Laughing at Myself
By: emoDlolita aka Bethany M.
Notes: Okay, I've changed my mind, for now this will be just Haku x Zabuza. I've decided on using the other pairings in different fictions, k? Once again, I don't own anything Naruto related.
Chapter 2: Winds
I woke up in the morning alone. The firepit we had built was nothing more than a circle of damp, charred wood. The sun was out, and birds were chirping, but everything was still wet from the rain the night before. I blinked a few times in the sunlight and then stumbled to my feet.
My robes were still soaking and I noticed that Zabuza's clothing was discarded by his pack. I sighed and decided that I bath would be a nice start to the day. I took a cloth with me and headed off in the direction of the spring I had spotted while gathering wood for last nights fire.
As the spring came into view I noticed that there was somebody there already...
"Zabuza-san..." I whispered as I quickly hid behind a tree. 'Oh my god....' I thought frantically as I looked for a way to leave the area with out being noticed. 'He's... na-' I quickly shook my head as images of a naked Zabuza crawled into my head.
I felt my cheeks go red and I knew that I had to get out of there. I quickly found a route of trees that would cover me, and I darted from out behind the tree I was currently hiding behind and quickly made my way back to our camp site.
'Maybe I'll have a bath later...' I quickly changed my clothing while Zabuza wasn't around. I didn't know why the thought of Zabuza-san naked was so disturbing to me all of a sudden... It wasn't as if I hadn't seen him like that before... I sighed and hung up my wet robes. Thinking these things would only bring trouble in the end, so I quickly pushed them out of my head.
After I had hung up my laundry, I sat down at the base of a tree and began to read a book. I don't remember when I got it, but I remember that Zabuza- san gave it to me. I can still remember everything that he's ever done to me... it's so clear that it's as if it was really happening again.
I remember being in a far away land. It was sunny, and I was feeling really happy. We were not on a mission, and he was acting uncharacteristically good natured. We had happened to walk into the marketplace, and he took me aside and we ducked into a small shop. It was a small bookstore and he went to the front of the shop to talk to the shopkeeper.
While he did, I spotted a book, and I picked it up. It was old, and the cover was worn out a bit. It was sky blue, and there was a flower on the cover. I didn't know what the flower was, but it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. It had long petals, and the petals were purple and pink. The colors of the flower itself were incredible to me. I opened it and looked at the first page.
It was yellowed, and there were nicks taken out of the edges of the paper. The print was small, but very neat and it looked almost hand written. I read the first line...
"I love him... but I don't think he loves me..." I was intrigued by this and continued on.
"Sometimes, I cry at night because I think that no one can love me... but then he will smile at me and my heart will sing. Does he know how I feel about him? Does he know that I secretly love him with all my heart? I do not think that the pain I feel will ever heal..."
Something inside of me burst and I could feel tears slip from my eyes. This was a book about me... yet, I didn't think it possible that anyone could have understood what I felt.
"That's the story of Prince Kurayama..." a voice came from behind me. It was Zabuza-san. I looked up at him and closed the book instinctively. I looked away and sighed before placing the book back on the shelf.
"Do you want it?" he asked, stepping a little closer to me, his hand resting on mine as it hovered near the bookshelf. I nodded, and he slipped the book out of my hands.
He told me it was a present for being such a good boy... I don't think I believed him, but I was glad he had gotten it for me nonetheless.
I was startled from my reverie when I head someone coming up along the path. I hid the book in the folds of my clothing.
I hugged my knees to my chest and looked up just as Zabuza-san was coming back from the springs.
"You still have that old thing?" he asked, eyeing me a little judgingly. I nodded and looked away. He shrugged and went to pack away his clothes from the night before. I pulled the book out of my clothes and opened it. I had read it over 15 times already... I started to read it in a random place... my favorite place.
"He looked into my eyes and I didn't know what to do... He reached forward and caressed my face with his rough hands. It seemed so unreal that I closed my eyes and opened them again, expecting him to vanish into thin air like he did in my dreams. But when I opened them again, he was still there. He took a step closer to me and kissed my forehead. 'Why?' I asked him as I pulled away from me. I don't know why I pulled away, but I felt like something was wrong. 'Because I want you...' he said. He smiled at me and moved forward again to hold me. That wasn't what I wanted to hear. I closed my eyes, scared of what was happening. Wasn't this what I wanted? 'You don't love me then....?' I whispered as he slid the kimono I was wearing of my shoulders. He stopped after what I had said sunk in."
