History Is Forgotten
Jason sat at his table in Kelly's, sipping his coffee as he leaned back in his chair, waiting for Emily to meet him. She had called him this morning and asked to meet him, when she refused to tell him over the phone what was wrong; he had assumed it had to do with Nikolas and Mary. Of course he dropped everything he was doing to wait for his little sister. Hoping this time she had made a decision on what she was going to do. Just then, the door swung open. Out of the corner of his eye Jason watched as Courtney walked in and over to the counter. She turned her head and locked eyes with Jason, who managed to pull his eyes off of her and look down at the coffee cup in his hand. For the first time since their divorce he just could not look at her. It hurt him too much.
"Jason..." Courtney said as she walked over to him, standing before him.
"Hi." He said to her as he managed to force himself to look at her. He was not sure as to why she had approaching him, or what it is she wanted but even now he could not turn her away. Even after what he had witnessed just last night.
"How are you?" She asked him. Her beautiful eyes actually showed concern for him. Why was she concerned? What had she heard? He had done nothing and nothing awful had happened to him or Sonny or even Carly in the past few days.
"Pretty good. How are you?" He asked her, even though a part of him really did not want to hear her response. Just thinking about her and Jax, just thinking about his name made Jason's blood boil. Even though he can tell Jax is making Courtney happy it still has yet to change the fact that Jason feels as though he is trying to take something from Jason. No, Courtney is not his possession but her love is or...was. And it appears that Jax knows that and this is his way of revenge.
"I'm ok. Actually I'm supposed to be meeting Jax here. We have to discuss the foundation." She said to him with a small smile.
The second she mentioned his name Jason saw it, he saw what he had feared all along. He saw that slight glimmer in her eyes, that small sound of hope in her voice. And he felt his heart breaking all over again.
Just then, as if on cue Emily walked through the door, approaching the table.
"Hey Courtney." Emily smiled warmly at her brother's ex.
"Hey Emily. How are you doing?" Courtney asked that same concern in her voice she had moments ago when speaking to Jason. Of course now she had a good reason to ask that question.
"I'm doing ok." Emily smiled at her.
Just then the door swung open yet again and in walked...Jax. Courtney's eyes followed him as he sat at a table across the room from them.
"I should go." She said with a small smile. "I'll talk to you later." And with that said she practically ran to the table with Jax.
Jason's hands clenched into a fist as he watched Courtney approach the table, and Jax stand up...hugging her before they sat down again. Emily followed her brother's eyes and watched as well.
Sitting down at the table across from him "Jase." She said to him, managing to snap him out of his trance he had been in. He turned to his sister, an apologetic smile thrown her way.
"Are you ok with that?" Emily asked. She did not have to say it because Jason knew what she was talking about. Is he ok with his ex wife hugging and kissing one of the few people he despises? No. Of course not. But he can't control Courtney or her heart and if her heart is leading her to Jasper Jax then it is just something he must accept.
"Courtney can be with whoever she wants to be with, Emily. We're over." Jason said to his sister as he finally looked at her.
"Yeah but Jax isn't just anybody, Jason. You know that." She told her brother, she clearly understood where Jason was coming from. He knew she did not hate Jax but she knew he did and she wanted to speak to him in the terms he was used to.
"It's ok, Emily. Courtney and I are over. And besides...you didn't call me here to talk about my past love life. What's going on?" Jason asked her, knowing Emily would take the hint and change the subject.
"I-I think I've finally accepted that Nikolas is gone." Emily said to him as she folded her hands on the table in front of her.
"What? Emily what are you talking about?" Jason asked her.
"I know that...Connor is NIkolas, ok? I know he is. But-But he's not really Nikolas anymore. Jason he's Connor Bishop now. And maybe...maybe that's what's best for him. It might be a good thing. He's free of Helena and his sick family, just like he always wanted." Emily insisted.
"Emily, Nikolas loves you. Connor or not its in there. It is just buried deep down. You can't give up on him. Mary is a sick women ok? She is clearly lost and lonely and she misses her husband and she is trying to hold on to him by keeping your fiancée. You can't let her continue with this lie." He said to her.
"But Jase remember what you told me? Huh? Remember? You said if you were in Nikolas's position and I told you the truth that you would be angry. Angry at the people who lied to you and angry at the person who told you the truth. I don't want Nikolas to be angry at me. I want him to love him. I can't handle him telling me to go to hell or go away." Emily said, tears glistering in her eyes.
"You're right, I would be angry. But I'm not Nikolas. Nikolas loves you. He's patient and kind and he would never lash out at you. Neither would Connor." Jason said to her.
