Author's Note: Thanks to All the kind people who have reviewed so far. Here's a second part to Dark Thoughts. Once again, I don't own anything but the poem/thoughts yada... yada... yada... Thank you and enjoy!
It's really funny how the minute you think your world has fallen apart...
A ray of hope somehow makes it's way to you...
I thought it was all over...
I know they were all upset,
But they only knew her as a friend,
I knew her as a wife...
And things seem to clear up into nothing more than a cloudy day...
Justin...
He brought us to a small trailer...
It was nothing fancy...
Just an average beat up trailer,
With Nirvana blasting from speakers half my size,
And three bikes padlocked to the gate...
"Jase, don't expect a huge welcome... They've seen a lot of hate..."
A small kid opened the door and yelled for someone named Jay...
An older boy...
He looked like me...
Almost an exact clone if you took away the scars and the vivid red hair...The look on his face...
It was one of hatred...
Not for me,
For Justin,
For everyone who had it easier...
He was no stranger to pain...
"Jason, this is your son... She named him after you..."
After me...
Am I all that great?
Should a kid that's fought harder than I ever could,
Be named...
After me?
A girl around the same age...
12... 13... Give or take a year...
She came up behind the other two...
God... She looked just like her...I can hardly look those kids in the eye...
Pain... Hate... Fear...
A cruel world hath forsaken their lives...I blame myself...
I'm sure Tommy feels the same way...
He always tried to look out for everyone else...
The boy who looks like me...
He knows something no one else does...
Justin thinks it might be about their mother...
I can't be sure...
He's really small for his age...
The girl is a lot stronger looking...
Justin says the kid can fight as well as me or better...
I can only give it time...
Pain... Hate...Fear... Love... Despair... Loss...
Every emotion seems to emit from his eyes...
Every emotion except for joy... happiness...
It doesn't make sense anymore...
I can only try my best...
If I can't be a father to them...
I will be their friend...
Author's Note: Sorry if this one sounds a little bad compared to the first... I'm really trying my best... Just trying to get frustrations out of my mind! smiles feebly you know the drill, read and review... Oh and thanks again to all my readers and reviewers!!! YAY!