Disclaimer:Leave me be.I am but a simple California girl with a love for
poetry,music,singing,books in general and other such things.I am but a book
worm with not much time given for either reading or writing freely.Thusly,I
could not possibly own DBZ or GT.I just love Pan's character and hate what
I have to do to her.
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Pan walked toward the edge of the water as soon as she got to the beach.She had stood in awe of the beauty that was the pacific ocean,and awhile in thought.She was pensive and thought about what she would be leaving behind,with this ritual of hers.
Finally,her thoughts left her and the only one remaining was To be one with the ocean,to forget.
As Pan paddled out into the water,she could swear she heard a mystical melody floating through the air.It was drums in constant beat and what sounded like low,graceful violins.Something was breathing with that song,like a whales song under the water of the big blue that she was currently weaving her way through.It was a song without words,but she could feel a mystical power coming over her.She knew not why,but she knew that her ritual was to be taken seriously now.
Pan kicked slowly,gracefully as she had been taught,but now her strokes were methodical as well.Her breathing had taken on a quietness that should have frightened her,but she needed to be silent.She needed to hear the song.As the beat rose,she prepared and took the next wave.She weaved quickly on the wave,not knowing that her serpentine motions did not go unnoticed. Neo was entranced.He had never expected to see Pan here,and didn't want to disturb her.She appeared to be concentrating on her surfing.
Pan felt the beat lowering slowly, cried "No!", and lost her footing on the board.She fell into the water,spiraling out of control.She felt something hit her back,smack at her arms and beat her head.She feared losing consciousness,since she had already lost her sense of equilibrium and couldn't tell just now which way was up or down.After thrashing around some more,Pan became more afraid of not just losing consciousnes,but her life as well.If she didn't break the surface soon,she would run out of air.The waves would not release their vice-like grip on her.What could she do? If she threw a Ki blast,someone could see it.On the one hand,that could end nicely with someone seeing it and running to see what was the matter.On the other hand,someone could see it,panic and call the cops and she'd have to return home a failure.Not that her parents were there to care.
Pan slowly opened her eyes and her air slowly seeped out of her nose and mouth. 'What's the use anymore?' she thought and she descended ever deeper into the blackness.
Visions passed before her eyes,but then she had always thought that you should see your life passing before your eyes.In this case,the visions made no sense at all. First a lion,then dolphins and other creatures of the sea. One of her last visions was of a little girl with straight,shining black hair.She was long of leg and arm,but she was short.She was probably about 8 years old,at best. The girl was smiling.No teeth,just a lip curved smile,and lavender eyes making the smile all the more mysterious,as if she knew something Pan didn't. This vision ended with something holding her head,then her back,a rush of white and a flash of something...silver?
The last thing she remembered seeing were icy blue eyes...
and it all went dark.
N POV~~~~~
When I saw her fall in the water,I thought she just lost her concentration and needed to be left alone.I felt responsible though,so I stayed behind to wait and see.When she didn't come up for about 3 minutes,I started to get nervous and ran over to the oceans edge,searching for her body,at least.When I didn't see her come up,I dove in and tried looking for her.It was dark,and the moon didn't help much,not to mention the waves are much stronger at night.Probably just a psychological effect.I can't see very well under sea water at night.Can you?
When I thought I saw something moving in the water,I came up for breath,and dove back down to retrieve it.I had hoped it would be Pan.It wasn't Pan,as I had hoped,but the movement was a part of her.She was sinking deeper,and she had hit a rock.That was the glimmer I had seen in the water-Her hair rippling over the rock when she struck her head or shoulder on it.Ouch is all I can really say.
Anyways,moving on. I dove back down to get her,but she kept sinking like a rock.I was definitely sure she had either lost consciousness,the will to live,or the head trauma made her forget how to swim.Oddly enough,the forgetting to swim part was what made me really nervous.
I finally caught up to her,but I was losing air fast and needed to breathe soon.I grabbed hold of her head first like they taught in middle school,then held her back,and I started to kick for the surface.It looked like she was asleep,but she was awfully pale for someone who appeared to be sleeping.We broke the surface in the longest minute of my life and,gasping,swam for shore.She didn't just sink:The waves had apparent taken her out to sea as well,as I was a hell of a lot farther from the shore than when I began my search for her.
I would have dragged her body because I was tired myself,but I carried her.It might not have mattered in the end,because I dropped her on her towel and tried to resuscitate her in any way possible besides...well,you know.
"Pan.Pan!Open your eyes!" I shook her by the shoulders,but she wasn't budging. I never liked doing CPR.It was a rather personal practice,in my opinion. At this point,I was ready to do the heimlich maneuver.Anything but CPR. Please Panny,don't do this to me!
