Hey again, I wrote this yesterday, but it seemed wrong to post two chapters in a day. I wanted to see how many reviews I'd get anyway. grins Gods I love you guys, reading reviews makes my day. Even if you all do think I'm mean for making Hiei go off the deep end... I LIKE angst...
Hiei – Hn. Baka onna.
rolls eyes Not worth it. Anyway, time to appreciate you guys so you don't leave!!
Chrisoriented – So I'm a meanie and I rock. That's odd... laughs Here's your update, sooner then expected, probably.
Rebekah – Here you go, still love your name.
Bar-Ohki – Don't hurt me!!! hides under the computer table I got a new chapter, will that help??? shivers I'M TO YOUNG TO DIE!!!!
Kira – I hope I don't kill Hiei too... honestly doesn't know exactly how this is going to end That wouldn't be good, would it? Then Kurama would be sad... Not to mention everyone reading this would kill me...
Crazy Clown – Tell me about it... He has this whole 'I'm-a-forbidden-child- so-no-one-can-love-me-thing' going on. Kurama can fix that. nods The question is, will he?
Zan Artemis – Don't let your family kill you. I don't feel like losing my twin anytime soon. grins Kurama's possessive, no? Watch your back, Sis; he just might take you out if he knew you were starting to like his boyfriend. Do you really think he likes me any better??!
SW – dances I love compliments!!! And finally, someone agrees that Kurama sounds OOC in the second chapter besides me and Zan!! Or, at least, someone else mentioned it... Here you go, new chapter.
AnimeShadow – This soon enough? Don't expect the next one this quick, I seem to have reports I'm supposed to be writing at the moment, might take a week.
Spazishness – Thankies!! And I like your name too!! If I didn't like mine so much I'd change it...
Ok, warnings and disclaimer. I don't own anything but the plot. I still think saying that's stupid because this is fanfiction, but whatever. If it keeps my stories on, then I'll do it. This is yaoi. If at this point you've still failed to realize this, you're stupider then Kuwabara. That's saying something. There are suicidal thoughts in this chapter, like the last. If you don't like any of this, I can't say I care. I'm also in a sarcastic mood, so please be forgiving and ignore my cruel comments. I hope you like this!! Chapter 4...
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Finally finished...It took hours to reconstruct my mask. Far longer then it should have, though I expected the delay. Every time I had it almost finished I thought of Him and it crumpled again... I can not let this happen anymore. This will be fixed, the only way it can...
I stare out across the mountain range. This is one of the highest peaks. Its sunset now and the valleys are beautiful with the night mist creeping in and the leaves on the trees glowing the brilliant red of the setting sun. There is a river running through a ravine in the center. It looks so dark, deadly, yet welcoming in its way. It promises many things.
It's not time yet. Later, settle your affairs first.
I sigh and finish watching the sunset. I haven't dome anything like this in a long time. I've been too busy trying to protect people who don't give a damn what I do. That changes now. I'll do what I please, even if it isn't what I'd have chosen before. As far as I'm concerned, there is no other way. Well, not without...
Stop it! That can't happen and you know it! You've decided; don't turn back on your word now. You've never broken a promise, now is not the time to start.
I obey the little voice in the back of my head and just stare out over the valley, watching the sky fade from red to an orange to a deep violet and fade into an amazing midnight blue. The colors themselves could have meanings, sent to the people on this earth by the gods. The red could be many things, to be interpreted by the viewer; love, blood, death, joy, courage, longing, wrath, romance. It all depends on your point of view. Orange can mean deceit, desire, or aggression. If you think about it, all these things go together. Violet can be royalty, gloom, and romance. Amazing really all the things colors are associated with. Makes you wonder where their meanings were originally defined. The blue... It could be healing, understanding, power, seriousness. Usually I like blue the best, it being the darkest of the colors present, but today it doesn't suit me at all. If I didn't know the gods of this realm personally, I would be tempted to believe the messages I've seen today... It's so clear to me right now... If only it were true...
Don't be ridiculous. When have you ever believed in fortune telling? The colors in a sunset are just that; colors. They aren't messages from anyone. You are deluding yourself.
I sigh silently and turn away from the valley. I'm reading into everything deeply right now. It's hopeless and I know, but my subconscious is trying to make me doubt my decision. It's final, already! I said I was going to, so I will. I only have one thing to take care of, and then it will be time.
I nod and flit towards the temple, stopping briefly at the lake to check my reflection. I look like always do, on my face nothing but a blank stare and eyes that hold more expression then I want to think about. I can see my decision in my stare. I just have to hope no one looks too closely. Oh well, avoiding people has always been one of my specialties.
