Disclaimer: I do not own anything pertaining to Joan of Arcadia. The concept, characters and show are all property of Barbara Hall and CBS. Bless her heart for creating such a great show!

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Author's Notes: This is one of the latest challenges issued at arcadia100. The task at hand was to write a drabble in which we either created a diary of sorts for a character or referred to a hypothetical diary. This is my offering.

This takes place a little after Silence as Joan tries to sort out her feelings for two central figures in her life.

Hope you enjoy,

Everwood2003

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Title: After The Silence

Author: Everwood2003

Challenge: #23 Dear Diary

Word Count: 100-ish.

Spoilers: Silence

Rating: G

May 22, 2004

Dear Diary,

I finally told Adam. He didn't believe me. Not much to say other than…I'm tired and I wish I'd never met him. God, I mean.

May 26, 2004

Dear Diary,

He came by today but I didn't want to listen. I know it's not right and I probably wouldn't have believed me either. But it's Adam. And it still hurts.

June 5, 2004

Dear Diary,

It's over, I think. Mom says that all relationships go through rough times. But she doesn't know. They're worried about me, all of them. I wish I knew what to do to not feel like this. But I'm such a crybaby.

I miss him.