I sat her up so I could attempt the heimlich,but nothing happened.Damn it!
I finally laid her down again,cursed for about two seconds,then prepared for the CPR. I tried to revive the heartbeat in her chest,then gave her mouth to mouth...
I repeated the process another two times then checked her pulse.Faint,but still beating.
Lyric must never know about this.She'd tease me for the rest of my natural life. Pan hadn't coughed up the water,and I was VERY worried by this point. Tears actually sprung to my eyes.No one close to me had died,at least not anyone I knew too well.Pan was almost a perfect stranger,but the idea of a friend slash baby sitter for my baby slutty sister had been appealing.
Repeating the process,I prayed the water would come up and FAST. "Please...wake up Pan," I pleaded. With one final push and one final breath,she finally sputtered some sea water and groaned something about the license plate of a car. I laughed weakly,even though tears had been running down my face by that time. I couldn't help myself:I HUGGED her and didn't let go until she claimed I was choking her. After puking up some more sea water and taking a few calming breaths,she turned her head to face me (She was still sitting upright on her towel) at last. "Neo," she said in a voice that I thought had a hint of interest in it and awe. "Did you kiss me?" There was a smile on her lips,as though this were the funniest joke in the world. "You almost drowned out there.I tried everything and finally resorted to..uh,CPR." Noting the look on her face,I could tell she wanted me to spell it out for her. "Ever see in movies that when someone nearly drowns,people pump their chests and then..well,I'm sure you get the rest." She cocked her head,her body language saying 'No I don't,please continue as this is very interesting.' I sighed and said,"I had to do mouth to mouth.Pan,I barely know you.I don't think kissing is for the first date,and..well,I didn't think you'd want to date me,of all people,in the first place,now would you?Besides,I'm an officer.I don't rape people," he laughed."It would be rather hypocritical of me,don't you think?"
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Neo smiled and lay back.He was cold and wanted to go back,but he wanted to see if Pan would be okay.He didn't know about her quarter saiyan blood,at least not yet,but Pan had really nearly lost her life here.He was worried for her and wanted to ask her about what she was trying to do out here tonight. Pan breathed deeply for a few minutes and tried to get up.She wobbled and fell back down. "Need some help?" Neo asked.Pan nodded,and Neo got up to help her.He put her arm around his neck and he wrapped his arm around her middle and tried to step with her,but when it became apparent she would have to be carried,he did as duty demanded of him.She grabbed her things in her arms and he picked her up and carried her back to the hotel.People gave them strange looks as they passed,but despite Pans' blushing and Neos' red face,neither explained the situation to anybody. The odd couple finally got to her suite and she got the card key out to open the door. As soon as the lights flashed from red to green,she twisted the knob and Neo pushed the door.Pan flicked a switch and asked Neo to either take the other room and spend the night,or leave if he wanted to.
"I want to make sure you're okay.You sure you don't mind me staying the night?" "Not really," she said as though she hadn't given it much thought to begin with."I can trust you.Wouldn't you at least put some amount of trust in someone who just saved your life?" She smiled and tried to get up from the chair Neo had planted her on. She had difficult walking and needed to put her arm around Neos neck for support.She made it to her room to dry off and change.He got her to the bathroom,where she bathed instead of showering,and from there on she was alone.Neo was either waiting outisde or asleep.She finally got out of the bath in an hour,dressed,and slowly brushed her hair.She tied it up in a bun,leaving one bit of hair to make it's wavy way down the side of her face. She grabbed at the walls as she tried to walk to the door and walk out,but she had some trouble.She made it,and felt her strength gradually return to her.
Neo was lying on the couch,staring at the ceiling."Can I sleep now?" he pleaded in a whiny voice.Pan could tell he was making a slight joke but being serious as well. "Yes,you can go to sleep!The room is over there,the door next to the bathroom." Neo stood up and looked at her for the first time since she came out of the bath.He blushed,mumbled something about sleeping pills,and stiffly to the bathroom.He closed the door behind him,then a second or so later he opened the door,sheepishly pointed at it with his thumb,saying 'Wrong door,heh!" and walked into his sleeping quarters to be.
The room was nice. Dark because of night,yet he could see the white of the covers and the light tan of the straw-like wood that the headboard of the bed was made of. Resigning himself to his feelings,he pushed back the covers and got in.He would have changed out of his clothes,but since he didn't have a change of clothes handy,he took his wet clothes off,grabbed a towel,and dried off the best he could.He kept his boxers,but they were practically the only thing he was wearing.The clinging didn't help matters any,either.
