Author: Thanks for reviewing. Notes from da author, hmm…. Nope. Lets just get going eh? Oh and Makita is 5 years old, just incase you got lazy and didn't find where I told you her age. Oh and there will definitely be some Kurama and Botan fluffiness I guaranteed but not so quick.

Summary

Today's present day May 28, 2004, the last month of beautiful season Spring with extraordinary down pours of rain and blossoming objects. It's said that love is in the air mostly during this season, which is recalled to Mating Season for some species I believe. It's the time to spend moments with loved companions and close friends; to make confessions and state your truthful feelings. Yuusuke has expressed himself to Keiko same as Kuwabara done to Yukina. While the remaining, Kurama, Hiei, Botan, Koenma and Shizuru remains lonely and independent. But there has to be a spark between at least two of these people. Shall thy find love or remain till thee?

This Is My Confession

"Broken"

Chapter Seven

"Oh Kurama… do something." Botan whispered as she felt tears coming to her eyes. She shut her eyes tightly and grimaced, turning her head once more. Kuwabara immediately hopped into the car and attempted to pull Kurama out of the car. His arms were scratched up with blood slowly pouring out of the wounds. His short scarlet hair had turned to a now dark wine red color from concussions in his head. His face had been scarred from getting cut on the glass. His jeans and green shirt had been ripped, blood soaking.

Botan turned to see Yuusuke running off and looked back at Kurama, trying to figure which to do. "Kuwabara, you go try to track Yuusuke down, make sure he does nothing out of hand. I'll call the ambulance or some help!" Kuwabara nodded and began to chase Yuusuke down.

Botan got down onto her knees and held Kurama in her arms as Makita silently cried sitting on the steps watching. "Kurama you've got to speak!" she shouted, seeing that he was breathing. Wait a minute.. If Yuusuke got his spirit energy, then…. Botan suddenly laid Kurama down onto the ground flat. She pressed her slender hands against his forehead and focused her energy on him. "C'mon, c'mon." she chanted to herself as a light blue aura began to form in the palm of her hands and round Kurama's body.

"Botan…?" Makita questioned as she watched. Botan gave Makita a serious look, making her stay back. The fresh scars on Kurama's arms, face, and legs had closed back; keeping the rest of the blood remaining in his body from pouring out. The concussion in his head slowly began to close. Kurama's body began to shake as he felt the herbal energy flowing through his body.

"No.. c'mon." Botan pleaded as she felt her energy going low fore she had only a little energy from running from Kurama's all the way to Yuusuke's house. Another tear fell down her cheek and dropped upon Kurama's chest, making that spot glow. She whimpered as she felt her legs giving out and her arms slowly weakening.

"C'mon Botan you've got to hang in there." Makita said, trying to help hold Botan up. Kurama moaned and grunted, slightly moving his head to the side. Botan cried out a "I can't!" before she gasped from lack of energy and fell upon Kurama's abdomen. Kurama grunted from the closed wounds still being sore.

"Botan!" Makita cried shaking her. She looked to see Kurama slowly opening his eyes and his hands regaining back the movement in them. "Kurama, you're alive!" Makita cried out as Kurama weakly smiled and looked down to see Botan laying on his stomach. He tried to sit up but failed as Makita stood behind him, using her little strength to help him sit up.

"Botan… she did this for me?" he asked, looking at Botan rest peacefully in his lap. Makita nodded as she looked down at the young blue haired woman. Kurama took his weak hands and rubbed it across Botan's pale cheek. "Arigatou Botan, you shouldn't have." he whispered. He then looked to Makita, "but how?" he asked, confused because the spirit energy was banned from them in the human world.

"Urameshi minatte!" Kuwabara yelled to Yuusuke as the two took a narrow dirt trail through a dark forest area. "Urameshi where the heck are you going!?" he screamed between his breathing as he jumped over a fallen tree limb. The dirt was so loose every step sent a pillow of dirt into the air, making it hard for Kuwabara to see.

"Urameshiiii!!!!" he screamed as he felt his legs beginning to turn sore. Yuusuke looked as if he had began to slow down. He tripped over a cracking in the path but caught himself with his hands. He continued to run until he came to a breaking in the road and turned off the path, rushing through sticky thorns and tree branches. It was so dark you could hardly see where you was going and far ahead, it looked as if you were running towards the night sky. Kuwabara came to a halt when he seen Yuusuke suddenly stop on the dime.

