Some part when Rinoa is by herself is a little weird, but I thought it'd be good to put some of her thoughts in this one, you know?
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The jury was out for a while. In the mean time, I sat out in the hallway with the others. Quistis told me she was confident I'd be fine. I wish I could be as positive as she is. I bet I'm going to hang or be electrocuted. Selphie told me not to worry but she looked nervous. Irvine said, "If you have to do any time at all, I'm sure it wont be much." Selphie hit him. "What? She'll probably be fine but I'm just saying." Squall didn't say anything he just held my hand. I wanted to talk about something other than the trial so I asked Zell how he was doing. He looked a little surprised.
"Me?" he said. "I'm fine. Just a little bored I guess. What about you?"
I laughed a little, "Nervous. I don't want to even think about it. Do you guys think I did it on purpose?"
Quistis said, "I think you did what you had to do, and by that I mean, you just defended yourself. We know how violent Seifer was. I hope they see it too."
It took about three maybe four hours for the jury to come to a decision. Everyone took their seats. What's going to happen to me? The judge told me to stand. Then he asked the jury if they had reached a verdict. One got out of their seat and said, "We have." He instructed the man to read it. "We the jury find the defendant, Ms. Rinoa Heartilly, not guilty." Suddenly all my friends were hugging me. I'm not going to die. I don't have to spend an eternity in jail. I started crying on Squall's shoulder. Nothing's going to happen to me. I'll be okay.
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A few days later, a funeral service was held at Garden for Seifer. I sniffled as I listened to what people had to say about him. The girl that told me I was going to jail for Seifer's murder said a few things too. But; she was forced off by Headmaster Cid when she started yelling ugly things about me. It was my turn to go up. I approached cautiously and took a deep breath before I began, "I loved Seifer very much and I wish he was still here. He was the type that could do anything if he put his mind to it. He was a very proud person with a strong personality. He had a lot of potential. I wish him the best where ever he is now. We'll miss you and treasure your memory." I stepped down and listened to the last few people.
Dr. Christenson told me that I needed to rest for a while. She wouldn't be back to see me for a week. I was too exhausted to feel anything about it. I spent the rest of the day in my room, going over everything. I DO still think I love Squall but I miss Seifer a little too. It sounds crazy but I can't lie to myself. Someone once said that you never actually completely lose love for a past boyfriend or girlfriend. A small part of you still cares for them, and I find that to be true. It'd explain my feelings anyway. I never thought about it before but I wonder why Squall likes me. I mean, what's there to like? I don't even want to think about it. It's depressing. I wonder what's going to happen now. Will I have a future with Squall or will I end up alone sometime later? All these thoughts are upsetting me. Think of something happy... That's not working. Okay, I'll just go to sleep.
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That didn't turn out to help much either. I'm not sure what my dream was about but I think Seifer was in it. Anyway I woke up crying. When I finally calmed down, I realized it was dark outside. Good time to wander around. No one was in the hall. I sat on the balcony in the Training Center and stared at the stars. Everyone seems to think if you wish on a star-a shining star, a falling star, whatever- it will come true. I think if you really want something, you got to make it happen. You can't depend on a star; you have to do it yourself. That's just the way it is. When I was little, I always thought my life would end up like a fairy tale. You know, fall in love with "prince charming", live in a beautiful house, have kids and forever be happy. I wish I still believed that because maybe if I did, it would happen.
I spent all morning sitting there and all afternoon too. I listened to the voices of people coming in to train. Even Quistis and Zell came around together at one point. An instructor with a student. They're not exactly dating but that's still got to be a controversial relationship. I wonder if they have to sneak around to see each other. In a way it'd be kind of exciting while nerve-racking at the same time. Would that ruin a relationship or make it stronger? If it were me in that situation, I'd crack. I wouldn't be able to handle it.
