A/N: Woo hoo, chapter 13! Wow, I got reviews from people I didn't even know read my stories! I'm so happy! You people are soooo cool! Okay, please keep sending them! Anyway, I present (Dramatic music starts up) Chapter Thirteen!
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Quistis sat, sprawled out on a chair, basking in the sun. She allowed the heat to sink into her skin, and watched as Selphie splashed about with Irvine and Laguna. Zell ran in soon after them. Quistis just laughed, setting her sun glasses back on the bridge of her nose. As she searched the empty, desolate beach for Rinoa or Squall she found no one. And that included Seifer as well. Lord, those three, cooped up in that house, she shuddered at the thought.
Rinoa was curled up on the bay window of her room looking out at the sparkling water. It was so lovely and at times when she would allow herself to get lost within the moving tide of the water, she could see it as a large blue sapphire. It glimmered and glistened and would often meet the twinkle of Rinoa's eyes forming a diamond shape illusion in the sky.
Just then Seifer walked in. She couldn't talk to him, not now, not after what happened. As much as she loved Squall at that moment they were in the hallway was how much she felt for Seifer whenever he was near. She could always say how stupid she is for ever thinking she could go back, like she did earlier on, putting down even the thought of a relationship, but she couldn't think that when he was there. When he was watching her.
No matter how many times she told herself Seifer and her where in the past, she couldn't help but think what if they weren't. What was stopping them? And then she remembered, her love for Squall was what was stopping them. She hated being torn, why was this happening to her? It would have been much easier to move on if Seifer had lost interest in her, but unfortunately that wasn't the case.
She felt his body standing beside her, and she felt his coat sweep up against her arm. All she wanted right now was for him to hold her in his arms and tell her how much he loved her. But even if he did this, what would she have said? She didn't care about Squall right now, much like she didn't care for Seifer when around Squall. How could she be with either of these men when she could so easily turn around and disregard them as if they were nothing? Both had gone through suffering, it was unfair to take pity on just Squall. Seifer had suffered many tragedies as well. It was unjust to compare these two people, for they were entirely separate, yet hauntingly similar.
Rinoa pulled her knees closer to her chest and continued to ignore Seifer. She could hear him bending down to stand at the same height as she was. She finally turned her head to face him, her eyes were red and puffy from crying before. She was crying so much lately. That was not Rinoa, not the Rinoa that she thought she was. The real Rinoa was always happy and playful and was almost always laughing. She never once cried when she was with Seifer, not once. He constantly had her laughing, or smiling, or just being content with life. If only she could set time back and avoid ever meeting Squall, for Squall was the cause of her questioning her feelings the way she had been doing. Ever since he came along her world had been turned upside down. What she knew as hot was now cold, what she knew as bliss was now poignant, and what she thought was day light was now darkness. What she knew as life could easily be called death.
She watched as he removed a glove and bring his big, rough hands to her gentle, delicate face and wipe the remnants of her tears. Those tears she had so desperately wanted to hold on to moments before.
There was a silence upon them. Not an awkward silence that is usually sought after to be broken, but a warm fulfilling silence that is almost as rare as true love.
"About before," Seifer began to speak but Rinoa held her finger to his mouth, hushing him into quiet. She bent her head down and allowed him to claim her lips his.
He pulled her away before he could do anything that he would lament over.
"This is what I've come to speak to you of, of us, our relationship, if you can even call it that."
"I love you Seifer Almasy, and that's all that matters. Now just tell me that you love me, too. I need to hear you say those words, please, tell me that you love me." Both were standing now, her head was hung low, her forehead pressed up against his chest. She spoke with a wounded voice.
"I love you." He whispered to her, she knew there was a 'but' to follow pursuit, though. She could probably finish his thoughts if she tried hard enough. It was like they were two different people merged into one. They always knew what the other was thinking, no matter what.
"Our love is the only thing that matters." She slipped this in before he could finish his sentence, which she knew was going to just deepen her lesion.
