Dying
By: RemmysGal
Disclaimer: Alright…I'm going to say this for the last time…this will be the disclaimer for all future chapters…I DO NOT OWN HARRY POTTER OR ANYTHING ELSE YOU RECOGNIZE. ALL CHARACTERS, NAMES, PLACES, OBJECTS BELONG TO J.K. ROWLING AND WARNER BROS. DYING IS A SONG BY FIVE FOR FIGHTING. I DON'T OWN THAT EITHER. THE ONLY THING I OWN IS VICTORIA ROKAWAY. THANKS YOU.
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Victoria was sitting on her couch watching television when she heard a knock at the door. She sighed, got up, and went to the door.
When she opened it, she saw 36-year-old Remus Lupin standing in front of her.
"Hello, Victoria," he said.
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Eleven-year old Victoria Rokaway at down at the Gryffindor House Table with a sigh. She was so happy and relieved the Sorting Hat had placed her in Gryffindor. How horrified would she have been if she had been placed in Slytherin with that greasy boy Serverus who tried to befriend her and the other girl, Lily Evans, until he found out Lily was Muggle-Born and became all nasty.
"Hello," a voice said shyly from next to her. Victoria looked at the boy sitting next to her. He had sandy coloured hair and amber eyes. He looked really tired. Maybe he doesn't like train rides and he got all nervous or something, Victoria thought as she smile at him.
"Hello," she replied, "welcome to Gryffindor."
He grinned at her. "You too," he said enthusiastically, and he stuck out his hand. "My name's Remus, Remus Lupin." Victoria smiled and shook his hand.
"Victoria Rokaway. Nice to meet you." Remus nodded. At that moment a streak of red sat down next to Victoria. It was Lily Evans, the girl Victoria had befriended on the train.
"Oh, Victoria!" Lily squealed and hugged Victoria. "I'm so happy you're in the same house as me! I thought you were going to be in some other house and then I'd be left alone to myself and I wouldn't know anyone!" She looked at Remus Lupin, who was watching Lily with a slightly amused look on his face. Lily's cheeks turned slightly red. "Oh," she said, slightly unnerved. "Hello. My name's Lily Evans. Who are you?"
Remus smiled, as if Lily was a mildly interesting television show. "Lupin," he said quietly, "Remus Lupin."
"Well, nice to meet you Remus," Lily said, "welcome to Gryffindor!"
Remus looked as if he was about to say something along the lines of "You too," but at that moment, the headmaster Albus Dumbledore stood up and the entire hall became very quiet. Lily, Remus, and Victoria looked at the imposing figure that stood at the center of the Head Table.
Albus Dumbledore was an old man with a silvery beard, not yet as long as it would become, and twinkling blue eyes behind his usual moon shaped spectacles. He had an authority about him that made no one challenge him. It seemed like nothing could go wrong when Dumbledore was in charge.
"Welcome," he began, his voice not very loud, but echoing throughout the hall, "to another year at Hogwarts. To our old faces, welcome back! To the new faces, welcome here! I hope you shall find these halls of learning as wonderful as people have told you! So, without any more of my mindless chatter, I say, Tuck In!" And he sat down and clapped his hands.
Immediately the golden plates in front of them filled with mountains of food. Victoria's jaw dropped. She had never seen this much food in her life. Remus looked at her and smiled amusedly. "Hungry?" he asked.
"Starving," she answered, while picking up a roll. "Those Pumpkin Pastries seemed ages ago."
Remus laughed. "Yeah, Chocolate frogs don't really fill that pallet do they?" he said as he too reached for a roll. Victoria laughed.
She turned to Lily and grinned. Lily was drinking out of her goblet pumpkin juice, and she grinned back.
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"Remus," Victoria said, he voice cracking. "Hi."
"Hi," he replied, smiling slightly. Victoria looked at him curiously.
"So," she began, " he's…dead?"
"Sirius?" Remus asked. Victoria looked at him and nodded. "Yeah," he said.
"In Azkaban?"
"At the Ministry of Magic."
"Why was he there?"
"To stop Voldemort…"
"Voldemort is dead, Lupin,"
"Vic, please let me in. I'll explain everything," Remus said, his voice pleading.
Victoria sighed. "Alright," she consented, and opened the door for Remus.
Victoria's apartment, or flat as she sometimes said when it slipped, was typical of the American muggle. There was a small living room with a couch and a chair, a television and a coffee table. Connected to that was a simple kitchen/dining room with a round white table with four white chairs around it. A short hallway led to a bathroom and what looked like two bedrooms.
But it seemed bigger than what it looked like on the outside. Remus smiled. Some magic had been done to this apartment.
