Title: Do This Anymore
Author: AbayJ
Genre: Drama/Action/Angst/Dark/Songfic/Shot/Completed
Couple: Mostly Casper (EW! but in the way we Journey fans want to see it) and a hint of Journey (at the end!)
Archive: Just Ask!
Rating: R, for theme and cursing.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the idea, all else belongs to the owners. The song Do This Anymore belongs to Nickleback, you can find it on their CD The Long Road (Gotta check it out, the best CD!)
Summery: Courtney finds out some stuff about Jax, what will happen when she decides to get rid of him
A/N: Okay, I love this song, and I needed to write something for it, so here it is. I don't think it is my best work but I loved it. So you tell me what you think. It is very dark Casper, which to me is a good thing! I hate that big bird plot point almost as much as I hate that whore they call a plot point!
Jax walked into the home that they had shared, his smile wide and his blue eyes shining but she felt her gut tighten. What was she doing here? Why had she been here for three years? Why was she still with this man that had used her repeatedly, with a man that had always wanted her only for her brother? Standing up she walked into the bedroom. Almost hurling at the sight of the bed that was in the center of the room. Covered in the same color of black that was on the walls with the same color cream pillows that was sponge on the walls. It was her dream, or what she had thought to be her dream room, until she found the pills.
Pulling out her suitcase, she began to throw her clothes into the black case, tears filling her eyes. Why she wanted to cry was beyond her understanding, but at this moment every thing was beyond her ability to understand. The pills, the letters, the lies. The other women, the people who were sent to kill her brother, her ex husband. How she was kept from her family? How elaborate his whole scheme, how every thing fitted together now. How stupid she had been! How completely stupid she'd been.
She fell for every one of his lies, every single fucking one!
Finally she let out the tears, they bastard had done this, and this time he was to pay. He had taken 3 damn years away from her. Taken her family away. Had taken her life away. God she had missed out of so much.
So many birthdays.
So many times with the boys.
With Adella.
With Mike.
With Jason.
He had taken the most important people away from her, made her world revolve around him. Soon she wasn't able to stand, sinking down onto the bed, she tried to think how this could have happened. How could she had let this happen? Why had he does this, how had he drugged his wife for three years! Cheated on her! Try to murder her fucking family! How did he get away with all of this? How! It wasn't fair, and he was going to pay for the mess he had made of her life. The mess he had made of their family life. Sighing she leaned over the night stand, opening the drawer, pulling out the cold steel.
Touching the barrel of the pistol, opening it.
It was fully loaded.
Everything was ready.
And this time she was going to take a page out of carlybabes book.
Jax was going to be sorry he had screwed her over.
Left on an eastbound train
Gone first thing this morning
Why is what's best for you
Always the worst thing for me?
When am I gonna learn?
Why 'cause I'm tired of hating
When will it be your turn?
Why 'cause I'm tired of waiting
Grabbing the duck tape, she went into the living room, when she knew he would be sipping his evenin' scotch, in the wide arm chair. An evil smile formed on her face, he was going to pay.
Slowly she walked up behind the chair, her hand had already with a strip of duck tape. Her plan already brewing in her head. "Hey baby." She said in a sultry voice
"Hey princess," he aussie accent, came from the chair but he didn't look up.
Good she didn't want him to, she took the piece of duck tape to his wrist, make it snug--no make that tight around his wrist. He whipped his head around, a little shocked, "You know I read this book on sex and they said bondage can spice up a marriage, so I said why not, I mean our relationship is already hot but not add a little to it?" smiling she came around to his font, tapping the other wrist. Then she began to tape his chest to the chair. After she was sure he wasn't going to break out of the bonds, she stooped down and wrapped some around his ankles. A smile on his face, looking up at him, she gave a smile of her own.
Standing back up, she straddle his knees, reaching down she took another piece of tape off.
"You, mmmmmmmm you know I like this side of you," her grin became ever larger at his words.
No, I don't, I don't, no I don't
No I don't find faith in your false feelings
Not fooled by your misleading
Won't buy this line you're selling
Tired of this lie you're telling
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore
"I just bet you do!" putting the nearly to small piece of tape on his mouth, he eyes turned into a dark blue, showing his passion. Then she reach back and took the gun from the back of her jeans, his eyes now showing his fear. "You know at this distance I am sure I won't miss," her smile was cold as her eyes. But she felt the shake in her hands.......she knew she couldn't do this. No matter how much he deserved it, she could do it, but she knew who could. Getting up she took the tap of his mouth. "I am getting the rope, don't try anything or I won't hesitate."
Running into the back room, she dig for the rope as her free hand dialed the number of her best friend. "Carly?"
"Courtney, why are you calling me, you ended it between us a long time a go," hearing the woman almost hang up she schemed.
"Please don't, I need your help........Jax......Jax had did this, I swear it. He has kept me from my family with these drugs, Jax did this Carly, please I need you," she said on the sob, trying to hold back the tears.
"Courtney........oh my God, your kidding right, please tell me your kidding," Carly's horse whisper came over the line.
She says I'm only tellin half of it
That's probably cause
It's only half worth tellin
Every time I try to laugh it off
That's when we turn around
And wind up yellin
When am I gonna learn?
