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Chapter 5 – Aftermath
As the morning light broke through the windows, illuminating Rebekah and Remus, he stirred. He raised his head from Rebekah's chest as it steadily rose and fell with each sleeping breath she took. He looked upon her naked body bathed in sunlight and smiled to himself with a look of loving adoration. He searched through the trail of clothing that led to the sofa finding his pants and throwing them on before covering the sleeping Rebekah with his cloak.
He had made his way into the kitchen and began to make a pot of tea. As he poured the steaming water into his cup he jumped spilling some of it on the counter-top as two slender arms wrapped around him from behind. "Calm down. It's only me." her sweet voice came from behind him. She kissed the back of his neck before releasing him and walking over to the table and taking a seat. "Will you make me a cup too?" She said as she rested her head in her hand smiling at him.
It was not a smile that he had seen before. This smile was new; it was a smile he could not place. He fumbled slightly to find the words to answer her question before giving up and nodding his head. He prepared the tea and took a seat next to her. She was wearing his shirt which he found seeing her in was oddly satisfying. He brought his hand up to the side of her face as she sipped her tea lightly touching her cheek as he brushed her short blonde hair out of her face. She inhaled deeply at his touch and put her cup down. "Remus...you have to go soon."
Her words didn't seem to register right away. He brought his hand back sharply when he realized what she had said. "What do you mean?" his expression of pain burnt down deep into the core of Rebekah. She returned his expression with one of an almost melancholy nature.
"Remus, do you know how lucky we have been already? I can't have Jonathan coming home and finding us like this." her words pained her almost as much as they pained him. "I do love you Remus. I love you with all my heart if you can believe it, but I can not just walk away from my marriage. At least not yet." tears began to well up in her eyes as she spoke. "I just... I don't want to loose you, but this is the worst time for this to happen. I mean with everything that happened in the past few days... I ...I can't leave Jonathan right now."
"Why not." Remus said through clenched teeth. His face was now filled with a mix of rage and pain.
"I just can't." she said the words so softly he almost didn't hear her. "I will though. I promise you that after everything with Voldemort and James and Siri-..." her voice trailed off as she realized what she was saying. She let out a soft sob as she saw the pain and anger in Remus' face mix with grief. "Oh Remus I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." She rose out of her chair and knelt on the floor at his feet. "Please forgive me. I do love you, I really do. Remus, please look at me. Please don't be angry with me. Remus, please."
He raised his hand to cut her off. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I even came here. It was stupid of me to come here and expect after what just happened that you would just run away with me, and leave your husband behind in a cloud of dust. You wont leave him. I wont allow you to leave him." He rose out of his chair trying not to look her in the eye, and walked into the other room gathering his clothing that still lie on the floor she followed him stopping in the door way. "I need my shirt back." His voice quivered as he tried not to let his emotions take him over.
She walked over to him, her face full of tears. "Don't Remus. Don't leave like this. I do love you I want to be with you, but I can't right now." She removed his shirt as she spoke picking up her loose clothing and dressing as she did. "Just please don't leave like this."
"How would you like me to leave?" his voice was full of disdain as he buttoned his shirt. "Make up your damn mind will you! Remus, I love you, but I can't leave my husband! Remus, you have to leave! Remus, don't leave! What the hell do you want me to do?!?!" he screamed at her. "What was last night to you? What did it mean to you? Did it really mean as much as you said it did or did you just fuck me because you felt bad for me. 'Oh, poor little Remus lost all his friends. I guess I'll have sex with him to make him feel better.'" She was taken aback by this behavior that most definitely did not fit Remus' personality.
"Is that what you really think? Do you honestly believe I would do that? Remus, I don't want you to leave at all. I wish you could stay. I wish I could go with you. I wish I could listen to my heart but I can't. Believe me if I could I would be out that door in a second." She walked towards him as he closed his eyes in hurt and anger. "I love you, and I don't want you leaving with out believing me. I don't want you leaving here without loving me back. I don't think I could live with out knowing that." she spoke softly lifting her gentle hand to the side of his face. "Don't let me live with out knowing that you love me the same as I love you. Don't condemn me to that."
Remus let out an exhausted sigh and placed his hand over hers. "I do love you Rebekah. I don't think I could ever not love you. My love for you is like oxygen; I've had it for so long I doubt I could survive with out it." He leaned in and kissed her. This kiss was not full of passion and it was not full of love. This kiss was full of angst. He pulled away from her as she wrapped her arms around his neck. "Now you know that I do love you and now I must go." Her eyes were still filled with tears as he walked to the sofa to gather his cloak. And as he stood there looking at her the door opened.
