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It's Never Too Late
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Syaoran, dazed and rooted at his spot, stared at the sleeping figure in front of him. He slowly shook his head with his mouth parted. He can't believe what he just heard. That was just a joke right? But then again, it came from Sakura herself.
Syaoran turned around and faced the door. When he reached for the doorknob, he bowed his head and tears surprisingly formed on his eyes. He wiped them away and took a last glance at Sakura.
'You love me?...how?...and most of all, why now?'
Then he opened the door and just walked stiffly to his own room. He can hear Tomoyo and Eriol chattering quietly downstairs but for once, he didn't care about them. All he wants is to do is go his room and shut himself. Once his in, he took of his shoes and collapsed on the bed. He rested his head on his pillow and put his arms on his forehead.
Sakura loves him? Sakura loves him? Just the thought itself is impossible enough. It sounds so ridiculous and dumb. How could that happen? What in the world could have made Sakura fall for him? Plain nonsense...
'I don't know what is going on...I'm so confused. First, my feelings are changing then I found out that she loves me'
Then the dream went back to his mind. It says there that Sakura realized that she loves him when he suddenly left. But you can't just realize that you love someone just because they left.
"Sakura..." he softly whispered.
This is it...this is the one thing that he had been longing for. To finally hear Sakura say that she loves him, to say it out loud normally or drunken. This is the one thing he had been asking for back when they were just teenagers. It is the one thing that he had been praying for...the one thing that will make him the happiest man on earth and it's right there under his nose. But now that it's finally happening, it can't.
He's getting married and there is no hope of working it out. He loves Ciara...right? Besides...what if this feeling for Sakura is just a little attraction because Ciara is gone? Maybe it's just a reaction because he's lonesome and bored without Ciara to fill the hole in his heart...
'Who are you trying to fool, Syaoran?' he thought bitterly.
'I know very well that something is going on. I'll just have to know it before things get out of hand. And as soon as I figure out these confusions, I have to end it. I'm supposed to be preparing myself for the wedding and I mustn't feel this way'
Then Syaoran tried to fall asleep but somehow, he can't. He keeps thinking that if he wasn't engaged, he can be with Sakura...he can even marry her someday. They can be happy forever, have their own kids and just share a love that nothing else can compare. The vision keeps on popping out in his mind that he's getting irritated.
'What am I thinking?' he scolded himself.
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The table was silent as they all ate their lunch...Tomoyo's eyes are nervous while Eriol's are sleepy and tired. They woke up so late and just decided that they will have an early lunch.
"Where is Sakura, Syaoran?" Eriol asked.
Tomoyo decided to answer this. "I checked on her...she won't wake up. She's deeply asleep "
Syaoran just remained quiet, thinking that he has to somehow act normal towards Sakura as if nothing's happened.
"Good morning" a voice spoke shakily and drowsily. "Why didn't anybody wake me up?"
Syaoran's eyes snapped to her immediately stood up and walked toward Sakura and embraced her.
"You have no idea how you made me worry" Syaoran whispered.
Sakura awkwardly responded to the hug with confusion evident on her face.
"Let's go eat!" Tomoyo squealed, happy that Sakura is fine.
"What happened? Why does my head hurt? Did we party that much last night?"
"You mean you don't remember?" Eriol suddenly piped in.
"Remember what?" Sakura said as she sat down on her chair.
"A man tried to take advantage of you by slipping something on your drink, putting you to sleep" Syaoran explained.
"Take advantage of me?" Sakura weakly replied as she looked around the table, at Tomoyo and Eriol's faces.
"But how come...nothing happened?..."
"Syaoran saw you just in time when he was about to carry you out of the room and so did I but then you were already unconscious. Then Syaoran stopped him" Eriol told her.
Sakura looked at Syaoran and her eyes softened. She mouthed the words 'thank you' and Syaoran just smiled a small smile.
The table was somehow more cheerful than earlier, probably because everybody's relieved that Sakura will be alright. But it was quiet, each one caught up on their own thoughts and their own worlds.
When everyone is done, they all stood up and helped do the dishes. Funny how the four of them, so loud all the time are quiet right now as they moved in the kitchen, washing plates and cleaning the table. Once everything is put back into place, they all went to the huge living room and decided to break the tension by talking about their next plan for the day.
