Okay, - I forgot that when someone is accused of murder, the police
take them into custody after I wrote this and I was too lazy to add it in
so... - sorry.
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Dr. Christenson and Squall helped me get a lawyer. I knew that Seifer's girlfriend would do her damnedest to frame me for his murder. Okay, I DID kill him but I didn't mean to. I just wanted to get away from him. Dr. Christenson said it sounded like self-defense when I told her what had happened. If I could bring him back, I would and not for my protection. I feel completely horrid. I had no intention of killing him. If it wasn't for me, he could've lived up to so much. Poor Seifer. I had to tell my new lawyer, Mrs. Kitley," my version" of the story. She asked me a few questions on my relationship with Seifer before deciding she felt confident she could help me. She also asked me to throw out the names of a few witnesses to the abuse. I gave her some of my friends's names. I told her that Edea had known Seifer since he was little. She wrote the names down, told me not to worry, and said goodbye as I left with Dr. Christenson. Squall was waiting for us outside, along with a crowd of reporters. They all asked the same question: "Did you do it?" Squall and Dr. Christenson told them I had no comment. I hid my face in Squall's jacket as we made our way to the train.
From Deling we got to Esthar, having to switch from train to car on the way. Dr. Christenson had a house there she let me hide in for a while. Squall went back to Garden but stayed in touch the whole time I was gone. Selphie wrote me a letter and had it sent to Dr. Christenson's office just incase. I stayed in hiding for a week. The first few days I didn't leave the house at all. After that I felt like going outside. I'd never been to Esthar before so I wanted to explore a little. The day I went out, I tied my hair back, wore lose fitting clothes, and a baseball cap. I had to ask people how to get to the shopping center. The directions were confusing but I got there. I didn't see any reporters. So far so good. I didn't buy anything because one, I don't have any money, and two there wasn't anything I wanted. Just looking around was fun.
At the end of the week the court date was announced. The trial would start next weekend. I wasn't exactly thrilled. Squall met me at Fisherman's Horizon. He told me my lawyer told him he would probably have to testify and the prosecutor would probably say bad things about me. She told me this before too. Squall hugged me and kissed my forehead as he told me not to worry about it. I couldn't help crying a little. I felt like a loser but Squall just tried to comfort me. He's such a sweet heart. He spent most of the day taking me various places, trying to get me to relax. We went to a small restraunt to eat. I didn't eat much because lately I've had no appetite. Squall asked me what I was going to do after the trial. "You mean if I don't get put away," I said.
He told me to forget about it, "You'll be fine. Nothing's going to happen to you. So, what will you do?"
I shrugged. "Go back to Garden. If you're thinking my life is going to be completely altered, it wont- I mean, other than missing Seifer a great deal. I DID still care about him even if I wasn't in love with him anymore."
Squall's eyes met mine. "You weren't?"
"No but let's talk about that later." I was afraid someone was going to use what I had to tell Squall against me in court. Maybe that's what my dream had been referring to. Maybe I wanted to tell Squall I- oh, better not even think it. For all I know, there could be some new device that lets you read other people's mind. I'd better be careful about what I say and do.
"They're questioning pretty much everybody that had contact with Seifer," he told me after a few minutes. "They'll probably question Headmaster Cid too. That's my guess anyway." It fell quiet again because I didn't know what to say. Apparently he didn't either. "Not much to talk about, huh?"
"I'm sorry, Squall. I can't talk here. Someone could-"
He nodded. "I understand. We can talk later. You gettin' Selphie's letters?"
"Yeah." After a while we walked to Timber. It wasn't a fun walk but we managed. When we finally arrived at Garden, that girl and her friends shouted things at me as I made my way to my room. Why can't they just leave me alone? I guess I should've expected this but I was hoping... I flopped on my bed and just lay there. What would happen after the trial if I wasn't convicted? I'd probably have people yelling at me for the rest of my life. You know what's kind of funny about this? The girl here at Garden that's so set on seeing me convicted WASN'T the girl I saw the Seifer at Dollet that one day. I wonder what she'd think of that if I told her. She probably wouldn't believe me. Oh well. Fuck her. Squall came in and shut the door behind him. He asked me if I was okay. I said, "I feel as good as I'm going to, which isn't much at all. Are YOU okay?"
He smiled. "Why are you asking me? I'm fine. You're the one that has to deal with all this shit."
"I bet anything you'll have to too."
"Don't bother me," he said with a shrug. "As long as they leave you alone. If you need anything I'll be here to help you out." I got off my bed and hugged him. He's always been so sweet to me. It wasn't long before we started kissing. I felt a little guilty because I ought to be grieving over Seifer but Squall made me feel needed. That's not a feeling I want to ignore. Despite what you may think, nothing happened. Other than kissing once in a while and me asking him to stay in my room with me, it didn't go anywhere. We didn't even talk. We just lay in bed and held me 'til we both fell asleep.