"We can be together Seifer, I know we can." She said tightening her grip she had around his torso.
"What happens when Squall comes around, and you feel sorry for him, and you start to wonder whether or not staying with me was the right choice? What then? I know you too you well Rin, I know you too well…" His voice trailed off a bit.
"Don't kid yourself, …and don't fool yourself." He said, now it was his turn to sound wounded.
"This love, our love, it's too good to last, you know that." She listened intently to those heart wrenching words that left the mouth of the only person she could ever love with such passion.
"Don't embrace the past, just promise me that, okay? Never, never think of us again." How could he be asking that of her? How could he ask her do the impossible?
"And don't grow up too fast… with whoever that me be. Stay young, stay the way I'll always be able to remember you. That's important." She knew he wanted to cry, but he would never do that. Rinoa on the other hand was creating a pool within her eyes.
"This life… it's too good to last, so live it to the fullest, like I've always told you to do. The way life is supposed to be lived out. It's supposed to be celebrated, and I can't think of anyone better than you to celebrate it."
By now, Seifer's shirt was wet from Rinoa's tears. Why did he talk as if he was going away, leaving her forever? Why was he saying these horrible things that Rinoa wanted to pretend didn't exist? But for Seifer's sake she had to listen, as painful as it was, it was the least she owed him. Not a lifetime could make up for the hurt she caused him. He lifted her chin and looked into her eyes which were buried under a sea of tears.
"I have to go now, Rin." He touched her sweet lips once more in a kiss that could have stole Rinoa's breathe away. A kiss that could have stolen her soul, and she would have been okay with it. She longed for the touch of his lips as soon as the two parted, but she let him go, almost knowing what exactly Seifer was doing, but not fully aware of it. Little did she know that, that was the last time she would see him in a long time.
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A/N: I know this chapter is, like, unbelievably short, but this was really focusing on Rinoa and Seifer's relationship. So was it powerful, that's what I was aiming for, but who knows. Anyway, whatever you thought of it let me know, kay? Thanks!
Oh yea, this chapter was based on the song 'Blackout', hence the name of the chapter, by Muse.
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Quistis sat, sprawled out on a chair, basking in the sun. She allowed the heat to sink into her skin, and watched as Selphie splashed about with Irvine and Laguna. Zell ran in soon after them. Quistis just laughed, setting her sun glasses back on the bridge of her nose. As she searched the empty, desolate beach for Rinoa or Squall she found no one. And that included Seifer as well. Lord, those three, cooped up in that house, she shuddered at the thought.
Rinoa was curled up on the bay window of her room looking out at the sparkling water. It was so lovely and at times when she would allow herself to get lost within the moving tide of the water, she could see it as a large blue sapphire. It glimmered and glistened and would often meet the twinkle of Rinoa's eyes forming a diamond shape illusion in the sky.
Just then Seifer walked in. She couldn't talk to him, not now, not after what happened. As much as she loved Squall at that moment they were in the hallway was how much she felt for Seifer whenever he was near. She could always say how stupid she is for ever thinking she could go back, like she did earlier on, putting down even the thought of a relationship, but she couldn't think that when he was there. When he was watching her.
No matter how many times she told herself Seifer and her where in the past, she couldn't help but think what if they weren't. What was stopping them? And then she remembered, her love for Squall was what was stopping them. She hated being torn, why was this happening to her? It would have been much easier to move on if Seifer had lost interest in her, but unfortunately that wasn't the case.
She felt his body standing beside her, and she felt his coat sweep up against her arm. All she wanted right now was for him to hold her in his arms and tell her how much he loved her. But even if he did this, what would she have said? She didn't care about Squall right now, much like she didn't care for Seifer when around Squall. How could she be with either of these men when she could so easily turn around and disregard them as if they were nothing? Both had gone through suffering, it was unfair to take pity on just Squall. Seifer had suffered many tragedies as well. It was unjust to compare these two people, for they were entirely separate, yet hauntingly similar.
