Entry Four
There wasn't much for us to say when we got off that train and out of the station, though Yami kept his head down and would't look at me.
As we walked down the street, he stopped, and shoved his hands into his pockets.
"Well, I guess I better be going," he said quietly, and headed for the right, but I grabbed his elbow.
I could hear him turn around to look at me, but I refused to look at him, but I did speak.
"Why? I want to know why?" I whispered, and a bunch of sakura leaves started to sprinkle down on us.
I turned to look at him and I felt tears well up, as my throat tightened.
"'Why did you do this to me?"
Yami only stared, stunned, before he could open his mouth to speak.
"We were in the hall, I started shouting at him and asked why he ruined my life. He told me he had no idea what I was talking about, and I told him what happend along time ago. He looked at me, saying he had no idea what I was talking about. Then...I found out that it wasn't Marik I told that I love, but Malik! A guy who just transfered to Egypt from Arabia, and since he had a similar appearance to Marik, I had them mixed up. But I should have seen it, since Malik did look more insane then Marik. Marik...told me he loved me, and that he came all this way to tell me it. Then he kissed me and...it felt right, so I went along," he explained quietly.
My heart hurt.
'It felt right?'
Instead of crying, like I thought I would, I laughed. Oh god I laughed. Anger washed over me and I lost control of my thoughts and my mouth.
I turned away from him, chuckling dryly.
"I get it," my mouth said. "So you were only using me to mend your broken heart, then you get back together with your boyfriend. I get it now."
"Yugi, its not that!" Yami protested, but I shook my head sharply.
"I don't want to here it. I don't want an explaination either, I already heard it. And I don't want to hear that 'I can explain' crap. Because you can't explain it, you love him Yami, and you never loved me, but as a friend. I can understand that, so you don't have to worry. So, goodbye," I said softly and _I_ was about to walk off, but I arms around me stopped me, and I could feel his tears fall upon my cheeks.
"Yugi, please, its not that!" he shouted.
I shook my head.
"Let me go Yami. You don't love me. Don't worry, I'll pay you back for everything."
"No, Yugi, I did it because I love you."
My heart fluttered as I noticed he didn't use love in the past tense, and I looked up at him.
"Yami, do you love me?"
"Yes."
"Can you kiss me?"
Yami stared at me like I had gone nuts, and before he could even speek, I smashed my lips upon his, and he pushed me off.
"Yugi, what...!?" he spluttered, but I only staggered back a couple of steps, and turned my back.
"That proves it Yami, you don't love me anymore," I whispered, as I looked up at the clouding sky, tears running down my cheeks, but I was smiling.
A soft smile touched my lips, though my soul and eyes were crying.
"Yugi, oh god, Yugi..."
"I'll see you Yami, at school, as a friend," I said as I started walking away slowly, leaving him there, stunned.
It wasn't till I was out of his sight that I ran, and ran towards the Kame Game shop.
But I didn't make it.
Thunder boomed as rain drops fell from the sky, and I collapsed in the front of the shop, sobbing.
It wasn't till I felt arms embrace me, that I realized Grandpa was with me, and I embraced him tightly, as I cried.
"Shhhhhh. Oh Yugi, my boy, what happened?" he asked, all the coldness gone from his tone, now filled with concern.
"Grandpa," I whispered as I sniffed and a whole nother tears fell from my eyes, and clung to him tightly. "Yami...he..."
I could just imagine Grandpa's eyes narrow.
"What did he do Yugi? He didn't rape you did he?" He asked.
'If only it were that.'
"No, he...doesn't love me anymore."
There was silence, and I felt Grandpa draw me up and help me in towards the Kame Game Shop, and turn the sign around.
"Oh, Grandpa, you don't have to close up, I..."
"No, this is more important then business," he interupted firmly, as he turned the lights off and lead me towards the living room.
I sat on the couch, my hands clasped together pressed against my lips, as I stared at the table before me.
Water dripped from my hair and clothing, but I didn't notice.
Grandpa handed me a towel and I stripped off my jacket and shirt, as I wrapped the towel around myself.