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This was another short chapter, but after this they'll be longer.
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Dr. Christenson and Squall helped me get a lawyer. I knew that Seifer's girlfriend would do her damnedest to frame me for his murder. Okay, I DID kill him but I didn't mean to. I just wanted to get away from him. Dr. Christenson said it sounded like self-defense when I told her what had happened. If I could bring him back, I would and not for my protection. I feel completely horrid. I had no intention of killing him. If it wasn't for me, he could've lived up to so much. Poor Seifer. I had to tell my new lawyer, Mrs. Kitley," my version" of the story. She asked me a few questions on my relationship with Seifer before deciding she felt confident she could help me. She also asked me to throw out the names of a few witnesses to the abuse. I gave her some of my friends's names. I told her that Edea had known Seifer since he was little. She wrote the names down, told me not to worry, and said goodbye as I left with Dr. Christenson. Squall was waiting for us outside, along with a crowd of reporters. They all asked the same question: "Did you do it?" Squall and Dr. Christenson told them I had no comment. I hid my face in Squall's jacket as we made our way to the train.
From Deling we got to Esthar, having to switch from train to car on the way. Dr. Christenson had a house there she let me hide in for a while. Squall went back to Garden but stayed in touch the whole time I was gone. Selphie wrote me a letter and had it sent to Dr. Christenson's office just incase. I stayed in hiding for a week. The first few days I didn't leave the house at all. After that I felt like going outside. I'd never been to Esthar before so I wanted to explore a little. The day I went out, I tied my hair back, wore lose fitting clothes, and a baseball cap. I had to ask people how to get to the shopping center. The directions were confusing but I got there. I didn't see any reporters. So far so good. I didn't buy anything because one, I don't have any money, and two there wasn't anything I wanted. Just looking around was fun.
At the end of the week the court date was announced. The trial would start next weekend. I wasn't exactly thrilled. Squall met me at Fisherman's Horizon. He told me my lawyer told him he would probably have to testify and the prosecutor would probably say bad things about me. She told me this before too. Squall hugged me and kissed my forehead as he told me not to worry about it. I couldn't help crying a little. I felt like a loser but Squall just tried to comfort me. He's such a sweet heart. He spent most of the day taking me various places, trying to get me to relax. We went to a small restraunt to eat. I didn't eat much because lately I've had no appetite. Squall asked me what I was going to do after the trial. "You mean if I don't get put away," I said.
He told me to forget about it, "You'll be fine. Nothing's going to happen to you. So, what will you do?"
I shrugged. "Go back to Garden. If you're thinking my life is going to be completely altered, it wont- I mean, other than missing Seifer a great deal. I DID still care about him even if I wasn't in love with him anymore."
Squall's eyes met mine. "You weren't?"
"No but let's talk about that later." I was afraid someone was going to use what I had to tell Squall against me in court. Maybe that's what my dream had been referring to. Maybe I wanted to tell Squall I- oh, better not even think it. For all I know, there could be some new device that lets you read other people's mind. I'd better be careful about what I say and do.
"They're questioning pretty much everybody that had contact with Seifer," he told me after a few minutes. "They'll probably question Headmaster Cid too. That's my guess anyway." It fell quiet again because I didn't know what to say. Apparently he didn't either. "Not much to talk about, huh?"
"I'm sorry, Squall. I can't talk here. Someone could-"
He nodded. "I understand. We can talk later. You gettin' Selphie's letters?"
"Yeah." After a while we walked to Timber. It wasn't a fun walk but we managed. When we finally arrived at Garden, that girl and her friends shouted things at me as I made my way to my room. Why can't they just leave me alone? I guess I should've expected this but I was hoping... I flopped on my bed and just lay there. What would happen after the trial if I wasn't convicted? I'd probably have people yelling at me for the rest of my life. You know what's kind of funny about this? The girl here at Garden that's so set on seeing me convicted WASN'T the girl I saw the Seifer at Dollet that one day. I wonder what she'd think of that if I told her. She probably wouldn't believe me. Oh well. Fuck her. Squall came in and shut the door behind him. He asked me if I was okay. I said, "I feel as good as I'm going to, which isn't much at all. Are YOU okay?"
He smiled. "Why are you asking me? I'm fine. You're the one that has to deal with all this shit."
"I bet anything you'll have to too."
"Don't bother me," he said with a shrug. "As long as they leave you alone. If you need anything I'll be here to help you out." I got off my bed and hugged him. He's always been so sweet to me. It wasn't long before we started kissing. I felt a little guilty because I ought to be grieving over Seifer but Squall made me feel needed. That's not a feeling I want to ignore. Despite what you may think, nothing happened. Other than kissing once in a while and me asking him to stay in my room with me, it didn't go anywhere. We didn't even talk. We just lay in bed and held me 'til we both fell asleep.
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This was another short chapter, but after this they'll be longer.