I knew what happened next... the Prince starts to cry because he is unloved, then his lover Mitsuki tells him he loves him then they are happy.
I looked over to Zabuza-san and closed the book. I didn't think my luck was going to be good luck. Somehow I didn't think Zabuza-san was ever going to say something like that to me.
I stood up and dropped the book on my own sack before grabbing a towel and wash cloth from beside it.
"I'm going to take a bath now..." I said to no one in particular. He grunted and I headed off to the springs. By now it was mid day and I was a little hungry, but I wanted to clean up first. Once I got to the springs I shed my robes and pants. I undid the hair tie that was hold my long black locks up in a tight bun. I removed the beaded accessories and the clasps that I usually wore in the front. Lastly, I removed my head band.
I neatly folded my clothes and stepped into the clear cool water. There was a tiny waterfall near the far end of the spring. I submerged myself in the water and paddled over the waterfall. Once there, I gently washed my hair then I washed my body. It always felt good taking a bath.
As soon as I got to my lower regions, I started thinking about Zabuza-san... the way he smiled at me, the way he would have random outburst of affection and the way he would reject me every time...
Just thinking about his face made me get a little excited. I could feel my manhood start to harden and I closed my eyes, wondering what it would be like to have Zabuza-san hold me again. This thought didn't help matters much and so I did what every other normal teenage boy would do in this situation.
After I was done, I swam back to shore and dried myself off before getting back into my robes.
It was dinner time by the time I got back and Zabuza-san was already cooking something on a newly born fire. I blushed at the thought of what I had done an hour earlier. I set my stuff down and sat across from him not looking at him.
I couldn't bring myself to look at his face.
But yet, I could still feel his dark eyes on me...
I sighed and decided to call it an early night. I reached over for my own blanket and lay down on the soft earth, pulling the blanket with me. I closed my eyes and sleep quickly took me over.
I slept without dreams for the thousandth time since meeting Zabuza... But some time in the middle of the night I was aware of someone watching me. I knew it was him, and so I kept sleeping, his eyes fixed on me...
Okay, so there's a chapter two... hehe... please let me know what you think.
The book will play a major role later on so, just bear with it, k?
Notes: Okay, I've changed my mind, for now this will be just Haku x Zabuza. I've decided on using the other pairings in different fictions, k? Once again, I don't own anything Naruto related.
Chapter 2: Winds
I woke up in the morning alone. The firepit we had built was nothing more than a circle of damp, charred wood. The sun was out, and birds were chirping, but everything was still wet from the rain the night before. I blinked a few times in the sunlight and then stumbled to my feet.
My robes were still soaking and I noticed that Zabuza's clothing was discarded by his pack. I sighed and decided that I bath would be a nice start to the day. I took a cloth with me and headed off in the direction of the spring I had spotted while gathering wood for last nights fire.
As the spring came into view I noticed that there was somebody there already...
"Zabuza-san..." I whispered as I quickly hid behind a tree. 'Oh my god....' I thought frantically as I looked for a way to leave the area with out being noticed. 'He's... na-' I quickly shook my head as images of a naked Zabuza crawled into my head.
I felt my cheeks go red and I knew that I had to get out of there. I quickly found a route of trees that would cover me, and I darted from out behind the tree I was currently hiding behind and quickly made my way back to our camp site.
'Maybe I'll have a bath later...' I quickly changed my clothing while Zabuza wasn't around. I didn't know why the thought of Zabuza-san naked was so disturbing to me all of a sudden... It wasn't as if I hadn't seen him like that before... I sighed and hung up my wet robes. Thinking these things would only bring trouble in the end, so I quickly pushed them out of my head.
After I had hung up my laundry, I sat down at the base of a tree and began to read a book. I don't remember when I got it, but I remember that Zabuza- san gave it to me. I can still remember everything that he's ever done to me... it's so clear that it's as if it was really happening again.
I remember being in a far away land. It was sunny, and I was feeling really happy. We were not on a mission, and he was acting uncharacteristically good natured. We had happened to walk into the marketplace, and he took me aside and we ducked into a small shop. It was a small bookstore and he went to the front of the shop to talk to the shopkeeper.
While he did, I spotted a book, and I picked it up. It was old, and the cover was worn out a bit. It was sky blue, and there was a flower on the cover. I didn't know what the flower was, but it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. It had long petals, and the petals were purple and pink. The colors of the flower itself were incredible to me. I opened it and looked at the first page.