Why 'cause I'm tired of hating
When will it be your turn?
Why 'cause I'm tired of waiting
"No.......I'm not, I found everything, look I need to go tie the rope around him, please come Carly I need you," hanging up the phone she ran back to the living room, clearing the tears from her eyes, she looked at the man she now despised. But then again she shouldn't, he would be gone soon. Tying the rope tight around him tightly she made sure he couldn't get up.
"Courtney, don't do this! You don't want too," he pleaded with her, his eyes full of fear as she kept her hand on the gun and looked at him.
"You fucking sick ass bastard, don't do this to you! Don't do this to you! How dare you even say that to me! Look all you have done to me, you took my life away, you took my whole family way from me, you made me make you my life. Made my world revolve around you. Made me give up every thing! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU! You are going to pay, you are going to pay for what you have done to me and my family," she heard the door open, and smiled as Carly came into the room.
Carly had never seen her fried like this.
And not sure if she ever wanted to again.
She was scared. Scared of Courtney. Scared of the thoughts that were running through her friend's head.
A cold hollow feeling dropped around Courtney when Carly walked into the room. Blue eyes met hazel.
Carly legs felt like sand bags as she made her way over to the tied up man in the center and the woman whose fist was wrapped around the gun. A scary site but one she was familiar with. It was her not long ago.
No, I don't, I don't, no I don't
No I don't find faith in your false feelings
Not fooled by your misleading
Won't buy this line you're selling
Tired of this lie you're telling
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore
Her hand began to shake as Courtney cast her eyes back to her husbands. Wanting to pull the trigger.
But not wanting to at the same time.
It made her no better then Jason, Sonny, or Ric.
Carly's words made her thought as go away as she saw that her friends was but a breath away from her own.
"Courtney, give me the gun. Sweeties don't do this. Just give me the gun," Carly asked softly as she gripped her friends hands softly.
"He kept me away from my family Carly, he put me on drugs to make me forget. To make me make him the center of my world. I can't and I won't let him get away with that!" Courtney's words were laced with venom and heartache of a woman who had been done wrong by man she thought she could trust.
Feeling her eyes sting with unshed tears she pulled away from Carly's grasp; she once again let his aim fall upon Jax. She refused to cry anymore. Refused to hurt anymore. Refused to play the victim anymore. It was Jax's turn to hurt. Not hers. Pointing the gun at Jax's heart she let an evil grin play on her lips.
Jax's eyes we full of fear and dread. His lips moving up and down with words that just wouldn't come out.
he says I'm only tellin half of it
That's probably cause
It's only half worth tellin
Every time I try to laugh it off
That's when we turn around
And wind up yellin
When am I gonna learn?
Why 'cause I'm tired of waiting
When will it be your turn?
Why 'cause I'm tired of hating
"Courtney what's going on?" he asked, softly touching her face with a soft caress of his calloused thumb. And wiped a tear as it fell from her beautiful heartbroken blue eye.
The gun fell out of her shaking hands and she grabbed Jason. Her life preserver in this crazy thing they called life. Her rock. "Jason. God it has been so long," was the only words that came out of her trembling lips.
"Yeah baby it has," he whispered in to her fragrant hair. Holding onto her tight, he looked at Carly then softly told her to call for Max and Marco.
Nodding Carly went into the hallways, while he let Courtney lay down on the couch. Soon her eyes were drifting close. Saying a whisper that sounded like I love you. Then she finally let sleep over come her trembling body.
Jason turned away from her with a kiss to Courtney's forehead. Then settled his eyes onto Jax. "so what did you have her on?" his voice cold and full of anger that he could barely contain.
"None of your damn business! And I would like you to stop touching my wife!" Jax said with anger in his voice.
"No, Jax that is where you have it all wrong. You are the one that will never touch Courtney again. You will never go near another woman again. Wanna know why?" Jason asked as he pulled out his gun and added a silencer.
Jax's head only bobbed up and down, to scared to form words.
"Because you'll be at the bottom of the river."
A few hours Courtney awoke to a heating pad being applied to her stomach. "What goin on?" she asked, her voice still groggy and dazed.
"Shhh rest, you at my place," Jase gentle words drifted over her and eased her nerves a bit. But still fear washed over her.
"Jax........the pills.......the gun.....the lies," all rushed out of her full pink lips and Jason had the urge to stifle them will a kiss. To take her into his arms and make love to her until all the ugliness disappeared from around their lives.
"It's all over baby, your safe. Don't worry," taking her into his arms, he held her again him. Letting her cry it all out. "it's going to all right, okay?"
She nodded against his shoulder and left her body relax against his. Snuggling deeper into his arms. "It's all over then?" she whispered against his neck.
"Yeah baby it's all over," lifting her chin up, he let his lips settle over hers. His tongue teasing and tasting. His hands trailing the length of her back. Up and down. Soothing all the tense muscles as his lips kissed her openly. Trying to give her strength.
She pulled away and cupped his jaw in her silk like palm. "I love you Jason."
"I love you too Courtney."
No, I don't, I don't, no I don't
No I don't find faith in your false feelings
Not fooled by your misleading
Won't buy this line you're selling
Tired of this lie you're telling
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore