Reasons to Forget.....
There are reasons to forget
The things left in the past
There are reasons to forget
All we once held dear
There are reasons to forget
The pain we've locked inside
There are reasons to forget
The laughs and tears we're shared.....
"I'm just going for a walk KidBlink. I promise not to kill myself. I just want some time to think," declared Liliana as she walked with Blink to the lodging house.
"I'm not sure you should be alone right now," argued Blink.
"KidBlink, I am taking a walk and if you DARE follow me I'll make sure that you aren't able to walk ever again." She turned, shooting Blink her deadliest glare. Blink refused to react to her threat, though.
"You'll come back, right? I won't have to read about you in the papes, will I?," asked Blink.
"You have to admit that would make a great headline," joked Liliana.
"No, it wouldn't," said Blink, all amusement gone from his voice. "Fine, go."
"Thanks....Dad."
Liliana began to run back the way they had come. When she was well out of sight of the lodging house, she slowed down to a walk.
"L. J." The initials flashed across her mind. *Luke*, she thought. *Lucas Jordan.* As she did on every walk, she found herself on the Brooklyn Bridge. Ironically, the Bridge was where she felt the most comfort even though it lead to a place so full of memories and pain.
She looked up at the stars that were beginning to appear as night settled over New York. There was no moon out to look at so she looked down into the water as her mind began to do the forbidden. As the memories began to resurface the dark water seemed to reflect them.
Liliana watched as the water reflected the Luke she had once known and loved. His long dark blond hair fell down over his ears. A few stubborn pieces fell into his big blue eyes. His mouth lifted in a smirk as he looked up at Liliana.
*Lillie*, he seemed to call before he faded away and a new image appeared. Now she watched as Luke played basketball with the guys. He made a three- point shot and then turned to look up at Liliana.
*How 'bout that, Lillie?*, he asked as he laughed.
"That was great, Luke," she called to him but Marcus had captured his attention. The smirk and laugh were gone. He grimly shook his head at Marcus and tried to shrug off the arm Marcus had placed over his shoulders.
She couldn't hear what they were saying but it sounded urgent and serious. She looked away, knowing it must have something to do with their business. She felt him wrap his arms around her waist and place a kiss on her neck.
"What did Marcus want?," she asked softly as he held her.
*Don't worry about it, Lillie. It was nothing,* he whispered back.
"But you..." Her argument died as she turned and realized she was alone.
Glancing down at the water, she saw the full moon. *That's strange*, she thought as she gazed at it. It had looked like that the night that.....
She shook the memory away as tears formed in her eyes. She jumped as the gun shot sounded for the second time that day. Wet trails marked her cheeks as she glanced down and saw the moon was gone again.
*Don't worry about him, Liliana. Luke can take care of himself, you know that*, she heard Karen whisper.
"I know Karen but something doesn't feel right."
*You're just being superstitious. Nothing is going to happen just because you 'feel' it*, mocked Karen.
"I guess you're right," said Liliana with a sigh. Karen's reply faded into the darkness. "If you had listened, then it would all be okay."
*I'm going whether you want me to or not. I have to go. Why don't you understand that?*, yelled Luke as he stormed out of the room.
Liliana followed him, engrossed in her own anger. "I know that something's not right. I can tell just by the way you're acting. What's wrong?"
*Damn it, I told you nothing was wrong,* he yelled. He paused to take a deep, calming breath. *Look, when I get done I'll come back here. Then we can talk.*
"When will you be back?," she asked softly.
*Midnight. Don't go anywhere until I get here, got it?*, he said in a commanding tone.
"I got it." He kissed her cheek and then left. The image faded again, leaving Liliana alone and shivering. "Why didn't I listen?"
.....There are reasons to forget
The friends we once held close
There are reasons to forget
The love that once was there
All memories provoke the sting
Of my newly formed tears
This silent rainstorm breaks
The calm I've built inside
And these falling raindrops
Are my reasons to forget.
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The poem used in this chapter belongs solely to me. I hope this chapter was worth the wait. I enjoyed writing it....even though it revolves around such a distressing topic. The next chapter expands a little more into Liliana's feelings as she talks to Blink. Please read and review!!!!!!...