Emily did not say anything as she looked at her brother, Jason could tell she was still hurting and she was confused, but she needed to know that giving up would only hurt her more. Jason knows that from experience. He stole a glance and Courtney, who was too busy laughing at something Jax was saying to pay any attention to him.
The sound of the door swinging open causes Jason's eyes to look at the door. And watched as Lucky Spencer approached their table.
"Hey Em." Lucky said as he kneeled down beside his best friend, placing a hand on her back. "Are you ok?" He asked her.
Emily looked at Lucky, a stray tear rolling down her cheek as she did not speak, instead she just hugged him. Lucky wrapped his arms around her, and held her close in his arms. Knowing speaking would do no good at this point. She needed to allow herself to cry.
Jason's heart broke for his sister as she tried not to cry in Lucky's arms. He watched as Lucky comforted her in silence, closing his eyes while holding on to her. Jason knew Lucky missed Nikolas as well, but he also knew that Emily needed Lucky to be strong for her right now, and was proud that he was doing just that.
After a few moments of hugging Lucky in silence, Emily finally pulled away and gave him a small laugh.
"I got your shirt all wet." She laughed as she brushed at his tear stained shirt.
"It's ok. I have another." Lucky said to her with a small smile. "You want to go for a walk?" He asked her.
Emily smiled as she nodded. "Yeah." She said finally.
Standing up she looked at Jason, who also stood as well. She walked around the table to her brother and hugged him tightly. Jason closed his eyes as he hugged her back. Wishing there was more he could do then hug her.
"Thank you." She whispered to him.
"Anytime you need to talk Em...you can always call me." He said to her as she pulled away.
"I know." She said with a small smile as she walked back over to Lucky.
Lucky and Jason nodded at each other, as their way of acknowledgement as Lucky followed Emily out the door.
Jason sat back down...his mind drifting back to the pain in his sisters eyes. A pain he wished he could take away himself.
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Elizabeth Webber smiled at her son as she placed him in his crib, finally able to calm his defining cries. She knew taking care of a baby would be a lot of work but she always assumed she would have Ric standing by to be there with her through everything. But she realized recently that a part of her did not want Ric anywhere near her child. She realized that even though she loves him now, and will forever love him...she can not stand the thought of her child being in danger because of who Ric is and how he thinks. She knows he is a good man and would take good care of Cameron, but it does not change the things he has done in the past and the past is proof that Ric Lansing is not always easy to count on, and Ric Lansing will never let go of his vendetta against his brother, and Ric Lansing does not always have the best judgment. And that is something she could never deal with or never accept.
Looking at the clock on the wall behind Cameron's crib she decided she needed to get something to eat. Grams had already insisted she go out today, promising her she would watch over little Cameron while she was out. Elizabeth really did not some time by herself, even though a part of her did not want to leave Cameron. She never realized how much a part of her he was. It was one of the most amazing feelings she has ever felt. It made her feel like she did not need anything or anyone other then Cameron, and that was a feeling she has not felt since...Jason.
Shaking thoughts of the tall, dark, handsome man out of her head Elizabeth laughed at herself as she leaned in and kissed Cameron's tiny bald head. She walked out into the living room and smiled at Grams as she walked past her, and out the door. She needed to get to Kelly's, get something good to eat. Something other then the junk she had been eating while pregnant.
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Moments later Elizabeth had stepped through the door and into Kelly's, walking to the counter as she smiled at Mike.
"Hey, Elizabeth." Mike said to her with a welcoming smile. "What can I get for you?" He asked her.
"A menu please." Elizabeth smiled. Mike gave her a confused look. He knew she probably had the entire menu memorized and yet Elizabeth still wanted to see one. Hey, it has been a long time since she had a good meal at Kelly's she wanted to see if anything has changed at all.
Turning to look at the door, Elizabeth's eyes landed on Jason. Who was sitting alone at the table to the right of the restaurant? His eyes were glued across the room. Elizabeth followed his gaze and saw Courtney and Jax talking and laughing. Jax had reached across the table and was holding Courtney's hand in his, and she was smiling at him, clearly not bothered by the way he held her hand. Elizabeth turned back to Jason, who had that blank look on his face. The look he always wore when it came to his feelings.
Elizabeth grabbed her menu as she walked across the restaurant and stood before him. Jason's eyes darted up and looked at her, giving her a warm smile as he saw who it was.
"Hey." She said to him with a smile.
"Hey." Jason responded.
"Mind if I sit?" She asked him. Jason smiled at her as he nodded. Elizabeth pulled out the chair and sat down in front of him.
"So how are you doing?" He asked her, looking at her.