Victoria led Remus into the living room. He sat down on the couch and she perched on the chair. She looked at Remus nervously. "So," she began.
"Vic, I have a lot to tell you," Remus began, his voice soothing to her ears. Victoria opened her mouth to respond, but Remus held up his hand. "There is a lot that happened while you were away. It is a very long story, and a very hard one to tell. But we need to agree on something."
"What?" Victoria asked, confused.
"That you tell me what happened to you all these years in return for what I am about to tell you." Remus stated,
Victoria's eye contact with Remus was broken as she looked away. "Oh Remus, I can't."
"Why not?" Remus asked sharply.
"Don't be mad at me, but it's so hard. I left because I thought he killed them, I didn't care what happened to him, he killed my, our, best friends. Then you come here and tell me everything I thought was wrong, that he didn't do it, and now he's dead. It's just so confusing, and I…" Victoria was crying now, the tears rolling down her cheeks. Remus got up from his couch and crouched down in front of Victoria. He took her chin in his hand raised her head until her eyes met his. In them he saw hurt, and betrayal. But he also saw hope, and, love.
"Victoria, I know it's hard. But what I'm going to tell you is the truth. Even Harry believes it."
"Harry? My…godson?"
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"Oh, Lily, he's beautiful! And…sweet Merlin… he looks just like James!" Twenty-year-old Victoria exclaimed as she ran into the Delivery Wing of St. Mungo's Hospital.
Lily laughed. "Yes, he does." She looked up at James, who was standing next to Lily. James and Harry looked exactly alike, it was true. Harry had that messy black hair, that even as a baby, wouldn't lie flat. They had the same face, same chin. But whereas James eyes were hazel, Harry's eyes were a brilliant emerald green. Lily's eyes.
James kissed Lily on the forehead. "The little marauder's going to be just like me when he grows up!"
"Oh no he won't! Not if I have anything to do about it!" Lily answered, laughing.
"Come on, you know that no woman can resist the Potter charm!" James playfully teased.
"Don't I know it!" Victoria chipped in.
"Hey!" a voice said from the door. Twenty-year-old Sirius Black entered the wing. "Now I know how you really feel," Sirius pretended to be hurt.
"Yes Sirius, I prefer James to you," Victoria played along. "It never would have worked between us, Siri dear, when I fancy you best friend."
"I see how it is. Why have me when you can have my best mate," Sirius sniffed, and began to walk out of the wing.
"Sirius!" Victoria cried and ran to him. "Get a grip, I'm not choosing your best mate over you." She pulled him close. "Besides, he's not half as good as you are," she whispered. Sirius grinned, and kissed her.
"Well I should hope you prefer your boyfriend to my husband, or I'd have to beat you to a pulp," Lily laughed from her bed.
Victoria and Sirius walked back over to Lily's bed.
"Well, now that the whole escapade is over, and the couple is happy again, we have something we'd like to talk with you about," James said, caressing Lily's hair.
"What's that?" Sirius asked.
"Well," Lily began, "we were sort of hoping you two…could be…Harry's…godparents."
Sirius and Victoria looked at each other for a moment, then grinned. "Of course we would!" Victoria exclaimed.
"Are you daft?" Sirius laughed.
"I'm a godmother!"
"I'm a godfather!"
"Uncle Sirius!" Victoria shrieked, then began to laugh.
"Aunt Vicky!" Sirius barked.
Victoria's eyes narrowed, but she was unable to keep the smile off her face. "Don't call me that," she said.
"Of course not," Sirius said as he moved closer to her, "Only I can call you that, and only at certain times."
"Sirius!" Victoria said, pretending to be offended. "Not here!"
"So, you'll do it?" Lily asked hopefully from the bed.
Sirius and Victoria looked at each other. "Definitely," they said.
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"Yes Vic. He's fifteen now, and Sirius had been like a father to him. Harry saved Sirius. He made everyone believe his innocence, and he's taking it horribly now that he's gone."
"And you're going to tell me what happened." Victoria said slowly. Remus nodded. "Everything."
"Everything."
"Okay," Victoria took a deep breath, "start from the beginning."
"Well you know some of it," Remus pointed out.
"Let me know your side of the story. Go back, back to when Lily and James…" Victoria trailed off.
"Okay," Remus agreed. He pulled Victoria over to the couch and they both sat down at opposite ends, looking at each other. Remus took a deep breath.
"October 31st, 1981…"
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…I'm Dying…Dying to say what I always should have said…
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again…
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Author's Note: Well there's a long chapter for you…ok it's not that long, but it's longer than some of them. I'm happy with this chapter, it took a while but it's pretty good. So I want to thank Lina and Mio for reviewing…it means so much to me!
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RemmysGal