Next came a cup of hot chocolate, and I sipped slowly as Grandpa sat beside me.
"Now, let's hear it from the beginning."
"Well..." I started as I placed the cup down. "As you know, Yami and I went on dates and steadies, and...he just made me so happy," I whispered as I cried again.
Grandpa's arms wrapped around me and patted me gently on the back, as I cried on his shoulder, like I had done many a times when I was a little boy.
"Go on."
"Everything was so perfect, so so perfect, when Marik arrived. Yami's ex-crush from Egypt. They had a talk and...(sob) Oh god, I say them making out! And Yami wasn't even pulling away or anything! And...I know he doesn't love me anymore because...of how he allowed Marik to kiss him so, and only pushed me away."
Now I really broke down and had a flood of tears.
I'm glad I had Grandpa, as he tried to sooth me over, but this only reminded me of Yami, and I cried even harder.
'I wish I never met him!'
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It took Grandpa a while to calm me down, then suggested I should take a hot bath and then get some sleep.
I took his advice, and it did make me feel better, but then sadness came crashing towards me again.
I lay in bed, looking up at the ceiling, letting my misery wash over my heart, when a knock on the door startled me.
It opened and my mouth almost dropped in who I saw.
"Seto!" I shouted almost falling out of bed.
"Yugi," he said, closing the door behind him. "You look cute in those kinds of PJs."
I blushed.
"Thanks," I muttered. "Um...there isn't anywhere to sit that is very comfortable so, uh, if you don't mind..."
"I don't mind," he said, sitting in my desk chair, and crossing his legs like a business man, posture like one also, except for his expression.
It was the expression of someone concerned for someone else.
"I heard what happened. Yami was a wreck when he told me. I wanted to make sure you were okay."
"Thanks, I'm fine, Grandpa helped."
"Good."
"Hey...Seto?"
"Hm?"
"Um...Jou..."
"Oh," he said dully, and leaned back, crossing his arms. "The dueling Monkey."
"Hey, he's a good friend," I scowled.
"I know, I know," Seto said, holding his hands up in defense. "And I have to say, he's one immature kid, but he's okay. Good friend, embarrassed me big time at that tornament, but...he has courage, and great pride. He kept shouting at me not to give up when I thought hope was lost, and we ended up winning that damn tornament."
I smiled.
"So you guys think you can...be a bit closer...then friends?" I asked blushing.
Seto flushed, then looked away.
"It wouldn't work Yugi."
"Why!?"
"...Well...he isn't my type...and, I'm in love with someone else..."
"Oh," I said as I sat on the edge of the bed. "So...you aren't gay..."
"Well, I wouldn't say that," Seto said, and I looked up, and blushed he gazed upon me.
"Really? So you do like guys?"
"Well, I guess you can say I'm BI, since I do still like girls, but...there's a certain person I like, and there the same gender as me..."
"Oh, do you mind telling me who?" I asked, though I had the feeling something was coming.
Before I knew what was happening, Seto was kissing me!
Once we parted, he gazed at me with loving blue eyes.
"You. Ever since I first saw your face in the library, I had fallen in love with you. I envied my cousin when you were in his possession, and I'm really ticked that he did something like this too you."
"Oh," was all I was able to stammer as I felt his breath on my face.
Seto seemed to realize how close he was and backed away back onto the chair and looked down, face bright red.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to push myself on you like that..." he murmured. "Since you and Yami would probably get back together soon..."
I cut him off as I kissed him, and when we parted he looked at me with wide eyes.
"Yugi?"
"He doesn't love me anymore. He hurt me, badly, and proved to me he didn't love me. But now I know someone who can truely love me, you. But...I wonder how long it will last," I whispered as I pulled away and gazed out my window at the rain that was falling. "I wonder how long it will be before you abadone me too."
I felt arms around my shoulders and felt lips press against my cheek.
"Then we shall enjoy our time till that time comes," he whispered in my ear and nodded, smiling.
I was happy again.
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The next day, I had a surprise waiting for me.
At the very front of the Game Shop was Seto, waiting for me, limo parked and passenger seat wide open.
"Seto...I," I stammered, blushing.
