Title: Mix Tape
A/N: This will more then likely be the last chapter since I've run out of ideas for this story. This chapter takes place after Lost City. Also I decided that this whole story takes place through out season seven and is an AU because as far as I'm concerned Heros never ever, ever, ever, ever happened, so Janet is still around.
The songs 'Song For a Mix Tape' and 'I won't Spend Another Night Alone' belong to the Ataris. The song 'The World Is New' belongs to Save Ferris. The song 'Lucky' belongs to Hoobastank. The songs 'Out of Breath', 'Anchor', 'Empty Space', and 'Wash' belong to Life House. And the song 'Walk Away' belongs to Good Charlotte.
This is probably the longest chapter I've ever written.
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'I can't belive this. After every thing we've been through over the years this might be the time that we actually lose Jack.' Sam thought to hereself as she entered her lab for the first time since SG-1 had left on the scout ship to try and find the lost city of the Ancients.
Trying to think of possible ways to help Jack, Sam walked over to her desk and sat down. Reatching to turn on her computer, the light reflecting off of something on her work bench, caught Sam's eye. Going over to the work bench Sam found a CD case, with her name written acrosst the front, lying in the center.
Sitting back down at her desk Sam opened the CD case seeing a burned CD and a note that fell out onto her desk. Picking up the note Sam began to read it.
'Hey Sam,
I'm sitting here out on the deck looking up at the sky (Again), it's sometime after midnight and you, Daniel, Teal'c and Hammond left a couple of hours ago. I should probably be getting some sleep, but I can't stop thinking about the conversation we were having earlier before the others droped by. And I know that you're beating yourself up (And I really wish that you wouldn't by the way) because you think you should have been the one to put your head in that thing, but like I said before it couldn't have gone down any other way.
I meant it when I said that you were one of this countries natrual resources, if not national treasures, and I know that you may not belive that, but please at least belive me, if nothing else, when I say that you are one of the few personal treasures I have in my life, no matter what happens always remember that.
Sam, hey again,
I'm now sitting here in your lab trying to burn every little thing about this place into my head just in case it's the last time I ever see it. We're due to leave in half an hour and I should be getting ready, but for some reason I feel like I need to be here in your lab. I think it might have something to do with the fact that the Ancient stuff in my head is starting to take over more all the time and I need to get my thoughts down on paper while I still can and I've found over the years that I do some of my best thinking in your lab (I wonder why?).
I want you to know that no matter what it takes I'll do everything I posibly can to make sure that I come back to you and the others (But you most of all). I'm pretty sure I know how you feel about me and I hope you know how I feel about you. I may never have actually right out told you how I feel and trust me I've tried, its just that there are so many things I want to say to you that I don't even know where to start, but I at least try to show you with my actions every chance I get.
Doing this job for the last seven or so years has showed me that life is too short to waste, which is why if/when we all get through this mission alive and hopefully in one piece things are going to be different, no more dancing around the issue, I promise you that.
Love Jack
P.S. Please listen to the CD the first chance you get.
Sam sat reading the note over and over again not beliving what Jack had written. So much in shock Sam never noticed Janet walk in to her lab. Seeing the way Sam looked Janet quickly made her way over to where Sam was sitting.
"Sam?" Janet gently placed a hand on Sam's shoulder trying to get her attention. Not trusting herself to speak yet, Sam just handed the note to Janet. Reading the note Janet could understand why Sam was so shell shocked.
"I was in here at least half a dozen times between when he wrote that second part and when we left. And I just noticed it now." Sam whispered so softly Janet barly heard her speak.
"Are you going to be ok?"
"No and I don't think I will be untill I...we...have Jack back." Sam started to fiddle around with the CD case. "He wants me to play the CD he made me the first chance I get."
"Do you want me to leave you alone.....?"
"Please stay. I really don't want to be alone at all right now. But can we go somewhere else I don't want to be on base at all at the moment."
"Sure, what do you say we head back to my house?"
"Ok."
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Thiry minutes later the two ladies found themselves sitting in Janet's living room, sipping some whine. Sam all of the sudden got up and walked over to the stero putting the CD in the CD player.