"Urameshi…" Kuwabara whispered as he slowly crept behind him and seen why he had stopped running. There was a cliff hanger and if you looked straight ahead you could see the full moon. The sky had begin to clear, revealing the stars and even the bright planet Venus. Yuusuke turned around and looked at Kuwabara with wide eyes as he held onto his hand he had used to fire at Kurama.

"Urameshi, calm down. It's not like Kurama's dead I mean.. well,"

"Exactly! I killed Kurama… when did I get this stupid spirit energy back? Why!?!?" he screamed, looking at his hand. He felt his eyes burning tears to them. "I don't want this stupid power no more. I just want to live my regular life! NO MORE REKAI SHIT!!" he screamed at the top of his lungs as the birds and bats heard his echo and flew away into the sky.

"Urameshi…" Kuwabara said as he looked down at his own hand. He clenched his fist, focusing his powers on himself. A bright orange streak of light appeared in between his palm as it grew brighter and longer, lightening the area around them. Yuusuke cried into his hands until he noticed an orange light shining behind him. He turned to see Kuwabara's Spirit Sword charging.

"Botan onegai… Botan wake up." Kurama shook Botan awoke as she stirred up in a warm blanket. She opened her eye squinting to see Kurama standing over her. She shot up, looking around to see a home-scenery.

"D-doko? Kurama-kun! Anata daijoubu ka?" she shrieked, noticing that Kurama had been cleaned up. "B-but minatte.. How?" she asked as he smiled and held a finger up to her lips.

"Makita ran to get Keiko and Yukina for help. They struggled to carry me and you to Keiko's house to clean me up. Yukina used some of her spirit energy I had informed her of the new ability. She finished recovering my injuries and she put a warm rag over top of your face to keep you warm from being out in the cold rain." Kurama explained as Makita popped up out of nowhere.

"Then after we ate over Keiko's and Kurama had regained his strengths, you were still sleep so he carried you all the way here!" Makita exaggerated with her hands, grinning cheekily. Botan smiled a weak smile and looked to see Kurama nodding and looking away from her.

"Arigatou Kurama-kun. I don't know why all of a sudden Yuusuke's spirit energy returned. Koenma had banned the ability of Spirit Energy in the Ningenkai, other than my ability to summon my oar and communication mirror." Botan said, struggling to sit up. Kurama took a pillow and sat it behind Botan's back.

"That's what stumped me." Kurama said, completely in thought. The room fell quiet until Botan had remembered Yuusuke running off. She slung her legs from under the blanket and off the couch to stand but her weak legs failed to hold her up, making her fall back onto the couch.

"I've got to go find Yuusuke!" she shouted, forcing herself to stand as she succeed and began to move her legs slowly to regain ability. She summoned her oar, sitting on it as she sailed out the window at full speed, leaving Makita and Kurama to themselves. Makita's mouth hung open in amazement.

"Wow!" she shrieked. "Sugoi…"

"Makita, there's something I need to tell you about Botan, Spirit Energy, Rekai, Yuusuke, the gang and.. I." he said, looking as serious as he could. Makita stood confused and anxious to find out. "I will tell you after you explain this to me." he said, walking to the kitchen section of the room and bringing it back.

Makita gasped, "I-!" she started but stopped. "Iie, watashi-!" she began again only to stop and think. "Gomen nasai!" she finally gave in and fell onto the floor, clinging onto Kurama's pants leg. "I have to Kurama-kun!"

"Why Makita? Why do you have to do such thing?" he asked, feeling himself being choked up. Makita looked up sadly to him.

"I have to get rid of it some way. I have to sell it! Mommy used to make me use I! I didn't want to honestly… but we have to get rid of it and sell it or he's going to kill us!" Makita said without breathing. Kurama grabbed her shoulders as she gasped for air. Her green eyes were full of horror. "He used to beat kasaan if she didn't do it on time!" Makita shut her eyes tightly as she felt tears reappearing to her eyes. She imaged a woman being slapped onto the ground by a big buff man. "He would take her in her room and close the door and I would hear her crying. Then after he left, she'd beat me." she explained.

"Minatte! Who is this man???"

"I don't know…" Makita said, her bottom lip sticking out. Her little body began to tremble as Kurama pulled her in close to him, hugging her.

"There will be no more of this ok? You will not be killed because I'm here to help you." he said as Makita wrapped her arms around Kurama's neck, grabbing a hold onto his short hair locks.

"Hai…"

Kuwabara and Yuusuke sat staring into the sky as Yuusuke babbled on and on about not having the normal teenage life. It was now midnight and pitch black but the moon supported a little light for them to see things near.