"Syaoran...I don't mean to be rude or anything but I will love it if we could just stay at your house. Right here in this living room and just kick back and relax" Tomoyo softly mumbled.
Syaoran's eyes lightened up. "You know, I wouldn't mind at all. That saved me a lot of trouble if that's what you want to do. Well just so you know, feel free to do anything as if this is your house. I'm your host remember?"
"So I can kiss Tomoyo anytime I want?" Eriol joked.
"Go ahead" Syaoran replied. "Just keep it clean"
Everybody laughed, even Sakura. And Syaoran was so glad to hear that girly giggle of hers again.
Eriol turned on the television and flipped through the channels and settled on a movie from Syaoran's cable. For awhile, the four of them just watched and relaxed . This is the time they just actually sat back and enjoy in the past two days. They once in a while laugh appreciatively at the movie's puns.
Sakura can't help though but get bored so she excused herself and went to the little garden and walked around the area, getting amused by how the flowers dance with the wind.
"Those flowers are so beautiful...they can make the most wonderful bouquets. The ones the women use at weddings..." she muttered to herself.
'Weddings...' she sadly thought. 'There's a wedding coming up in three days...'
"Syaoran..." Sakura muttered. Rather too loudly...
"Yes?" she heard someone say and she immediately turned around with her eyes huge with surprise.
"Syaoran!?" Sakura breathed out. "You scared me"
"I'm sorry. I heard you say my name so I thought you felt my presence" he apologized, never taking his eyes off Sakura.
"Oh" was all she can make the sound of.
"What were you going to say?" Syaoran questioned her, his eyes softening every second.
"Oh...that was nothing. I just--- remembered something"
Syaoran merely nodded and went to a patch of flowers. Sakura followed, fiddling with the necklace that she had been wearing since Syaoran gave it to her.
"I love these place...this is where I go if I need to unwind and sort out all my confusions. This place is where I used to go when I was still moping and crying because of you, Sakura" he gently whispered.
Sakura stood frozen at his spot. 'Why on earth would he talk about this?'
Then he chuckled. "I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable. I just want you to know that...well, I truly fell for you"
He faced her and smiled broadly. "But don't worry...I didn't expect you to return the love I was feeling. So I'm not offended when you still claimed that you loved Haruki"
Sakura blinked back the tears. "Why are you telling me this?..." she spoke lowly and Syaoran can hardly make out the words
"In truth, I don't know. I just figured that maybe this will help me with my problems...they seem to take over me these days" he answered
"Problems?..."
Syaoran just stared at the sky for awhile as Sakura studied him. She noticed that he seemed troubled and worried. If only she can help him. But she's scared that any more words like that from Syaoran and her tears will roll down any minute and she can't afford to cry in front of him or else he'll get suspicious and might even wonder what's wrong, she might end up telling the truth...
"Just forget about it...scratch the whole thing..." he laughed. "I'm turning paranoid..."
Sakura fell silent; thinking that she's not the only one turning paranoid...Syaoran is too.
"Maybe we ought to go inside now...you know, to just release everything and hang out with Eriol and Tomoyo..." she suggested.
"Good idea...let's go"
And they went inside the house where Tomoyo and Eriol are snuggled next to each other, focusing on the action movie that they are watching.
Sakura and Syaoran sat at the couch together and tried to watch the movie too but both of them can't concentrate. Both their minds are full of questions, doubts and thoughts that when they push the mysteries of the movies in their brains, it may overlarge.
"I'm taking a shower..." he mumbled to Sakura. Sakura just nodded her head and didn't even bother to look at Syaoran.
Seconds after Syaoran went to the bathroom, Sakura decided that she needs a break from the house...especially from Syaoran. She stays too close to him that she falls deeper every time they are together. She can't have these feelings to continue on. She has to end it but she can't so is there any other way rather than to move away?
She stood up form the couch she was sitting on, dressed up immediately and asked Tomoyo if she can borrow her car and get her keys.
"But where are you going?" Tomoyo asked as she handed her the keys.
