Following faith out Alpha growled to himself as he tried to ignore the
ranting of Xander in the back of his head.
"Okay slayer, what the heck's your problem" he grated as he grabbed her arm and turned her to face him.
Giving him a shove she forced him back several feet.
"Don't touch me again fluffy or I'll lay you out on a slab" the whispered threat's effect would have been increased if it wasn't slurred slightly as faith swayed back and forth.
Alpha looked at the drunken slayer again before shaking his head. "Come on slayer, what's your problem?" he said softer this time as faith just shrugged.
"My problem is a sasquatch wannabe who thinks he should be a shrink" she said turning around again and walking away again.
Growling again Alpha walked past her and turned to block her path.
"Faith, the cop himself said it wasn't your fault that Finch died" he said when she finally stopped and just glared at him "Now what's the problem?"
"You wouldn't understand" she muttered before stepping around him and trying to continue.
"Understand what Faith, understand how you made a mistake?" he said as faith finally stopped and turned around
In the near light of dawn approaching Alpha noticed the unshed tears in her eyes as she visibly fought to keep her emotions in check.
"You wouldn't understand what it feels like to kill someone like that, what it feels like to always have the blood on your hands" she whispered before collapsing against the wall. "God I've always been able to deal with everything before but, but this is just to much"
Alpha walked up slowly and knelt beside her as he watched her stare at her hands.
"I know the fee..." he got before she cut him off with a growl.
"What the hell could you know about it, what could you know about taking a human life. Hell you probably just see them as a food source" she grated out.
Glaring at the Boston slayer Alpha stood up again "What would 'I' know about" he grated up as memories started to surface "how about sitting in a tree for three days waiting for a movement that would show the position of someone that wanted to take my life while I tried to keep those same movements from being seen" he growled as he tried to stop.
"How about calling in an air strike to a Viet Cong supply trial, being within a hundred yards while I prayed the dumb shits from the carrier didn't FUBAR the situation and take me out in the strike as well, how about when the strike does come and you see three hundred men disappear in a flash or even worse" he paused as he looked down on her.
"They miss by just that small amount and instead of them being killed real quick, the blast wounds them, or when the Napalm strikes the ground within fifty yards and you can only pray your bullets hit the enemy just to end the screaming" he sighed before sitting down next to her
"What to impersonal? Then how about watching five thousand men rush your position while you cut them down, or having to fight them off with bayonets or KABARs" he said as he stared at his hands as she had.
"Most people think the screams of pain or the looks as they die are the worst things possible, but it's what comes after those moments. The silence that dominates everything as not even there heart beats anymore or the moment there eyes no longer focus on you that are the worse, that's something no movie has ever been able to pick up" he said as he leaned back against the wall and watched the sky turn to a bright pink.
With a sigh Alpha stood up and looked around the area "No Slayer, I understand." He said quietly before shaking himself off of the memories "Come on slayer, I'll give you a ride home."
"Okay slayer, what the heck's your problem" he grated as he grabbed her arm and turned her to face him.
Giving him a shove she forced him back several feet.
"Don't touch me again fluffy or I'll lay you out on a slab" the whispered threat's effect would have been increased if it wasn't slurred slightly as faith swayed back and forth.
Alpha looked at the drunken slayer again before shaking his head. "Come on slayer, what's your problem?" he said softer this time as faith just shrugged.
"My problem is a sasquatch wannabe who thinks he should be a shrink" she said turning around again and walking away again.
Growling again Alpha walked past her and turned to block her path.
"Faith, the cop himself said it wasn't your fault that Finch died" he said when she finally stopped and just glared at him "Now what's the problem?"
"You wouldn't understand" she muttered before stepping around him and trying to continue.
"Understand what Faith, understand how you made a mistake?" he said as faith finally stopped and turned around
In the near light of dawn approaching Alpha noticed the unshed tears in her eyes as she visibly fought to keep her emotions in check.
"You wouldn't understand what it feels like to kill someone like that, what it feels like to always have the blood on your hands" she whispered before collapsing against the wall. "God I've always been able to deal with everything before but, but this is just to much"
Alpha walked up slowly and knelt beside her as he watched her stare at her hands.
"I know the fee..." he got before she cut him off with a growl.
"What the hell could you know about it, what could you know about taking a human life. Hell you probably just see them as a food source" she grated out.
Glaring at the Boston slayer Alpha stood up again "What would 'I' know about" he grated up as memories started to surface "how about sitting in a tree for three days waiting for a movement that would show the position of someone that wanted to take my life while I tried to keep those same movements from being seen" he growled as he tried to stop.
"How about calling in an air strike to a Viet Cong supply trial, being within a hundred yards while I prayed the dumb shits from the carrier didn't FUBAR the situation and take me out in the strike as well, how about when the strike does come and you see three hundred men disappear in a flash or even worse" he paused as he looked down on her.
"They miss by just that small amount and instead of them being killed real quick, the blast wounds them, or when the Napalm strikes the ground within fifty yards and you can only pray your bullets hit the enemy just to end the screaming" he sighed before sitting down next to her
"What to impersonal? Then how about watching five thousand men rush your position while you cut them down, or having to fight them off with bayonets or KABARs" he said as he stared at his hands as she had.
"Most people think the screams of pain or the looks as they die are the worst things possible, but it's what comes after those moments. The silence that dominates everything as not even there heart beats anymore or the moment there eyes no longer focus on you that are the worse, that's something no movie has ever been able to pick up" he said as he leaned back against the wall and watched the sky turn to a bright pink.
With a sigh Alpha stood up and looked around the area "No Slayer, I understand." He said quietly before shaking himself off of the memories "Come on slayer, I'll give you a ride home."