martin. You could see the worry and sadness in his eyes.
"Everything will be okay Angel. I'll be up later with breakfast for you two. Go upstairs now and take care of your wife." Dr. Martin turned to Fred and saw that she was crying also.
"She'll be okay Fred. I just have to work with her and find out why she can't bare to have Angel out of her sight." Dr. Martin said as she hugged Fred.
"When I was in Pylea I was never raped because we were thought of animals. But I worried about it all of the time. I stayed away from all other humans when I escaped because of it. I think I was starting to lose my mind when they came to Pylea and it took me awhile before I was completely sane again. Once Angel made me understand that he was a friend only I let go of him. Then Gunn was the first one between him and Wesley to step forward and offered to take care of me. I don't think I love him like I do Wesley. I'm just having a hard time leaving the second person to offer me safety and friendship. You have to stop me when I start rambling like this Dr. Martin or else I'll never shut up. Here you've come all this way to help Angel and now Cordelia needs you. But here I am telling you why I think Im crazy and why I think I can't let go of one man and on to the next. That sounds terrible though doesn't it. I sound like what my grandmother called a Fluzzy." Dr. Martin was listening patiently to Fred. She didn't interrupt her or ask her questions. She just listened. When Fred finally stopped Dr. Martin acted like their was nothing wrong.
"I think that when your ready you'll let go of Gunn but the problem is that you're being cruel to Gunn. Your letting him think that you love him when you don't and you're keeping Wesley waiting on the side. Let's make these pancakes so we can get on with the day or else Spike just might come in here and make a meal out of us."
"He wouldn't do that Dr. Martin. I know he acts all tough but on the inside there is another man that's very sweet. That's the man Buffy loves."
As they were talking they had finished making a pile of pancakes, eggs, and sausages. As they brought it all into the dinning room Buffy poured the coffee and Wesley and Gunn brought in the silverware plates and cups for anyone that didn't already have one. They all sat down to eat in silence for awhile. After most of the food was eaten conversations started up. Dr. Martin started questioning Buffy about the night of the attack.
"Tell me what happened with Cordelia while you were waiting for Wesley to come back with the rest of us?" Dr. Martin asked Buffy.
"Well just as we arrived Angel was trying to get to Cordelia. Their must have been 7 vamps on him, trying to hold him down. We could see 3 others taking their turns at Cordelia. They had made a little mound of sand under her hips so that they could more easily get to her. She was in a position where she couldn't see Angel but he could see all of her. All the time they were tearing her clothes and beating her she was calling for Angel until they knocked her out. Angel called her name out loud as they broke his legs." Buffy said.
"So she was constantly calling for him but never saw what happened to him. That's most likely why she can't stand for him to be out of her sight. That's very good information Buffy, thank you. I think I'll take them their breakfast now. Cordelia must be starving." Dr. Martin took her plate, silverware and cup and put them in the dish washer. She fixed more fresh pancakes and eggs for Cordelia and put a mug of blood into the microwave. By the time the tray of food was ready the blood was also ready. She didn't take any coffee up because Cordelia had a coffee maker in the bedroom. While holding the tray in one arm she knocked on the door. Angel opened the door and took the tray from her.
Cordelia was sitting up in bed so Angel put the tray over her legs. He started the coffee and pulled a chair over to the bed for Dr. Martin. He came and sat next to Cordelia on the bed and started drinking his breakfast.
"Cordelia I was talking to Buffy about the attack. She said that all the time you were bing raped you were calling for Angel. He could see you but because of the position the rapists had you in you couldn't see him. What I want to do is go up to 412 and hypnotize you. Afterwards we'll talk."
Cordelia put her fork down and took a sip of her coffee. She was quiet for awhile.
"Your going to make me relive the attack aren't you?"
"Yes Cordelia we have to. I promise you though that you'll feel a lot better afterwards."
Cordelia was having reservations about this now that she knew she would have to relive the rape.
"I think I've ruined your breakfast for you now." Dr. Martin said as she put everything but the coffee cups on the tray and put the tray on the table and went back to the bed.
"I know that you pray the rosary with Angel everyday Cordelia. I suggest that you do it now. Ask our Lord for his help to get through this. When my husband and son died in the car accident I prayed the rosary several times a day. It was the only way I could get through those first few months. I'm going up stairs now. In one hour join me and well start."
Dr. Martin took Cordelia's hands in hers. "I promise Cordelia that everything will be a lot better when we are done." She bent over and gave Cordelia a kiss on her forehead then left.
Angel got up and went to get some more coffee for himself and Cordelia. He brought them back to the bed and put her cup on her night stand then went to the other side. He opened the night stand drawer and pulled out a rosary and then laid down beside Cordelia. She put her head on his arm and they started to pray. Angel loved praying the rosary now. Cordelia would read the appropriate mystery for the day and Angel would lead the prayer.