"Good. Grams is taking care of Cameron for the day. She insisted I get out on my own for a little while." Elizabeth said to him.
"Everyone needs some time to themselves once in a while." Jason told her.
"Is that why you were sitting here alone? You want to be alone?" Elizabeth asked him as she prepared to stand up.
"No no no. I don't mind you being here. I just got done talking to Emily." Jason said to her.
"Oh. How is she doing? When I talked to her yesterday she seemed to be still hanging on I guess." Elizabeth said, thoughts of her best friend in pain seemed all to much for Elizabeth to handle which is why she refused to tell Emily to let go, refused to admit to anyone that NIkolas was gone.
"She's finally accepted that Nikolas isn't coming back." Jason said softly. His voice seemed distant, as if he was lost in thought.
"Emily will never give up hope though. No matter what she says." Elizabeth insists. She knows Emily would never give up.
"It's hard to imagine your life without the person you love. Dead or alive...if they leave you its like a piece of you dies inside and nothing you can do can ever fix that. Not even if they come back to you...that piece will still be dead until you know they are yours again." Jason said.
Elizabeth had figured his speech was directed to Courtney, She figured she would see his eyes dart back from her to Elizabeth. But realized he was looking at her. He would probably feel rude about looking at Courtney while sitting with Elizabeth.
"I know what you mean." Elizabeth replied as she looked at Jason.
Suddenly it felt as though a uncomfortable weight had been placed on their shoulders and Elizabeth watched as Jason looked at Courtney yet again, realizing that him not looking at her while he spoke was his way of being polite, she knew Jason could no longer feel for her the way he once did. He was in love with Courtney, and that was that.
"Jason, are you ok?" Elizabeth asked him.
Jason looked back at her, nodding. "Of course." He replied.
Elizabeth reached across the table, placing her hand on top of Jason's as she looked at him. "You know you can talk to me about anything." She said to him, giving him a warm smile.
Jason looked down at her hand on top of his, and with his one free hand he placed it on top of hers. Looking at their hands and then back up at her.
"I know." He said softly.
Just then Jason felt as someone lifted him from his chair, and slammed him into the wall. Everything had happened so fast and Jason did not have a chance to react until he felt his head slam backwards onto the wall.
"Stay the hell away from my wife." Jason's eyes sprung open when he heard his attacker's voice.
"Ric leave him alone!" Elizabeth screamed.
Jason sat at his table in Kelly's, sipping his coffee as he leaned back in his chair, waiting for Emily to meet him. She had called him this morning and asked to meet him, when she refused to tell him over the phone what was wrong; he had assumed it had to do with Nikolas and Mary. Of course he dropped everything he was doing to wait for his little sister. Hoping this time she had made a decision on what she was going to do. Just then, the door swung open. Out of the corner of his eye Jason watched as Courtney walked in and over to the counter. She turned her head and locked eyes with Jason, who managed to pull his eyes off of her and look down at the coffee cup in his hand. For the first time since their divorce he just could not look at her. It hurt him too much.
"Jason..." Courtney said as she walked over to him, standing before him.
"Hi." He said to her as he managed to force himself to look at her. He was not sure as to why she had approaching him, or what it is she wanted but even now he could not turn her away. Even after what he had witnessed just last night.
"How are you?" She asked him. Her beautiful eyes actually showed concern for him. Why was she concerned? What had she heard? He had done nothing and nothing awful had happened to him or Sonny or even Carly in the past few days.
"Pretty good. How are you?" He asked her, even though a part of him really did not want to hear her response. Just thinking about her and Jax, just thinking about his name made Jason's blood boil. Even though he can tell Jax is making Courtney happy it still has yet to change the fact that Jason feels as though he is trying to take something from Jason. No, Courtney is not his possession but her love is or...was. And it appears that Jax knows that and this is his way of revenge.
"I'm ok. Actually I'm supposed to be meeting Jax here. We have to discuss the foundation." She said to him with a small smile.
The second she mentioned his name Jason saw it, he saw what he had feared all along. He saw that slight glimmer in her eyes, that small sound of hope in her voice. And he felt his heart breaking all over again.
Just then, as if on cue Emily walked through the door, approaching the table.
"Hey Courtney." Emily smiled warmly at her brother's ex.
"Hey Emily. How are you doing?" Courtney asked that same concern in her voice she had moments ago when speaking to Jason. Of course now she had a good reason to ask that question.
"I'm doing ok." Emily smiled at her.
Just then the door swung open yet again and in walked...Jax. Courtney's eyes followed him as he sat at a table across the room from them.
"I should go." She said with a small smile. "I'll talk to you later." And with that said she practically ran to the table with Jax.