"Urameshi, c'mon. It's getting late. Let's just all gather up at Genkai's and you can tell us your story there."

"No.. I'm not going back tonight. I'm not normal enough to be in Ningenkai, I should be somewhere in Makai." Yuusuke said dumbly as Kuwabara sighed.

"Urameshi you're not a monster! You're human, just like I am except you have all the cool powers and stuff! If I was you, I'd be happy to have the ability you have-"

"No you wouldn't! You wouldn't have to worry about pointing your finger at somebody and thinking something negative to trigger your gun. You wouldn't have to worry about people hating on you and always wanting to pick a fight. You wouldn't have to choose between a special friend and a job…" Yuusuke explained, looking down at his thumbs that played with each other.

Kuwabara didn't know what to say because all of the things Yuusuke said were true. He didn't have to choose between Yukina and fighting somewhere in Makai. He didn't have to try to keep his mind off negative things and keep his finger from pointing at something dear. He remained speechless until all of a sudden they saw Botan selling through the sky at full speed passed them.

"Botan!" Kuwabara stood and called as Botan turned her head sharply and done a looping U-turn. She spotted Kuwabara and Yuusuke sitting beside him on the ground. Botan landed beside Kuwabara and shooed her oar away in a flash. She took a deep relieving breath.

"Daijoubu Yuusuke-kun?" she asked as Kuwabara nodded. She walked over and sat beside Yuusuke and looked his sad face over. He didn't bother to look at her and continued to stare at the ground in front of him. "What's wrong Yuusuke?" she asked, putting a hand on his cheek as he jerked away.

"He's mad at the fact that he was chosen for to be Spirit Detective and how his life was messed up from being some kind of superhero good versus evil stereotype person." Kuwabara said with his hands in his pockets, the wind blew lightly. Botan stood and faced Kuwabara,

"Poor Yuusuke," she whispered, glancing back. "How long does he plan to stay out here? Yukina's going to worry about you." Botan said, making Kuwabara's eyes widen.

"Oh yeah, I forgot about them. He needs someone here though. He doesn't plan on leaving no time soon though…" Kuwabara said with a sigh, looking at the raven-haired boy sitting on the forest floor. Botan slapped Kuwabara on the shoulder.

"You go head on, I'll accompany Yuusuke and I'll have him outta here in no time." Botan said, as Kuwabara nodded.

"Arigatou Bo-san!" he said, running back through the way he came. Botan watched him till he was out of sight before looking back to Yuusuke, who was frozen like a statue. She sat beside him and took a deep breath, looking over the sky.

"Kawaii, ne ka?" she said smiling to Yuusuke as he looked up to the sky and sighed but didn't respond. She put a hand on his knee, which made him kind of jump. "Yuusuke, I know what you're dealing with. I've dealt with it many times, think how I must feel to see you getting your powers back." she said and still he remained silent. "I've experienced everything you h-"

"No you haven't Botan." he said glaring at her as she returned her gaze to him. The look in his eyes could kill. He looked so scary when he glared in the dark. His eyes would have a golden color and would flash. "You don't know what I've been through. You've never been tore down inside during your adolescence! You've never had powers that were uncontrollable! You never had some who loved you to be left alone and-"

"You don't know all that!" she shouted angrily. Yuusuke looked at her confused at her sudden outburst, "You don't know what exactly happened during my life and no one will! You know why? Because no one cares! Yes I did have to go through this when I was young.. Even preteen! Yes I did have uncontrollable powers and yet powers I've still have yet to accomplish! And yes, I did have somebody who loved me once before!" she said, her voice beginning to break because of her choking. "Nobody will ever know who I really am and where I come from!" she gritted and screamed in anger as she felt her energy building up inside of her. "Why do I even have to be here? No one will ever notice me as somebody! Maybe I should just runaway somewhere I belong!" she screamed before looking towards the end of the cliff.

"Hold up a minute now Botan!" he shouted as he seen what she was looking at and what she was thinking. "You can't just go jump off the cliff because your life isn't perfect. Look at me, you don't see me doing anything that stupid! Why did you just all of a sudden break out with this silliness!?" he shouted.

