Chapter 13

Buffy walked to his house the next day and took a deep breath before she knocked on the door. She kept saying the speech that she had prepared over in her head and she hoped that it would go okay. She waited a few seconds when the door opened to reveal Angel. He smiled at her. "Hey, I didn't know you were coming." Buffy nodded and took another breath before she spoke.

"We need to talk." She said and he nodded and let her into the house. Buffy left his house a few hours later. She wiped the tears off of her face that she cried earlier and headed to her car. She knew it was going to be hard, but she had to do it. She drove to her next destination and again hoped that everything would go okay. Buffy sat in her car for a few minutes thinking about what she was going to say. "Okay, you can do this." She said to herself as she got out of her car and walked up to his house. Again she took a deep breath before knocking on the door, but the person that opened it wasn't who she was expecting. She gave the man a small smile. "Xander, is Spike here?" She asked him and he shook his head.

"He already left, Buffy." Buffy really didn't want to believe that.

"You mean he already left for England?" Xander nodded.

"Yeah, I'm sorry." Buffy tried to keep the tears from falling again.

"I thought he wouldn't be leaving for a few more days." Xander shrugged.

"He said he wanted to get a head start." Buffy still couldn't believe that he was really gone.

"He didn't even say goodbye." She said more to herself than him as she looked away.

"He probably figured it would be easier this way." Buffy looked back at him and nodded.

"Thanks, Xander. I'll see you later." She said as she walked back to her car. Once she was inside her car she couldn't help the tears from falling. She wiped them away as she drove back to her house. Buffy got out of her car and walked up to her house when she suddenly stopped. She saw him standing by her front door and walked closer to him. "Spike, I thought you already left." She said and he nodded.

"I was going to, but I decided to drop by first. I guess I had to see you one more time. Where were you? If you were any longer I would have left." Buffy wiped at her eyes again and hoped that he couldn't tell that she was crying earlier.

"I had to take care of something. I'm glad you're here because I needed to talk to you." Spike nodded and waited for her to continue. She took a deep breath and said what she needed to. "I don't want you to go." She said and Spike wasn't expecting that.

"Buffy, what is this about?" Buffy knew that she would have to tell him more than that.

"I know you think this is a good opportunity for you, but so is being here. You have everything here, Spike. You have friends, family, and a good job. You're everyone's favorite teacher at school. The kids would really miss you. They love you, Spike. I love you." She said the last part softly, but he heard her and walked closer to her.

"You mean as a friend, right?" Buffy shook her head.

"No, I mean as in more than a friend. I think I've always loved you; it just took me this long to realize it. I had to tell you and if you still decide that going to England is what you need then I won't stop you. I just had to tell you how I felt because if I didn't I knew I would regret it." Buffy looked at him afraid of how his reaction would be when he then smiled and grabbed her in a big hug.

"God, Buffy. I love you so bloody much. Since the first time I ever saw you. I have wanted to tell you for so long, but I never thought you would have felt the same way." Buffy held him afraid to let go.

"I love you, Spike." She said and he pulled away to really look at her. He cupped her cheek and leaned in to kiss her on the lips. It was soft and sweet and lasted for a few seconds when he pulled away.

"I've wanted to do that for so long." He said and she smiled at him.

"I'm glad you finally did." Spike smiled also and then thought of something.

"What about Angel?" Buffy knew he would ask that.

"I broke up with him. It was hard and he is such a sweet guy, but I had to. I couldn't be with him knowing that I had feelings for you, it wouldn't have been fair. He was very understanding though, but I could tell that it hurt him." Spike nodded and put his arm around her.

"He'll be okay, pet. Angel's strong, he can handle it." Buffy nodded also. "I have something to confess also." He said and Buffy was afraid of what he would say. "It's about Dru. I was actually planning on breaking up with her sooner because of how I felt for you. I kept telling myself that I loved Dru and that I would get over you, but that never happened. I never really loved her; the whole time I was with her I couldn't stop thinking about you. I knew that I wasn't being fair to her so I planned on ending things and that's why I went to her apartment only to find that she was cheating on me. I have to say that realizing that made me feel less guilty about breaking up with her. I then planned on finally telling you how I felt, but you started to date Angel and I tried to put it behind me. I never thought you would have ever chosen me over him." Buffy hugged him and Spike kissed the top of her head. He really hoped this wasn't a dream. She then pulled away and looked at him with a serious expression.

"Are you still leaving?" She asked a little shyly and he looked into her eyes and caressed her cheek.

"Not in this lifetime." He said as he kissed her again. He then grabbed her hand and walked to his car and Buffy couldn't believe that she didn't even notice his car there. She must have really been distracted. "Guess what, love?" He said as he turned back to her.

"What?" She asked and he gave her a smirk.

"You get to help me unpack." Buffy rolled her eyes.

"Oh joy." She said sarcastically and Spike smiled and opened the car door for her. She got in and he walked to the other side and got in also. He pulled her closer to him as he started the car and drove away. He looked at her with her head resting on his shoulder and smiled. He finally knew what Heaven felt like.

The End

I know it's not that great of an ending, but I ran out of ideas. I hope ya'll liked it anyway. Thanks for reading=)