Chapter Four :: Into The Mirror
Raven sat up on her bed, wiped the tears off her face and looked into the mirror vanity that was connected to her dressing drawers. Her face was pale, her eyes red. She looked simply horrid.
'What's wrong with me? Why am I crying... over Robin? Just because he didn't mean the kiss...'
She sighed deeply and stood up and walked towards her dressing drawers, sniffling as she went. She picked up her hand mirror and looked into it.
"Maybe my emotions will be of some help." She said simply gazing into the little hand mirror.
She went over to her bed and sat herself Indian style in the center. If she were to go into her mind, she didn't want the mirror to fall to the floor and break, it wouldn't be easy to get out of her mind if that were to happen. She glanced at the clock next to her bed. '3am. Ok, no one will be awake to bother me.' she thought, thinking back to the time Cy and BB had discovered the mirror and entered her mind.
She closed her eyes and entered the mirror. Once inside she looked around the dark barren dimension. She saw a small figure in a dark grey cloak hiding behind a tree looking at her.
"Timid" she called out.
Timid came over slowly, shyly. She wasn't comfortable talking to many people, and she was afraid of nearly everyone.
"Yes Raven?" she called out softly under the hood of her cloak.
"Call the other emotions together. Find Knowledge, she will know best where to find everyone. Tell them to meet me outside the labyrinth. We need to have a council" Raven said before walking away towards her destination.
As she was told, Timid gathered all of Raven's emotions and they met her at a circle of rocks outside the labyrinth. They gathered together, chatting lightly, wondering exactly which question would be asked of them, although most of them already had a strong idea of what it was.
Rage, Happiness, Timid, Knowledge, Strength, Bravery, Kindness, Rudeness, Jealousy, Pain, Heartbreak, Fear, Patience. They all sat around. But someone was else was coming. Two cloaked figures were walking towards them. Knowledge stood up and rushed over to them, wanting to be the first to learn of who they were.
One had a dark blue-grey cloak on, her face was ridden with sadness and she seemed like she had just found out her dog died. Knowledge introduced her to the group as Rejection.
The other character wasn't complete. She was wearing a bright red cape with a heart shaped clasp. Her face was delicate, blessed with a permanent small smile. Her eyes sparkled, and she looked truly happy. Knowledge introduced her as Love, but Love wasn't complete. Unlike the other emotions, Love was only a half creation. She was like a mist, uncompleted, and transparent.
Raven waited for the others to calm down at the meeting of the new emotions before beginning to ask her questions. Finally after a few minutes, Knowledge asked Raven what help they could be for her.
"I have a problem. And I do not know exactly how to deal with it. I am not certain what kind of emotions I have running through my mind, and that's why I am asking you all. What do you feel about Robin? What do you feel about what happened tonight? And... What should I do about it?
The various emotions took their time thinking, no one wanting to be the first to go. Heartbreak walked over and sat next to Love and Rejection. They all held hands and then looked to the other emotions. They didn't want to be the first ones to speak, and the other emotions knew exactly why. They allowed them to be last.
Rage decided to go first.
"I think that he is a temperamental child and I'd like to kick his ass!" Rage blurted out.
"Now Rage really! He's a most pleasant boy! And so cute!" giggled Happiness.
"He makes my palms sweaty and I can't think straight" said the quiet voice that belonged to Timid.
Strength, Bravery, and Kindness determined that he was one of the "strongest, bravest, and kindest men" they had known in a long time.
"He's got a great ass" blurted out Rudeness followed by a long disgusting burp.
"He's too handsome. Too many girls will want him!" sneered Jealousy.
"He is patient, but seems afraid." commented Patience.
"But he might be like the man before. What if he hurts us again like we were hurt before?" asked Pain.
"I'm inclined to agree with Pain. He could turn out to be just like the last one you let into your heart" was all Fear had to say.
"I think that only you can truly ask what you want. As your emotions we have no other wants or needs than the ones you have. If you are strong, we are strong, and you are letting things cloud your emotions, and we are feeling weak" Knowledge said and the emotions around her nodded their heads in agreement.
Now that Knowledge said that, Raven noticed that the dimension did look just a bit cloudy, and it was musty.
She glanced over at the three emotions holding hands.
"Well. What have you to say about it?" Raven inquired, voice devoid of any emotions.
The three emotions looked towards her, then to each other, and then back to her. It was Heartbreak who spoke first.
"We are all feeling close to the same. We feel that you are fond of this boy, but too afraid to be with him. Too afraid to admit your emotions towards him even to yourself." She said.
"Tonight I came into the picture. When he said the kiss was a mistake that he shouldn't have let happen... it hurt. I feel like...well.. I am Rejection for a reason I suppose. Rejection spoke, looking to the side, unable to make eye contact with anyone. She didn't want anyone to see the tears that were welling up in her eyes.
"And you Love? What do you say about all this? Why are you transparent?" Raven inquired of the final emotion.
Love stood up and walked slowly over to Raven, placing her hands on her shoulders and hugging her gently. She was cold, and she felt damp, like a light mist rain; yet her hug gave off faint warmth. She stood back with her hands at her sides and looked deep into Raven's eyes.
"You care for Robin. You care for him deeply, or I wouldn't be able to even be what little I am. I am not going to go away. I am here to stay. But I cannot be solid because you have yet to admit it to yourself, to realize your true feeling for him. Look at my fellow emotions. Think of all they said. Rejection would not have come around if you did not care for this boy. You would not have been so hurt by his words if you didn't care for this boy. You love him Raven. You need to admit it and accept it. Then, go talk to him. I do believe he feels the same way." Love's words were soft, kind. Her voice echoed with a sound of honey. She was truly the most beautiful of Raven's many emotions.
"If he feels the same way, then why would he have said that the kiss was a mistake?" Raven yelled at the emotions. She felt confused and hurt.
Knowledge stepped forward. "Possibly he is feeling love and rejection also?" She said, stepping forward gently to avoid any yelling that might come from Raven. "Perhaps, he feels like you will not accept his love, and that you would reject him. Perhaps he feels that you will not feel the same for him." She offered the only advice she could think of.
Raven lifted her head up, her eyes filling with tears. 'Knowledge just may have something.' she thought.
She wiped her eyes, sniffled once and thanked her emotions before ascending out of the mirror.
Back in her room she felt better, but had many things to think about. She thought back to what each of her emotions had said. She thought of Love's words. 'I love him' she thought as she looked into the vanity mirror. Inside she felt a power strengthen. Love was no longer transparent.