Things That Shouldn't Have Been Said
Chapter 3 Waking Up
Staring intently at the young woman's sleeping form as if she would awaken any moment at his will, Inuyasha shifted uncomfortably in the padded wooden chair, and reached out for Kagome's hand. It felt semi-warm, but still not all of Kagome's body heat hadn't returned to normal, Kagome gave a small whimper and stirred in her sleep immediately falling back into the restless slumber once again. Softly, so as not to disturb her, Inuyasha pressed his lips softly to the palm Kagome's hand and the turning her hand over brushed a feathery light kiss on the knuckles. Carefully Inuyasha set Kagome's small hand back down upon the crisp sheets of the bed and found a reasonably comfortable position to sleep in within the confines of the small chair he had made his residence...until Kagome came back to him and the others.
Inuyasha's dream
Inuyasha was sitting within the same chair that he had been sitting in for the past four days, keeping his vigil beside Kagome; unblinkingly he peered at her with heavy lidded eyes that were growing dark underneath from a lack of sleep. Kagome shifted in the bed and slowly with muffled groans she opened her eyes slowly, adjusting to the dimness of the room she was in and the strange noises of the hospital.
"I-Inuyasha?" Voice a mere croak, Kagome peered at the young man before her, "Inuyasha, it's your fault isn't it? It's your fault that I did this to myself, isn't it? You drove me to this!" Kagome's voice was laced with fury and her body shook from the exertion she was putting out with yelling at Inuyasha.
"Kagome I..." Kagome's bitter voice cut through what Inuyasha was about to say, turning on her side to avoid looking at Inuyasha she said the one thing he dreaded hearing from her lips, "I hate you Inuyasha, you're nothing but a dirty animal and I wish that I would have just died!" The world stopped spinning and crumbled before Inuyasha's eyes, Kagome hated him, and she just said so.
End Of Dream
Inuyasha woke up from the dream with a start, bathed in a cold sweat. Wildly he peered around the room, his gaze settling upon the still unmoving form of Kagome, listening carefully his ears picked up the still steady, but shallow beat of her heart and the gentle in and out of her breath. The dream still remained fresh within his mind and he wished it would just vanish into thin air and just stop playing itself over in his mind. Slowly Inuyasha approached Kagome's bed and sat upon it gingerly, then carefully laying himself down beside Kagome, wrapping one arm about her waist bring her to a cradled position against himself. Deeply inhaling the scent that was only hers, it calmed Inuyasha's senses and brought him once again close to slumber, but before he completely fell asleep his last thoughts were of what had happened in the past few days.
' Kagome. This is my entire fault; I should never have said those things. I should have told you how I really feel...' Heavy lidded Inuyasha fell into a slumber that was for once more peaceful than what he had been sleeping like over the course of the past days.
Next Morning
Inuyasha felt a stir within the bed and he heard the telltale sounds of a muffled yawn, by Gods Kagome was waking up! Turning over onto his side to face the young miko, Inuyasha's own amber orbs peered into the chocolate brown ones of the girl who had nearly died because of him, saddened Inuyasha lowered his eyes as he crawled off of the bed, head downcast afraid of what he may see in Kagome's eyes. He heard a small whimper escape from Kagome's slightly parted lips, but he kept his eyes from seeing any of her raw emotions written all over her face.
"I-Inuyasha? Why won't you look at me?" Hurt was in her voice and she didn't make an effort to hide it, she couldn't, no wouldn't do that. Why wouldn't he look at her? Was he too repulsed to look at her after what she had done? She just wanted answers, and she wanted them now. Inuyasha didn't look like he was about to hand them out though, but Kagome was determined to make him. Inuyasha went to move away further from Kagome, but ignoring the aching pain that raced through her body in protest at the movement, she reached out and snatched his hand into hers.
"Ka...gome...what are you doing?" Taken aback Inuyasha stared first at Kagome and then at the small, delicate hand within his own rough and callused hand. Fierce determination was coursing through Kagome and she wasn't backing down, not now, or ever.
"Inuyasha, why won't you look at me?" She tightened her grip on Inuyasha's hand when it felt like he might have pulled away forcing him to turn and look at her. He sighed and knelt in front of her by the bed, keeping the contact of their hands there.
"Kagome, I wasn't looking at you because I was afraid that I would see hatred in your eyes staring up at me, not friendship still like there is. I was afraid you were going to tell me that you hated me because it's my fault that you tried to kill yourself..." Inuyasha broke down and hugged Kagome close to himself, inhaling her scent as if it were a lifeline to him, "You scared me so much Kagome, I didn't want to lose the one I loved again. I didn't want to lose you like how I did with my mother as a child and Kikyo when I had loved her once..." Inuyasha broke off and looked Kagome in the eyes and he could the questions there and he was prepared to answer them.
"Inuyasha, what are you trying to say?" Kagome frowned, looking at Inuyasha perplexed.
"Kagome...I love you...I didn't think I would have the chance to tell you that when your brother told me what you had done to yourself, I went back the next day and told the others about what had happened. I don't think they took it very well...especially Shippo and the old hag...but that doesn't matter right now. What matters is that I love you and was able to tell you that." Inuyasha stopped when Kagome placed a light kiss on his cheek and whispered to him.
"I love you too..."