The character do not belong to me, sadly.

Lyrics are not mine, but Aretha Franklin's.

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Jesse entered the lab, their lay in front of him not the Shalimar he knew but a powerless, vulnerable and defenceless feral he adored so much. More now than ever he wished her feral instinct would kick in and she would fight to stay alive. His eye's wondered around the room, he now faced the usually strong statute that was Brennan, he was holding Shalimar's hand tight as if holding on to life for the both of them, because without her his life wasn't worth living.

Jesse left the lab, not wanting to burden Brennan with his problems, he would have to find Lexa on his own, he didn't want to leave Shalimar but she had Brennan, he had no one.


SHALIMAR'S MIND


She looked around; she was in a white room alone and afraid. Her feral instinct picked up a faint sound she turned around to see where it was coming from. To her left was a door, she slowly walked up to it and on the door was posted a sign – FERAL BAR. She turned the knob to the door and entered.

Music, she thought. She started to hum the tune. Wait a minute she recognised the voice it was her, she was singing. She went further through the long corridor and entered a bar, there on the stage she saw herself. She had her hair pined up in a twist, wearing a long red dress. She was singing to someone, she followed the glare of the woman on the stage, at the end of the glare was Brennan. His hair was slicked back he was wearing a pinned strip suit smoking a cigar, next to him sat Jesse and on his lap was Lexa, kissing him.

She turned her attention back to herself on the stage and listened to the words. She was singing an Aretha Franklin song 'All I Need To Get By'

Like the sweet morning dew I took one look at you And it was plain to see you were my destiny With my arms open wide I threw away my pride I sacrificed for you, dedicate my life to you I will go where you lead, I'll be right there in a time of need And when I lose my will, you'll be right there to push me up that hill

She watched on, she saw herself get of the stage and sway sexily towards the handsome man. Brennan watched as the beautiful singer approached him, his eye's fixed on the way her hips gently moved from side to side as she neared him. The singer traced her finger down Brennan's face as she sung to him...

Like an eagle protects his nest, for you I'll do my best Stand by you like a tree and damn anybody that tries and move me Darling in you I found, straight for I was torn down I don't know what's in store, but together we can open any door Just to do what's good for you, I'm a soul that didn't have a goal.

It dawned on Shalimar why this was where her subconscious took her, why she was singing this particular song. It was the song that was playing when her and Brennan first kissed in the bar, when she realised she had found a man that would not let her down, like her father, like Adam. She knew that Brennan would be by her side right now fighting for her to get better. She sang to herself 'And when I lose my will, you'll be right there to push me up the hill'

She clenched her hands together and she felt a tighter grip squeezed back.

'Shalimar, Shal' It was Brennan, squeezing her hand. She felt air fill her lungs and she grasped, she was alive and she was in the arms of the man she loved. 'Bren' she said.

'I thought I'd lost you'

'You can't get rid of me that easy Mr' she tried to sit up, but Brennan stopped her.

'No way, you almost died your going to rest and I'm going to get Jesse to come and check you out'

'I feel fine'

'I know' He smiled and walked out the lab.


Jesse wasn't in the Sanctuary; he called for Jesse on his comring

'Yeah Bren, what's up?'

'Where are you man, Shal has woken up'

'That's great, let her rest until I get back I want to do more tests to make sure she's alright'

'Where are you man?'

'Looking for Lexa' he replied solemnly

'Lexa?'

'She's left me a note Bren, she's left Mutant X, and she's left me'

'Why didn't you tell me before, have you traced her comring?' '

She took it of, I'm going to bar she used to hangout in, maybe she's there'

'Keep me posted man'

'Where's Jess' Shalimar's feeble voice asked

'Looking for Lexa'

'What do you mean?'

'Apparently she left him a letter saying she's left the team'

'Oh no, I should have never left her on her own, not in her state'

'What state, what's going on Shal?'

'She promised me not to tell, but I guess... Lexa's pregnant for Jesse'

'That's great'

'Not for someone who doesn't want kids and the baby's making her gene's mutate fast than her body can take. Brennan if she keeps the baby she could die'

'So what your saying is she's going to get rid of Jesse's kid and he doesn't know'

'I told her to tell him, that maybe he could come up with a cure to save them both'

'We have to tell Jesse he deserves to know' Brennan left the room.

'Jess, any luck finding her'

'Nah man, no one's seen her'

'Jess man, Lexa's pregnant'

'What! How? Are you sure?'

'Shal told me, but we need to find her quick Jess she's dying?'

'How?'

'Just find her Jess, I'll search the computer to see if I can find anything'

'Ok I'll check around'

'Shal, I told him' Brennan walked into her room but Shalimar was gone. 'Damn'

On his comring 'Shal where are you?' There was no response.

Shal heard Brennan's voice through her comring, but ignored him. She knew where Lexa would be. Brennan would eventually trace her comring, but she needed a few minutes to talk to Lexa first.

Westwood Medical Clinic

Lexa looked around the waiting room, she analysed the empty face's, each woman looked lost, afraid and alone like she did. Each woman had thier own reason for being here. She buried her head in her hands as tears fell down her cheeks. Suddenly she felt warm, she lifted her head up, and there stood in front of her, Shalimar her friend, her confidant.

'Shalimar, what are you doing here?'

Shalimar sat beside her, still very weak.

'Hay are you ok?' Lexa could see that somehting was worng, Shal's face was pale, she looked drained.

'Me fine, got shot, by an arrow almost died no biggie'

'Oh my God, I should have been there, I... I... I'm so sorry Shal'

'Not your fault, that bitch Fred wil pay thou'

'No bitterness I see'

'His looking for you, ya know '

'I knew he would eventually'

'So...'

'So...I haven't changed my mind, even if I had this baby and I died Jesse handling a baby by himself I can't see it'

'Jesse would be a great dad. What if you told Jesse and he worked on a cure to save you, or even if he did'nt find a cure you may still be fine all I know is you would be happy, what your doing now wont make you happy Lexa'

'Miss Pierce, the doctor is ready for you now'

Lexa looked at Shalimar.

'Miss Pierce' siad the nurse again.

Lexa got up but hesitated. She looked around.

'I'm ready' she said and walked into the doctors office.