When I cam out of the Training Center into the hall, Zell told me he had something to show me. I followed him to the Quad. Selphie, Squall, Quistis, and Irvine were there. Selphie said, "This is your 'You Didn't Get Convicted' party. I know it's not a great title but..." she shrugged and we both laughed. The party was basically just everyone talking together. It was fun. Selphie said we should all share-embarrassing stories about each other or ourselves. Quistis started with one about Zell accidentally going into the girl's bathroom because he turned too sharp on his "T-Board". Zell had one on Quistis and said a student blackmailed her. She refused to say why but I think we all had our ideas. Like I said, exciting and stressful. Selphie said, "When we were in the orphanage, when I was about six, I wrote love letters to Zell but didn't sign them."
Zell said, "That was you?"
"Yeah," she laughed. "I liked you for about a week." Irvine kept insisting he didn't have a good one so Selphie let him pass. But she told us she knew Squall had one. He denied it. She said, "Come on, Squall. If you don't tell them, I'll make Zell do it."
Squall sighed, "Alright, alright, alright, alright. This isn't exactly embarrassing. It just pissed me off. I don't know why Selphie wants me to tell you-"
"Just do it."
"After I met Rinoa for the first time..." He rushed through the last part, "I told Zell I thought she was pretty and Seifer heard me and made fun of me and then he was dating her not long later." He sighed.
Selphie and Quistis went, "Awww."
"Shut up." They just laughed. "Alright that's enough. "Whose turn is it now?"
"I think it's mine," I said.
"You don't have to do it," Squall told me. Selphie said something in agreement. I feel like they're babying me or something. I'm not a kid.
"I can do it. Just give me a minute to think of something." Hm, what to say? My mind was totally blank. I didn't really have anything to share. I have bad things that happened to me but that's it. ... Wait a sec. I got something. "Okay, I got one. When I was talking to Dr. Christenson about Seifer, I just blurted out that I was in love with Squall. I felt kind of stupid suddenly saying it like that."
Selphie and Quistis said, "Aww" again. Squall told them to knock it off. We all stayed there doing stupid things until we were tired and wanted to go to bed. I asked Squall if I could stay in his room. He said, "Sure." We kissed each other a bit before we actually went to sleep.
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I figure this verdict would work because there was this girl that burned her husband alive because he beat her and she wasn't found guilty. There's one more short chapter left.
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The jury was out for a while. In the mean time, I sat out in the hallway with the others. Quistis told me she was confident I'd be fine. I wish I could be as positive as she is. I bet I'm going to hang or be electrocuted. Selphie told me not to worry but she looked nervous. Irvine said, "If you have to do any time at all, I'm sure it wont be much." Selphie hit him. "What? She'll probably be fine but I'm just saying." Squall didn't say anything he just held my hand. I wanted to talk about something other than the trial so I asked Zell how he was doing. He looked a little surprised.
"Me?" he said. "I'm fine. Just a little bored I guess. What about you?"
I laughed a little, "Nervous. I don't want to even think about it. Do you guys think I did it on purpose?"
Quistis said, "I think you did what you had to do, and by that I mean, you just defended yourself. We know how violent Seifer was. I hope they see it too."
It took about three maybe four hours for the jury to come to a decision. Everyone took their seats. What's going to happen to me? The judge told me to stand. Then he asked the jury if they had reached a verdict. One got out of their seat and said, "We have." He instructed the man to read it. "We the jury find the defendant, Ms. Rinoa Heartilly, not guilty." Suddenly all my friends were hugging me. I'm not going to die. I don't have to spend an eternity in jail. I started crying on Squall's shoulder. Nothing's going to happen to me. I'll be okay.
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A few days later, a funeral service was held at Garden for Seifer. I sniffled as I listened to what people had to say about him. The girl that told me I was going to jail for Seifer's murder said a few things too. But; she was forced off by Headmaster Cid when she started yelling ugly things about me. It was my turn to go up. I approached cautiously and took a deep breath before I began, "I loved Seifer very much and I wish he was still here. He was the type that could do anything if he put his mind to it. He was a very proud person with a strong personality. He had a lot of potential. I wish him the best where ever he is now. We'll miss you and treasure your memory." I stepped down and listened to the last few people.