I run the rest of the way towards the temple. Granted, the detective didn't tell me the location, but it's obvious. Where else would he host such a thing? He can be terribly predictable. I stop outside a window and peer inside. Just as I thought, they're all there.
Wait!! "Everyone will be there!" No... He can't be. I can't face him. I can't. My mask will break. I can't let that happen. I have to leave.
"Hey, shrimp! You came! Urameshi said you weren't coming! Don't worry, Kurama'll be here later. He said he's coming around 9; he had to help his mom with something." It's the Baka. Strange, but he's put my worries to rest as well as being, for once, just the ningen I wanted to see. I feel myself relax drastically and jump in the window. He looks surprised. That's not a wonder; I usually refuse to pass through any small space with him in the vicinity.
"Hn. I'm not staying; I came to ask a favor of you." I look into his eyes and repress a long standing habit to glare. I have to keep my expression blank. Any emotion could give me away. No one must know.
The Baka is visibly taken aback. If this wasn't a matter of utmost importance I would be enjoying this greatly. "Wh-what do you want to ask me?! I thought you hated me!!" Great, he's scared. Perfect, this will show him how important it is for him to obey.
"I do, however I think that you are the only person who will take what I'm going to ask seriously and be willing to comply." I stare at him and watch as he steps back. I'm scaring him. It almost makes everything stop hurting. Almost.
"Uh... Are you feeling ok? If you hate me, why do you want me to do you a favor?" He just doesn't get it, does he?
"Just because I hate you doesn't mean I don't believe you have your uses. Now are you going to listen or not?" I'm sick of his stupidity. I need to finish this quickly. It's 8:50, and the Fox is never late. I might stick around in the shadows to see him once more, but he mustn't see me. Never again. I don't think I could possibly do anything but freeze and break down completely if I were to see the look of contempt I've surly earned.
"S-sorry! I just think it's really weird that you aren't asking Urameshi or Kurama to help. Uh... what do you want me to go?" There's a sharp knife in my chest right now that twists whenever his name is mentioned or any memory of him crosses my mind. I can see the detective as worry flashes across his features and he begins to cross the room heading in our direction. I must finish this now.
"I want you to look after Yukina. I'm leaving and I don't want anything to happen to her. If you allow her to be injured in any way, I will slit your throat and remove your vocal chords. Understood?" I stare blankly, but feel the fierceness in my eyes. I'm not lying, but that's only the beginning of what I'd do.
"Sure, I'll protect her! You can count on me!!" He completely missed my threat. I suppose you can't win them all...
"Hn." I nod and flit through the window just as the Detective is about to reach my previous location. I want to stay for a little while, hidden in the trees with my ki masked. I want to see him, one last time...
This is foolish.
Then I'll be a fool this time. I want to see him. I perch myself on a branch near a different window then the one I entered by. I wait for what feels like hours, my eyes lazily scanning the party. The detective looks like he's trying to gather a force to go after me. That's just like him, to figure out my plans before I can pull them off. He won't start anything until He gets here though. I know it; he's not foolish enough to do other wise.
He's coming!!
I can feel him approaching the temple door. In moments he will enter the room. I will see him again. Once more.
The door opens and everyone turns around and waves. Kurama, for once I think his name, walks calmly it the room with a smile upon his face. I feel my heart throb and finish breaking at last. He is the most beautiful creature I have ever set eyes upon, and I stole a kiss. I didn't mean to, but the fact is still there. I could kill myself for taking anything from him.
Wait, I am, aren't I?
His hair falls casually across his face and he brushes it away; his eyes shining. I wish he were ever that happy to see me. I feel hot tears pour from my eyes and fall to the ground, scorching my skin as they run. I turn to run from this place. I can't stay anymore, if gotten my last wish and taken care of my affairs. It's time to go. I've wasted enough time here. I leave the tear gems where they fell and flit away from the window. Chances are he'll find them. They rest in his rose garden.
Good bye, Kurama.
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sniffs Writing this actually made me cry...
Hiei – Hn. Pathetic. If I hadn't already known you were a weakling to begin with I'd say you were getting soft.
Shut up!! sniffs again Anyway, that's it for now. I'm thinking about doing two endings... If you don't know the possible outcomes, then I don't know what to think. If anyone supports the idea, tell me. I've wanted to see if I could write a death fic for a while now and this seems to have given me the opportunity.
Hiei - shakes head Baka... walks away
I think he's more OOC here then in the story... That's sad. Anyway, that's it. See ya later!!