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A/N: Ok now this chapter is more on Sev's POV and thoughts about...well u'll see!!!
The next morning found the two men on their way to the Headmasters office from breakfast in the Great Hall. Severus had had little sleep after talking to Harry and seeing how Harry seemed to accept the situation for what it was and to see him trying to make the best of a rather horrid situation. All night Severus had lay next to Harry running his finger through his tired husband's hair.
Yes, his husband. A horrible fact or so he had originally thought, but it seemed as if Harry was adjusting well to this and if Harry could than so could Severus, after all he was older, wiser, more mature, and not the pregnant one.
Another thing he regretted, maybe not so much the fact that he was going to have a child, but the fact that he had to rape Harry and there was nothing he could do about it, unless to have them both be killed. And that was not an option, but Harry had forgiven him and for that he was grateful, but that didn't stop him from being insecure, about everything.
Living the life he had a child abused by his father and peers so terrible that he had chosen the life of a death eater. Then to force himself to live in isolation, so as not to endanger anyone and to punish himself for all the things he had done as a death eater.
The worst part of all was that all that had changed. He was a husband and soon to be father, no longer living the life of isolation, he had vowed to live all those years ago. Having to relearn how to live with someone else and how maybe to someday and he truly hoped he would be able to, but highly doubted, love someone.
But Severus was a scared man, scared of not being a good enough father, scared of not being a good enough husband, scared of how this would effect all of their lives, scared of his child one day hating him when he is to find out how he was brought into this world, scared of what will happen once the world finds out how this happened, and most of all scared of finding out that maybe, no that likely, he was just incapable of love.
They arrived at Dumbledore's office, not a word spoken the whole way there, but lost in their own thoughts. Severus spoke the password Cotton Candy and they stepped on the rising spiral stairs. Knocking only once, they were told to enter.
"Oh hello boys, come and sit down would you," said Dumbledore, "Tea, lemon drop?"
"No thank you, Albus, you wanted to speak with us?"
"Yes Severus, it's about the rest of Harry's schooling."
"Oh what about Professor?" said Harry.
"Well since you are going to be six months next week, I thought it would be better that you no longer attend classes."
"But professor, I won't be able to graduate if I don't attend classes," interrupted Harry.
"No, no Harry, you misunderstand me, what I meant to say is you will still take classes, you just won't be attending them. I thought it better that you not exert yourself as the castle is extremely large and climbing all those stairs all day, most unnecessary and you could rest during the day, I mean we all know students do not sleep during class."
Odd how that twinkle looked quite bright right now, wonder which class Harry sleeps through.
"Also, potions class you cannot attend as for the fumes are dangerous during your pregnancy. Besides, I'm sure that Professor Snape would be more than happy to tutor you, for the next two months until you graduate. And the library is always at your disposal. So, how does that sound?"
"Sounds excellent, thank you Professor."
"Not a problem, Harry. Now Severus, I wanted to ask you something."
"Yes, Albus?"
"What will you do during the summer? Will you go back to Snape Manor?"
"I hadn't thought about it."
"Now Severus, tell the truth, you hadn't thought about it or you don't want to go back?"
A growl could be heard and a glare seen coming from the onyx eyed man, "A little of both, I suppose."
"Splendid, because I thought it would be night that the first thing you do together as a couple would be to pick out a house."
"Excuse me Albus, but..."
"Now, now Severus, no arguments, use the flow, say Hector and Hector Realty and ask for a Ms. Smithson."
They stood up, Snape still trying to protest, but having no luck as he was pushed into the fireplace by Dumbledore. Once Severus was gone, Dumbledore turned to Harry and said, "He's a good man Harry, he hasn't figured it out yet, but what is in the past, let it stay there. I promise a bright future for the both of you with this baby, it will bring the two of you great joy."
And off went Harry after Severus. "And hopefully, closer together too."
Ok well, I hope you liked it, not too accurate, but I tried!!! R&R!!! And next time, house hunts!!!