Dr. Christenson told me that I needed to rest for a while. She wouldn't be back to see me for a week. I was too exhausted to feel anything about it. I spent the rest of the day in my room, going over everything. I DO still think I love Squall but I miss Seifer a little too. It sounds crazy but I can't lie to myself. Someone once said that you never actually completely lose love for a past boyfriend or girlfriend. A small part of you still cares for them, and I find that to be true. It'd explain my feelings anyway. I never thought about it before but I wonder why Squall likes me. I mean, what's there to like? I don't even want to think about it. It's depressing. I wonder what's going to happen now. Will I have a future with Squall or will I end up alone sometime later? All these thoughts are upsetting me. Think of something happy... That's not working. Okay, I'll just go to sleep.
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That didn't turn out to help much either. I'm not sure what my dream was about but I think Seifer was in it. Anyway I woke up crying. When I finally calmed down, I realized it was dark outside. Good time to wander around. No one was in the hall. I sat on the balcony in the Training Center and stared at the stars. Everyone seems to think if you wish on a star-a shining star, a falling star, whatever- it will come true. I think if you really want something, you got to make it happen. You can't depend on a star; you have to do it yourself. That's just the way it is. When I was little, I always thought my life would end up like a fairy tale. You know, fall in love with "prince charming", live in a beautiful house, have kids and forever be happy. I wish I still believed that because maybe if I did, it would happen.
I spent all morning sitting there and all afternoon too. I listened to the voices of people coming in to train. Even Quistis and Zell came around together at one point. An instructor with a student. They're not exactly dating but that's still got to be a controversial relationship. I wonder if they have to sneak around to see each other. In a way it'd be kind of exciting while nerve-racking at the same time. Would that ruin a relationship or make it stronger? If it were me in that situation, I'd crack. I wouldn't be able to handle it.
When I cam out of the Training Center into the hall, Zell told me he had something to show me. I followed him to the Quad. Selphie, Squall, Quistis, and Irvine were there. Selphie said, "This is your 'You Didn't Get Convicted' party. I know it's not a great title but..." she shrugged and we both laughed. The party was basically just everyone talking together. It was fun. Selphie said we should all share-embarrassing stories about each other or ourselves. Quistis started with one about Zell accidentally going into the girl's bathroom because he turned too sharp on his "T-Board". Zell had one on Quistis and said a student blackmailed her. She refused to say why but I think we all had our ideas. Like I said, exciting and stressful. Selphie said, "When we were in the orphanage, when I was about six, I wrote love letters to Zell but didn't sign them."
Zell said, "That was you?"
"Yeah," she laughed. "I liked you for about a week." Irvine kept insisting he didn't have a good one so Selphie let him pass. But she told us she knew Squall had one. He denied it. She said, "Come on, Squall. If you don't tell them, I'll make Zell do it."
Squall sighed, "Alright, alright, alright, alright. This isn't exactly embarrassing. It just pissed me off. I don't know why Selphie wants me to tell you-"
"Just do it."
"After I met Rinoa for the first time..." He rushed through the last part, "I told Zell I thought she was pretty and Seifer heard me and made fun of me and then he was dating her not long later." He sighed.
Selphie and Quistis went, "Awww."
"Shut up." They just laughed. "Alright that's enough. "Whose turn is it now?"
"I think it's mine," I said.
"You don't have to do it," Squall told me. Selphie said something in agreement. I feel like they're babying me or something. I'm not a kid.
"I can do it. Just give me a minute to think of something." Hm, what to say? My mind was totally blank. I didn't really have anything to share. I have bad things that happened to me but that's it. ... Wait a sec. I got something. "Okay, I got one. When I was talking to Dr. Christenson about Seifer, I just blurted out that I was in love with Squall. I felt kind of stupid suddenly saying it like that."
Selphie and Quistis said, "Aww" again. Squall told them to knock it off. We all stayed there doing stupid things until we were tired and wanted to go to bed. I asked Squall if I could stay in his room. He said, "Sure." We kissed each other a bit before we actually went to sleep.
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I figure this verdict would work because there was this girl that burned her husband alive because he beat her and she wasn't found guilty. There's one more short chapter left.