Rinoa pulled her knees closer to her chest and continued to ignore Seifer. She could hear him bending down to stand at the same height as she was. She finally turned her head to face him, her eyes were red and puffy from crying before. She was crying so much lately. That was not Rinoa, not the Rinoa that she thought she was. The real Rinoa was always happy and playful and was almost always laughing. She never once cried when she was with Seifer, not once. He constantly had her laughing, or smiling, or just being content with life. If only she could set time back and avoid ever meeting Squall, for Squall was the cause of her questioning her feelings the way she had been doing. Ever since he came along her world had been turned upside down. What she knew as hot was now cold, what she knew as bliss was now poignant, and what she thought was day light was now darkness. What she knew as life could easily be called death.
She watched as he removed a glove and bring his big, rough hands to her gentle, delicate face and wipe the remnants of her tears. Those tears she had so desperately wanted to hold on to moments before.
There was a silence upon them. Not an awkward silence that is usually sought after to be broken, but a warm fulfilling silence that is almost as rare as true love.
"About before," Seifer began to speak but Rinoa held her finger to his mouth, hushing him into quiet. She bent her head down and allowed him to claim her lips his.
He pulled her away before he could do anything that he would lament over.
"This is what I've come to speak to you of, of us, our relationship, if you can even call it that."
"I love you Seifer Almasy, and that's all that matters. Now just tell me that you love me, too. I need to hear you say those words, please, tell me that you love me." Both were standing now, her head was hung low, her forehead pressed up against his chest. She spoke with a wounded voice.
"I love you." He whispered to her, she knew there was a 'but' to follow pursuit, though. She could probably finish his thoughts if she tried hard enough. It was like they were two different people merged into one. They always knew what the other was thinking, no matter what.
"Our love is the only thing that matters." She slipped this in before he could finish his sentence, which she knew was going to just deepen her lesion.
"We can be together Seifer, I know we can." She said tightening her grip she had around his torso.
"What happens when Squall comes around, and you feel sorry for him, and you start to wonder whether or not staying with me was the right choice? What then? I know you too you well Rin, I know you too well…" His voice trailed off a bit.
"Don't kid yourself, …and don't fool yourself." He said, now it was his turn to sound wounded.
"This love, our love, it's too good to last, you know that." She listened intently to those heart wrenching words that left the mouth of the only person she could ever love with such passion.
"Don't embrace the past, just promise me that, okay? Never, never think of us again." How could he be asking that of her? How could he ask her do the impossible?
"And don't grow up too fast… with whoever that me be. Stay young, stay the way I'll always be able to remember you. That's important." She knew he wanted to cry, but he would never do that. Rinoa on the other hand was creating a pool within her eyes.
"This life… it's too good to last, so live it to the fullest, like I've always told you to do. The way life is supposed to be lived out. It's supposed to be celebrated, and I can't think of anyone better than you to celebrate it."
By now, Seifer's shirt was wet from Rinoa's tears. Why did he talk as if he was going away, leaving her forever? Why was he saying these horrible things that Rinoa wanted to pretend didn't exist? But for Seifer's sake she had to listen, as painful as it was, it was the least she owed him. Not a lifetime could make up for the hurt she caused him. He lifted her chin and looked into her eyes which were buried under a sea of tears.
"I have to go now, Rin." He touched her sweet lips once more in a kiss that could have stole Rinoa's breathe away. A kiss that could have stolen her soul, and she would have been okay with it. She longed for the touch of his lips as soon as the two parted, but she let him go, almost knowing what exactly Seifer was doing, but not fully aware of it. Little did she know that, that was the last time she would see him in a long time.
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A/N: I know this chapter is, like, unbelievably short, but this was really focusing on Rinoa and Seifer's relationship. So was it powerful, that's what I was aiming for, but who knows. Anyway, whatever you thought of it let me know, kay? Thanks!
Oh yea, this chapter was based on the song 'Blackout', hence the name of the chapter, by Muse.