"You sure you're ready to listen to it?" Janet, getting more worried about Sam as the night carried on, asked.
"Yeah.....yeah if I don't do this now I'm afraid I'll chicken out." With that Sam hit the play button, then returned to her seat. The first thing they heard from the CD was Jack's voice telling them the name of the first song.
"This first song is called 'Song For A Mix Tape'."
Today I made you a mix tape
and I decorated it with lots of stars.
it had all my favorite songs.
There was jawbreaker and armchair martain
built to spill and the descendents.
hell I even put one of ours on it.
Falling for you was the easy thing to do.
If only somehow I could make you hang around.
Today I made you a mix tape
to say exactly how I feel inside
and make you feel it to.
These are the songs that make me smile
and cry myself to sleep at night
when I'm lying without you.
I love you more than I ever loved anyone before.
Hey silly girl I'm begging you.
All of these songs they remind me of you
I hope that you like this song.
Did you ever listen to the words and melody
do you feel the pain inside
the way that it hurts me?
When you're in your room at night
I hope you'll be singing along.
and make me a tape of your favorite songs.
"This next one is called 'I Won't Spend Another Night Alone'."
A star up in the sky goes slowly passing by,
The lights below...they spell out your name.
You're comfort on my mind and you're with me all the time.
And lot's of feeling that I can't explain.
I won't spend another night alone.
I won't spend another night alone.
Out of every girl I meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But I promise you that you do.
If I had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.
The things you make me wanna do
I'd rob a quik-e-mart for you
I'd go to the pound and let all the cats go free
Just as long as you'd be with me.
"Next up 'Wash'."
Never meant to waste your time
never meant to fall out of line
I always tried to get closer to you
now it seems with every step
feels like I'm losin' my breath
I don't know what else I can do
but you wash over me
you wash over me like rain
and you wash over me
you wash over me like sunshine
I never had to choose
living a life with you
or choosing lies only half true
now I'd rather be
alone with you and me
than hiding behind these walls
when you wash over me
you wash over me like rain
and you wash over me
you wash over me like sunshine
and you wash over me
you wash over me like rain
and you fall over me
you crawl over me
like sunshine
like sunshine
everything in the world was falling through
all I knew was to look to you
my sunshine
all my life never found my place
until I felt the sunlight on my face
my sunshine
never meant to waste your time
never meant to fall out of line
I always tried to get closer to you
now it seems with every step
feels like I'm losing my breath
I don't know what else I can do
but you wash over me
you wash over me like rain
and you wash over me
you wash over me like sunshine
and you wash over me
you wash over me like rain
and you fall into me
you crawl into me
like sunshine
like sunshine
like sunshine
like sunshine
"This one is called 'Lucky'."
I knew how it felt to be another one in need of someone to show the way
Until you saw a part of me that nobody else
Could see and my life hasn't been the same...
You make me feel lucky as I can be...
You make me feel lucky as I can be...
Before I couldn't get a break,
Never had a chance to make
The impressions I want to
But now it falls right into place
When I get to see your face
Then there's nothing that I can't do...
You make me feel lucky as I can be...
You make me feel lucky as I can be...
No more dark days, only sun rays
No more hard ways with you today
You make me feel....
You make me feel lucky as I can be...
You make me feel lucky as I can be...
"This is 'Walk Away'."
I made this bed
I choose to lie in it
And live with my regrets
I sleep with what I said
Could this be the end
Am I standing on the edge
Of everything I wanted now
I was afraid
I was afraid
And maybe I'm just scared
To face the things I feel
Its easier to walk away from everything
Separate my soul
With all the things we shared
I'm fallin' to pieces now
Say a prayer for me
When you go to bed
I'm in need of your faith now
I was afraid
And maybe I'm just scared
To face the things I feel
Its easier to walk away from everything
If we could just reset
And live in happiness
Instead of our regrets
We set a mile away
Set me free a mile away
Pray for me now
I'm in need of faith
Pray for me now
I'm in need
And maybe I'm just scared
To face the things I feel
Its easier to walk away from everything
If we could just reset
And live in happiness
Instead of our regrets
We set a mile away.
