seriously if anyone here likes Johnny Depp and the movie 'Benny & Joon' check out Ed Wood's splendiferous little fic! It's great reading [see my fav. Stories list]…J
Also thanks to the tip about the mistake in chap. 9. Just goes to show how sucky my proof reading is and how absent minded I can be. Thanks for pointing it out – it should be fixed now. Hopefully there won't be any other such mistakes. If so, don't be scared to point them out. Thanks heaps for the positive feedback – keep it coming guys!
Now… on with the story…
CHAPTER 11: From bad to worseThe second I got out of that office I ran back to the common room, tears pouring out of my arms. I got to my dorm and ran into the bathroom. Thank god that everyone was in the Great Hall eating dinner.
I looked at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. I looked like a mess. I still had my muddy Quidditch robes on and my hair was messed up. My make up had run because of my tears and I just looked terrible. I ripped my robes off and jumped in the shower. I felt disgusting. Violated to say the least. The hot water ran over my body but I couldn't get the hideous sensation of his large hands out of my mind. I shivered even though the water was near boiling. Had I done the right thing? Yes, I must have. I couldn't let both of us fail. I felt tears again. I turned off the water, pulled my pyjamas on and headed to bed. I got under the covers and fell asleep.
I woke up at one point and saw that Katie and Alicia were asleep in their beds. I looked at my watch - 3 o'clock. I sat up and suddenly felt very sick. I ran to the bathroom and threw up. I didn't feel any better after wards. I crawled back to bed and before I could stop them the tears were falling again. I finally fell asleep again sobbing.
I was woken again, this time it was Katie. She was sitting on my bed shaking me gently. My night had been filled with disturbing dreams and I felt wretched.
"Wake up sweetie," Katie said softly. "You've got about an hour before class."
"Where were you last night anyway?" Alicia called from the bathroom. Before I could say anything Katie answered her.
"Ange had detention remember."
"Oh yeah," Katie said emerging. She looked over. "How did it go?"
I managed to say something. "Fine." I got up and struggled into my uniform.
"Are you OK?" Katie said concerned.
"Yeah yeah, I'm just fine," I lied. I didn't feel like discussing the nights events with them right now.
"OK then," she said, not quite convinced. "You know we're here for you?"
I nodded and tied my hair up. "I'm going to breakfast," I said.
I left the dorm and the common room and walked down to the Great Hall. When I got there, there were quite a few students there already. I sat by myself at the Gryffindor table. I grabbed a piece of toast but I didn't really feel hungry so I dropped it on my plate. I rested my head in my hands. I felt awful.
"Are you alright Angel?" I looked and saw Wood coming towards me. It hadn't occurred to me until just then when I saw him. I had cheated on him hadn't I? I felt my stomach flip over and my eyes prickling.
"Angie, what's wrong?" He had reached me and sat next to me. He stretched out his hand and put it on my shoulder. Involuntarily I pulled away from him. "Ange?" He looked confused. Again, I started crying.
"I'm sorry Wood," I whispered and got up and ran out of the hall. What had I done?
Thankfully I didn't have Potions that day and I also didn't see Wood for a while. This was good because I wasn't ready to talk to him.
That night however I was staying up pretty late doing homework. I was trying desperately to keep my mind off what had happened. I was sitting alone by the fire in the common room with a Charms book open across my lap. Nobody else was around.
I heard footsteps behind me. I turned and saw Wood coming towards me.
"Do you mind if I sit down?" he asked me.
I shook my head.
"Listen," he said with a sigh, "Have I offended you in anyway, or made you angry?"
"No, no it's nothing like that" I said quickly, finally getting up the courage to speak.
"Then what is it Angie?"
"I…I can't tell you?" I stammered. I knew this was going to be hard but I had never thought it would be like this. Wood looked hurt.
"I want to help you Angie. I care about you."
I couldn't help it. Yes, crying again. I hated being so emotional. Especially around Wood.
"Angel, I'm so confused. Please talk to me," he pleaded. I knew I wouldn't be able to hide it from him so I started telling him the whole story.
"And then he let me leave…." I finished my story and wiped my eyes. I looked up at him.
To my surprise Wood's eyes looked very different to what I had expected. No compassion, just rage. I could see he was struggling to find the right words.
"How could you do that?" he finally managed to say, with a clear tone of anger in his voice.
"How could I do that?" I repeated his question, utterly confused. "Isn't the question how could Snape do that?"
"Well, of course, but you should have stopped him." He said forcefully.
"I was doing it for you," I said desperately holding back tears.
"Right," he said sarcastically, "sure you were." I couldn't believe this.
"Do you think I wanted it to happen?" I asked him forcing him to look at me.
"How would I know?" he replied. Now I was getting angry.
"I did it so you wouldn't fail! I thought you'd be grateful."
"I'm doing fine on my own. I don't need you to help" he replied. Now I could see tears building in his eyes. Why was he acting like this?
"I… I thought that you would understand," I said softly looking down, terribly disappointed.
"Oh I understand," he said getting up. "I understand that I couldn't trust you. I understand that I made a mistake. I understand that you're not as loyal as I thought you were. Now, I hope that you understand that it's over!" And then he left. I was just sitting there.
Why was everything going wrong?
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Well guys, I hope that was OK… let me know what you thought by pressing that little button down there and reviewing… oh and I hope you aren't all angry about Wood's little reaction up there – I mean we all know he's a sweet, caring kinda guy but I had to do it that way for the plot… soz about that hey!!? 'Til next time – love always L.A