Jonathan walked in through the doorway stopping with surprise as he spotted Remus standing by the sofa. His eyes went to Rebekah. It was apparent that she had been crying. "What's going on? What's wrong?" he asked his eyes darting back and forth between Remus and Rebekah.
"Oh, darling Remus just told me about a few of our friends from school. The most dreadful things have happened. Voldemort killed two of them and one of his followers was our friend, Sirius Black. He came to our wedding and now he has killed twelve Muggles and one of our other friends and they...they... are going to throw him in Azkaban." She spoke quickly and started sobbing almost too dramatically.
Remus' eyes grew wide and he held his breath searching Jonathan's face to see if he would believe Rebekah. "Oh, Bekah, I didn't know you knew those people." Jonathan rushed to her side to comfort her. "That is absolutely awful news. Remus was it?" Remus nodded in agreement. "I am sorry to hear of your loss and Bekah's loss but I think it would be best if you left now. I have been working all night because of this whole Voldemort thing and I am exhausted. I will tend to Bekah. I thank you for delivering this news in person, but I think we should be alone now."
"Yes I understand completely Mr. Anders. Good bye Rebekah, and good bye to you also." He nodded to Jonathan and then headed out the door.
Later that evening when he had returned to his home, he stared blankly at nothing, he was unable to bring himself to do anything. He was sitting in his favourite chair when an owl arrived with a letter. The owl flew off as he read the all too familiar handwriting on the envelope. Tearing it open he read hoping to find solace in the words that were scratched onto the parchment.
My dearest Remus,
I feel I can not write these words without feeling guilt towards Jonathan. I need to see you again. Jonathan will be gone all day tomorrow. I want to see you then. I will be most heartbroken if you do not come. I love you more than I can say in a letter or even in spoken words.
Do not reply to this. I fear if Jonathan were to read your reply he would be enraged with jealousy. You already fill him with jealousy just because I write to you so much; Even if you don't write back. Just please come over around noon. I will be anxiously awaiting your arrival.
Eternally yours,
Rebekah
He put the letter down next to him and sighed. His sigh was half filled with frustration and half filled with relief. She wanted; no she NEEDED to see him again, and he needed to see her.
A/N so there you have chapter 5. Chapter 6 will be up promptly, and keep the reviews coming.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Harry Potter Characters.
Warning: this chapter contains strong language form an unlikely source.
Chapter 5 – Aftermath
As the morning light broke through the windows, illuminating Rebekah and Remus, he stirred. He raised his head from Rebekah's chest as it steadily rose and fell with each sleeping breath she took. He looked upon her naked body bathed in sunlight and smiled to himself with a look of loving adoration. He searched through the trail of clothing that led to the sofa finding his pants and throwing them on before covering the sleeping Rebekah with his cloak.
He had made his way into the kitchen and began to make a pot of tea. As he poured the steaming water into his cup he jumped spilling some of it on the counter-top as two slender arms wrapped around him from behind. "Calm down. It's only me." her sweet voice came from behind him. She kissed the back of his neck before releasing him and walking over to the table and taking a seat. "Will you make me a cup too?" She said as she rested her head in her hand smiling at him.
It was not a smile that he had seen before. This smile was new; it was a smile he could not place. He fumbled slightly to find the words to answer her question before giving up and nodding his head. He prepared the tea and took a seat next to her. She was wearing his shirt which he found seeing her in was oddly satisfying. He brought his hand up to the side of her face as she sipped her tea lightly touching her cheek as he brushed her short blonde hair out of her face. She inhaled deeply at his touch and put her cup down. "Remus...you have to go soon."
Her words didn't seem to register right away. He brought his hand back sharply when he realized what she had said. "What do you mean?" his expression of pain burnt down deep into the core of Rebekah. She returned his expression with one of an almost melancholy nature.
"Remus, do you know how lucky we have been already? I can't have Jonathan coming home and finding us like this." her words pained her almost as much as they pained him. "I do love you Remus. I love you with all my heart if you can believe it, but I can not just walk away from my marriage. At least not yet." tears began to well up in her eyes as she spoke. "I just... I don't want to loose you, but this is the worst time for this to happen. I mean with everything that happened in the past few days... I ...I can't leave Jonathan right now."
"Why not." Remus said through clenched teeth. His face was now filled with a mix of rage and pain.
"I just can't." she said the words so softly he almost didn't hear her. "I will though. I promise you that after everything with Voldemort and James and Siri-..." her voice trailed off as she realized what she was saying. She let out a soft sob as she saw the pain and anger in Remus' face mix with grief. "Oh Remus I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." She rose out of her chair and knelt on the floor at his feet. "Please forgive me. I do love you, I really do. Remus, please look at me. Please don't be angry with me. Remus, please."
