The golden rays of sunlight and the magnificent blue sky tangled together
creating a wondrous view. The lights reflection shined on Jason, waking him
up. He smiled as he embraced the warmth of the sun. He wanted the earth to
freeze time so he could be trapped in this moment forever. He heard the
front door opening, so he used his instincts and ran from Sam's bedroom to
his, quickly covering his bare body with clothes.
"Jason." Sonny called. At the sound of Sonny's voice, Jason panicked. He loved Sonny like a brother and had no intention of betraying him, but when it came to Sam he couldn't help himself. Jason heard the soft sounds of Sonny's steps slowly approaching and he froze; he did not know what to do.
"Jason." Sonny yelled again, causing Jason's heart to speed. Jason held his breath, and walked out of his bedroom to meet Sonny."
"What took you so long to answer, I've been calling you." Sonny inquired.
"Sorry I was changing." Jason responded, it had not been a complete lie because only seconds before Jason had been scrambling to find clothes.
"What can I do for you, Sonny." Jason asked seemingly nonchalantly.
"I just came to check on things, Sam, her baby, see what ideas you have about the case." Sonny replied as he sat on the couch. Jason looked and felt nervous the very thought of having to lie to more people he cared about scared and hurt him. He looked Courtney, and Carly in their eyes everyday and lied to them about being the father of Sam's child he couldn't do the same to Sonny. If Sonny asked him about his relationship with Sam, he would have to tell him but if he didn't ask Jason would not say a word.
"Sam is still asleep, and the baby, well she's doing fine." Jason said with a smile, he loved the idea of being a father, he just hoped that this was permanent; he prayed that Sam wouldn't miscarry like Courtney, and that Sonny wouldn't take baby Lila away like Michael. Sonny picked up his ringing phone.
"I'm going to take this outside Jason." He said. Jason nodded his head and walked into the kitchen to make breakfast for Sam. He wanted to surprise her with breakfast in bed, he hoped that she wouldn't wake up without him beside her.
Sam woke up with a smile, as she stared outside the window, everything seemed so perfect. The only thing missing was Jason, she wished that she had woke up in his muscular arms, but then she smelt breakfast and smiled to herself. She grabbed the nearest shirt she could find, Jason's black tee, she put it on, and walked to the kitchen to find him. She was unaware that Sonny was accompanying him. When she entered the kitchen all she saw was Jason. She stood in the doorway and watched as he continued to make breakfast. Sam slowly approached him, intending to wrap her arms around Jason and embrace him, but then she saw Sonny walking toward the kitchen out of her peripheral vision and stopped.
"Sam." Sonny said softly. At this instant Jason turned around startled. Both Sonny and Jason stared at Sam, wearing only a black shirt, Jason's black shirt. Sam just paused.
"Why are you wearing Jason's shirt?" Sonny inquired suspiciously. Sam flashed a quick look at Jason and responded.
"Sonny look at me, I'm pregnant. I need comfort and this shirt is comfortable." This was only the partial truth but Sam had no intention of confiding in Sonny just yet. Sonny nodded his head and it appeared as if he accepted this answer.
"Alright Sam. Jason, I'll be seeing you." Sonny said as he glanced at Jason, and Sam and walked away. Sam and Jason just stared at each other both equally scared and worried. Sam opened her mouth to say something but no words came out. After a few more silent moments Jason finally spoke.
"We cant do this." he said, as he avoided her eyes. She walked over to him, placed her fingers through one of his belt loops, slowly pulling him closer.
"Yes, we can." She cajoled him.
"Sam, I've been lying to everyone that I love for so long, and I hate it. I cant do it to Sonny."
"We don't have to lie to him" Sam reasoned.
"Jason, we can tell him the truth, we have to." She continued. Jason considered this before responding.
"How? If I lose Sonny, I will never be able to see Michael or Morgan again. Sonny will not allow me to be a part of your daughter's life." He yelled. He slowly broke down as he continued.
"You don't understand Sam. All I want is to be a father, its all I've wanted. I lost Michael, I lost my unborn child, I don't want to lose Lila too. If Sonny every finds out about this, he will take everything away from me." Jason was scared, he was angry, he was lost.
