"Do you know what it feels like? It feels like a huge slap in the face," Amy said as she felt Ephram tighten his grip on her.
"I know…I know," he said as he stroked her hair. Just as Amy was beginning to calm herself down she burst out again, "I just don't understand, it's like someone wants me to be unhappy."
They sat in the silence together as Amy began to compose herself. Ephram kept quiet, not knowing what he could say to make her feel better. When his mother had died, every "It'll be alright" or "You poor thing, what can I do" just made him want to explode even more. Nobody knew how he felt and never would. They just said the words to say them, but they had absolutely no meaning.
"Do you think I'm being stupid?" Amy asked. Ephram looked confused. "I mean, do you think he'll even remember me at all. It's not fair to him, he shouldn't be obligated to be my girlfriend just because that's what we were before."
"I think you should listen to what he has to say. Maybe when he saw you he didn't remember you as Amy, his girlfriend, but he saw you and thought that you were smart and beautiful and wants to be your boyfriend."
"I just don't know what's right anymore. Is it wrong of me just to give up now? I mean, I don't know how much longer I can do this", she said.
"I don't know what to tell you Amy. I don't even know what I would do if it were me" Ephram said.
"Ephram, I'm really sorry about gushing all this out to you. I just had to get it off my chest and there isn't anyone else I can talk to who listens like you do."
"Yeah, that's me, Ephram the great listener. That's all I am these days" he said frustrated.
"What are you talking about? You know you're way more than that."
"I just keep having these thoughts in my mind. I always wondered if Colin woke up whether you would just drop everything else and run. I know you were upset the other day, but something happened between us and you up and left the second you heard about him. And if he remembered you and you weren't sitting here crying on my shoulder, again, you would have totally ignored everything else, including me."
Amy looked shocked, "I had no idea you felt this way"
"How could I not Amy. You know how I feel about you and you use it to your advantage when you're feeling down. It's like whenever you're upset and need some lifting you'll come running to me cuz you know I'll always be there for you. And I love being there for you cuz I love it when you're happy, but you can't keep playing these games with me, not when you know how much I love you", he said his face flushed.
"What?" Amy said.
"Oh come on Amy, you know I feel that strongly about you."
"You know what Ephram", she said getting upset again, "I don't understand how you can bring this up at a time like this, when you know how upset I am. It's just like you to turn everything around and make it all about yourself. I can't believe you. Talk to me when you're not going to attack me like this" Amy said as she stormed out of his room and slammed the door behind herself.
Ephram sat on his bed and sighed. He had to tell her how he felt…was that so wrong of him? Maybe he could have had better timing. But Ephram just told her he LOVED her, and she didn't even blink an eye. It should mean something to her, but it's like she didn't even hear it.