"To go and get fresh air" was Sakura's weird response that Tomoyo knitted her eyebrows.
Sakura drove the car as quietly and quickly as she can so Syaoran won't hear anything. She needs to get away from him. Besides, she feels she must be alone for awhile. Friends are always there to accompany you every time you need them but sometimes, being by yourself to think the happenings in your life is sometimes the key to solve any puzzling problems.
But as she hit the main road, she realized that she has nowhere to go. She didn't really plan this for it just happened at the spur of the moment. She just followed her instincts but so far, she hasn't done any unwinding or being alone because she is on a crowded street. She needs a relaxing place to be herself.
Then she passed by an almost-deserted beach. There's almost nobody here except for some couples who just wanted to be with each other and kick back. Sakura then just decided to stay here and walk her problems off on the sand. She parked her car and got out, her hair being greeted by the fresh but cold air.
She started to walk around, her feet getting buried on the sand every time she does. Somehow, this sand and experience is different from the ones on Sunday. The Sunday walk in the beach was so awesome. Explanation? Syaoran was there with her.
Sakura hugged herself as she walked, hoping that Syaoran will be there embracing her to warm her up. But he can't do that, can he? He's going to get married.
'Why do I always have to think about that marriage when it's only going to hurt me? The best thing to do is just to forget about it'
"But how?..." she whispered to herself.
Sakura then saw a huge rock close by. It's near the shore and the child in her popped out. She smiled and thought that she can come up there and just sit while looking at the sky. She wants to see the sunset although it will take a couple more hours.
She was glad that she took the little tour around the city. It killed most of the hours like a snap. Then she can just wait for a few more hours before watching the sunset and head home.
Sakura settled herself on the rock, her knee-length skirt partly wet.
"Beautiful views like this one should be seen with the person you love right next to you..." she mumbled to herself.
Then she got irritated. 'If I want to forget about it, why can't I just stop thinking about...things... why does everything has to relate to him? God, I'm so desperate, I feel pathetic. My world does not revolve around him!' she scolded herself.
Then she heard herself scoff. "Who am I trying to kid?" she said out loud.
She then saw little stones on the rock's large surface and started throwing it at the water. For awhile, she was entertained because she was trying to throw the rocks as far as possible without putting any energy or effort onto it. Weird right? But she's hopeless so it will do.
Then she heard a familiar voice. "I was searching all over the place to look for you and here you are, throwing the poor little stones on the water..."
Sakura's head turned to the man's voice and laughed.
"Mind if I join you up there on your private rock?"
Sakura giggled and just nodded her head. Once the man is settled on his seat, they stared at the vast ocean in front of their eyes, smelling the salty air of the sea.
"What are you doing here, Syaoran?"
"I should ask you the same thing. What are you doing in this beach and on this rock that will be swallowed by the waves later on"
"I have no clue. I feel like I just want to go here and look at the sun. I don't know"
"So something told you to go here and sit on this huge rock?"
"I suppose"
"That will do..." Syaoran replied.
"What about you, huh? What are you doing here in this beach?" Sakura inquired.
"I was looking for you. Tomoyo said you wanted to go and get some fresh air. I figured you would go here but to be sure, I checked some other places before going here. But then I never found you on those places so I went straight here" he explained.
"Well, what do you plan on doing here?" Sakura asked again.
"I want to stay with you, if you don't mind" he answered gently.
"Sure. No problem" she murmured.
For awhile, they just sat in silence and listened at the waves clashing on the bottom of the rock that they were sitting on. Syaoran was playing with the stones too...
"Syaoran?" Sakura suddenly spoke.
"Hmm?"
"Well, you do know that you're getting married in three days right? Well, are you scared?"
Syaoran stayed quiet for a second then cleared his throat. "I'm happy. That's the only emotion I feel"
Syaoran then looked at the sky and apologized in his mind for lying. Happiness? That's what's he's feeling right now? What a lie... He's anything but happy. He's confused and troubled. His doubts kept his mind clogged...nothing makes sense anymore. Then all of a sudden, Sakura just told him that she loves him.