"Jason, no one is going take anything away from you. Your talking about everything you want, I know you want this Jason. I know you want us. So please, take us, take me, and my daughter. We're yours if you want us, we'll be your family. Nothing that Sonny can do will ever change that. Jason, Sonny loves you and he would never do anything to intentionally hurt you just like I know that you would never do anything to hurt him. So just tell him, he will understand." Sam pleaded with him. Jason didn't respond to Sam, he just looked down.
"Sit down, and eat breakfast, I've gotta go." Jason said as he to left the safe house. Sam soon looked down, she felt crushed, it was as if the only man who truly cared about her, just let her down. She leaned back against the wall and fell down to the floor, with tears filling her eyes.
"I'm all alone again" Sam cried as she held her hands against her baby.
"But you, you will never be alone. I promise you will always have me, and you will always be loved, and Jason and Sonny will love you too. Jason will love you, and I wish he would love me too. I must be crazy, jealous of my own baby infant." She continued to whisper to her child.
Jason walked, he walked to clear his head, and to get his thoughts together, he ended up at the Gazebo. He watched as couples walked by, kissing and holding hands, he watched as little kids ran around in the park, and he grinned. He wanted both of those things, to be a husband, fiancé, or boyfriend, whatever he would be to Sam, and he also wanted to be a father. He continued to watch from the gazebo as he realized that he wanted Sam, he wanted to be with her, and be the father of her baby. Sam was right, Sonny would not do anything to intentionally hurt him, even when he Jason found Carly in bed with Sonny, deep down he knew that it had not been intentional. If he could forgive Sonny, Jason had to believe that Sonny would forgive him as well. He turned away from the Gazebo and walked back towards the safe house. He didn't say anything as he entered the apartment, he just looked for Sam. He walked into the kitchen and found Sam crying on the floor. He sat down beside her, wrapped her in his arms, and began to speak.
"I'm sorry. I- I was scared. Somehow, we are going to find a way to tell Sonny. I'm so sorry Sam." He said gently as he kissed her softly. Sam rest her head against Jason's shoulder and the two of them just stayed there in silence.
"Jason." Sonny called. At the sound of Sonny's voice, Jason panicked. He loved Sonny like a brother and had no intention of betraying him, but when it came to Sam he couldn't help himself. Jason heard the soft sounds of Sonny's steps slowly approaching and he froze; he did not know what to do.
"Jason." Sonny yelled again, causing Jason's heart to speed. Jason held his breath, and walked out of his bedroom to meet Sonny."
"What took you so long to answer, I've been calling you." Sonny inquired.
"Sorry I was changing." Jason responded, it had not been a complete lie because only seconds before Jason had been scrambling to find clothes.
"What can I do for you, Sonny." Jason asked seemingly nonchalantly.
"I just came to check on things, Sam, her baby, see what ideas you have about the case." Sonny replied as he sat on the couch. Jason looked and felt nervous the very thought of having to lie to more people he cared about scared and hurt him. He looked Courtney, and Carly in their eyes everyday and lied to them about being the father of Sam's child he couldn't do the same to Sonny. If Sonny asked him about his relationship with Sam, he would have to tell him but if he didn't ask Jason would not say a word.
"Sam is still asleep, and the baby, well she's doing fine." Jason said with a smile, he loved the idea of being a father, he just hoped that this was permanent; he prayed that Sam wouldn't miscarry like Courtney, and that Sonny wouldn't take baby Lila away like Michael. Sonny picked up his ringing phone.
"I'm going to take this outside Jason." He said. Jason nodded his head and walked into the kitchen to make breakfast for Sam. He wanted to surprise her with breakfast in bed, he hoped that she wouldn't wake up without him beside her.