"Because you said I never had someone to love me!" she shouted before sitting on the ground and putting her head between her legs and arms. Yuusuke looked down at the ground once again. "You love Keiko, Kuwabara loves Yukina.. I feel so left out around you guys. Kurama's a great guy but he's just not cutting it. I wanna be hugged and kissed. I wanna be missed when I'm gone…"

"Botan you sound so stupid! We all love you and we do miss you when you're gone and you know that I will never let anybody hurt you!" Yuusuke shouted before he shut his mouth after thinking about what he just said. I hope she doesn't think that way after that…

Botan looked up slowly to look at Yuusuke as he sighed in frustration, "I may look as if I wasn't paying attention to life and you guys, but I really am. Especially you, Keiko, and Yukina." He said before sitting beside her and looking her straight in the eyes, "Of course I'd attempt to save Shizuru or Genkai, but I'd do anything for Keiko or you. You… you're like my closest friend it seems because we've been working together for so long and I don't even know who you really are except that your name is Botan and you're a grim reaper…" he said in a serious voice before his brown eyes fell to the ground.

"You really mean that Yuusuke? I'm your closest friend??" she asked as Yuusuke looked back at her replying, "Yes." He looked back towards the sky, "Kuwabara used to be my closest friend but now we've grown a bond so close, I could call him my brother now."

"But I don't want you to think of me as a sister!"

"And why is that???" Yuusuke asked, offended and confused.

"Because…" Botan said.

"Because…?" Yusuke asked.

"I like you Yuusuke." she said, making Yuusuke's eyes dilate. He turned his head quickly, "N-no!" he shouted, standing up. "See I knew this discussion would have you thinking foolish!" he said, making her blush and feel quite dim-witted. "No Botan, you can't think that way. I'm already having a hard time with Keiko!!" he shouted and he felt his energy powering up again. "Why does she have to be so mean to me!?" he said as he grabbed his short hair locks, "I can't stand her anymore!" he shouted as he held his finger out.

"Because she loves you Yuusuke! You're the baka!" she shouted as Yuusuke got madder, making the energy ball from the spirit gun expand. "You don't love her Yuusuke, you're a cold-hearted fool just like Hiei! You jerk!" she shouted, trying to get him fired up. "You're a loser and you don't care about anybody else!!" she shouted as she felt real anger building inside of her.

"I'm not STUPID!!" he shouted as the first fire went off towards the moon. "I'M NOT LIKE HIEI!!" he screamed with a struggle as he fired a stronger shot. "AND I DO LOVE KEIKO!!!!" he finally screamed and with that he shot the biggest Rei-gun he had shot since the fight with the old spirit detective. The shot lasted for a while until he drained himself out of energy and fell to his hands and knees, panting hard. He didn't notice that he was aiming for the town. He took a deep breath and smiled at what he had just said, that he do love Keiko.

"I did it… Botan, did you hear me I admitted!" he said grinning as he turned to see Botan gone. He stood on his feet, "Botan?" he called as he looked around. "Oh no. Mou!" he kicked the dirt from the ground. What's gotten into her!? "Hey I was gonna ask you for a ride these woods are kinda creepy!!" he shouted and got no response. With a sigh he began to walk back through the trail.

When he got half way out he felt a wind blow across his back as if somebody had just ran by. He turned to see nothing but pitch black. "Huh?" he questioned and began to glare. "If somebody's out there you're gonna get it because I got my Gats back and I'm ready to kick some ass again." he said looking around cautiously. Suddenly a tree branch shook as he looked to see an Owl flying away. "Stupid birds!!!" he shouted and before he could look down in front of him a familiar face appeared and attacked.

Botan ran through the streets until she finally made it to the street her apartment was on. She bent over to catch her breath fore she was running so fast and so long. How could he just turn me down so quick. After I declared my little love for him, literally pouring my heart out to that-… that-'

"Fool." somebody answered for her. Botan jumped around to see a slim and tall man with long black hair. His eyes were beautiful and sparkling, even though it looked as if he was glaring. He looked so familiar…

"Karasu!" Botan said with wide eyes. "W-what are you doing here?" she asked a little off guard and shocked. She looked at his figure. He wasn't wearing his mask anymore, no combat clothing, no kind of weapon on hand. It looked as if he was a ningen to stay. Karasu smirked and stuck his hands into his pockets.

"I will explain a little later." he said as he continued to walk passed her and towards the side of her. He turned to face her, blocking the street she had to go down to get to her house. "So, what such a beautiful girl as yourself doing out here in the dark night? Aren't you supposed to be somewhere in the sky with that toddler?" he asked, offending Botan a little.

"Not actually," she glared a little. "-I'm staying in Ningenkai because of a personal case I'm on."

"And what would that be?" he asked kind of curious.