Jason's hands clenched into a fist as he watched Courtney approach the table, and Jax stand up...hugging her before they sat down again. Emily followed her brother's eyes and watched as well.
Sitting down at the table across from him "Jase." She said to him, managing to snap him out of his trance he had been in. He turned to his sister, an apologetic smile thrown her way.
"Are you ok with that?" Emily asked. She did not have to say it because Jason knew what she was talking about. Is he ok with his ex wife hugging and kissing one of the few people he despises? No. Of course not. But he can't control Courtney or her heart and if her heart is leading her to Jasper Jax then it is just something he must accept.
"Courtney can be with whoever she wants to be with, Emily. We're over." Jason said to his sister as he finally looked at her.
"Yeah but Jax isn't just anybody, Jason. You know that." She told her brother, she clearly understood where Jason was coming from. He knew she did not hate Jax but she knew he did and she wanted to speak to him in the terms he was used to.
"It's ok, Emily. Courtney and I are over. And besides...you didn't call me here to talk about my past love life. What's going on?" Jason asked her, knowing Emily would take the hint and change the subject.
"I-I think I've finally accepted that Nikolas is gone." Emily said to him as she folded her hands on the table in front of her.
"What? Emily what are you talking about?" Jason asked her.
"I know that...Connor is NIkolas, ok? I know he is. But-But he's not really Nikolas anymore. Jason he's Connor Bishop now. And maybe...maybe that's what's best for him. It might be a good thing. He's free of Helena and his sick family, just like he always wanted." Emily insisted.
"Emily, Nikolas loves you. Connor or not its in there. It is just buried deep down. You can't give up on him. Mary is a sick women ok? She is clearly lost and lonely and she misses her husband and she is trying to hold on to him by keeping your fiancée. You can't let her continue with this lie." He said to her.
"But Jase remember what you told me? Huh? Remember? You said if you were in Nikolas's position and I told you the truth that you would be angry. Angry at the people who lied to you and angry at the person who told you the truth. I don't want Nikolas to be angry at me. I want him to love him. I can't handle him telling me to go to hell or go away." Emily said, tears glistering in her eyes.
"You're right, I would be angry. But I'm not Nikolas. Nikolas loves you. He's patient and kind and he would never lash out at you. Neither would Connor." Jason said to her.
Emily did not say anything as she looked at her brother, Jason could tell she was still hurting and she was confused, but she needed to know that giving up would only hurt her more. Jason knows that from experience. He stole a glance and Courtney, who was too busy laughing at something Jax was saying to pay any attention to him.
The sound of the door swinging open causes Jason's eyes to look at the door. And watched as Lucky Spencer approached their table.
"Hey Em." Lucky said as he kneeled down beside his best friend, placing a hand on her back. "Are you ok?" He asked her.
Emily looked at Lucky, a stray tear rolling down her cheek as she did not speak, instead she just hugged him. Lucky wrapped his arms around her, and held her close in his arms. Knowing speaking would do no good at this point. She needed to allow herself to cry.
Jason's heart broke for his sister as she tried not to cry in Lucky's arms. He watched as Lucky comforted her in silence, closing his eyes while holding on to her. Jason knew Lucky missed Nikolas as well, but he also knew that Emily needed Lucky to be strong for her right now, and was proud that he was doing just that.
After a few moments of hugging Lucky in silence, Emily finally pulled away and gave him a small laugh.
"I got your shirt all wet." She laughed as she brushed at his tear stained shirt.
"It's ok. I have another." Lucky said to her with a small smile. "You want to go for a walk?" He asked her.
Emily smiled as she nodded. "Yeah." She said finally.
Standing up she looked at Jason, who also stood as well. She walked around the table to her brother and hugged him tightly. Jason closed his eyes as he hugged her back. Wishing there was more he could do then hug her.
"Thank you." She whispered to him.
"Anytime you need to talk Em...you can always call me." He said to her as she pulled away.
"I know." She said with a small smile as she walked back over to Lucky.
Lucky and Jason nodded at each other, as their way of acknowledgement as Lucky followed Emily out the door.
Jason sat back down...his mind drifting back to the pain in his sisters eyes. A pain he wished he could take away himself.
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Elizabeth Webber smiled at her son as she placed him in his crib, finally able to calm his defining cries. She knew taking care of a baby would be a lot of work but she always assumed she would have Ric standing by to be there with her through everything. But she realized recently that a part of her did not want Ric anywhere near her child. She realized that even though she loves him now, and will forever love him...she can not stand the thought of her child being in danger because of who Ric is and how he thinks. She knows he is a good man and would take good care of Cameron, but it does not change the things he has done in the past and the past is proof that Ric Lansing is not always easy to count on, and Ric Lansing will never let go of his vendetta against his brother, and Ric Lansing does not always have the best judgment. And that is something she could never deal with or never accept.