Sam woke up with a smile, as she stared outside the window, everything seemed so perfect. The only thing missing was Jason, she wished that she had woke up in his muscular arms, but then she smelt breakfast and smiled to herself. She grabbed the nearest shirt she could find, Jason's black tee, she put it on, and walked to the kitchen to find him. She was unaware that Sonny was accompanying him. When she entered the kitchen all she saw was Jason. She stood in the doorway and watched as he continued to make breakfast. Sam slowly approached him, intending to wrap her arms around Jason and embrace him, but then she saw Sonny walking toward the kitchen out of her peripheral vision and stopped.
"Sam." Sonny said softly. At this instant Jason turned around startled. Both Sonny and Jason stared at Sam, wearing only a black shirt, Jason's black shirt. Sam just paused.
"Why are you wearing Jason's shirt?" Sonny inquired suspiciously. Sam flashed a quick look at Jason and responded.
"Sonny look at me, I'm pregnant. I need comfort and this shirt is comfortable." This was only the partial truth but Sam had no intention of confiding in Sonny just yet. Sonny nodded his head and it appeared as if he accepted this answer.
"Alright Sam. Jason, I'll be seeing you." Sonny said as he glanced at Jason, and Sam and walked away. Sam and Jason just stared at each other both equally scared and worried. Sam opened her mouth to say something but no words came out. After a few more silent moments Jason finally spoke.
"We cant do this." he said, as he avoided her eyes. She walked over to him, placed her fingers through one of his belt loops, slowly pulling him closer.
"Yes, we can." She cajoled him.
"Sam, I've been lying to everyone that I love for so long, and I hate it. I cant do it to Sonny."
"We don't have to lie to him" Sam reasoned.
"Jason, we can tell him the truth, we have to." She continued. Jason considered this before responding.
"How? If I lose Sonny, I will never be able to see Michael or Morgan again. Sonny will not allow me to be a part of your daughter's life." He yelled. He slowly broke down as he continued.
"You don't understand Sam. All I want is to be a father, its all I've wanted. I lost Michael, I lost my unborn child, I don't want to lose Lila too. If Sonny every finds out about this, he will take everything away from me." Jason was scared, he was angry, he was lost.
"Jason, no one is going take anything away from you. Your talking about everything you want, I know you want this Jason. I know you want us. So please, take us, take me, and my daughter. We're yours if you want us, we'll be your family. Nothing that Sonny can do will ever change that. Jason, Sonny loves you and he would never do anything to intentionally hurt you just like I know that you would never do anything to hurt him. So just tell him, he will understand." Sam pleaded with him. Jason didn't respond to Sam, he just looked down.
"Sit down, and eat breakfast, I've gotta go." Jason said as he to left the safe house. Sam soon looked down, she felt crushed, it was as if the only man who truly cared about her, just let her down. She leaned back against the wall and fell down to the floor, with tears filling her eyes.
"I'm all alone again" Sam cried as she held her hands against her baby.
"But you, you will never be alone. I promise you will always have me, and you will always be loved, and Jason and Sonny will love you too. Jason will love you, and I wish he would love me too. I must be crazy, jealous of my own baby infant." She continued to whisper to her child.
Jason walked, he walked to clear his head, and to get his thoughts together, he ended up at the Gazebo. He watched as couples walked by, kissing and holding hands, he watched as little kids ran around in the park, and he grinned. He wanted both of those things, to be a husband, fiancé, or boyfriend, whatever he would be to Sam, and he also wanted to be a father. He continued to watch from the gazebo as he realized that he wanted Sam, he wanted to be with her, and be the father of her baby. Sam was right, Sonny would not do anything to intentionally hurt him, even when he Jason found Carly in bed with Sonny, deep down he knew that it had not been intentional. If he could forgive Sonny, Jason had to believe that Sonny would forgive him as well. He turned away from the Gazebo and walked back towards the safe house. He didn't say anything as he entered the apartment, he just looked for Sam. He walked into the kitchen and found Sam crying on the floor. He sat down beside her, wrapped her in his arms, and began to speak.
"I'm sorry. I- I was scared. Somehow, we are going to find a way to tell Sonny. I'm so sorry Sam." He said gently as he kissed her softly. Sam rest her head against Jason's shoulder and the two of them just stayed there in silence.