"I have to watch this girl," she pointed the way she lived and towards the apartments. "Her mother died a few days ago so I have responsibility to keep her until Koenma informs me on what to do with her." Botan explained as she looked down the dark road as the street light finally flashed on.

"Wouldn't happen to be… the Signori's ne?" he said as Botan's pink curious eyes shot up daggers at him. Her mouth parted as she tried to think of what to say. "Hai, how did you know!?" she screeched as Karasu began to laugh.

"Ayame was a uh, how do you say it… friend of mine." he said with a smirk playing on his lips. Botan's eyes turned from a glare into horror. "…a friend?" she asked for the meaning as she saw Karasu turn around with his back against her.

"Now Botan, why do you ask so many questions?" he said softly, his voice as soft as Kurama's. "You're such a curious girl." he said and began to laugh again as Botan took a step back and glared. "What's so freaking funny?" she asked as Karasu turned around and faced her again now smiling.

"You…"

"Huh?" she asked looking off in thought. As she did she heard a gesture and turned to see Karasu charging at her. She screamed, turned on her heels and began to run full speed trying to summon her oar but she was so scared and not concentrating her energy on the oar. She ran and ran until suddenly she didn't hear anybody behind her anymore.

She turned to look and see he wasn't there and suddenly stopped running. She panted scared and tired as she looked around quickly and didn't see anything. Having the time to summon her oar now she hopped aboard and began to take off towards the sky. If she went that way it was no possible way he could catch her then.

"Think you're getting away?" she heard from behind and didn't even look back to see him. She finally noticed that she wasn't going anywhere when she didn't feel the wind blowing her hair back. She looked back to see that Karasu had been holding onto the back of her oar.

"No Karasu!" she shrieked as he lifted her oar and slung it against a side of a corner-bank, sending her crashing into the ATM machine. She cried out a painful cry and fell onto the ground, her oar disappeared. Karasu slowly walked over towards her and picked her up by her ponytail and looked over her face. She could hardly keep her eyes open and she tried to scream but no voice could come out.

"Iie…" she managed to say as he picked her up into his arms. She tried to push away but the little energy she had wouldn't compare to his even when she was at her strongest. "Nooo!" she said a little louder as Karasu smirked and began to carry her off.

Kuwabara finally had made it out of the woods and began to walk the long way downtown. It was so ghost on the streets but the restaurants and bars were so packed. He glanced into an Italian restaurant window and seen an older couple lean in for a kiss and looked down smiling, thinking of Yukina.

He shoved his hands in his pocket and continued to walk. I wonder how the hell I got my Spirit Sword back… and how Yusuke got his Spirit Gun back. Why? His head filled up with a bazillion questions. He continued to walk in thought as he heard somebody's laughter around the corner alley and a female's scream.

"That's Botan's scream…" Kuwabara thought as he ran around the corner of the alley. It was so dark he couldn't see anything so he decided to run a little deeper in. "Botan! Where are you?" he asked looking around and seeing nothing but a cat run from behind a trash dumpster. He looked to see a brick wall at the end of the alley and wondered if he was beginning to hear things. "I coulda sworn…"

"And you did." a familiar voice said as he was snatched up with a bag over his head tied with rope around his abdomen. Kuwabara screamed as he saw nothing but pitch black and smelt that certain scent of Botan's. The man laughed a weird laugh, kind of put the mind of Tuguro's but how? Tuguro was in hell…

Koenma bit his nails nervously as he watched Yusuke get snatched up by a blurring view of a person. Then he watched Botan get snatched up by Karasu and now Kuwabara getting snatched up by some blurred view of a person. "What the hell is going on!?" he shouted in frustration.

He jumped onto his table, "I specifically gave them their powers. They should've gotten the picture. It isn't that hard to see!" he shouted as he sat on his bottom looking bummed out. George watched not knowing what to do as he tried to calm the baby down.

"Leave me alone ogre." he said as he looked dully at the blue monster. "Why do Botan always have to go off in the dark alone… She should've been smart enough to know something was lurking town." he said with a sigh. "Well I guess it is a true saying you don't have to be an actual Blond to act like one. Or maybe she is and just died her hair." Koenma thought as George anime-dropped to the floor with a sweat drop.

"Anyway, why does Karasu want Botan!?" he shouted, waving his short arms up and down in a fuss. "I've got to get in touch with Kurama somehow… or a hope he figures something's wrong with Botan when she doesn't return. C'mon guys," Koenma said returning to his serious attitude. "Pull together, think about this and take effect. You can't always rely on me, even when I'm done with my duty…" he said as he watched the screen…

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