Syaoran knows from experience that getting drunk and the things you say when you're drunk are your real emotions inside...it takes you out from reality that's why people feel so free when they are drunk. It's because they think that they are just dreaming so who will care if someone hears them?...Unfortunately for Sakura, Syaoran was there when she was pouring out her feelings and emptiness inside.
'Sakura doesn't have any idea that I know her secret' he thought to himself.
"Sakura? Don't you want to move our spot here? The tides are rising and soon the waves are going to eat this rock and we'll be wet"
"Huh?" said the unattended Sakura.
"I said that you might want to move our spot here"
"What for?"
"The tides are rising and anytime now, before the sun sets, it can eat this huge rock and we'll be wet"
"How would you know?" Sakura joked.
"Me and Ciara do this a lot" he responded and saw Sakura's reaction. He noticed that her eyes saddened. He forgot...
"Don't worry, the waves won't even reach us"
"Are you sure?"
Sakura looked at Syaoran and was ready to answer when a huge wave of water stared at Sakura's eyes and swallowed up the whole rock in a blink of an eye.
Sakura squealed and Syaoran gave out a small yell. Sakura started giggling so hard with Syaoran's expression.
"See!? What did I tell you!?"
They were just laughing at each other's soaked self with a few small waves hitting the lower part of the rock.
Minutes passed and they didn't stop giggling and chuckling. They were laughing out loud when another huge 'tidal' wave ate them up. Sakura felt that the wave, with the help of the wind is taking her and she was slipping on her seat at the brown rock.
She held onto something that she can reach and she groped for Syaoran's arms. She felt that he was pulling her up and after the wave is gone, she somehow ended up in Syaoran's arms and she was looking straight at him.
After that one huge wave, the water seemed to be calm now, but the two didn't even move an inch from their position and just stared at each other for the longest time. They are both wet...soaked wet and their clothes were sticking on their bodies. But did they care? No. They were pulled by an invisible force on each other's eyes. That's the only logical reason to explain the event that is occurring right now.
Syaoran brought up his free hand and started caressing Sakura's flushed cheeks with his hand.
Sakura's heart was jumping too fast that she crazily thought that it can jump out from the inside. Syaoran's hand then found Sakura's chin and he held her closer as he inched down...lower and lower until they can feel each other's breath.
"I'm sorry...I can't help it" Syaoran huskily whispered.
Then his lips reached for hers as Sakura's eyelids shut. Syaoran gently moved his lips, savoring every moment of it. He has Sakura closed on his arms and he's kissing her. Nothing more can be perfect. Well, there is one thing on Syaoran's mind that is telling him that this is wrong, that is holding him back...but he didn't pay any attention. He recalled one time that his mom told him that thinking about you once in awhile isn't selfishness...and right now, all he can think of is he wants to be with Sakura...to hold her and kiss her. Nothing more...that's just easy to give right?
He deepened the kiss, still moving his lips smoothly against hers and he is still clutching her. Sakura's hands then played with Syaoran's wet hair and it went down on his nape, pulling him closer and harder to her. Syaoran just resumed on kissing her lips, passionately and hungrily. Sakura kissed him back with the same amount of hunger and passion.
Sakura's mind is like in a whirlpool. She feels emotions that she had never felt for any person before. 'Is this how strongly I love Syaoran?'. If only the time will stop and just leave it like this. A few times they had kissed and a lot of times she had prayed and hoped that the time will freeze and just stay like that for all eternity.
Syaoran slowly and gently leaned Sakura on the elevated surface of the rock, his lips still connecting with her. Once in awhile, he will take quick breaths but he won't leave her lips. He can't...it's like he's attached and if he pulls away, he will die.
As Sakura felt herself being laid down, she enclosed her hands around Syaoran's neck and just kissed him restlessly. Unknown to her, the tears being kept inside her heart are being unleashed with these new and mixed up emotions she is feeling. And the feeling of never being kissed by Syaoran came by again. In three days, Syaoran will completely walk out of her life.
Syaoran's lips finally left Sakura's lips, leaving it swollen and redder than usual. He gazed at her face and emerald eyes and just forgot about everything, Ciara...the wedding...his future and even the time and place. Right now, he doesn't care. He started kissing her cheeks and nose.