One hour later they were headed up to 412.
"I wonder why she always wants to meet in 412 instead of our room." Cordelia said.
"I asked her one time and she said it's because it's neutral territory. Since it's a room that none of us live in we won't see things that will remind us of what we went through while in it. She said 'Angel can you imagine what it would be like trying to make love to Cordelia and you all of a sudden look at something in the room that reminded you of one of your sessions with me'. They continued to walk to the room in silence. Just before getting to the room Angel asked Cordelia 'How are you feeling about this now?'
"Better. I never noticed it before but I feel like I can cope with things better after praying the rosary. I can't explain it but the thoughts of the rape seem to be a little less heavy now. You know what I mean?" "Yes, I know exactly what you mean." "When we have our children Angel we'll have to involve them in it to." "Yes that would be good. When I was a little boy my Mother taught me how to pray the rosary. It wasn't to well known back then but my mother knew it. I learned and memorized the 3 principle prayers of the Catholic Church on the rosary. The hardest one for me to memorize was the Apostles Creed because you only said it once. When my mother died I tried teaching my sister but my father kept me busy all day and I also blamed God for my mothers death."
They arrived at 412 and knocked on the door. Dr. Martin told them to come in.
"Have a seat on the couch Cordelia. Angel why don't you sit over on the other side of the couch." All of the drapes were closed and the windows so no sound would come in. Dr. Martin turned the lights off and lit one candle which was on the table. She took a chair that was slightly to the right of the candle.
"Okay Cordelia were going to start. I want you to relax and look at the candle. Look only at the candle and no where else. I want you to listen to my voice only." Dr. Martin spoke softly and in almost a melodic tone. It was very much the same way when you are holding a baby and trying to get the baby to sleep by speaking very softly. It doesn't really matter what you say as long as you speak softly and the baby becomes focused on your voice.
"Relax your muscles. Start to let yourself go. Start with your muscles in your toes and then up to your ankles and legs. You can feel every muscle begin to relax. Your breathing is slowing down. Your arms and shoulders are relaxing. The tense feeling in your shoulders is going away, the muscles are relaxing. Now your eyes want to close and your feeling very sleepy."
Cordelia watched the flame dance on the candle wick. It made her sleepy to watch it. She felt herself getting so sleepy. She thought she would just close her eyes for a little while. Dr. Martins voice seemed to be getting further and further away. Within seconds Cordelia was asleep.
"I want you to think back to last Friday Cordelia. We were all sitting at the table having dinner and Buffy was teasing Spike."
For the next hour Dr. Martin guided Cordelia down the path that led to the attack and rape and then through it. Then she started to ask her what she was seeing. "I see 10 young teenage vampires. It looked like 7 of them jumped on Angel and 3 grabbed me. Two of them grab my arms. They are pulling my arms back it hurts so bad that I feel like they are going to pull my arms out of the sockets. One of them is standing in front of me and putting his hands on my breasts. He is trying to kiss me but I start fighting back and using everything that Angel has taught me. I can see Angel taking out several of the vampires that he is fighting. One of them is coming up behind him with a piece of wood. I call out to him but it's too late and they hit his head with the piece of wood and he goes down. I call out to him again but he is unconscious. The vampire in front of me is starting to hit me. He is starting to tear my clothes off of me and is trying to kiss me but I bit down hard on his lips and he stopped and pulled back. He starts to hit me again. My eyes are starting to swell up and I can hardly see but I saw Angel coming to and he jumps the vampires again. He distracted the audience so I start kicking anyone that came close enough. I lost consciousness then when he hit me again." Cordelia was crying and the tears were pouring down her face. Angel made a move to go to her but Dr. Martin held her hand up telling him to stop. He went back to the other end of the couch. He was crying almost as much as Cordelia. It was breaking his heart hearing her go through it again.
"What happened Cordelia when you came to again?" "When I came to again I felt my hips were higher then my shoulders and one of the vamps was inside of me. He was pumping me so hard it hurt. I could feel my insides ripping. I think I am pregnant and all I can think of is that he is killing my baby. I try fighting him and I try to get away but someone is holding my shoulders down. The vampire that is in me is done with me and before the next one can come over to me I raise my head so I can see Angel for a second. I'm calling to him over and over again but he can't hear me. I can see the head and shoulders of the vamps that are fighting Angel and one has that piece of wood again raised over his head. The next vampire grabs my legs and shoves himself deep inside me." Cordelia screamed as though she was being raped again. Angel was leaning forward. He had his hand over his face and was shaking as he heard Cordelia's description of what she was going through. "I'm calling out to Angel over and over again. Angel, help me, Angel, Angel, oh God help me it hurts so bad. He is killing my baby. Help me please help me Angel. He's killing our baby Angel help me." At this time Dr. Martin thought she had relived a sufficient amount of the rape.
