I do not own any of the Degrassi characters I hope you like this chapter. I
know some of you are saying that Jimmy wouldn't act the way he did at The
Dot, but I think you misunderstood. He wasn't being violent; he was calmly
telling Craig to stay away from Ash. Please R+R
The next day, I ran into Manny. She was dressed as a tramp as always, and was eyeing Craig, once again. Did this girl ever learn a lesson?
"Ashley, I am so sorry about what happened with Craig." she started to say.
"I know, its not your fault.you just couldn't say no him, I understand that all too well," I said, feeling a strike of pain as I remembered how I felt the night I found out about Craig and Manny. "How are you doing anyway?"
"Not so good," Manny said, looking away. "I hate to say this, but can we talk. I know it will be hard for you, but I don't have anyone else to turn to."
"Yeah, sure, do you want to go to the library?" I asked.
"Yeah," she said. We walked to the school library in silence and sat down at a table in the back of the room.
"So, what's wrong?" I asked her.
"It's just that.I think I might be pregnant.and I don't know how to tell Craig," she blurted out.
Despite how I felt about Jimmy, I still had feelings for Craig, so her words hit my heart like a gunshot. "Craig can be a jerk, but he's a good guy. And he deserves to know, so don't make any decisions without him, okay?"
"Yeah."
I sat in my room, thinking about Jimmy and about Craig. I knew I could easily have Craig back if I wanted. But I also know that Jimmy really cares about me and I cant do that to him. I love Jimmy I always have and always will. I just wish things weren't so complicated. I didn't know what to do so I picked up the phone and called Ellie and asked her to come over.
"I don't know what to do, Ellie. I really like Jimmy, but I feel like I can't get over Craig and no matter what I do, I will always be jealous when I see him and Manny," I told Ellie, as we sat on my bed.
"You should be honest with them, you can't string Jimmy along, it wouldn't be fair," Ellie said.
"I know, but I don't want to hurt him. He's so much better for me than Craig."
"Honestly, I think Jimmy is better for you too, but that's your choice."
"Listen to me, going on and on about me. How are you doing? I mean with Marco being.well are you holding up okay?"
"Of course, I'm fine. I mean it's not like I was madly in love with him or anything," she said the words, but I could see in her eyes that she was lying.
"Ellie," I said, looking her straight in the eyes as if to say, 'don't lie to me'.
"Honestly? I'm a wreck. My mom's not doing so well either, and Marco left me when I needed him the most. He doesn't even listen to me anymore, and he used to be my best friend," she said, almost breaking down. But breaking down wasn't like Ellie; she would hold things in till the last possible second if I would let her.
"Ellie.I'm so sorry," I said, feeling really bad for her.
"It's okay, I don't want your pity, I just want to relax, and I haven't been able to relax since my dad left."
"For what it's worth, I'm here for you," I said.
"Thanks, Ash," she said to me.
I was over at Jimmy's house, because he was lonely and needed company. He had ordered a pizza and rented a movie, which we sat on his bed watching.
I smiled as I watched him, why did I ever let him go? "Jimmy," I said.
He looked at me, his gaze meeting mine, "Yeah?"
I kissed him, wrapping my arms around his neck. When I pulled back, Jimmy smiled at me weakly.
"Jimmy, I love you," I said breathlessly.
"Ash, I love you. I have always loved you, and I always will," he kissed me again. He put one of his hands on the back of my neck, and the other one around my waist.
I started to say something, but I stopped myself. I had almost called him Craig! "Jimmy, I.I cant. I have to go, this isn't a good idea," I got up and walked to the door.
"Ash, I wasn't going to try anything, I'm not Craig, okay?"
"I know, but still.I promised Ellie I would come over tonight. So I have to go," I said.
I left, hanging my head down and feeling terrible. Get yourself together, Ash, you love Jimmy, not Craig. Right?
The next day, I ran into Manny. She was dressed as a tramp as always, and was eyeing Craig, once again. Did this girl ever learn a lesson?
"Ashley, I am so sorry about what happened with Craig." she started to say.
"I know, its not your fault.you just couldn't say no him, I understand that all too well," I said, feeling a strike of pain as I remembered how I felt the night I found out about Craig and Manny. "How are you doing anyway?"
"Not so good," Manny said, looking away. "I hate to say this, but can we talk. I know it will be hard for you, but I don't have anyone else to turn to."
"Yeah, sure, do you want to go to the library?" I asked.
"Yeah," she said. We walked to the school library in silence and sat down at a table in the back of the room.
"So, what's wrong?" I asked her.
"It's just that.I think I might be pregnant.and I don't know how to tell Craig," she blurted out.
Despite how I felt about Jimmy, I still had feelings for Craig, so her words hit my heart like a gunshot. "Craig can be a jerk, but he's a good guy. And he deserves to know, so don't make any decisions without him, okay?"
"Yeah."
I sat in my room, thinking about Jimmy and about Craig. I knew I could easily have Craig back if I wanted. But I also know that Jimmy really cares about me and I cant do that to him. I love Jimmy I always have and always will. I just wish things weren't so complicated. I didn't know what to do so I picked up the phone and called Ellie and asked her to come over.
"I don't know what to do, Ellie. I really like Jimmy, but I feel like I can't get over Craig and no matter what I do, I will always be jealous when I see him and Manny," I told Ellie, as we sat on my bed.
"You should be honest with them, you can't string Jimmy along, it wouldn't be fair," Ellie said.
"I know, but I don't want to hurt him. He's so much better for me than Craig."
"Honestly, I think Jimmy is better for you too, but that's your choice."
"Listen to me, going on and on about me. How are you doing? I mean with Marco being.well are you holding up okay?"
"Of course, I'm fine. I mean it's not like I was madly in love with him or anything," she said the words, but I could see in her eyes that she was lying.
"Ellie," I said, looking her straight in the eyes as if to say, 'don't lie to me'.
"Honestly? I'm a wreck. My mom's not doing so well either, and Marco left me when I needed him the most. He doesn't even listen to me anymore, and he used to be my best friend," she said, almost breaking down. But breaking down wasn't like Ellie; she would hold things in till the last possible second if I would let her.
"Ellie.I'm so sorry," I said, feeling really bad for her.
"It's okay, I don't want your pity, I just want to relax, and I haven't been able to relax since my dad left."
"For what it's worth, I'm here for you," I said.
"Thanks, Ash," she said to me.
I was over at Jimmy's house, because he was lonely and needed company. He had ordered a pizza and rented a movie, which we sat on his bed watching.
I smiled as I watched him, why did I ever let him go? "Jimmy," I said.
He looked at me, his gaze meeting mine, "Yeah?"
I kissed him, wrapping my arms around his neck. When I pulled back, Jimmy smiled at me weakly.
"Jimmy, I love you," I said breathlessly.
"Ash, I love you. I have always loved you, and I always will," he kissed me again. He put one of his hands on the back of my neck, and the other one around my waist.
I started to say something, but I stopped myself. I had almost called him Craig! "Jimmy, I.I cant. I have to go, this isn't a good idea," I got up and walked to the door.
"Ash, I wasn't going to try anything, I'm not Craig, okay?"
"I know, but still.I promised Ellie I would come over tonight. So I have to go," I said.
I left, hanging my head down and feeling terrible. Get yourself together, Ash, you love Jimmy, not Craig. Right?