And maybe I'm just scared
To face the things I feel
Its easier to walk away from everything
Walk away from everything
Walk away from everything
"Next 'Anchor'."
I stand with a blank expression now
and I can't believe myself
will someone tell me how
did I get here
I am walking
changing slowly
I am chasing
climbing closer
I know that I'll never be alone
you will never let me go
you are my anchor
hold my hand
while I'm sinking in the sand
no one else could understand
you are my anchor
it seems that I lost track of time
and I can't believe my mind
would you save me if
I reached out to you
I'm waiting, watching, standing
I am reaching
climbing closer
I know that I'll never be alone
you will never let me go
you are my anchor
hold my hand
while I'm sinking in the sand
no one else could understand
you are my anchor yeah
anchor yeah
anchor yeah
I am walking
changing slowly
I am chasing
climbing closer
I know that I'll never be alone
you will never let me go
you are my anchor
hold my hand
while I'm sinking in the sand
no one else could understand
you are my anchor yeah
anchor yeah
anchor yeah
can you hear me
hear me
can you hear me
"This one is called 'The World Is New'."
I was sitting and awaiting
Just thinking, contemplating my life when I heard the phone
I picked up the receiver
And I did not believe her
When I heard a voice say you're not alone
When I am down and I am blue
All I have to do
Is close my eyes and think of you
And the world is new
Life was getting hectic
And things were unexpected
When I first received your call
But now it is the best thing
That filled up what was missing
And now my life is envied by all
When I am down and I am blue
All I have to do
Is close my eyes and think of you
And the world is new
I was sitting and awaiting
Just thinking, contemplating my life when I heard the phone
I picked up the receiver
And I did not believe her
When I heard a voice say you're not alone
When I am down and I am blue
All I have to do
Is close my eyes and think of you
And the world is new
"This one is 'Empty Space'."
too late to hide
and too tired to care
take what you've learned
and forget the rest
take what you see
of what's left of me
you know where I've been
and I don't want to go there again
you're beautiful
you're confusing
you're illogical
you're amazing
and I've seen the world
it's overrated
until you're everything
I have nothing
but an empty space
I've been down
this road before
all that I've found
points me right back to you
and I've watch you move
from down below
where do I go from here
I guess I'll find out as I go
you're beautiful
you're confusing
you're illogical
you're amazing
and I've seen the world
it's overrated
until you're everything
I have nothing
but an empty space
you're beautiful
you're confusing
you're illogical
you're amazing
and I've seen the world
it's overrated
until you're everything
I have nothing
until you're everything
I have nothing
but an empty space
"And Last but not least 'Out Of Breath'."
I still feel the same
though everything has changed
the pain it cost now
I feel lost inside of my own name
but I keep running
I am running
I keep living for the day that I'm with you
that I'm with you
the past has left its stain
now I feel the shame
I'll seize the day
if you take away
the chains of yesterday
but I keep running
I am running
I keep living for the day that I'm with you
and I am waiting
I am waiting
I keep waiting for the day that I'm with you
a new day
the sun is shining
seems I'm closer to finding
that life is more than what we hide
no way that I am turning
as long as this sun is burning
now it seems that all I want is you
I still feel the same
though everything has changed
the pain it cost now
I feel lost inside of my own name
but I keep running
I am running
I keep living for the day that I'm with you
an I am waiting
I am waiting
I keep waiting for the day that I'm with you
that I'm with you
By the time the CD was over Sam had tears streaming down her face. Not knowing what else to do Janet pulled Sam into a comforting hug and gave her a shoulder to cry on. The two friends stayed like that all night neither one of them moving or saying anything. That night Sam made a silent promise that she would do whatever it took to get Jack back safe and sound.
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A/N: Well that's it for now I hope you all liked this story. Also I'd like to see some music videos using the songs I've used in this story, but I have neither the right technology nor the know how to do them myself so if any of you people know how to make music videos or someone else that could and would be willing to make me some and then let me no were I could find them, I would be really, really, really, really, really, greatful.