A/N: Ok now this chapter is more on Sev's POV and thoughts about...well u'll see!!!
The next morning found the two men on their way to the Headmasters office from breakfast in the Great Hall. Severus had had little sleep after talking to Harry and seeing how Harry seemed to accept the situation for what it was and to see him trying to make the best of a rather horrid situation. All night Severus had lay next to Harry running his finger through his tired husband's hair.
Yes, his husband. A horrible fact or so he had originally thought, but it seemed as if Harry was adjusting well to this and if Harry could than so could Severus, after all he was older, wiser, more mature, and not the pregnant one.
Another thing he regretted, maybe not so much the fact that he was going to have a child, but the fact that he had to rape Harry and there was nothing he could do about it, unless to have them both be killed. And that was not an option, but Harry had forgiven him and for that he was grateful, but that didn't stop him from being insecure, about everything.
Living the life he had a child abused by his father and peers so terrible that he had chosen the life of a death eater. Then to force himself to live in isolation, so as not to endanger anyone and to punish himself for all the things he had done as a death eater.
The worst part of all was that all that had changed. He was a husband and soon to be father, no longer living the life of isolation, he had vowed to live all those years ago. Having to relearn how to live with someone else and how maybe to someday and he truly hoped he would be able to, but highly doubted, love someone.
But Severus was a scared man, scared of not being a good enough father, scared of not being a good enough husband, scared of how this would effect all of their lives, scared of his child one day hating him when he is to find out how he was brought into this world, scared of what will happen once the world finds out how this happened, and most of all scared of finding out that maybe, no that likely, he was just incapable of love.
They arrived at Dumbledore's office, not a word spoken the whole way there, but lost in their own thoughts. Severus spoke the password Cotton Candy and they stepped on the rising spiral stairs. Knocking only once, they were told to enter.
"Oh hello boys, come and sit down would you," said Dumbledore, "Tea, lemon drop?"
"No thank you, Albus, you wanted to speak with us?"
"Yes Severus, it's about the rest of Harry's schooling."
"Oh what about Professor?" said Harry.
"Well since you are going to be six months next week, I thought it would be better that you no longer attend classes."
"But professor, I won't be able to graduate if I don't attend classes," interrupted Harry.
"No, no Harry, you misunderstand me, what I meant to say is you will still take classes, you just won't be attending them. I thought it better that you not exert yourself as the castle is extremely large and climbing all those stairs all day, most unnecessary and you could rest during the day, I mean we all know students do not sleep during class."
Odd how that twinkle looked quite bright right now, wonder which class Harry sleeps through.
"Also, potions class you cannot attend as for the fumes are dangerous during your pregnancy. Besides, I'm sure that Professor Snape would be more than happy to tutor you, for the next two months until you graduate. And the library is always at your disposal. So, how does that sound?"
"Sounds excellent, thank you Professor."
"Not a problem, Harry. Now Severus, I wanted to ask you something."
"Yes, Albus?"
"What will you do during the summer? Will you go back to Snape Manor?"
"I hadn't thought about it."
"Now Severus, tell the truth, you hadn't thought about it or you don't want to go back?"
A growl could be heard and a glare seen coming from the onyx eyed man, "A little of both, I suppose."
"Splendid, because I thought it would be night that the first thing you do together as a couple would be to pick out a house."
"Excuse me Albus, but..."
"Now, now Severus, no arguments, use the flow, say Hector and Hector Realty and ask for a Ms. Smithson."
They stood up, Snape still trying to protest, but having no luck as he was pushed into the fireplace by Dumbledore. Once Severus was gone, Dumbledore turned to Harry and said, "He's a good man Harry, he hasn't figured it out yet, but what is in the past, let it stay there. I promise a bright future for the both of you with this baby, it will bring the two of you great joy."
And off went Harry after Severus. "And hopefully, closer together too."
Ok well, I hope you liked it, not too accurate, but I tried!!! R&R!!! And next time, house hunts!!!