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Chapter 6 – The Noon Meeting.
Remus finished dressing with nervous anticipation. It was about five minutes till noon. He was filled with an odd sort of fear. He feared that on this visit things could change. 'What if she tells me she can't leave at all? What if she tells me she can never see me again? What would I do then?' he thought to himself as he paced around his room stopping to glance in the mirror and straighten his tie. "Well, what ever is going to happen I better get it over with." he said out loud as he apperated to Rebekah's front door.
He knocked softly and waited as he heard footsteps approaching the door. He was quickly pulled inside and was not greeted by words but instead by Rebekah's soft lips against his. He was filled with surprise as he found himself placing his hands on her hips. Her arms around his neck held him so tightly; it felt as if she was trying to keep him there. He pulled her closer to him moving his arms around her waist. Their kiss seemed to last forever, but Remus thought it was entirely too short. He wished he could hold her and kiss her for an eternity.
"Remus I'm so glad you showed up. It seemed like noon took forever to come." Her arms were still around his neck and refused to let go. He reached back and pulled her arms from his neck and stepped back a few steps.
"Why did you ask me to come here? Why did you need to see me?" he spoke in a solemn tone not really wanting to hear her response.
"I wanted you to come here because I needed to see you again. I wanted to be with you again. I wanted to touch you again, and kiss you again. I fear it will be hard to go a day without any of that." She walked toward him again placed her hand in his. He couldn't help himself from leaning in to kiss her again. Her presence made it hard for him to control his actions.
It took all the strength he had to pull away from her. "Rebekah, what are we doing? You can't honestly tell me you want to continue like this, can you?"
"I do want to continue. I wouldn't choose to continue like this, but if that is the only way I can have you I will do what I have to." she said as she took another step towards him, he backed away from her only to be stopped by the wall. Her blue eyes bore into him as he looked into them. Her eyes were filled with brazen passion and need. "Remus, why must we torture ourselves by trying to suppress what we feel for each other? Why can't we act upon it as long as no one knows? Then when the time comes I will leave with you."
"We can't do any of that because it is not right." his words were half hearted. All he wanted to do was take her in his arms and do what she wanted. He wanted to hug her, hold her, kiss her, and most of all make love to her, but he knew that he couldn't allow himself to. "I can't let what happened the other night happen again it isn't fair to any of us, especially your husband."
"I don't care about Jonathan. I could care less about him. He won't let me do anything I want. I just want to teach or at least work and he makes me stay home all day and do nothing. He says my place is to be at home puttering about, while he goes out and works and gets things done. I loath him." she had stepped away from Remus turning her face so he could not she the anger in her eyes.
"Then why don't you leave him? If you hate him so much then leave him."
"It's not that simple Remus. I stay with him because of my mother. She loves him so much, and she's not well. I fear that if I left Jonathan that the pain and shock might kill her, and then I would hate myself for having killed my mother. I don't want that burden over my head." Her shoulders began to quake as she silently sobbed.
Remus moved to her and put his arms around her pulling her to him. She sobbed into his chest as he comforted her. "You wont kill you mother. Nothing will happen to her because you will not leave Jonathan while she lives." She lifted her head looking into his eyes with more sadness then he had seen in a single pair of eyes in his entire life.
"But I have to leave him. I have to if I want to be with you. I could hardly last a day without seeing you let alone wait till..." she began to trail off, but Remus already knew what her next words were. "... till my mother..." he kissed her to silence. It was a short kiss and he broke it leaving his lips just barely touching hers. He stared into her eyes as her body trembled in his arms. He could no longer hold himself back. His lips connected fully with hers once again. He could no longer bring himself to be gentle with her. She was his biggest need, he did not need to eat or breathe as much as he needed to be with her.
She had found his new demeanor a welcome change, as she kissed him with as much vigor as he kissed her. He lifted her off the ground and she wrapped her legs around his waist. He broke their kiss briefly only to breathlessly ask "Bedroom?"
"Down the hall the third door on the left." she moaned the answer as he kissed the nape of her neck. After very clumsily making their way to the bedroom they fell upon the bed with Remus landing on top of Rebekah. They tore at each others clothing till they were both naked. He ended up back on top of her kissing every inch of her body in a crazed passion. She moaned as he explored her body with his kiss.