He proceeded on Sakura's neck, earning himself a soft moan as Sakura controlled herself from shivering. He continued on her neck and collarbone as Sakura's hand roam around his chest underneath his shirt, sending tingles on his body. He can't let Sakura touch him, she sets him in fire and he can't lose control. He has to regain himself. So, he held Sakura's hands on her side to restrain her from touching him. Then he just went back to her lips and started kissing her again as he put one hand on her stomach.
Sakura thought that she's in heaven. She never knew that kisses felt like this. Funny how a kiss can start something more passionate. But this is not right! On the back of her mind, something is tugging on her brains that this is not supposed to happen. They shouldn't be molded to each other's bodies and what's more, they can't even kiss.
An engaged man is not allowed to do all this. She tried to push Syaoran off but she can't find the strength in her. She's not sure if she can't or she doesn't want to. Then the feeling of being she'd rather be wrong swept inside her all over again.
Everything that is going on became nothing but a blur. It's happening so fast and so beautifully that both of them were shocked when another big wave swallowed the rock and the water ate the two of them, causing the two to break apart.
Then Sakura started to giggle loudly and was followed by Syaoran's laugh. They acted as if everything is just normal. They are acting as if no intense make out session occurred.
Sakura then tapped the shoulder of the man in front of her and muttered, "Tag. You're it"
Then she quickly jumped from the rock and fell on the water, knee length and started running around the area, squealing in delight.
"You can't catch me!" she said in a sing-song tune.
"That's what you think!" Syaoran smirked.
Then Sakura started running like a scared horse from a mad owner. It's a lot harder running on the sand compared to their little backyard where they usually play tag.
Sakura, tired of running, squealing and laughing slowed down with Syaoran still chasing her.
"You can't outrun me, Sakura. If you forgot, I was the captain of our Soccer team" he shouted.
"Oh yeah" she mumbled and tried to run faster. But seconds later she felt Syaoran's hands wrap around her waist from behind and she just gave up. She gasped for breath for she was running out. Then Sakura expected him to just let go and stand next to her...but he didn't. He stayed like that behind her and started to smell her hair.
Sakura closed her eyes, feeling and cherishing his presence.
"Look at the sunset, Sakura" he whispered on her ears.
Sakura opened her eyes and looked at the setting sun. The ocean is colored orange from the sun's reflection and the seagulls making their own bird noises...this is paradise.
"How can you be in this kind of situation but think that you can't have it?" Sakura breathed out.
"What are you talking about?" Syaoran said.
"I don't know...I'm so..."
"No, Sakura...just let it go...only for today, Sakura. Only for today"
Sakura nodded and continued to watch the setting sun until it slowly went completely gone.
But somehow, it hurts...'only for today'... so tomorrow, everything will be back to normal?
Syaoran held her hands and lead her to his car and gave him a towel.
"Here. Dry yourself. I always have these towels here in my compartment"
"Thanks" she thanked him.
After a few more minutes of drying up and looking at the view, they went home separately for Sakura came there using Tomoyo's car.
In his car, Syaoran can't help but think of the 'incident'...it felt so heavenly yet so wrong. He mustn't do that. Ciara is in Japan...faithfully thinking that Syaoran will be in his bedroom, thinking about her and their upcoming wedding....but no. He did something else.
Meanwhile, Sakura drove in silence as her guilt is starting to get to her. Ciara said she trusts her. It means she trusts her to keep Syaoran safe and also from other women that will try to steal him away...but then, what did she just do? She just had a very intimate moment with him that no one should ever have except for Ciara and Ciara herself.
It'd be so easy for Sakura to get rid of her guilt if Ciara is a bad and nasty lady who deserves all this unfaithfulness they are showing. But no...she had said that Ciara is one of the most wonderful people she had ever met.
"I'm sorry , Ciara" both Sakura and Syaoran said to an invisible Ciara.
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"Achoo!" Ciara sneezed.
"Child, are you sure you're okay? Are you cold? That's the fourth time you sneezed this past two minutes" her mother observed.
"Yes, of course. I'm fine. I have no idea why I keep on sneezing though. I don't think I'm catching colds or flu" she mused.
"Well, maybe someone or people are thinking about you" her mother laughed.