As Neo lay on the bed thinking,he had the unfortunate pleasure of remembering what he just did. "Am I that bad around girls?" he questioned himself aloud. Shaking his head left to right,he turned onto his left side and tried to sleep.He woke up five hours to another strange dream of his,and went to wake Pan up just to tell her.
"Neo,it's about five in the morning!Are you alright?" "I should be asking you that question," he said quakingly.
Pan finally actually opened her eyes and saw Neos' current state. His hair was a mess,and looked pretty cold,even though Maui was warm even in the evening.That didn't matter because her windows were closed and her air conditioning had been working 24/7 since she'd gotten there.
"Kami Neo,what the hell happened to you?!" "I guess I got sick," he smiled."Don't you remember what happened last night?"
Pan would have clapped a hand to her mouth."Don't tell me I got drunk or something?!"
"No,no!" Neo laughed."I didn't think you were that kind of person in the first place," added Neo. "Stop the joking Pan.I'm sure you remember what happened all on your own."
Pan sat down on the couch and leaned down,her hands clasped and hanging just around her knees. After a few minutes of quiet deliberation,Pan finally spoke.
"I remember losing control of the board... And swirling down into the ocean.I couldn't breath,of course,but the point is that I needed the air and the current was very strong. I remember darkness,and a little girl.I remember hearing some strange music,and then that cleared away to some kind of dark blue. After that I remember seeing something white and silver...
Neo,was that you?"
When she had sat down at the couch,Neo had pulled up a chair and sat across from her. He was in a position to respond,but found he couldn't immediately. When he thought he had a good answer to give her,he finally responded.
"To be honest,yes.I went into the water when you didn't come for air as soon as I thought you should have.I went into the water,but I guess the current had taken you farther out.When I finaly DID see you,I had to come up for air and went back down. You were drifting away.Swirling,really.The tide had a pretty good hold on you,didn't it?"
Pan smiled all the more,but her eyes were sad."Anything else happen that I should remember?Wait a minute,don't answer that.Why did you wake me up?"
That question actually caught Neo off guard."I awoke you because I had a weird dream and...well,I wanted to tell you about it," he grinned sheepishly. Pan only smiled."Well,what was it about?" "Now there's the funny thing.See,while we talked about your misadventures under the sea,I forgot what I dreamt," he laughed.Pan shoved a pillow in his face and went back to bed,Neo doing the same.
7:05
"NEEEEOOOOOO!!!!!"
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~~~~~~ Read and review is all I have to say -_- Aren't I dull?
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Pan walked toward the edge of the water as soon as she got to the beach.She had stood in awe of the beauty that was the pacific ocean,and awhile in thought.She was pensive and thought about what she would be leaving behind,with this ritual of hers.
Finally,her thoughts left her and the only one remaining was To be one with the ocean,to forget.
As Pan paddled out into the water,she could swear she heard a mystical melody floating through the air.It was drums in constant beat and what sounded like low,graceful violins.Something was breathing with that song,like a whales song under the water of the big blue that she was currently weaving her way through.It was a song without words,but she could feel a mystical power coming over her.She knew not why,but she knew that her ritual was to be taken seriously now.
Pan kicked slowly,gracefully as she had been taught,but now her strokes were methodical as well.Her breathing had taken on a quietness that should have frightened her,but she needed to be silent.She needed to hear the song.As the beat rose,she prepared and took the next wave.She weaved quickly on the wave,not knowing that her serpentine motions did not go unnoticed. Neo was entranced.He had never expected to see Pan here,and didn't want to disturb her.She appeared to be concentrating on her surfing.
Pan felt the beat lowering slowly, cried "No!", and lost her footing on the board.She fell into the water,spiraling out of control.She felt something hit her back,smack at her arms and beat her head.She feared losing consciousness,since she had already lost her sense of equilibrium and couldn't tell just now which way was up or down.After thrashing around some more,Pan became more afraid of not just losing consciousnes,but her life as well.If she didn't break the surface soon,she would run out of air.The waves would not release their vice-like grip on her.What could she do? If she threw a Ki blast,someone could see it.On the one hand,that could end nicely with someone seeing it and running to see what was the matter.On the other hand,someone could see it,panic and call the cops and she'd have to return home a failure.Not that her parents were there to care.
Pan slowly opened her eyes and her air slowly seeped out of her nose and mouth. 'What's the use anymore?' she thought and she descended ever deeper into the blackness.
Visions passed before her eyes,but then she had always thought that you should see your life passing before your eyes.In this case,the visions made no sense at all. First a lion,then dolphins and other creatures of the sea. One of her last visions was of a little girl with straight,shining black hair.She was long of leg and arm,but she was short.She was probably about 8 years old,at best. The girl was smiling.No teeth,just a lip curved smile,and lavender eyes making the smile all the more mysterious,as if she knew something Pan didn't. This vision ended with something holding her head,then her back,a rush of white and a flash of something...silver?
