Chapter One, Part Two: This Is the Air I Breathe
"Hey Liberty." He says politely.
"Hi," I smile to myself, wondering what got him over here. Was it my slightly wavy hair, which I had worn down with an outfit I borrowed from one of cousins? "SO, what are you doing here?"
"Everyone who's anyone is here." JT answered matter-of-factly. "I would like to know why you're here though." I smiled, not really knowing what to say.
"Well I--"
"Run out of homework to do or something?" JT mocked as I looked down disappointed. For some reason, I actually thought he cared about me. Really cared. How could I think he had some type of interest in me?
"Are you done insulting me?" I stepped up, getting some balls—which I had been known for for years. Speaking my mind ... except what I really felt.
"You're not gonna say anything back, tell me what a jerk I am?" JT wondered, confused as his wide grin faded into a confused one. That was what I would normally do. Call him an asshole and walk off, but not tonight. I just wanted there to be so much more ...
"No, you just said it," I responded, ignoring all the thoughts and hopes I had had of starting something real with JT. I paused, forcing myself to gain the courage to look him in the eye. "You will never be able to take me seriously and—I'm through insulting you. The only way you'd give me an ounce of real attention is if I had half my boobs hanging out, and I'm not like that." I responded, truthfully. I was done with JT. I officially hated him and never wanted to speak to him again.
Jimmy
"Hurry up, or I'm going to be late for my own party!" I yelled at Hazel, who was changing in my room. I had picked up something for her that would definitely leave an impression. As her friend, there was absolutely no way that I was going to let her reunite with everyone looking like a bum. She was going to show up, alongside me, in a hott new outfit from Fredericks.
"Jimmy, I don't know about this," Hazel whined from behind the door.
"Come out. I'll let you know if it looks good or ... not." My voice trailed off as Hazel walked through the door. She looked gorgeous like one of those Victoria's Secret models. The multi-colored dress clung to her every curve of her body, showing off parts of her that I had only dreamed of. I hadn't felt that way about Hazel in a long time ... since we dated over a year ago.
"Great. I look like crap. Just admit it." Hazel began. "How am I supposed to go out looking like this?" She rambled on, eyeballing herself in the mirror.
"You look awesome." I told her. I didn't know what she was complaining about ... I got the longest dress they had for her. It wasn't my fault that it was low-cut and exposed part of her stomach.
"What?" Hazel wondered in disbelief.
"You're good. Let's go." I forced myself to not look at her and remind myself that we were only friends.
Hazel sighed, giving in, as I practically pulled her down the steps. "Alright." She gave in. "But I want you to know that you suck ... making me feel guilty about it and everything." Hazel paused, whispering, "Are you sure I look okay?" I nodded, wrapping my arms around her, for a hug and walking her down the stairs. A lot of people had already arrived, meaning that we would definitely make an appearance.
Ashley
"I don't know what it is, but I feel like I can't trust him anymore." I came clean to Paige in Jimmy's bathroom. "Just being here brings back old memories of what I did to Jimmy ... and it makes me feel like I deserve what Craig did to me." I looked up, feeling so out of place. "I just can't believe any of it."
'Hon, if you're not over it ... and him, then why'd you agree to come here with him? You obviously haven't talked anything over." Paige responded, giving me good advice, which she had become really good at.
"Craig just doesn't get it. I don't even know what he wants from this relationship ... us starting over. We can't pretend like he didn't have sex with Manny. It's just not possible. I don't know what to say to him anymore."
"That's easy hon. Tell him how you feel." Paige smiled, applying some more lip gloss and eye shadow.
"Here?"
"Yeah, here." I opened the door and peaked out, looking for Craig.
"Oh my gosh," I whispered, seeing him ... with Manny who was all over him.
"What's wrong Ash?" Paige moved closer to the door.
"Look at Craig ... He's with--" I shut the door before my mind could blow things out of proportion.
"What are you doing? Go talk to him. Now!"
"I can't Paige. I can't take it ... not with both of them. It's too soon." I began, seriously thinking and re-thinking my plans to leave Degrassi next year.
"Well, I'll come with you, just to make sure Craig doesn't do anything stupid." Paige pulled me out of the bathroom. Sometimes I wished that she wasn't such an "involved" friend.
(A/N: Not much, but it's something. Review with comments and ideas ... They'll be more with Manny causing problems at the party, Liberty, and Hazel. NL Thank you so much for reviewing!!)