"Maybe it's your fiancée, Syaoran Li?" the mother joked.
"Yes. I guess so. Syaoran must be thinking about me and our wedding now..."
"I'm so happy for you...I'm just so sorry I can't be there. I have a big appointment coming"
"That's fine, mother. Having you talk to me and our relationship as mom and daughter being in good terms can satisfy me already. That's enough"
"I bet you're excited?"
"Of course I am. It's a shame that you can't meet Syaoran. He is the most amazing guy there is" she exclaimed. "And the most handsome one...to tell you the truth"
"Oh my goodness. My daughter, in love" Mrs. Ying sighed.
"Yes I am. I'm so in love with him, mother that I wouldn't know what to do if I lose him"
"Now, now. You are not supposed to be thinking negative thoughts like that. You and Syaoran will be fine"
"That's what Sakura said..." Ciara smiled.
"Who's Sakura?"
"Syaoran's bestfriend... they have been bestfriends for as long they can both remember"
"From the look of your face...you've grown fond of this young lady, Sakura. Am I right?"
"Yes, mom. She's just a really good person"
"Well, I know you can't wait 'till you go back but don't worry, your wedding will come"
"That's right. My wedding will come. Finally, my dreams of settling down as Mrs. Ciara Li will come true" she thought and gave out a sigh.
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"I wonder where's Sakura and Syaoran...where can they go?" Tomoyo pondered
"Don't worry. They're fine"
Then there was silence. "You know Tomoyo, I'm getting worried"
"Why? What's wrong"
"I'm afraid that Syaoran is slowly falling again"
Tomoyo took a sharp intake of breath. "No. He can't. He's about to get married"
"Exactly. But he has no choice. Once you fall in love, there's nothing you can do. You should have seen Syaoran when we were younger. Sakura means everything to him. She was his world, believe it or not. And that feeling is so hard to get rid off...but..."
"...it's very easy to light and spark again" Tomoyo finished the sentence.
"My goodness, Eriol. What can we do?"
"There's nothing we can do..." Eriol stated shortly. "They are adults and it's all up to them...they can make their own decisions. Let's just hope they make the right ones"
"How much did Syaoran love Sakura before?..." Tomoyo quietly spoke.
"It's hard to explain and describe. Let's just say that Syaoran loved Sakura probably as much as I love you" Eriol gently answered.
Tomoyo's eyes stared fondly and softly at the eyes of the man she loves the most.
"Really? How much do you love...me?" she smiled while Eriol moved closer.
"You'll soon find out" and he kissed her lips tenderly as if she's a rare rose that he will never let go.
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"Where have you been, Sakura!?" Eriol demanded.
Sakura giggled. "You're sounding like my dad"
"Well, you can't blame us for worrying. You said that you will just go and get fresh air. That didn't tell us where" Tomoyo added.
"I'm sorry. I just went to the beach" Sakura said.
"Well, what about Syaoran? Where is he? Did he find you because he said he's going to look for you" Eriol asked.
"He's in the garage, parking his car. We're fine. He's twenty three and I'm just a year younger, you know. We can manage" Then Sakura went up to Eriol and gave him a short hug. "But thanks for worrying. That's really sweet"
Eriol just grumbled but smiled making Tomoyo giggle with Sakura.
"Does a dinner-out sound good to you, people?" Syaoran boomed loudly as he went inside the house.
"Oh. Where can we go?" Tomoyo replied.
"Outside in the garden. We have a grill. We can have steak for dinner and eat it outside"
"That's a good idea, Syaoran. What about we grill the steak and just let the ladies relax and chit chat on their rooms?" Eriol suggested.
"Sure. No problem. We are under your power, girls" and Syaoran grinned at Sakura as Sakura smiled back uncomfortably.
And the guys took off the ingredient and head out as Tomoyo and Sakura quietly mounted on the stairs to go to their room.
"What happened? Where did you two go?"
"We just went to the beach. We stayed there, watch the sunset, walk on the shore...nothing special" Sakura explained, not meeting Tomoyo's eyes.
"Sakura...something's wrong. I can tell. You are my cousin. I know that something's going on"
They entered the room and Sakura flopped on the bed.