~Molly
There are reasons to forget
The things left in the past
There are reasons to forget
All we once held dear
There are reasons to forget
The pain we've locked inside
There are reasons to forget
The laughs and tears we're shared.....
"I'm just going for a walk KidBlink. I promise not to kill myself. I just want some time to think," declared Liliana as she walked with Blink to the lodging house.
"I'm not sure you should be alone right now," argued Blink.
"KidBlink, I am taking a walk and if you DARE follow me I'll make sure that you aren't able to walk ever again." She turned, shooting Blink her deadliest glare. Blink refused to react to her threat, though.
"You'll come back, right? I won't have to read about you in the papes, will I?," asked Blink.
"You have to admit that would make a great headline," joked Liliana.
"No, it wouldn't," said Blink, all amusement gone from his voice. "Fine, go."
"Thanks....Dad."
Liliana began to run back the way they had come. When she was well out of sight of the lodging house, she slowed down to a walk.
"L. J." The initials flashed across her mind. *Luke*, she thought. *Lucas Jordan.* As she did on every walk, she found herself on the Brooklyn Bridge. Ironically, the Bridge was where she felt the most comfort even though it lead to a place so full of memories and pain.
She looked up at the stars that were beginning to appear as night settled over New York. There was no moon out to look at so she looked down into the water as her mind began to do the forbidden. As the memories began to resurface the dark water seemed to reflect them.
Liliana watched as the water reflected the Luke she had once known and loved. His long dark blond hair fell down over his ears. A few stubborn pieces fell into his big blue eyes. His mouth lifted in a smirk as he looked up at Liliana.
*Lillie*, he seemed to call before he faded away and a new image appeared. Now she watched as Luke played basketball with the guys. He made a three- point shot and then turned to look up at Liliana.
*How 'bout that, Lillie?*, he asked as he laughed.
"That was great, Luke," she called to him but Marcus had captured his attention. The smirk and laugh were gone. He grimly shook his head at Marcus and tried to shrug off the arm Marcus had placed over his shoulders.
She couldn't hear what they were saying but it sounded urgent and serious. She looked away, knowing it must have something to do with their business. She felt him wrap his arms around her waist and place a kiss on her neck.
"What did Marcus want?," she asked softly as he held her.
*Don't worry about it, Lillie. It was nothing,* he whispered back.
"But you..." Her argument died as she turned and realized she was alone.
Glancing down at the water, she saw the full moon. *That's strange*, she thought as she gazed at it. It had looked like that the night that.....
She shook the memory away as tears formed in her eyes. She jumped as the gun shot sounded for the second time that day. Wet trails marked her cheeks as she glanced down and saw the moon was gone again.
*Don't worry about him, Liliana. Luke can take care of himself, you know that*, she heard Karen whisper.
"I know Karen but something doesn't feel right."
*You're just being superstitious. Nothing is going to happen just because you 'feel' it*, mocked Karen.
"I guess you're right," said Liliana with a sigh. Karen's reply faded into the darkness. "If you had listened, then it would all be okay."
*I'm going whether you want me to or not. I have to go. Why don't you understand that?*, yelled Luke as he stormed out of the room.
Liliana followed him, engrossed in her own anger. "I know that something's not right. I can tell just by the way you're acting. What's wrong?"
*Damn it, I told you nothing was wrong,* he yelled. He paused to take a deep, calming breath. *Look, when I get done I'll come back here. Then we can talk.*
"When will you be back?," she asked softly.
*Midnight. Don't go anywhere until I get here, got it?*, he said in a commanding tone.
"I got it." He kissed her cheek and then left. The image faded again, leaving Liliana alone and shivering. "Why didn't I listen?"
.....There are reasons to forget
The friends we once held close
There are reasons to forget
The love that once was there
All memories provoke the sting
Of my newly formed tears
This silent rainstorm breaks
The calm I've built inside
And these falling raindrops
Are my reasons to forget.
~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~***~
The poem used in this chapter belongs solely to me. I hope this chapter was worth the wait. I enjoyed writing it....even though it revolves around such a distressing topic. The next chapter expands a little more into Liliana's feelings as she talks to Blink. Please read and review!!!!!!...
~Molly