It was yellowed, and there were nicks taken out of the edges of the paper. The print was small, but very neat and it looked almost hand written. I read the first line...
"I love him... but I don't think he loves me..." I was intrigued by this and continued on.
"Sometimes, I cry at night because I think that no one can love me... but then he will smile at me and my heart will sing. Does he know how I feel about him? Does he know that I secretly love him with all my heart? I do not think that the pain I feel will ever heal..."
Something inside of me burst and I could feel tears slip from my eyes. This was a book about me... yet, I didn't think it possible that anyone could have understood what I felt.
"That's the story of Prince Kurayama..." a voice came from behind me. It was Zabuza-san. I looked up at him and closed the book instinctively. I looked away and sighed before placing the book back on the shelf.
"Do you want it?" he asked, stepping a little closer to me, his hand resting on mine as it hovered near the bookshelf. I nodded, and he slipped the book out of my hands.
He told me it was a present for being such a good boy... I don't think I believed him, but I was glad he had gotten it for me nonetheless.
I was startled from my reverie when I head someone coming up along the path. I hid the book in the folds of my clothing.
I hugged my knees to my chest and looked up just as Zabuza-san was coming back from the springs.
"You still have that old thing?" he asked, eyeing me a little judgingly. I nodded and looked away. He shrugged and went to pack away his clothes from the night before. I pulled the book out of my clothes and opened it. I had read it over 15 times already... I started to read it in a random place... my favorite place.
"He looked into my eyes and I didn't know what to do... He reached forward and caressed my face with his rough hands. It seemed so unreal that I closed my eyes and opened them again, expecting him to vanish into thin air like he did in my dreams. But when I opened them again, he was still there. He took a step closer to me and kissed my forehead. 'Why?' I asked him as I pulled away from me. I don't know why I pulled away, but I felt like something was wrong. 'Because I want you...' he said. He smiled at me and moved forward again to hold me. That wasn't what I wanted to hear. I closed my eyes, scared of what was happening. Wasn't this what I wanted? 'You don't love me then....?' I whispered as he slid the kimono I was wearing of my shoulders. He stopped after what I had said sunk in."
I knew what happened next... the Prince starts to cry because he is unloved, then his lover Mitsuki tells him he loves him then they are happy.
I looked over to Zabuza-san and closed the book. I didn't think my luck was going to be good luck. Somehow I didn't think Zabuza-san was ever going to say something like that to me.
I stood up and dropped the book on my own sack before grabbing a towel and wash cloth from beside it.
"I'm going to take a bath now..." I said to no one in particular. He grunted and I headed off to the springs. By now it was mid day and I was a little hungry, but I wanted to clean up first. Once I got to the springs I shed my robes and pants. I undid the hair tie that was hold my long black locks up in a tight bun. I removed the beaded accessories and the clasps that I usually wore in the front. Lastly, I removed my head band.
I neatly folded my clothes and stepped into the clear cool water. There was a tiny waterfall near the far end of the spring. I submerged myself in the water and paddled over the waterfall. Once there, I gently washed my hair then I washed my body. It always felt good taking a bath.
As soon as I got to my lower regions, I started thinking about Zabuza-san... the way he smiled at me, the way he would have random outburst of affection and the way he would reject me every time...
Just thinking about his face made me get a little excited. I could feel my manhood start to harden and I closed my eyes, wondering what it would be like to have Zabuza-san hold me again. This thought didn't help matters much and so I did what every other normal teenage boy would do in this situation.
After I was done, I swam back to shore and dried myself off before getting back into my robes.
It was dinner time by the time I got back and Zabuza-san was already cooking something on a newly born fire. I blushed at the thought of what I had done an hour earlier. I set my stuff down and sat across from him not looking at him.
I couldn't bring myself to look at his face.
But yet, I could still feel his dark eyes on me...
I sighed and decided to call it an early night. I reached over for my own blanket and lay down on the soft earth, pulling the blanket with me. I closed my eyes and sleep quickly took me over.
I slept without dreams for the thousandth time since meeting Zabuza... But some time in the middle of the night I was aware of someone watching me. I knew it was him, and so I kept sleeping, his eyes fixed on me...
Okay, so there's a chapter two... hehe... please let me know what you think.
The book will play a major role later on so, just bear with it, k?