The last thing she remembered seeing were icy blue eyes...
and it all went dark.
N POV~~~~~
When I saw her fall in the water,I thought she just lost her concentration and needed to be left alone.I felt responsible though,so I stayed behind to wait and see.When she didn't come up for about 3 minutes,I started to get nervous and ran over to the oceans edge,searching for her body,at least.When I didn't see her come up,I dove in and tried looking for her.It was dark,and the moon didn't help much,not to mention the waves are much stronger at night.Probably just a psychological effect.I can't see very well under sea water at night.Can you?
When I thought I saw something moving in the water,I came up for breath,and dove back down to retrieve it.I had hoped it would be Pan.It wasn't Pan,as I had hoped,but the movement was a part of her.She was sinking deeper,and she had hit a rock.That was the glimmer I had seen in the water-Her hair rippling over the rock when she struck her head or shoulder on it.Ouch is all I can really say.
Anyways,moving on. I dove back down to get her,but she kept sinking like a rock.I was definitely sure she had either lost consciousness,the will to live,or the head trauma made her forget how to swim.Oddly enough,the forgetting to swim part was what made me really nervous.
I finally caught up to her,but I was losing air fast and needed to breathe soon.I grabbed hold of her head first like they taught in middle school,then held her back,and I started to kick for the surface.It looked like she was asleep,but she was awfully pale for someone who appeared to be sleeping.We broke the surface in the longest minute of my life and,gasping,swam for shore.She didn't just sink:The waves had apparent taken her out to sea as well,as I was a hell of a lot farther from the shore than when I began my search for her.
I would have dragged her body because I was tired myself,but I carried her.It might not have mattered in the end,because I dropped her on her towel and tried to resuscitate her in any way possible besides...well,you know.
"Pan.Pan!Open your eyes!" I shook her by the shoulders,but she wasn't budging. I never liked doing CPR.It was a rather personal practice,in my opinion. At this point,I was ready to do the heimlich maneuver.Anything but CPR. Please Panny,don't do this to me!
I sat her up so I could attempt the heimlich,but nothing happened.Damn it!
I finally laid her down again,cursed for about two seconds,then prepared for the CPR. I tried to revive the heartbeat in her chest,then gave her mouth to mouth...
I repeated the process another two times then checked her pulse.Faint,but still beating.
Lyric must never know about this.She'd tease me for the rest of my natural life. Pan hadn't coughed up the water,and I was VERY worried by this point. Tears actually sprung to my eyes.No one close to me had died,at least not anyone I knew too well.Pan was almost a perfect stranger,but the idea of a friend slash baby sitter for my baby slutty sister had been appealing.
Repeating the process,I prayed the water would come up and FAST. "Please...wake up Pan," I pleaded. With one final push and one final breath,she finally sputtered some sea water and groaned something about the license plate of a car. I laughed weakly,even though tears had been running down my face by that time. I couldn't help myself:I HUGGED her and didn't let go until she claimed I was choking her. After puking up some more sea water and taking a few calming breaths,she turned her head to face me (She was still sitting upright on her towel) at last. "Neo," she said in a voice that I thought had a hint of interest in it and awe. "Did you kiss me?" There was a smile on her lips,as though this were the funniest joke in the world. "You almost drowned out there.I tried everything and finally resorted to..uh,CPR." Noting the look on her face,I could tell she wanted me to spell it out for her. "Ever see in movies that when someone nearly drowns,people pump their chests and then..well,I'm sure you get the rest." She cocked her head,her body language saying 'No I don't,please continue as this is very interesting.' I sighed and said,"I had to do mouth to mouth.Pan,I barely know you.I don't think kissing is for the first date,and..well,I didn't think you'd want to date me,of all people,in the first place,now would you?Besides,I'm an officer.I don't rape people," he laughed."It would be rather hypocritical of me,don't you think?"
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Neo smiled and lay back.He was cold and wanted to go back,but he wanted to see if Pan would be okay.He didn't know about her quarter saiyan blood,at least not yet,but Pan had really nearly lost her life here.He was worried for her and wanted to ask her about what she was trying to do out here tonight. Pan breathed deeply for a few minutes and tried to get up.She wobbled and fell back down. "Need some help?" Neo asked.Pan nodded,and Neo got up to help her.He put her arm around his neck and he wrapped his arm around her middle and tried to step with her,but when it became apparent she would have to be carried,he did as duty demanded of him.She grabbed her things in her arms and he picked her up and carried her back to the hotel.People gave them strange looks as they passed,but despite Pans' blushing and Neos' red face,neither explained the situation to anybody. The odd couple finally got to her suite and she got the card key out to open the door. As soon as the lights flashed from red to green,she twisted the knob and Neo pushed the door.Pan flicked a switch and asked Neo to either take the other room and spend the night,or leave if he wanted to.