Looking at the clock on the wall behind Cameron's crib she decided she needed to get something to eat. Grams had already insisted she go out today, promising her she would watch over little Cameron while she was out. Elizabeth really did not some time by herself, even though a part of her did not want to leave Cameron. She never realized how much a part of her he was. It was one of the most amazing feelings she has ever felt. It made her feel like she did not need anything or anyone other then Cameron, and that was a feeling she has not felt since...Jason.
Shaking thoughts of the tall, dark, handsome man out of her head Elizabeth laughed at herself as she leaned in and kissed Cameron's tiny bald head. She walked out into the living room and smiled at Grams as she walked past her, and out the door. She needed to get to Kelly's, get something good to eat. Something other then the junk she had been eating while pregnant.
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Moments later Elizabeth had stepped through the door and into Kelly's, walking to the counter as she smiled at Mike.
"Hey, Elizabeth." Mike said to her with a welcoming smile. "What can I get for you?" He asked her.
"A menu please." Elizabeth smiled. Mike gave her a confused look. He knew she probably had the entire menu memorized and yet Elizabeth still wanted to see one. Hey, it has been a long time since she had a good meal at Kelly's she wanted to see if anything has changed at all.
Turning to look at the door, Elizabeth's eyes landed on Jason. Who was sitting alone at the table to the right of the restaurant? His eyes were glued across the room. Elizabeth followed his gaze and saw Courtney and Jax talking and laughing. Jax had reached across the table and was holding Courtney's hand in his, and she was smiling at him, clearly not bothered by the way he held her hand. Elizabeth turned back to Jason, who had that blank look on his face. The look he always wore when it came to his feelings.
Elizabeth grabbed her menu as she walked across the restaurant and stood before him. Jason's eyes darted up and looked at her, giving her a warm smile as he saw who it was.
"Hey." She said to him with a smile.
"Hey." Jason responded.
"Mind if I sit?" She asked him. Jason smiled at her as he nodded. Elizabeth pulled out the chair and sat down in front of him.
"So how are you doing?" He asked her, looking at her.
"Good. Grams is taking care of Cameron for the day. She insisted I get out on my own for a little while." Elizabeth said to him.
"Everyone needs some time to themselves once in a while." Jason told her.
"Is that why you were sitting here alone? You want to be alone?" Elizabeth asked him as she prepared to stand up.
"No no no. I don't mind you being here. I just got done talking to Emily." Jason said to her.
"Oh. How is she doing? When I talked to her yesterday she seemed to be still hanging on I guess." Elizabeth said, thoughts of her best friend in pain seemed all to much for Elizabeth to handle which is why she refused to tell Emily to let go, refused to admit to anyone that NIkolas was gone.
"She's finally accepted that Nikolas isn't coming back." Jason said softly. His voice seemed distant, as if he was lost in thought.
"Emily will never give up hope though. No matter what she says." Elizabeth insists. She knows Emily would never give up.
"It's hard to imagine your life without the person you love. Dead or alive...if they leave you its like a piece of you dies inside and nothing you can do can ever fix that. Not even if they come back to you...that piece will still be dead until you know they are yours again." Jason said.
Elizabeth had figured his speech was directed to Courtney, She figured she would see his eyes dart back from her to Elizabeth. But realized he was looking at her. He would probably feel rude about looking at Courtney while sitting with Elizabeth.
"I know what you mean." Elizabeth replied as she looked at Jason.
Suddenly it felt as though a uncomfortable weight had been placed on their shoulders and Elizabeth watched as Jason looked at Courtney yet again, realizing that him not looking at her while he spoke was his way of being polite, she knew Jason could no longer feel for her the way he once did. He was in love with Courtney, and that was that.
"Jason, are you ok?" Elizabeth asked him.
Jason looked back at her, nodding. "Of course." He replied.
Elizabeth reached across the table, placing her hand on top of Jason's as she looked at him. "You know you can talk to me about anything." She said to him, giving him a warm smile.
Jason looked down at her hand on top of his, and with his one free hand he placed it on top of hers. Looking at their hands and then back up at her.
"I know." He said softly.
Just then Jason felt as someone lifted him from his chair, and slammed him into the wall. Everything had happened so fast and Jason did not have a chance to react until he felt his head slam backwards onto the wall.
"Stay the hell away from my wife." Jason's eyes sprung open when he heard his attacker's voice.
"Ric leave him alone!" Elizabeth screamed.