"Hey Liberty." He says politely.
"Hi," I smile to myself, wondering what got him over here. Was it my slightly wavy hair, which I had worn down with an outfit I borrowed from one of cousins? "SO, what are you doing here?"
"Everyone who's anyone is here." JT answered matter-of-factly. "I would like to know why you're here though." I smiled, not really knowing what to say.
"Well I--"
"Run out of homework to do or something?" JT mocked as I looked down disappointed. For some reason, I actually thought he cared about me. Really cared. How could I think he had some type of interest in me?
"Are you done insulting me?" I stepped up, getting some balls—which I had been known for for years. Speaking my mind ... except what I really felt.
"You're not gonna say anything back, tell me what a jerk I am?" JT wondered, confused as his wide grin faded into a confused one. That was what I would normally do. Call him an asshole and walk off, but not tonight. I just wanted there to be so much more ...
"No, you just said it," I responded, ignoring all the thoughts and hopes I had had of starting something real with JT. I paused, forcing myself to gain the courage to look him in the eye. "You will never be able to take me seriously and—I'm through insulting you. The only way you'd give me an ounce of real attention is if I had half my boobs hanging out, and I'm not like that." I responded, truthfully. I was done with JT. I officially hated him and never wanted to speak to him again.
Jimmy
"Hurry up, or I'm going to be late for my own party!" I yelled at Hazel, who was changing in my room. I had picked up something for her that would definitely leave an impression. As her friend, there was absolutely no way that I was going to let her reunite with everyone looking like a bum. She was going to show up, alongside me, in a hott new outfit from Fredericks.
"Jimmy, I don't know about this," Hazel whined from behind the door.
"Come out. I'll let you know if it looks good or ... not." My voice trailed off as Hazel walked through the door. She looked gorgeous like one of those Victoria's Secret models. The multi-colored dress clung to her every curve of her body, showing off parts of her that I had only dreamed of. I hadn't felt that way about Hazel in a long time ... since we dated over a year ago.
"Great. I look like crap. Just admit it." Hazel began. "How am I supposed to go out looking like this?" She rambled on, eyeballing herself in the mirror.
"You look awesome." I told her. I didn't know what she was complaining about ... I got the longest dress they had for her. It wasn't my fault that it was low-cut and exposed part of her stomach.
"What?" Hazel wondered in disbelief.
"You're good. Let's go." I forced myself to not look at her and remind myself that we were only friends.
Hazel sighed, giving in, as I practically pulled her down the steps. "Alright." She gave in. "But I want you to know that you suck ... making me feel guilty about it and everything." Hazel paused, whispering, "Are you sure I look okay?" I nodded, wrapping my arms around her, for a hug and walking her down the stairs. A lot of people had already arrived, meaning that we would definitely make an appearance.
Ashley
"I don't know what it is, but I feel like I can't trust him anymore." I came clean to Paige in Jimmy's bathroom. "Just being here brings back old memories of what I did to Jimmy ... and it makes me feel like I deserve what Craig did to me." I looked up, feeling so out of place. "I just can't believe any of it."
'Hon, if you're not over it ... and him, then why'd you agree to come here with him? You obviously haven't talked anything over." Paige responded, giving me good advice, which she had become really good at.
"Craig just doesn't get it. I don't even know what he wants from this relationship ... us starting over. We can't pretend like he didn't have sex with Manny. It's just not possible. I don't know what to say to him anymore."
"That's easy hon. Tell him how you feel." Paige smiled, applying some more lip gloss and eye shadow.
"Here?"
"Yeah, here." I opened the door and peaked out, looking for Craig.
"Oh my gosh," I whispered, seeing him ... with Manny who was all over him.
"What's wrong Ash?" Paige moved closer to the door.
"Look at Craig ... He's with--" I shut the door before my mind could blow things out of proportion.
"What are you doing? Go talk to him. Now!"
"I can't Paige. I can't take it ... not with both of them. It's too soon." I began, seriously thinking and re-thinking my plans to leave Degrassi next year.
"Well, I'll come with you, just to make sure Craig doesn't do anything stupid." Paige pulled me out of the bathroom. Sometimes I wished that she wasn't such an "involved" friend.
(A/N: Not much, but it's something. Review with comments and ideas ... They'll be more with Manny causing problems at the party, Liberty, and Hazel. NL Thank you so much for reviewing!!)