"I want to make sure you're okay.You sure you don't mind me staying the night?" "Not really," she said as though she hadn't given it much thought to begin with."I can trust you.Wouldn't you at least put some amount of trust in someone who just saved your life?" She smiled and tried to get up from the chair Neo had planted her on. She had difficult walking and needed to put her arm around Neos neck for support.She made it to her room to dry off and change.He got her to the bathroom,where she bathed instead of showering,and from there on she was alone.Neo was either waiting outisde or asleep.She finally got out of the bath in an hour,dressed,and slowly brushed her hair.She tied it up in a bun,leaving one bit of hair to make it's wavy way down the side of her face. She grabbed at the walls as she tried to walk to the door and walk out,but she had some trouble.She made it,and felt her strength gradually return to her.
Neo was lying on the couch,staring at the ceiling."Can I sleep now?" he pleaded in a whiny voice.Pan could tell he was making a slight joke but being serious as well. "Yes,you can go to sleep!The room is over there,the door next to the bathroom." Neo stood up and looked at her for the first time since she came out of the bath.He blushed,mumbled something about sleeping pills,and stiffly to the bathroom.He closed the door behind him,then a second or so later he opened the door,sheepishly pointed at it with his thumb,saying 'Wrong door,heh!" and walked into his sleeping quarters to be.
The room was nice. Dark because of night,yet he could see the white of the covers and the light tan of the straw-like wood that the headboard of the bed was made of. Resigning himself to his feelings,he pushed back the covers and got in.He would have changed out of his clothes,but since he didn't have a change of clothes handy,he took his wet clothes off,grabbed a towel,and dried off the best he could.He kept his boxers,but they were practically the only thing he was wearing.The clinging didn't help matters any,either.
As Neo lay on the bed thinking,he had the unfortunate pleasure of remembering what he just did. "Am I that bad around girls?" he questioned himself aloud. Shaking his head left to right,he turned onto his left side and tried to sleep.He woke up five hours to another strange dream of his,and went to wake Pan up just to tell her.
"Neo,it's about five in the morning!Are you alright?" "I should be asking you that question," he said quakingly.
Pan finally actually opened her eyes and saw Neos' current state. His hair was a mess,and looked pretty cold,even though Maui was warm even in the evening.That didn't matter because her windows were closed and her air conditioning had been working 24/7 since she'd gotten there.
"Kami Neo,what the hell happened to you?!" "I guess I got sick," he smiled."Don't you remember what happened last night?"
Pan would have clapped a hand to her mouth."Don't tell me I got drunk or something?!"
"No,no!" Neo laughed."I didn't think you were that kind of person in the first place," added Neo. "Stop the joking Pan.I'm sure you remember what happened all on your own."
Pan sat down on the couch and leaned down,her hands clasped and hanging just around her knees. After a few minutes of quiet deliberation,Pan finally spoke.
"I remember losing control of the board... And swirling down into the ocean.I couldn't breath,of course,but the point is that I needed the air and the current was very strong. I remember darkness,and a little girl.I remember hearing some strange music,and then that cleared away to some kind of dark blue. After that I remember seeing something white and silver...
Neo,was that you?"
When she had sat down at the couch,Neo had pulled up a chair and sat across from her. He was in a position to respond,but found he couldn't immediately. When he thought he had a good answer to give her,he finally responded.
"To be honest,yes.I went into the water when you didn't come for air as soon as I thought you should have.I went into the water,but I guess the current had taken you farther out.When I finaly DID see you,I had to come up for air and went back down. You were drifting away.Swirling,really.The tide had a pretty good hold on you,didn't it?"
Pan smiled all the more,but her eyes were sad."Anything else happen that I should remember?Wait a minute,don't answer that.Why did you wake me up?"
That question actually caught Neo off guard."I awoke you because I had a weird dream and...well,I wanted to tell you about it," he grinned sheepishly. Pan only smiled."Well,what was it about?" "Now there's the funny thing.See,while we talked about your misadventures under the sea,I forgot what I dreamt," he laughed.Pan shoved a pillow in his face and went back to bed,Neo doing the same.
7:05
"NEEEEOOOOOO!!!!!"
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~~~~~~ Read and review is all I have to say -_- Aren't I dull?