He raised his hand to cut her off. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I even came here. It was stupid of me to come here and expect after what just happened that you would just run away with me, and leave your husband behind in a cloud of dust. You wont leave him. I wont allow you to leave him." He rose out of his chair trying not to look her in the eye, and walked into the other room gathering his clothing that still lie on the floor she followed him stopping in the door way. "I need my shirt back." His voice quivered as he tried not to let his emotions take him over.
She walked over to him, her face full of tears. "Don't Remus. Don't leave like this. I do love you I want to be with you, but I can't right now." She removed his shirt as she spoke picking up her loose clothing and dressing as she did. "Just please don't leave like this."
"How would you like me to leave?" his voice was full of disdain as he buttoned his shirt. "Make up your damn mind will you! Remus, I love you, but I can't leave my husband! Remus, you have to leave! Remus, don't leave! What the hell do you want me to do?!?!" he screamed at her. "What was last night to you? What did it mean to you? Did it really mean as much as you said it did or did you just fuck me because you felt bad for me. 'Oh, poor little Remus lost all his friends. I guess I'll have sex with him to make him feel better.'" She was taken aback by this behavior that most definitely did not fit Remus' personality.
"Is that what you really think? Do you honestly believe I would do that? Remus, I don't want you to leave at all. I wish you could stay. I wish I could go with you. I wish I could listen to my heart but I can't. Believe me if I could I would be out that door in a second." She walked towards him as he closed his eyes in hurt and anger. "I love you, and I don't want you leaving with out believing me. I don't want you leaving here without loving me back. I don't think I could live with out knowing that." she spoke softly lifting her gentle hand to the side of his face. "Don't let me live with out knowing that you love me the same as I love you. Don't condemn me to that."
Remus let out an exhausted sigh and placed his hand over hers. "I do love you Rebekah. I don't think I could ever not love you. My love for you is like oxygen; I've had it for so long I doubt I could survive with out it." He leaned in and kissed her. This kiss was not full of passion and it was not full of love. This kiss was full of angst. He pulled away from her as she wrapped her arms around his neck. "Now you know that I do love you and now I must go." Her eyes were still filled with tears as he walked to the sofa to gather his cloak. And as he stood there looking at her the door opened.
Jonathan walked in through the doorway stopping with surprise as he spotted Remus standing by the sofa. His eyes went to Rebekah. It was apparent that she had been crying. "What's going on? What's wrong?" he asked his eyes darting back and forth between Remus and Rebekah.
"Oh, darling Remus just told me about a few of our friends from school. The most dreadful things have happened. Voldemort killed two of them and one of his followers was our friend, Sirius Black. He came to our wedding and now he has killed twelve Muggles and one of our other friends and they...they... are going to throw him in Azkaban." She spoke quickly and started sobbing almost too dramatically.
Remus' eyes grew wide and he held his breath searching Jonathan's face to see if he would believe Rebekah. "Oh, Bekah, I didn't know you knew those people." Jonathan rushed to her side to comfort her. "That is absolutely awful news. Remus was it?" Remus nodded in agreement. "I am sorry to hear of your loss and Bekah's loss but I think it would be best if you left now. I have been working all night because of this whole Voldemort thing and I am exhausted. I will tend to Bekah. I thank you for delivering this news in person, but I think we should be alone now."
"Yes I understand completely Mr. Anders. Good bye Rebekah, and good bye to you also." He nodded to Jonathan and then headed out the door.
Later that evening when he had returned to his home, he stared blankly at nothing, he was unable to bring himself to do anything. He was sitting in his favourite chair when an owl arrived with a letter. The owl flew off as he read the all too familiar handwriting on the envelope. Tearing it open he read hoping to find solace in the words that were scratched onto the parchment.
My dearest Remus,
I feel I can not write these words without feeling guilt towards Jonathan. I need to see you again. Jonathan will be gone all day tomorrow. I want to see you then. I will be most heartbroken if you do not come. I love you more than I can say in a letter or even in spoken words.
Do not reply to this. I fear if Jonathan were to read your reply he would be enraged with jealousy. You already fill him with jealousy just because I write to you so much; Even if you don't write back. Just please come over around noon. I will be anxiously awaiting your arrival.
Eternally yours,
Rebekah
He put the letter down next to him and sighed. His sigh was half filled with frustration and half filled with relief. She wanted; no she NEEDED to see him again, and he needed to see her.
A/N so there you have chapter 5. Chapter 6 will be up promptly, and keep the reviews coming.