"How could you be such a damn git to me all these years when I am your son?" Nikolas yelled in fury. 

"Because no one was supposed to find out! Not even the headmaster knew! It was a secret from everyone, especially you!" Snape yelled in return. "No matter how much we loved each other we could never be together! It would have been far to difficult, and I thought both you and Lily would be safer with Potter then you would ever be with me." Severus calmed and placed a silencing spell on the room before sitting down. He breathed a heavy sigh. "Sit. I'll explain everything to you."

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"Where to begin…I suppose I'll start with how we met. In our second year here at Hogwarts I had already made enemies of the Marauders. I don't know why it all began, most likely because I was both a Slytherin and very well versed in hexes that I was a potential threat, but whatever the reason it didn't take long before I was forced to walk down the halls with shielding spells around me to ward off curses they, Potter mostly, sent at me. One day Lily walked by and James thought to impress her with a good hex, and who better to use as a demonstration then me?" Snape sneered at the thought. Nikolas remained impassive, focused on calming himself enough to listen.

"He hit me with a curse strong enough that it caught me of guard and gave him a chance to get pass the shield I normally had up. Afterwards I was the target of two curses, which I can't remember anymore, and I ended up falling down the stairs. Unluckily enough for James, his plan backfired and Lily ran down to me. That was probably the event that sparked our friendship. Gryffindor or not, she helped me to the Hospital Wing. From then on our friendship gradually grew, and we became very close through our years in Hogwarts. We had to keep it secret though. No one then would stand for our friendship if they found out. So we kept our meetings quiet, and when in public we acted as if we were enemies. In our fifth year though, Potter found out. He took it very badly to say the least. I believe you saw proof of such last year." Severus couldn't help but glare at the teen before him. Nikolas simply nodded.

"Well that didn't do much except for increase James' hatred for me. The last two years following went smoothly as can be expected. After we graduated Lily and I decided to see each other more, though we still had to keep things quiet. During that time Voldemort was looking for followers and my father, being the generous man that he was, offered my services." Snape scowled, heavy sarcasm in his voice "I couldn't exactly refuse either, or else I would've been killed. You don't say no to the dark lord when he invites you to join his circle of deatheaters. So I had the mark burned on me. Lily, of course, didn't hold it against me. She was the one who suggested I become a spy for Dumbledore. Well, after a while everything sort of fell into a routine. I would go to death eater meetings, pass on the information to Dumbledore, and then go see Lily. It had gotten quiet though with the death eaters. We were no longer called often because the Dark lord was plotting I suppose. During that time James, who had become an Auror, had to go on a mission off somewhere. He had been protecting Lily because she was a possible risk in to the dark lord. Do not ask me why because I will not say. So when Potter left the job fell to me, but Severus Snape could not just walk in and out of the home of Lily Evans. I was a suspected death eater by the good, and a known death eater to everyone else. So with the help of Lily, she and I created a Polyjuice potion. I made the potion, and added a few things to make it last longer.  Lily then put a few charms on it so to also extend the length of the effects. Between the two of us it would last nearly an entire day: about 16 hours. I stayed with her under the disguise of James Potter. No one knew except Lily, James, Dumbledore, and myself. It was then that you were conceived. Once Lily learned she was pregnant she married James in order to hide the fact that the child was mine. You see…the dark lord uses any means to keep his valuable death eaters loyal. A family is the greatest leverage he has. If I had married Lily instead then she would have been in even more of a risk. I probably would have been killed as well because as I said she was against you-know-who. So she went with James and nine months later she had you. After you were born she and I began to formulate something to keep your true parentage hidden and to make you look like James. Because of the heavy glamour charms and potions in me when you were conceived, your body took the magic and built on it as if it were naturally part of you.  Thanks to that we were sure you would look like James for a short while, but not long enough. She and I created another potion so powerful that it should have lasted about two years. We were going to give you the potion every two years to keep you looking like James until we thought it was safe to tell everyone the truth. Then the attack. I was afraid of what would happen to you. I couldn't continue giving you the potion, so you would begin to look like me. Then I saw you in first year and you were the spitting image of James. I began to think that Lily lied to me. I began to think that you were really James' son. Then I saw you on the street over the summer. I looked at you and saw Lily's eyes, and saw my self in you as well. Then I noticed your scar. I knew it had to be you…I knew you really were my son." Snape finished. He looked up from the small photo album of him and Lily. He shouldn't have left it there. He cursed himself for it. He let out a sigh though. 

"When were you planning on telling me?" Nikolas asked in a deadly tone.

"I wasn't." Severus confessed. " That is why this was out." He motioned to the book. "I was looking through everything in search of how to make the potion so you would look like James again. I hoped that you could just go back. I don't…. I can't have a son! You can not be my son!"

"Why? Why not? I'm not good enough to be a Snape? I'll always be James Potter Jr. to you. Well fine! Nikolas Snape, Damien Snape. They never existed. I am Harry Potter and you will never be my father! I will never be your son!" The furious teen jumped up and quickly stalked out of the room.

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Harry. Nikolas. Damien.

He didn't know what to do. He didn't know what to think. Merlin, he was furious though. All these years he would've given anything to have his parents back. He needed parents more then anyone. To be a child having to live with relatives who hate you and not having friends until your eleven is bad enough, not to mention the fact that he had the thought of Voldemort leering over his shoulder like the Grim Reaper all the time, but to have all of that and then learn you did have a dad. A dad.

"Ha! He is no more a father then I am a king." He thought to himself aloud. " What kind of father would act like he has? What kind of father would watch their son go through all of this and not make the slightest notion to say 'it will be okay' or at least show some kind of sympathy? I've watched people die. I've been through more in five years then any person would in a lifetime." He stopped and pressed his head to the wall in frustration. "Why me? Can you read my thoughts now Voldemort? Why me!" Tears formed in his eyes; tears of anger and sadness and confusion. It was all too much!

"Massster?" Nyx hissed, curling around Nikolas' leg.

"Hullo Nyx." He replied quietly to the serpent. "Where have you been?" The snake explained that it had been thoroughly examining the school grounds to be sure it was safe. Nikolas nodded and pulled Nyx around his neck as he stood up, assuming no one would find him in the halls this late with the possible exception of Filch. Quietly he made his way down to the Slytherin dorms, brushing away any stray tears before he entered. Once in his room he collapsed into bed.

"Let me sleep. Don't let me wake up." He pleaded silently, wishing desperately that if he could sleep forever perhaps his life in dreams would be better then that of reality.

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A week passed. Then two weeks. Nikolas avoided Snape as much a possible, not speaking to the older man during classes, and avoiding his eyes as they passed each other in the halls. He still wasn't sure what to do, but he knew he needed someone to talk to. He sat in the great hall one night and stared across the room at the Gryffindor table. Silently he watched one of his friends, only half listening to the announcement being made about the Halloween Festivities soon to come and that Slytherin and Gryffindor Quidditch try-outs would be the following day. Then his subject stood, having their fill of supper for the evening, and started to leave. He waited a moment until it would be safe to follow without suspicion, and then left the great hall. Nyx hissed softly in surprise as Nikolas quickly bound out of the room, making the serpent quickly wrap around his waist to keep from falling to the floor and into the eyes of the other students.

"Wait!" Nikolas called and the Gryffindor paused. "I need to talk to you." He said as he lead the other away, only stopping when he was sure they were far from the Great Hall. "I'm going to tell you something…everything, but you must swear not to tell a soul."

"Alright…" Came a shaky reply. "I swear."

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Do you know who it is? Eh. Well guess. I was going to write more but I wanted to update. So there you are. The explanation. I hope it was fairly decent.

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J-Chan