He only shrugged.
"Well, Yami takes the train and you know, I thought it would be hard for you so..."
I hugged him tightly.
"Thank you, this will make it much easier."
Seto smiled, ruffled my hair and helped me inside.
Once the door was closed, the limo started, and I yawned, still tired from staying up so late, swallowing up the last of my depression before basking in the thoughts of having Seto there for me.
I slowly guided my head down onto Seto's shoulder and closed my eyes as I leaned towards him, waiting for him to shuffle away, or wrench his shoulder away, but he didn't.
His body stayed relaxed and not even tense.
His arm slipped around my waist as he held me close, and I was in bliss, but...it reminded me of Yami.
How Yami used to hold me like that.
'Stop it Yugi! This is no time to wallow up in the past now! I have Seto...he's the one for me now.'
Once the limo stopped, Seto stepped out, and helped me out as well, and both of us started walking towards the school.
I wanted to hold Seto's hand, but I knew I shouldn't, because I had to keep me being homosexual a secret and I didn't want to ruin Seto's reputation.
Suddenly, I heard voices and I felt my insides freeze as I reconized them and I heard the voices heading towards me.
"Seto," I heard Yami say.
"Yami."
I dared to look up and saw both cousins staring coldly at each other, and I noticed a nice bruise upon Yami's cheek in a hand print.
Marik was behind Yami, looking between the cousins nervously as I was.
"You know Yami," Seto drolled. "Remember how I said I'd find someone better then your lover?"
"Yes," Yami hissed.
"Well I did, and its better then your lover, because..." he paused as he leaned in and whispered into his ear. "Because it _is_ your lover."
Yami snarled like an angery dog, and tackled him to the ground, and both started fighting.
Marik and I both grabbed one of the cousins, and I held Yami back around the waist since I was smaller, while Marik, being taller, grabbed Seto.
"Yami, what do you think your doing!" I pratically shouted.
"Did you just hear what that bastard said!" he shouted at me.
"Yes, and I don't see why you should be mad about it."
He stopped struggling and stared at me with wide eyes.
"You and him are a couple!"
"Well, I don't see why that should bother you, Yami Mutou," I said harshly and he winced.
I released him and he staggered a couple of steps, before he glared at me, and did something I would have never guessed he would do in front of me.
He stomped over towards Seto and Marik, grabbed his friend and kissed him, in front of me, and in front of the whole school that was walking to their class rooms.
I humphed as I grabbed Seto.
"I don't see how that's going to hurt me, Yami," I said, as they parted.
"Oh I didn't do it to hurt you," he said nastily. "I did it because I love him."
I laughed.
"Say what you want whore," I said, then gasped and clapped both hands over my mouth.
'Did I just...but I didn't...something was controlling me...I think? It didn't feel right...'
"I will, you slut whose GAY!"
Everyone around us stopped and turned to look at us, and my eyes widened.
"Yugi's what?" someone whispered.
"Gay, did he say?"
"I never knew."
"Wow, what do you know."
"And Yami, Marik..."
"A couple."
My eyes watered, so bad.
He told, he told and then it would probably be all over the school by the end of it.
I only shook my head, my tears flying everywhere.
"Yami, you bastard! You fucken bastard! I hate you! And I'm glad that I have someone else besides you!" I shouted before running away into the building.
I heard my name being shouted, but I didn't stop.
But as I ran, I thought I saw someone behind a tree nearby, holding something that shone when hit by the sun.
He looked like Marik, and he grinned at me insanely before it seemed he faded.
Before I could get a better look, I was already in the school building and in the boys bathroom, where I locked myself in and sighed, tears running down my face.
Who ever knew life could be so cruel.
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Mijikai: All I have to say is that the people who are patient and wait will receive a special surprise in this story. And I know its sad! I'm starting to feel guilty writing it, but I story always has at least four parts. Humor, Adveture, Angst, and Romance. Try to find the four parts in the story as a challenge. And if you are all going to kill me for making it sad like this...will you except a poster of Chibi Yami and Yugi hugging each other? (Hugs chibi Yugi plushie)
REVIEW!
