Chapter Seven :: Confessions & Fears

Raven shivered as she lay on her bed next to Robin. She had fallen into a light sleep and was out for about an hour after their lovemaking was completed. Robin lay next to her, looking lovingly at the sleeping face of his world. He reached down and pulled a cover over their naked bodies and cuddled her close into his arms.

His body was warm and she felt safer than she ever could remember. She had never felt so happy. He was on cloud nine. He couldn't go any higher than he was. Here he was, holding the only girl he would ever love in his arms. She had told him she loved him, and he couldn't have been happier. She had quickly become everything to him, and sealing their love like they had tonight just made him love her even more. He never could've dreamed that such an intimate act of affection could make the love you held for someone multiply so dramatically.

"Raven?"

"Yes Robin?" she replied as she felt him hold her body closer to him.

"Actually, my name is Richard," he said with a light laugh, "just don't let the others hear you use it."

She giggled lightly and rolled over to face him, knocking his body slightly backwards so she could lie on his chest. It was warm and a little sticky from the sweat that was a result of their lovemaking, but she didn't care. She was just happy to be close to him.

"Do you remember the day we met Rae?"

"How could I forget? It was the day you asked me to join the Titans" she replied.

"Well, you saved my life that day. You used your powers to protect me when those rocks were about to fall right on top of me."

"Well I couldn't just let you die! Besides, you boys looked like you needed some help." she replied simply.

"Yes, we did need help. But none of us ever expected that we would get someone like you to our aide. You were just so strong, and powerful, and beautiful" he blushed "that I had trouble telling you how much I truly appreciated it. I had no choice but to ask you to join the Titans. I knew you would be a great addition to the team, and I felt it would give us the chance to be closer, so that I could possibly save your life in return one day."

Raven had gotten very quiet. He wasn't sure how to explain her silence so he nudged her. "Still awake?"

Raven stood up off the bed and went to her dressing drawers, pulling out a simple pair of black cotton shorts, and a baggy white cotton t-shirt. She pulled them onto the tiny frame of a body she had. Robin, confused, followed in suit and pulled his boxers back onto his naked lower half.

"Raven?"

"I don't know if any of this was a good idea."

"What? What are you talking about?" Robin was feeling a bit frightened, he had just opened up to this girl, given her a part of him he could never get back, openly admitted to loving her, and now she was acting like she wanted to end everything they had just begun.

She pushed him back into a sitting position on the bed. She went in a line, back in forth, pacing in front of him. How could she say what she knew she needed to?

"Richard... I'm.. dangerous." It seemed to be the hardest thing to say, and she couldn't bear to look into his eyes. She continued to explain.

"My powers are strong. Very strong. If I don't keep my emotions under control, then I alone can destroy this planet and everything on it. An uncontrolled laugh can take out a whole city, an unprotected tear can take out all of downtown. A true scream of fear could destroy something the size of Australia. I am dangerous. There isn't any way around that."

He sat in silence. He knew she was powerful, and that her powers were controlled by emotions, but he never could've dreamed that such a small person could harness such a wonderful and immense power.

"What if I destroy something? I've never let out emotions like this. I've never felt love so strongly. What if I destroy the city just from loving you?" She knelt down and began to cry softly.

She held one of the most powerful powers in the universe and yet she felt simply powerless. She could control her emotions, but at the same time, her emotions were the ones controlling her. If she so much as stepped out of line with them, they could retaliate and destroy something she cares most about. Just from anger and irritation at Beast Boy she had already blown out every window in the tower at some point, and melted or blown up half of their possessions. It was very difficult to prevent from collapsing the tower when they were making love, but she hadn't managed to prevent from destroying her room. What would happen next time? Would she destroy the tower, or worse; what if the other titans were home? Would she be able to keep them safe while enjoying the pleasure Robin was giving?

He bent down and put his arms around her. He wasn't sure what to say. All he knew for sure was that he wanted to take the risks. He wanted to be with her. He wanted to try.

"We will just have to trust each other, and be careful. Ill do anything you need of me if I can help. All you have to do is ask. I'm here for you Rae. I love you."

She looked up into his eyes. He was sincere about what he had said. She cuddled up into his arms. He was right. It was worth the risk to love him. Nothing anyone could do now could stop the emotions anyway. She already loved him, and there wasn't a way to alter that.

He held her in his arms for another half hour. Talking softly, trying to figure out if they wanted to tell the others just yet. They decided to keep it a secret for the time being. Robin stood up and put his clothes back on. He kissed her goodnight, and then walked out of her room.

The other titans had come stumbling in from the movies. Somehow or another they had managed to stay for most of them. Starfire had already floated off to her room and fell asleep without bothering to undress. A sleepy BB and Cyborg were walking down the hallway towards their bedrooms when they saw Robin come out of Raven's bedroom.

Cyborg checked his clock. It was just before 6am. Why would Robin be bothering Raven this early in the morning. For that matter, why was he in Raven's room? She never let anyone go in there. Starfire was allowed once in a while, but even then it wasn't often. BB thought he was seeing things and dismissed it as exhaustion.

"Dude, did you just see what I saw?" Cyborg asked his yawning friend.

"Yeah, but I think it's just cause I'm half asleep."

The two retreated to their bedrooms. Robin had reached his room and gone to bed before Cyborg had a chance to ask him anything about it. He figured he would pull him aside and ask him in the morning.

Cyborg went to his bedroom and plugged himself in for the night while BB went off to his bedroom and flopped down on his bed, falling asleep almost instantly. Robin was in his room, sleeping soundly with the happiest look on his face anyone had ever seen. Raven was in a sound sleep in her bedroom, her powers, for once, completely under control. She didn't know if it was because they were exhausted or if it was because things were completely calm in her world. Things were going to get difficult over the next few weeks, but for tonight, nothing could possibly go wrong.