"Cordelia you are no longer at the beach come back to the present. Angel is here and you feel safe with him next to you. It is now Wednesday and you are at the hotel again. All of your friends are here and you are safe." Cordelia stopped crying and she leaned back on the couch. Her breathing returned to normal.
" Cordelia I am going to count to three, when I get to three you will wake up and feel relaxed and better then you have since you were in Hawaii. You are starting to wake up.....1......when you wake up you will be craving for a Sunday with 3 scoops of ice cream, chocolate syrup, whip cream and a cherry on top......2......before you go down stairs you will need to go to the bathroom first.....while you are in their you will be thinking of how soon you and Angel can try to get pregnant again. Not this week but next week you will have an insatiable appetite for sex. By Wednesday you will be unable to keep your hands off of Angel and all you will want is sex." Dr. Martin pulled out her note book and checked something in it then put it away. She looked at Angel and smiled. "On Wednesday evening of next week Cordelia you will get on throw Angel on the bed and get on top of Angel and tell him 'I am ripe Angel so lets get to it and make Connor a baby sister or brother'.....3......wake up Cordelia." Cordelia opened her eyes and stretched her arms and rubbed her eyes. "How are you feeling Cordelia?"
"I feel great, better then I have since returning from Hawaii. You did it already didn't you?"
"Yes, we started at 1:15 and it is now 2:30." Dr. Martin said. "How did I do?" "You did very well, I think you will be okay now. We'll talk some more tomorrow but I think you will be just fine Cordelia. Let's go downstairs I think I would like to get something to eat." "You know all of a sudden I am craving a Sunday with chocolate syrup, whip cream and a cherry on top." Cordelia said as she jumped up. Dr. Martin looked at Angel. As Cordelia started to calm down Angel was able to get control of himself also. She smiled at him and he gave her a smile in return. He got up to follow Dr. Martin and Cordelia. Just when Cordelia got to the door she stopped and said "I have to go to the bathroom. I'll see you two downstairs. Will you make that Sunday for me Angel?" "How many scoops do you want?" He asked her. "Three and pour a lot of chocolate syrup on it okay?" "Okay, I'll have it ready for you by the time you come down." Angel opened the door for Dr. Martin and they both left. He waited outside for a minute to see if she would call for him, but she didn't so he started walking down to the elevator with Dr. Martin. When they stepped in and the doors closed. He turned to her. "Thank you for giving her back to me Dr. Martin." "It isn't quite over Angel. I don't think she will have a problem when your out of her sight for awhile but I still have to work with her to get over the rape itself. If I don't work with her she will start to be afraid again for you to be out of her sight. I am confident that she will be okay before I leave. I can talk to her over the phone if she needs it. I think what will help her more though is for you to find out who is behind all of these attacks." "We're working on it. It's slow going though since I haven't been able to get out their to put pressure on them to give up information. We'll be working on it tonight though. Angel went into the kitchen to start to make the Sunday for Cordelia. He took out the vanilla ice cream and was scooping it out when he heard the door in the basement leading to the outside. He opened the basement door and checked for one of the guys, but no one was down there so he thought maybe they were down here and just left. He went back to fixing the Sunday. He finished it and brought it out to the dinning room table and placed a spoon and napkin next to it just as Cordelia came down the stairs. "Here you are madam just as you requested it."
"Ohhhhh! That looks scrumptious and decadent." Cordelia sat down and scooped some of the ice cream out and put it into her mouth. "That hit the spot just right Angel. Thank you." She leaned over and gave him a kiss. At that time Wesley, Connor and Gunn came through the back garden doors.
"Where one of you downstairs a few minutes ago?" Angel asked. They all replied no.
"Then who was downstairs?" Angel asked because he could sense Fred, Buffy and Spike upstairs.
TBC...................
I want to thank everyone that has sent reviews. Thanks for the advice Daishi MkII I checked my profile and found that I did have the box for 'only account holders reviews accepted.' This has been corrected now.
I started writing this story sometime at the beginning of last year. I kept a small 3 ring binder with me at all times and whenever I had a thought for the story I would write it down. When I was laid off in September of last year I decided to put it into FanFiction.net. Since I wasn't getting any reviews I thought maybe people were being turned off by my Prologue that explained Dr. Martins background and who she was. I thought about taking it out but decided against it since it was so important that who she was, was explained. I have thoroughly enjoyed writing this and discovered a talent in myself that I didn't know was there. The chapters might be coming a little slower now though because the next part hasn't been written yet. I have gone back to school to learn a different occupation and (darn) the studying is getting in the way and using up my brain cells. I will continue to get them out though as soon as I can, because when I have an idea I can't study until I get it down. Thank you again.