There wasn't much for us to say when we got off that train and out of the station, though Yami kept his head down and would't look at me.
As we walked down the street, he stopped, and shoved his hands into his pockets.
"Well, I guess I better be going," he said quietly, and headed for the right, but I grabbed his elbow.
I could hear him turn around to look at me, but I refused to look at him, but I did speak.
"Why? I want to know why?" I whispered, and a bunch of sakura leaves started to sprinkle down on us.
I turned to look at him and I felt tears well up, as my throat tightened.
"'Why did you do this to me?"
Yami only stared, stunned, before he could open his mouth to speak.
"We were in the hall, I started shouting at him and asked why he ruined my life. He told me he had no idea what I was talking about, and I told him what happend along time ago. He looked at me, saying he had no idea what I was talking about. Then...I found out that it wasn't Marik I told that I love, but Malik! A guy who just transfered to Egypt from Arabia, and since he had a similar appearance to Marik, I had them mixed up. But I should have seen it, since Malik did look more insane then Marik. Marik...told me he loved me, and that he came all this way to tell me it. Then he kissed me and...it felt right, so I went along," he explained quietly.
My heart hurt.
'It felt right?'
Instead of crying, like I thought I would, I laughed. Oh god I laughed. Anger washed over me and I lost control of my thoughts and my mouth.
I turned away from him, chuckling dryly.
"I get it," my mouth said. "So you were only using me to mend your broken heart, then you get back together with your boyfriend. I get it now."
"Yugi, its not that!" Yami protested, but I shook my head sharply.
"I don't want to here it. I don't want an explaination either, I already heard it. And I don't want to hear that 'I can explain' crap. Because you can't explain it, you love him Yami, and you never loved me, but as a friend. I can understand that, so you don't have to worry. So, goodbye," I said softly and _I_ was about to walk off, but I arms around me stopped me, and I could feel his tears fall upon my cheeks.
"Yugi, please, its not that!" he shouted.
I shook my head.
"Let me go Yami. You don't love me. Don't worry, I'll pay you back for everything."
"No, Yugi, I did it because I love you."
My heart fluttered as I noticed he didn't use love in the past tense, and I looked up at him.
"Yami, do you love me?"
"Yes."
"Can you kiss me?"
Yami stared at me like I had gone nuts, and before he could even speek, I smashed my lips upon his, and he pushed me off.
"Yugi, what...!?" he spluttered, but I only staggered back a couple of steps, and turned my back.
"That proves it Yami, you don't love me anymore," I whispered, as I looked up at the clouding sky, tears running down my cheeks, but I was smiling.
A soft smile touched my lips, though my soul and eyes were crying.
"Yugi, oh god, Yugi..."
"I'll see you Yami, at school, as a friend," I said as I started walking away slowly, leaving him there, stunned.
It wasn't till I was out of his sight that I ran, and ran towards the Kame Game shop.
But I didn't make it.
Thunder boomed as rain drops fell from the sky, and I collapsed in the front of the shop, sobbing.
It wasn't till I felt arms embrace me, that I realized Grandpa was with me, and I embraced him tightly, as I cried.
"Shhhhhh. Oh Yugi, my boy, what happened?" he asked, all the coldness gone from his tone, now filled with concern.
"Grandpa," I whispered as I sniffed and a whole nother tears fell from my eyes, and clung to him tightly. "Yami...he..."
I could just imagine Grandpa's eyes narrow.
"What did he do Yugi? He didn't rape you did he?" He asked.
'If only it were that.'
"No, he...doesn't love me anymore."
There was silence, and I felt Grandpa draw me up and help me in towards the Kame Game Shop, and turn the sign around.
"Oh, Grandpa, you don't have to close up, I..."
"No, this is more important then business," he interupted firmly, as he turned the lights off and lead me towards the living room.
I sat on the couch, my hands clasped together pressed against my lips, as I stared at the table before me.
Water dripped from my hair and clothing, but I didn't notice.
Grandpa handed me a towel and I stripped off my jacket and shirt, as I wrapped the towel around myself.
