What Could Have Been
By: Sailoranime
Disclaimer: Sailoranime - doesn't own Harry Potter. JK- owns Harry Potter. Happy?
AN: He he.. sorry I took so long. I think this is one of the last five chapters. Not sure yet. I want to discontinue this, actually, but I won't, I think. But I promise if I do, I'll either find a better writer to finish it for me, or I'll post a nice, long outline of what is going to happen.
When Harry entered the common room he wasn't at all surprised to find Hermione waiting for him. She seemed to have some sort of talent for knowing when he was doing something wrong.
"Harry, where were you?" she asked with a yawn.
"I... uh... I went to go see Sirius."
Hermione's eyes widened slightly. "Oh, Harry, you didn't! Why would you do that?"
"Well, he's my godfather."
"Yes, I know that, but you know no one is allowed in there."
"Well, it's just that he wrote me back, and I figured I might as well go see him, since he was awake." Harry answered with a shrug. Hermione still looked rather angry, but her curiousity won and she sat down next to Harry.
"What did he say? How's Professor Lupin?"
"Lupin's fine. He resigned, he went to go say by to Sirius while I was there."
Hermione's mouth was almost as thin as McGonagall's. "You weren't rude to him, were you, Harry?"
Harry shrugged and leaned back in the sofa. "I didn't actually talk to him. He came in while I was talking to Sirius, and he overheard some things, but I'm not sure how much."
"You weren't saying anything bad, were you?"
"I was just telling Sirius about how Lupin never tried to contact me and about how he lied."
"Oh, Harry!" Hermione groaned. "You're so stubborn! Sure, what Professor Lupin did was... well, wrong, but don't you think you're taking everything out on him. I mean, you wanted to kill Sirius because you thought he killed you parents. Well, Wormtail did, so why are you mad that he died?"
"That's the same thing Sirius said." Harry answered quietly. "But I didn't think Lupin was going to do anything... and he's a werewolf! He could have hurt one of us. And he hurt Sirius while we were running away. Sirius was trying to chase him away in his dog form."
Hermione rolled her eyes. "He's not a monster, Harry!"
"Almost."
"Oh, you're impossible!" Hermione picked up Crookshanks and marched towards the girl's dormitories.
Harry shrugged and went to his room. He hadn't even checked on Ron. He opened the door quietly, since he didn't want to wake the others. He had wanted to kill Sirius, but he hadn't. How long had he stood there with his wand ready? Yet, he hadn't killed him, even though he'd had a chance. That was what made him different from Lupin. He hadn't done it?
But if Lupin hadn't shown up? If he'd shown up a few minutes later? He would have come to his senses, wouldn't he? He would have taken Sirius to Dumbledore and let him deal with him. Sirius would have been kissed. But how did that make him any better than Lupin? An innocent man would have had his soul sucked out through his mouth, and that was worse than killing a guilty man.
He rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. Lupin had killed Pettigrew, he'd betrayed Harry's trust. He had never tried to save him, he'd never told him the truth, he'd practically denied knowing his father.
His train of thought was broken as one of the other boys rolled in his bed and accidentally hit the wall. Harry closed the curtains to his bed and tried to sleep. And the only thing that bothered him was that his reasons seemed to be less convincing each time he thought about them.
AN: Short chapter, but I didn't want to leave everyone hanging. Um.. that's it for now. I promise not to take two months next time.
By: Sailoranime
Disclaimer: Sailoranime - doesn't own Harry Potter. JK- owns Harry Potter. Happy?
AN: He he.. sorry I took so long. I think this is one of the last five chapters. Not sure yet. I want to discontinue this, actually, but I won't, I think. But I promise if I do, I'll either find a better writer to finish it for me, or I'll post a nice, long outline of what is going to happen.
When Harry entered the common room he wasn't at all surprised to find Hermione waiting for him. She seemed to have some sort of talent for knowing when he was doing something wrong.
"Harry, where were you?" she asked with a yawn.
"I... uh... I went to go see Sirius."
Hermione's eyes widened slightly. "Oh, Harry, you didn't! Why would you do that?"
"Well, he's my godfather."
"Yes, I know that, but you know no one is allowed in there."
"Well, it's just that he wrote me back, and I figured I might as well go see him, since he was awake." Harry answered with a shrug. Hermione still looked rather angry, but her curiousity won and she sat down next to Harry.
"What did he say? How's Professor Lupin?"
"Lupin's fine. He resigned, he went to go say by to Sirius while I was there."
Hermione's mouth was almost as thin as McGonagall's. "You weren't rude to him, were you, Harry?"
Harry shrugged and leaned back in the sofa. "I didn't actually talk to him. He came in while I was talking to Sirius, and he overheard some things, but I'm not sure how much."
"You weren't saying anything bad, were you?"
"I was just telling Sirius about how Lupin never tried to contact me and about how he lied."
"Oh, Harry!" Hermione groaned. "You're so stubborn! Sure, what Professor Lupin did was... well, wrong, but don't you think you're taking everything out on him. I mean, you wanted to kill Sirius because you thought he killed you parents. Well, Wormtail did, so why are you mad that he died?"
"That's the same thing Sirius said." Harry answered quietly. "But I didn't think Lupin was going to do anything... and he's a werewolf! He could have hurt one of us. And he hurt Sirius while we were running away. Sirius was trying to chase him away in his dog form."
Hermione rolled her eyes. "He's not a monster, Harry!"
"Almost."
"Oh, you're impossible!" Hermione picked up Crookshanks and marched towards the girl's dormitories.
Harry shrugged and went to his room. He hadn't even checked on Ron. He opened the door quietly, since he didn't want to wake the others. He had wanted to kill Sirius, but he hadn't. How long had he stood there with his wand ready? Yet, he hadn't killed him, even though he'd had a chance. That was what made him different from Lupin. He hadn't done it?
But if Lupin hadn't shown up? If he'd shown up a few minutes later? He would have come to his senses, wouldn't he? He would have taken Sirius to Dumbledore and let him deal with him. Sirius would have been kissed. But how did that make him any better than Lupin? An innocent man would have had his soul sucked out through his mouth, and that was worse than killing a guilty man.
He rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. Lupin had killed Pettigrew, he'd betrayed Harry's trust. He had never tried to save him, he'd never told him the truth, he'd practically denied knowing his father.
His train of thought was broken as one of the other boys rolled in his bed and accidentally hit the wall. Harry closed the curtains to his bed and tried to sleep. And the only thing that bothered him was that his reasons seemed to be less convincing each time he thought about them.
AN: Short chapter, but I didn't want to leave everyone hanging. Um.. that's it for now. I promise not to take two months next time.