"Tomoyo...I think---I'm falling deeper. We have to get away from here" she sighed.
Tomoyo tried to comb her hair in front of the vanity. "Sakura...you can't fall deeper. You'll just hurt yourself. Learn to move on. I'm not saying it's going to be easy because I know that it will be so painful but you have to try" she softly said.
"Everything will be fine if we didn't have to sleep over. Why did I suggest that stupid idea anyway? Look what it did"
"Well, everything will be over when we go home tomorrow night"
Sakura just nodded. Everything will be over tomorrow night. But her love won't be over until who-knows-when. It will hurt her more now that she fell so much in love once again and she tasted Syaoran's kiss more than once. That's something she will die of if she can't have it.
"Why does life have to be so complicated!!!" she screamed on the pillow.
"You're just overwhelmed. You have to get a grip" Tomoyo told her.
"I am trying to get a grip. It's so hard...it's painful. I see him everyday, I hang out with him, I talk and play around with him..."
"That's the way life goes...I'm so sorry, Sakura" Tomoyo whispered.
Tomoyo wants so much to go and hug her cousin, to tell her that she and Syaoran will someday be together. But she can't. She's trying to resist the urge to go to Sakura now. She might say something and will give Sakura false hope and she might end up in a worse scenario than this. She might believe that she and Syaoran can work out but then find out that in the end, Syaoran and Ciara are the ones truly meant for each other.
'I'm so sorry, Sakura. I can't do anything...you were too late' she thought to herself
But in the back of Tomoyo's brain, something's whispering. But she didn't pay attention...and it's saying that it's never too late.
But how can it be 'never too late'? Everything is wrong and hopeless for Sakura now. ---
"Syaoran? Is there something you want to tell me?" Eriol inquired.
Syaoran stood in silence for a moment before shaking his head no.
"Why?" Syaoran questioned back.
"I just feel that you're troubled. Well, just tell me if you need to talk"
"Thanks, man"
"Is it ready...can we have our dinner know?" Eriol spoke hungrily.
"Yeah. You want me to go and call them?" Syaoran said.
Eriol nodded and started fixing the small table on the garden.
Syaoran knocked on the door and was answered by Tomoyo.
"Let's go eat"
"Okay"
Then they all went down and ate a hearty meal. Once in a while, they will talk and laugh. But Syaoran's mind is preoccupied. All day, he almost forgot that Sakura loves him. But now that he's quiet, it all flooded back and somehow, he can feel his heart turning soft. He can't explain it but something about the discovery made him happy and glad although he shouldn't be feeling this. He can't control...it's so strong and powerful that it dominates him.
'Everything will be gone tomorrow when Sakura and Tomoyo go home' he assured himself.
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It's twelve thirty in the morning and Syaoran is downstairs, drinking coffee. He can't sleep so he went down to do something else. His thoughts won't leave him alone.
He was peacefully sipping his coffee when Sakura came down, sleepily.
"Whoa. Sakura? What are you doing here so late?" Syaoran was surprised.
"Huh? Oh, hi Syaoran. My stomach won't stop grumbling. Hope you don't mind me eating some snacks"
"Go ahead"
Sakura ate them in silence and after several minutes, she finished and got ready for bed...again.
She was about to climb on the steps when she returned to Syaoran and faced him.
"Syaoran?" she weakly started. "That---event...that happened...at the beach--- all were just playing around...right?"
Syaoran was taken aback. "Well...umm...yeah. Of course"
Sakura nodded, somehow disappointed. "I mean, we both know that... we just let the children out of us and we decided to do something--- ridiculous"
Syaoran cleared his throat. "That's...right. We were just being silly" he stared at Sakura's red face. "We were just playing around...and it didn't mean anything..."
Sakura nodded, mumbled a little 'good night' and went upstairs.
Syaoran put down his coffee and looked at the ceiling. He knows very well that they weren't just playing around. He knows that what happened was something special...they weren't just being silly...it wasn't ridiculous.
They both know that they shared a VERY special moment that no one, no words and not even they can change.
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Whoa...this chapter with that scene is...intense don't you think? But I had to make them do something like that...because...you'll find out.
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