He did not savor her this time trusting himself inside of her as she let out a groan. They rolled around on the bed as they made love. This time everything happened in frenzy and before long the pleasure of the ordeal caught up with Rebekah as her body stiffened and she gasped sharply inward. The sound of her climax sent Remus into his own and he collapsed next to her in the bed. "I guess we could try and make this work."
They continued to see each other in secret almost every day, except the ones on the full moon, for two months. Remus would arrive at her home after he was sure Jonathan had left for work and they would make love and spend the rest of the time talking. After they had made love one afternoon Remus lifted him self off of Rebekah sitting up in the bed placing his head in his hands.
Rebekah arose wrapping the sheet around her as she moved in the bed to join him. "What's wrong?" she placed her hand on his shoulder trying to figure out what he was thinking.
"I love you so much and I don't know if I can do this anymore. I hate myself because I know that you will be sleeping in this bed tonight with another man and there is nothing that I can do about that. I don't want this to be our relationship. I don't come here with the intention of making love to you. I come here every day thinking 'today I will tell her no. Today will be the day I put an end to this affair', but when I'm around you it's as if I can't stop myself. I would give anything to be with you, but I'm not so sure I can if it is like this." He was now looking her in the eyes and he saw the gravity of his words was over her and her face change with reaction.
"Why isn't making love to me enough for you? Why can't it be like this for as long as it has to? I love you. Isn't that enough?" her face was contorted with confusion and worry as she held back tears from him for the first time.
"Your love would be enough in different circumstances. I don't want this. I don't want things to be like this. It isn't fair to you. I'm making you into a whore and I don't want to do that to you." he said as he placed a hand on her cheek trying to calm her.
"But I don't care if I'm a whore. I don't care as long as it's for you." She moved closer to him trying to kiss him. He pushed her away in a swift movement.
"I better go before I can't help myself any longer." she threw herself back on the bed and began crying into a pillow. Remus began dressing closing his eyes and biting his lip as her cries tore into him. "I'm sorry Rebekah, but I love you to much to continue this." he could not bring himself to look at her and he finished dressing and left.
A/N: That's it for chapter 6 keep reviewing and reading and chapter 7 will be finished soon.
Chapter 6 – The Noon Meeting.
Remus finished dressing with nervous anticipation. It was about five minutes till noon. He was filled with an odd sort of fear. He feared that on this visit things could change. 'What if she tells me she can't leave at all? What if she tells me she can never see me again? What would I do then?' he thought to himself as he paced around his room stopping to glance in the mirror and straighten his tie. "Well, what ever is going to happen I better get it over with." he said out loud as he apperated to Rebekah's front door.
He knocked softly and waited as he heard footsteps approaching the door. He was quickly pulled inside and was not greeted by words but instead by Rebekah's soft lips against his. He was filled with surprise as he found himself placing his hands on her hips. Her arms around his neck held him so tightly; it felt as if she was trying to keep him there. He pulled her closer to him moving his arms around her waist. Their kiss seemed to last forever, but Remus thought it was entirely too short. He wished he could hold her and kiss her for an eternity.
"Remus I'm so glad you showed up. It seemed like noon took forever to come." Her arms were still around his neck and refused to let go. He reached back and pulled her arms from his neck and stepped back a few steps.
"Why did you ask me to come here? Why did you need to see me?" he spoke in a solemn tone not really wanting to hear her response.
"I wanted you to come here because I needed to see you again. I wanted to be with you again. I wanted to touch you again, and kiss you again. I fear it will be hard to go a day without any of that." She walked toward him again placed her hand in his. He couldn't help himself from leaning in to kiss her again. Her presence made it hard for him to control his actions.
It took all the strength he had to pull away from her. "Rebekah, what are we doing? You can't honestly tell me you want to continue like this, can you?"
"I do want to continue. I wouldn't choose to continue like this, but if that is the only way I can have you I will do what I have to." she said as she took another step towards him, he backed away from her only to be stopped by the wall. Her blue eyes bore into him as he looked into them. Her eyes were filled with brazen passion and need. "Remus, why must we torture ourselves by trying to suppress what we feel for each other? Why can't we act upon it as long as no one knows? Then when the time comes I will leave with you."