Next came a cup of hot chocolate, and I sipped slowly as Grandpa sat beside me.
"Now, let's hear it from the beginning."
"Well..." I started as I placed the cup down. "As you know, Yami and I went on dates and steadies, and...he just made me so happy," I whispered as I cried again.
Grandpa's arms wrapped around me and patted me gently on the back, as I cried on his shoulder, like I had done many a times when I was a little boy.
"Go on."
"Everything was so perfect, so so perfect, when Marik arrived. Yami's ex-crush from Egypt. They had a talk and...(sob) Oh god, I say them making out! And Yami wasn't even pulling away or anything! And...I know he doesn't love me anymore because...of how he allowed Marik to kiss him so, and only pushed me away."
Now I really broke down and had a flood of tears.
I'm glad I had Grandpa, as he tried to sooth me over, but this only reminded me of Yami, and I cried even harder.
'I wish I never met him!'
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It took Grandpa a while to calm me down, then suggested I should take a hot bath and then get some sleep.
I took his advice, and it did make me feel better, but then sadness came crashing towards me again.
I lay in bed, looking up at the ceiling, letting my misery wash over my heart, when a knock on the door startled me.
It opened and my mouth almost dropped in who I saw.
"Seto!" I shouted almost falling out of bed.
"Yugi," he said, closing the door behind him. "You look cute in those kinds of PJs."
I blushed.
"Thanks," I muttered. "Um...there isn't anywhere to sit that is very comfortable so, uh, if you don't mind..."
"I don't mind," he said, sitting in my desk chair, and crossing his legs like a business man, posture like one also, except for his expression.
It was the expression of someone concerned for someone else.
"I heard what happened. Yami was a wreck when he told me. I wanted to make sure you were okay."
"Thanks, I'm fine, Grandpa helped."
"Good."
"Hey...Seto?"
"Hm?"
"Um...Jou..."
"Oh," he said dully, and leaned back, crossing his arms. "The dueling Monkey."
"Hey, he's a good friend," I scowled.
"I know, I know," Seto said, holding his hands up in defense. "And I have to say, he's one immature kid, but he's okay. Good friend, embarrassed me big time at that tornament, but...he has courage, and great pride. He kept shouting at me not to give up when I thought hope was lost, and we ended up winning that damn tornament."
I smiled.
"So you guys think you can...be a bit closer...then friends?" I asked blushing.
Seto flushed, then looked away.
"It wouldn't work Yugi."
"Why!?"
"...Well...he isn't my type...and, I'm in love with someone else..."
"Oh," I said as I sat on the edge of the bed. "So...you aren't gay..."
"Well, I wouldn't say that," Seto said, and I looked up, and blushed he gazed upon me.
"Really? So you do like guys?"
"Well, I guess you can say I'm BI, since I do still like girls, but...there's a certain person I like, and there the same gender as me..."
"Oh, do you mind telling me who?" I asked, though I had the feeling something was coming.
Before I knew what was happening, Seto was kissing me!
Once we parted, he gazed at me with loving blue eyes.
"You. Ever since I first saw your face in the library, I had fallen in love with you. I envied my cousin when you were in his possession, and I'm really ticked that he did something like this too you."
"Oh," was all I was able to stammer as I felt his breath on my face.
Seto seemed to realize how close he was and backed away back onto the chair and looked down, face bright red.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to push myself on you like that..." he murmured. "Since you and Yami would probably get back together soon..."
I cut him off as I kissed him, and when we parted he looked at me with wide eyes.
"Yugi?"
"He doesn't love me anymore. He hurt me, badly, and proved to me he didn't love me. But now I know someone who can truely love me, you. But...I wonder how long it will last," I whispered as I pulled away and gazed out my window at the rain that was falling. "I wonder how long it will be before you abadone me too."
I felt arms around my shoulders and felt lips press against my cheek.
"Then we shall enjoy our time till that time comes," he whispered in my ear and nodded, smiling.
I was happy again.
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The next day, I had a surprise waiting for me.
At the very front of the Game Shop was Seto, waiting for me, limo parked and passenger seat wide open.
"Seto...I," I stammered, blushing.
He only shrugged.
"Well, Yami takes the train and you know, I thought it would be hard for you so..."
I hugged him tightly.
"Thank you, this will make it much easier."
Seto smiled, ruffled my hair and helped me inside.
Once the door was closed, the limo started, and I yawned, still tired from staying up so late, swallowing up the last of my depression before basking in the thoughts of having Seto there for me.
I slowly guided my head down onto Seto's shoulder and closed my eyes as I leaned towards him, waiting for him to shuffle away, or wrench his shoulder away, but he didn't.
His body stayed relaxed and not even tense.
His arm slipped around my waist as he held me close, and I was in bliss, but...it reminded me of Yami.
How Yami used to hold me like that.
'Stop it Yugi! This is no time to wallow up in the past now! I have Seto...he's the one for me now.'
Once the limo stopped, Seto stepped out, and helped me out as well, and both of us started walking towards the school.
I wanted to hold Seto's hand, but I knew I shouldn't, because I had to keep me being homosexual a secret and I didn't want to ruin Seto's reputation.
Suddenly, I heard voices and I felt my insides freeze as I reconized them and I heard the voices heading towards me.
"Seto," I heard Yami say.
"Yami."
I dared to look up and saw both cousins staring coldly at each other, and I noticed a nice bruise upon Yami's cheek in a hand print.
Marik was behind Yami, looking between the cousins nervously as I was.
"You know Yami," Seto drolled. "Remember how I said I'd find someone better then your lover?"
"Yes," Yami hissed.
"Well I did, and its better then your lover, because..." he paused as he leaned in and whispered into his ear. "Because it _is_ your lover."
Yami snarled like an angery dog, and tackled him to the ground, and both started fighting.
Marik and I both grabbed one of the cousins, and I held Yami back around the waist since I was smaller, while Marik, being taller, grabbed Seto.
"Yami, what do you think your doing!" I pratically shouted.
"Did you just hear what that bastard said!" he shouted at me.
"Yes, and I don't see why you should be mad about it."
He stopped struggling and stared at me with wide eyes.
"You and him are a couple!"
"Well, I don't see why that should bother you, Yami Mutou," I said harshly and he winced.
I released him and he staggered a couple of steps, before he glared at me, and did something I would have never guessed he would do in front of me.
He stomped over towards Seto and Marik, grabbed his friend and kissed him, in front of me, and in front of the whole school that was walking to their class rooms.
I humphed as I grabbed Seto.
"I don't see how that's going to hurt me, Yami," I said, as they parted.
"Oh I didn't do it to hurt you," he said nastily. "I did it because I love him."
I laughed.
"Say what you want whore," I said, then gasped and clapped both hands over my mouth.
'Did I just...but I didn't...something was controlling me...I think? It didn't feel right...'
"I will, you slut whose GAY!"
Everyone around us stopped and turned to look at us, and my eyes widened.
"Yugi's what?" someone whispered.
"Gay, did he say?"
"I never knew."
"Wow, what do you know."
"And Yami, Marik..."
"A couple."
My eyes watered, so bad.
He told, he told and then it would probably be all over the school by the end of it.
I only shook my head, my tears flying everywhere.
"Yami, you bastard! You fucken bastard! I hate you! And I'm glad that I have someone else besides you!" I shouted before running away into the building.
I heard my name being shouted, but I didn't stop.
But as I ran, I thought I saw someone behind a tree nearby, holding something that shone when hit by the sun.
He looked like Marik, and he grinned at me insanely before it seemed he faded.
Before I could get a better look, I was already in the school building and in the boys bathroom, where I locked myself in and sighed, tears running down my face.
Who ever knew life could be so cruel.
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Mijikai: All I have to say is that the people who are patient and wait will receive a special surprise in this story. And I know its sad! I'm starting to feel guilty writing it, but I story always has at least four parts. Humor, Adveture, Angst, and Romance. Try to find the four parts in the story as a challenge. And if you are all going to kill me for making it sad like this...will you except a poster of Chibi Yami and Yugi hugging each other? (Hugs chibi Yugi plushie)
REVIEW!