"We can't do any of that because it is not right." his words were half hearted. All he wanted to do was take her in his arms and do what she wanted. He wanted to hug her, hold her, kiss her, and most of all make love to her, but he knew that he couldn't allow himself to. "I can't let what happened the other night happen again it isn't fair to any of us, especially your husband."
"I don't care about Jonathan. I could care less about him. He won't let me do anything I want. I just want to teach or at least work and he makes me stay home all day and do nothing. He says my place is to be at home puttering about, while he goes out and works and gets things done. I loath him." she had stepped away from Remus turning her face so he could not she the anger in her eyes.
"Then why don't you leave him? If you hate him so much then leave him."
"It's not that simple Remus. I stay with him because of my mother. She loves him so much, and she's not well. I fear that if I left Jonathan that the pain and shock might kill her, and then I would hate myself for having killed my mother. I don't want that burden over my head." Her shoulders began to quake as she silently sobbed.
Remus moved to her and put his arms around her pulling her to him. She sobbed into his chest as he comforted her. "You wont kill you mother. Nothing will happen to her because you will not leave Jonathan while she lives." She lifted her head looking into his eyes with more sadness then he had seen in a single pair of eyes in his entire life.
"But I have to leave him. I have to if I want to be with you. I could hardly last a day without seeing you let alone wait till..." she began to trail off, but Remus already knew what her next words were. "... till my mother..." he kissed her to silence. It was a short kiss and he broke it leaving his lips just barely touching hers. He stared into her eyes as her body trembled in his arms. He could no longer hold himself back. His lips connected fully with hers once again. He could no longer bring himself to be gentle with her. She was his biggest need, he did not need to eat or breathe as much as he needed to be with her.
She had found his new demeanor a welcome change, as she kissed him with as much vigor as he kissed her. He lifted her off the ground and she wrapped her legs around his waist. He broke their kiss briefly only to breathlessly ask "Bedroom?"
"Down the hall the third door on the left." she moaned the answer as he kissed the nape of her neck. After very clumsily making their way to the bedroom they fell upon the bed with Remus landing on top of Rebekah. They tore at each others clothing till they were both naked. He ended up back on top of her kissing every inch of her body in a crazed passion. She moaned as he explored her body with his kiss.
He did not savor her this time trusting himself inside of her as she let out a groan. They rolled around on the bed as they made love. This time everything happened in frenzy and before long the pleasure of the ordeal caught up with Rebekah as her body stiffened and she gasped sharply inward. The sound of her climax sent Remus into his own and he collapsed next to her in the bed. "I guess we could try and make this work."
They continued to see each other in secret almost every day, except the ones on the full moon, for two months. Remus would arrive at her home after he was sure Jonathan had left for work and they would make love and spend the rest of the time talking. After they had made love one afternoon Remus lifted him self off of Rebekah sitting up in the bed placing his head in his hands.
Rebekah arose wrapping the sheet around her as she moved in the bed to join him. "What's wrong?" she placed her hand on his shoulder trying to figure out what he was thinking.
"I love you so much and I don't know if I can do this anymore. I hate myself because I know that you will be sleeping in this bed tonight with another man and there is nothing that I can do about that. I don't want this to be our relationship. I don't come here with the intention of making love to you. I come here every day thinking 'today I will tell her no. Today will be the day I put an end to this affair', but when I'm around you it's as if I can't stop myself. I would give anything to be with you, but I'm not so sure I can if it is like this." He was now looking her in the eyes and he saw the gravity of his words was over her and her face change with reaction.
"Why isn't making love to me enough for you? Why can't it be like this for as long as it has to? I love you. Isn't that enough?" her face was contorted with confusion and worry as she held back tears from him for the first time.
"Your love would be enough in different circumstances. I don't want this. I don't want things to be like this. It isn't fair to you. I'm making you into a whore and I don't want to do that to you." he said as he placed a hand on her cheek trying to calm her.
"But I don't care if I'm a whore. I don't care as long as it's for you." She moved closer to him trying to kiss him. He pushed her away in a swift movement.
"I better go before I can't help myself any longer." she threw herself back on the bed and began crying into a pillow. Remus began dressing closing his eyes and biting his lip as her cries tore into him. "I'm sorry Rebekah, but I love you to much to continue this." he could not bring himself to look at her and he finished dressing and left.
A/N: That's it for chapter 6 keep reviewing and reading and chapter 7 will be finished soon.